Spike is now in the Hell Dimension with Dioxin. Dioxin has created a personal Hell for Spike which he has to relive various moments involving Buffy in some way. He has created a virtual Sunnydale which everything takes place. He picks selected memories from Spike that has some major significance for him about Buffy. Only Dioxin has created some twists for Spike. Everything around him is as real as when he first experienced them. He feels everything real to the touch and his images of various people are recreated for him including Buffy. He remembers everything that has happened to him to date but doesn’t know where he is and why these memories and experiences are reoccurring. Some of the experiences are different because Spike remembers them differently or because Dioxin has changed them. Dioxin begins his stay in Hell.
Cut to:
Spike wakes up from his dream about Buffy which he first realizes he is in love with her. He is in his crypt just as he remembers it and Harmony is sleeping next to him. In a panic he touches himself to see if he is real and realizes that he is solid. He is in disbelief to where he is and goes to see if Harmony is real by shoving her off the bed. Spike realizes that she is real as she starts to wake up angry for being shoved out of bed. Confused he starts to get up and put his clothes on.
Harmony: (gets up covering herself with a blanket) Ouch that hurt you dummy.
Spike: Where am I and please don’t tell me I’m in Hell.
Harmony: Uh duh, your place. Did the doctor rearrange some parts of your brain or something.
Spike: Back in Sunnydale, must be more to this. (to himself) I know I died. I know what that feels like so I must be somewhere. I never knew where blokes like me end up but this must be it― Sunnydale.
Harmony: (walks to him) Are you feeling alright, want me to take your temperature?
Spike: Enough you stupid git. If this is Sunnydale than Buffy must be around, I have to go see her.
Harmony: What just so she can kick your ass again Spike. Maybe you need to find some other way to kill her than just confronting her. You after all still have that chip in your head.
Spike: (puts on his jacket) I don’t care about that I have to go and I’m getting out of here.
Harmony: Good luck…
Spike goes and leaves his crypt and immediately gets burned by the sunlight. He turns and runs back into the crypt as the smoke rises from his body.
Spike: Ahh bugger that hurt. This must not be a dream than.
Harmony: Spike I may not be all that bright but I at least know not to go out into the sunlight.
Spike: Fine I’ll just go and use the tunnels then.
Spike walks over to where the entrance to the tunnels is in the crypt. He finds that the entrance doesn’t exist.
Spike: (looks up) You’re having a laugh ain’t ya? Me having to be stuck here in Hell with her and no escape you must love it. You! of all the people you could have picked, it had to be her.
Harmony: Spike I don’t think there is anyone up there. Who are you trying to talk to anyways?
Spike: (walks over and puts his hand on her throat) No more words from you. If I’m going to get through this I need you to shut the Hell up.
Harmony: If this is your idea of kinky sex or something I’m not into that.
Spike: (lets go of her) Please just let me be until nightfall.
Harmony: You didn’t get your twelve hours of sleep did you Spikey. That’s why you are all cranky this morning, I get it. I know I need my twelve hours before my brain can function.
Spike: I think I’ll take my chances out in the sunlight (walks away).
Cut to:
Buffy is back in LA and looking for the two men who she believes killed Spike. She doesn’t know where to start so she goes back to the alley where Spike died. She feels her heart drop at the spot where she last saw Spike. She is more determined than ever after looking around and not finding anything. She walks the streets looking for any signs of the two robed men. She eventually finds a demon bar and walks in.
Bartender: We don’t serve humans here in this bar. Why don’t you just leave now?
Buffy: I need some information and I’ll leave. I need you to tell me everything you know about Spike.
Bartender: I might know something but why would I tell you anything.
Buffy: (quietly) Because I am the Slayer and if you still want to have customers you will tell me everything you know right now.
Bartender: Well I guess I can tell you then. I know William the Bloody or Spike as he called himself last time he was here. He was looking for a job so he could get some money. That’s all I know about him.
Buffy: Have you seen two guys dressed in robes possibly looking him?
Bartender: I did actually have two guys dressed like that walk in here looking for Spike. They said that they needed to tell him something. So I told them that he was just here and they left.
Buffy: Anything else you can tell me about them.
Bartender: That’s it so can you please leave, having a human in here is distracting my customers.
Buffy: If you are lying to me I will burn this place down (leaves).
Buffy continues walking around the streets until she wanders into a back alley following her instincts. She walks into the same alley Spike fought that Xiomora demon and sees the two robed men leaving the apartment building and walking down the alley. Buffy without thinking runs up to them to confront them.
Thadius: Yes, and who are you?
Polaris: We have something important to carry on with.
Buffy: Does that include killing people? Because I would sure like to know if it is.
Thadius: Is this some sort of joke?
Polaris: We do not murder, we simply are fulfilling our mission.
Buffy: Why did you kill Spike? I know it was you two walking away from him.
Thadius: We killed the notorious William the Bloody just recently. He was a vampire whose sins were all over Europe and other parts of the world most recently here in LA.
Polaris: We sent him to Hell to pay for his sins for all eternity. We did nothing wrong.
Buffy: What gives you the right to decide who lives and who dies? Spike had a soul and he wasn’t William the Bloody anymore.
Thadius: And what makes you any better to decide that?
Buffy: I’m the Slayer and I made those decisions all of my life.
Polaris: You’re the legendary Slayer? We are honored to actually meet you.
Thadius: What we do is not much different than what you do Slayer.
Buffy: That was different he wasn’t in control of himself but you killed a good man.
Thadius: His sins can not be so easily forgiven whether or not he had a soul or changed as he said.
Polaris: The great Dioxin will see to him from now on. He will most likely have something appropriate for him in Hell.
Buffy: (shocked) What, did you say Dioxin? You know about him?
Polaris: He is the God that we worship that makes sure demons that commit sin are made to pay for eternity.
Thadius: We are the last of a group that has carried on this mission for years. But we are sorry Slayer as we must leave because our work is never finished.
Buffy: (angry) You two never gave him a chance to try to continue his work of helping people. Now you sent him to Dioxin. You two better leave before I do something I will regret.
Buffy stands there in front of them fists clenched and the two turn around and leave. She is able to contain the fury she has for the two men who killed Spike. Then she starts to realize that Spike is in Hell and that Dioxin is making his stay there painful. Buffy feels for Spike knowing that he will be tormented by Dioxin for eternity. She decides that she has to come home but wonders what is happening to him at this moment.
Cut to:
Spike is stuck in his crypt with Harmony and it finally turns to night for him to go out. He decides that he needs to see Buffy and see if she is here in Sunnydale. He walks to Buffy’s house and knocks on the door and Buffy answers.
Spike: Oh I’m glad if stuck here at least you are here with me. We need to talk…
Buffy: You’ve got a whole lot of nerve coming here. (punches him in the face sending in flying) First you try to get the chip out of your head then you try and kill me and now you’re glad to see me. What is wrong with you? I should just kill you.
Spike: (sitting up on the sidewalk) Buffy we need to figure out what is going on. I know that I’m dead but this being back in Sunnydale has me really scratching my head luv.
Buffy: (walks up to him) Don’t call me “luv” Spike. There is no “we” Spike. What makes you think that I want to help you in anyway?
Spike: Ok then Buffy if you don’t want to help me that’s fine but I need to tell you something.
Buffy: (starts to walk away) I don’t want to hear anything you have to say right now.
Spike: (gets up and walks in front of her) Buffy you have to listen to me…I am so sorry for leaving you. I hate that I put you in that much pain of losing me again. I still can’t believe that you had to watch me dust right in front of you. If I could do it over again I would.
Buffy: (walks around him) Spike have you lost your mind? What the Hell are you talking about?
Spike: Buffy, I love you and I know that you love me too but I just needed to tell you that I’m sorry.
Buffy: (turns around disgusted) Spike you love me? You say that I love you? Spike listen to me very carefully. I don’t love you. I can never love you. You expect me to believe that you love me. What, just before you try and kill me again. I don’t know what kind of mind games you are trying to play but don’t you ever say that to me again. Stay the Hell away from me (goes inside the house).
Cut to:
Suddenly the scene flashes forward to when Spike has Buffy chained up in his basement along with Druscilla. The scene plays out exactly the same until he walks up to Buffy.
Spike: …just give me a crumb (snaps out of it).
Buffy: The only chance you had with me was when I was unconscious.
Spike realizing what is going on walks over immediately to Druscilla and stakes her.
Buffy: That doesn’t prove anything Spike. What does that suppose to mean to me?
He turns around and immediately dodges the arrow that Harmony shoots at him. He vamps out and yells at her. She immediately runs away scared. He turns back to human face and goes back to Buffy.
Buffy: You sure have girlfriend issues Spike. Now let me go and maybe I won’t kill you.
Spike: Before I do I need to figure out something. Do you remember me going to your place after I tried to get out my chip?
Buffy: I’m not answering anymore of your questions Spike. You chain me up and make me watch this freak show and now you expect me to play some Q&A. Go to Hell.
Spike: Fraid I’m already here luv. (unchains her) Now go before something else happens.
Cut to:
Buffy arrives back at her apartment and needs some rest. She goes straight to bed after realizing that Dawn is already asleep. She crawls into bed and begins dreaming. She dreams about everything that has happened since Spike came back. The killings he did in LA and the fight that they had there. The coming back to Europe to the mind read to going to get his soul back. She remembers all the words that Dioxin told her about making his stay in Hell with her. Then she remembers something that she forgot about. She remembers running with the sphere and reaching the portal while being chased by Adam. When the portal closed on him he was still able to reach through the portal when it cut off his arm. She wakes up in the morning with an interesting thought when she goes back to the Slayer school. She goes and meets with Giles, Willow and Dawn who all are in the meeting room.
Buffy: Guys I just have to ask you something and wanted to hear what you thought about it.
Dawn: If you want to know if that outfit matches, Buffy your way off.
Willow: I have to agree with Dawn, Buffy. That outfit you got on doesn’t match whatsoever.
Giles: I’m afraid I am no fashion expect but my guess is that may not be your best look.
Buffy: No not what I’m wearing, I wanted you guys to know that I think it is possible to rescue Spike from the Hell dimension.
Giles: Buffy must we go over this Spike deal again. I rather wished that you had moved on after you returned from LA to avenge his death.
Buffy: I didn’t…if that’s what you mean. But that doesn’t matter now I need to get Spike away from Dioxin. He’s the Hell God in the dimension Spike is in right now.
Willow: Are you sure he’s there? Have you actually any proof that he is in that Hell dimension? Because it would help a lot if you did have some.
Dawn: We are not going overboard with this whole rescue Spike thing are we? I mean I want Spike back too but if he died and is in a Hell dimension I don’t think that we can just ask for his release.
Buffy: Giles aren’t there ways for demons to cross over dimensions without being harmed.
Giles: Well yes Buffy there are certain demons who cross over to every dimension and are able to do so many times. But Buffy those are special cases.
Buffy: Willow do you remember when I came back through the portal and I told you Adam was chasing me?
Willow: I’m sure he was bright and cheery to see you again.
Buffy: After I jumped through the portal he was able to cross over until the portal collapsed on his arm. He would have been here had it not closed in on him. I know that if I can get back there I can get Spike and bring him back here.
Dawn: I hope this isn’t a wild goose chase because if we go through all this work again and don’t bring him back I’m through with trying to bring back the dead.
Giles: I am against this whole heartily because of the dangers involved. You have been extremely reckless and careless since Spike’s return and his death however tragic may be for the best.
Willow: Can you be sure that he is there in that exact dimension. I didn’t know that demons actually went somewhere after they died. I just thought that it was poof and then oblivion.
Buffy: I know what I’m doing and I know it can be done. Spike being back hasn’t changed anything Giles. I have thought everything through and done what I thought needed to be done. This Dioxin I don’t think was lying because he had no reason to when he told me Spike was coming there when he died. Plus those two guys who had Spike killed said the same thing that Spike was going to that Hell Dimension. Dioxin also said he was going to make it real bad for Spike there and I can’t let him go though that for an eternity.
Dawn: What exactly is Spike going through in there?
Buffy: (closes her eyes) It’s something bad. I just know it. Can we please just get started on this soon?
Cut to:
The scene has flashed forward to Spike sitting alone in his crypt crying. Buffy has just died and sacrificed herself to save the world. Spike is crying because even though she has been gone only a few days he misses her. Spike cries for what seems like hours before he snaps out of it and realizes where he is. He remembers this event and leaves his crypt to confirm it. He goes to the cemetery and walks up to a tombstone that is labeled Buffy Anne Summers. He drops down to his knees and confirms to himself that she is dead. He touches the tombstone and feels some enormous pain. He starts talking to someone who isn’t there.
Spike: (looking up) Why have you brought me here? I know that she died but why do you have to rub it in. Love pouring salt in the wound is it. Wanted me to feel pain and suffering well you’ve done it. Now leave me be and bring me to another place. (nothing happens) Dammit then I will have to force the issue (gets up).
Spike runs from the grave and goes straight to the Summer’s house. Once he arrives at the door he knocks and Willow slowly opens the door.
Willow: Spike, I thought you were out patrolling by yourself tonight. Isn’t that what you wanted?
Spike: I need you to kick your little plan into gear and bring Buffy back. I know it’s not suppose to happen for awhile but I need her back.
Willow: What are you…what plan? We’re not going to bring Buffy back we just can’t. Spike I know that you miss her and so do we but we can’t go messing with life and death. She’s gone you need to learn to deal with it as everyone else.
Spike: No I don’t believe that. You and the rest of you hatched up a plan to bring back Buffy and it worked. She came back and had some rough patches but she is fine now. Just get to work.
Willow: Spike you must be delusional, we know that Buffy is in Heaven. Even if there was a way to bring her back we wouldn’t just rip her out of there. That would be cruel no matter how much we miss her. She’s not coming back you and need to accept that…sorry (closes the door).
Spike: (walks away looking up) Nice how you’ve changed things. Anymore surprises for me you stupid wanker.
Cut to:
Spike is walking down the alley toward the magic box and sees Buffy sitting alone outside. He realizes where he is and goes up to her. He knows that even though they said they weren’t going to bring her back they did anyways.
Spike: Oh yes Buffy you’re back at least that’s not changed.
Buffy: (not listening) What do you want Spike? Come to tell me how much you love me and how much you missed me.
Spike: Actually yes, but I wanted to know how you feel and if there is anything different about you now that you are back.
Buffy: I was happy where I was Spike. I don’t know there are words to describe it but I think I was in Heaven. I gave my life for what I thought was right and thought I’d done enough in this life. But now I’m back here going through the motions all over again.
Spike: Buffy I know this is hard for you to understand but this isn’t real none of this is. It is only real for me because I’m dead. I don’t want you to have to go through this again.
Buffy: You know the best part about being gone was? You, not having to see or hear from you anymore. Not having to listen to you tell me “I love you” anymore. Not having you looking at me with those lovesick eyes of yours. Knowing that I was as far away from you as it gets made me so happy. (crying) Now I’m back and your back here in my life and I just want it to end. This is Hell being here with you.
Spike: (shocked) You can’t mean that.
Buffy: (gets up) I have no reason to lie Spike but this is how I feel. I’m glad that you were finally able to hear it from me. Please if you love me like you say you do than stay away from me (leaves).
Spike: Buffy… (looks up) are you enjoying these petty torments? Why can’t you just end this charade and let me just die in peace. I know that Buffy was hurting but she never hated me like this. At least I don’t think so…don’t you have anything that was more pleasant.
Cut to:
Buffy, Willow, Giles and Dawn are all standing in the gym preparing to open the portal so Buffy can try and enter. Buffy follows the same procedure as before and cuts herself with a knife and lets a few drops of blood on the floor for Willow. Willow follows the same spell but notices something is preventing the spell from working.
Willow: Buffy the spell is not working. I’m sensing some sort of barrier blocking the entrance to that dimension.
Giles: Well Buffy we tried and I don’t think that they were just going to let you waltz back in there. You need to accept the fact there is nothing more we can do for Spike.
Buffy: I don’t believe that there must be a way. Why isn’t my blood working this time?
Willow: It seems that the wall blocking that dimension has gotten stronger since last time. A few drops of blood aren’t going to work.
Buffy: What will work then? Just tell me what I have to do.
Dawn: Buffy how far are you willing to go for someone that left you. I don’t think that he really wants to be brought back because why would he leave in the first place.
Willow: Buffy the amount of energy I need to break down that barrier and open the portal is going to be a lot more blood.
Buffy: (sighs) Guys I am not listening to this I said I was going to get Spike and if you all are just going to keep asking me pointless questions you might as well leave. Willow how much blood we talking here.
Willow: I’m going to need just a tiny bit more blood from you Buffy. I’m talking about three pints at least to open it up. And that’s just to open it for a little while but I don’t know how much it will take to keep it open long enough for you to get him.
Buffy: If that’s what it takes…
Giles: This has gone on long enough I am putting a stop to it this instance. Buffy losing three pints of blood is not as easy as it sounds. Do you know how much blood you need to survive? Losing that much blood could render you unconscious or possibly worse and you won’t be much good to him or anyone else for that matter. Being a Slayer you have responsibilities and others who depend on you. You can not continue doing deeds like this for selfish reasons.
Buffy: That was true Giles but I am not the only Slayer anymore. If I’m gone there are many who can take my place and continue fighting. I have given up so much and sacrificed my own happiness for this work. And I am sick of it. If my duties as Slayer are keeping me from doing this than I quit. Willow just start the spell, I’ll give you the blood you need.
Giles rushes over to Buffy and takes the knife away from her.
Giles: Buffy you are letting your love for Spike cloud you judgment. I can’t allow you to do this. Being a Slayer is not a job you can quit. You were chosen for a reason and you must continue your work. Don’t make the mistake of thinking you are the only one who has made sacrifices. I ask that you postpone this decision for awhile until another solution is found. I can’t make you stop going after Spike but I won’t stand by and let you do this.
Dawn: Please listen to us Buffy we don’t want you to get hurt again.
Willow: Giles is right I don’t think the spell would be all that stable anyways. We can keep trying and help you find some other way.
Buffy storms off without acknowledging them. The others follow her upstairs until she reaches the meeting room and Buffy puts her head down. They follow in after her.
Dawn: Buffy how bout we get started on finding out some other way right now. (to Willow) There must be some stuff we can start looking at.
Willow: Uhm yeah I think some of these books might help. They are about Dioxin and the Hell dimension he’s from. (puts them on the table) I’ll be back gotta to the little girls room (leaves).
Giles: I’m sorry for having to do this Buffy but I want what’s best for you and I always have.
Buffy: (puts her head up) I know you do Giles and thanks for all your help. (Buffy stands up) I have to go stretch outside for a sec.
Giles: As you wish.
Buffy walks out the meeting room and quickly locks them inside. Giles and Dawn quickly rush to the door and realize it’s locked and pound on the door. Buffy just walks away from them and goes to find Willow.
Giles: She has clearly lost her mind. What would make her do such a thing like give up that much blood for someone who is already dead?
Dawn: Buffy was brought back from the dead, twice. For someone you love you just do anything for them without really thinking about the consequences.
Giles: Oh there will be consequences because things like these never turn out that simple.
Buffy walks to the woman’s restroom and sees Willow as she walks out.
Buffy: I thought it over and I’m going to give you the blood you need.
Willow: You took all of two seconds to come to that decision. What did Giles say about that?
Buffy: He doesn’t have a say, it’s my decision. Let’s go.
Cut to:
Spike is suddenly flashed forward to the morning after the first night that he and Buffy had sex. He wakes up with rubble around him and Buffy getting up. He starts to realize where he is when Buffy starts to wake up.
Buffy: When did the building fall down?
Spike: Sometime between the first and the… (snaps out of it). Well this qualifies as more pleasant than the last. Don’t know where this is going though. I know that she hated herself and used me.
Buffy: Spike shut up. (gets up to look for her clothes) I don’t know what you are talking about but last night didn’t happen.
Spike: Ok let me guess you just wanted to feel and decided who better or more convenient than Spike to get the job done.
Buffy: Last night meant nothing. I didn’t feel anything while I was with you. The only thing you can make me feel and ever make me feel is hate and disgust. I feel so dirty touching you. I must have been out of my mind sleeping with you. I still can’t believe that I would lower myself to ever touching you.
Spike: I know that you don’t mean that luv. You can’t.
Buffy: I mean every word of it. Haven’t you listened to what I’ve been telling for the last few years? I hate you. I could never love something as disgusting as you. This ends here Spike. I will never let you touch me again. If you come around me again I will kill you. Now I how to live the rest of my life knowing that I slept with you. You have caused me more pain than you can ever know.
Spike: I know what you said to me before but I’m different now I’ve changed.
Buffy: Nothing has changed about you Spike. You are and will always be beneath me. You’re not worthy of my love and nothing you could ever do will change that.
Cut to:
Buffy and Willow are in the gym getting ready to try and open the portal. This time there is a bowl that Buffy is standing front of. Willow is going over the plan with Buffy.
Willow: Buffy you sure about this because even if I do open it there is no guarantee that I can keep it open long enough for the both of you to get out. It could take forever to find him and plus all those demons in there won’t be happy to see you either. There is just so much that can go wrong.
Buffy: I have to take this chance. I won’t leave him in there for a second longer than I have to. I will go through anyone that tries and stops me. (holds the knife) Just tell me when you have enough.
Buffy cuts herself on her hand deep enough to allow the amount of blood needed to flow out. She holds her hand over the bowl as the blood runs down her fingers. The bowl slowly starts to fill with blood and the more blood that Buffy loses she starts to feel dizzy but doesn’t let it show. Finally the bowl is almost full when Willow tells her that’s enough.
Willow: Buffy stop, that’s enough to open it I think.
Buffy is dizzy and wraps a bandage around her hand to stop the bleeding.
Willow: Are you sure you’re alright? Do you need to rest for awhile? Maybe take a timeout?
Buffy: I’ll be fine…just open it up.
Willow performs the spell once more and is able to open the portal to the Hell dimension.
Willow: It’s open but it’s not completely stable. I’ll try to keep it open as long as I can but it could shut at any moment.
Buffy: Just do what you have to. If anything happens I just wanted to say…thanks for everything.
Willow: Just hurry up will ya.
Buffy dizzy and woozy jumps through the portal.
Cut to:
Buffy has arrived in the Hell dimension and it is much different than before as she starts to recognize where she is. She stops to hold her head for a second as she is still dizzy and having a hard time focusing. She walks down a road until she reads a sign that puts her in shock. She reads the Welcome to Sunnydale sign and knows where she is as she stumbles into town looking for Spike.
Concluded in Chapter 3...Together at last?
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05/18/17 04:16 am
pj! I remember wishing one of your stories would be finished seriously about a decade ago. Amazing. I just tried an old password I used to use and amazingly got in too. Memories!
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03/20/17 01:20 am
10 yrs later, i finally rem my username and password. Pari, you rock. Hope you are well.
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08/31/16 03:45 pm
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08/31/16 03:43 pm
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