Fanfiction: Swallow The Bad Thing
by snakeskin_roses
Faith no!
Why’d you say it B?
and then I couldn’t stop- didn’t stop
wanted to feel it.
Snap! Skin and bone.
Again with the poetry.
Again! Again!
I didn’t know, I didn’t know!
Faith no!
But somehow you knew.
I hate you for knowing b!
Hate you!
Hate.
Little B. Buzz, buzz B.
Go away now,
I want to be a bad, bad girl. Stop telling me the
truth!
Faith you killed a man.
I don’t care!
I don’t give a fuck and I’m not going to cry
No, no, I’m not going to-
but B cried.
Sick thing? I envied her.
I’m not looking to hug and cry and learn and grow!
Faith you killed a man!
It happened so fast.
Justifying, always justifying. Got to stop that
Always not caring
Not my real face you’re seeing B.
You can’t touch me!
Ever.
I’m feeling it too- dirty.
Wrong! I was dirty before. You think you know me?
Is there going to be an intermission in this?
Just run and hide. Just run and kill.
I liked it. Scary blood lust.
And then it’s just me and her and I’m saying
Stick around!
I can almost feel the knife in my gut.
That’s mine.
You’re about to get it back
Stick around b.
My deep gossamer lips kiss her.
Violent, hating.
Hate you.
Faith, I kind of know you.
No. You know nothing!
You’re in my cage!
Mine!
Voice steady, false key.
Lights on or of.
Why doesn’t he want?-
Not here- not like this.
On the bed.
Everything I can see is red.
Turning black.
Turning blacker.
Kinks or vanilla?
Why haven’t you done this before, b?
All kinds of fun to have.
All this stuff you’ve got-
All I wanted was toys.
All this stuff I don’t have.
I’ll steer you around the curves!
Pretty crappy friend b,
Why’d you have to say it?
Faith no!
I don’t like warnings very much.
Better to not know.
You took that from me so I’m taking this.
Taking it all away.
It’ll get you gone-
From.
She’s in denial, Buffy-
you.
I don’t want everything.
Just toys… that, and a dog.
I don’t really want anything
I want nothing.
I want you to have nothing and then lets see who
you are
You’re just me, B.
I bet a part of you even dug it when-
Tow the line faith, don’t step over.
You’re just me. Me and all that pretty pastel
cellophane they wrap you in.
Say it! You think you’re better!
I am better.
Better cuz you said something? Better before
that? Better when?
Faith no!
Fuck you B? Where has ‘better’ got you now?
Nobody’s going to cry over one dead guy.
How do you cry? I don’t remember.
I feel like a firecracker. That’s what he says,
he says,
You little firecracker!
Please help me, I’m scared.
No I’m not.
I could make you scream.
This is how we treat the people that help us.
Squeeze! Tighter!
I could make you die.
Him flailing under me.
Feels good- oh so good.
Come on baby, don’t you like it?
God I wanted to feel him crack-
Wanted-
I don’t want anything.
I am an island.
No, I’m the world B, you’re the island!
Finally decided to chain me up?
I was already chained.
I like chains.
No! I get to use them on you! This is wrong-
wrong!
You can’t keep running.
Faith, you killed a man!
Wrong again Wes!
Stupid Wesley, stupid little B.
It’s you and me girlfriend.
It’s always been you and me.
Should’ve been there B.
And you were there but you didn’t do it. I did. I
remember, I can’t forget-
Faith no!
And you were all big eyes and-
Get an ambulance.
Bile and blood in my throat don’t choking,
swallow.
Lights, camera-
Come on! We’ve got to go!
Swallow the bad thing.
You can’t keep running.
I hate you B! Hate you
I want to kill you.
Want, take, have.
Faith no!
Take you’re life B.
Snuff it out, I always wanted to.
Why cants I take you’re life? I can have anything!
You can have mine.
I don’t want it much.
Not now. Not ever.
I never realized you had such rage in you.
Yah, good thing.
I hope evil takes master card!
You don’t get it, you killed-
I don’t care.
Am I lying? I can’t tell.
Stick around B,
We’re not done.
They’re never going to fix this are they?
You did it,
All dressed up in big sister’s clothes.
Over and over.
Faith no!
Just want to skip this track.
Again.
Faith no!
Why’d you have to say it B?
Why’d you have to make it my fault?
I don’t like warnings much.
I don’t like you much, B.
Zip-a-dee-doo-da.
I hate you B.
Faith, you can’t keep running.
Hate you always.
Wrong again Wes!
I can run forever.