Buffy listened to her Joan Jett CD as she got ready to go to William's house. She needed some female empowerment tunes to help her stay in the right mindset.
She moved to the beat, checking herself out in the full-length mirror in her bedroom. She looked pretty damn good in her black satin thong and bra. She giggled when she thought about just putting a trench coat on over her undies, and flashing William when he opened the front door. No, she would have to be a lot subtler than that. She'd have to work up to the 'I want you to touch my goodies!' portion of the visit. She wanted to look good, but not so good that William would know something was up right off the bat.
Buffy was taking a big risk by going ahead with this. She wasn't even sure that her advances would be welcome. But he had to have felt the sparks between them, right? There had been definite sparkage in the past, Buffy sure as hell had felt them. If he really did think of her only as a friend... then things could get really messy and awkward. But if Buffy chickened out and went on hiding her feelings for William, then she'd never know if he might have reciprocated.
Going around in vicious circles was driving her crazy. It was time to put up or shut up, so to speak. William was alone at home, so today was the perfect time to bust a move. Today was the day.
She rocked her hips to the hard beat and ran her hands over her body as she sang along with the song:
"Do you wanna touch - Yeah!
Do you wanna touch - Yeah!
Do you wanna touch me there? Where?
Do you wanna touch - Yeah!
Do you wanna touch - Yeah!
Do you wanna touch me there? Where?
There, yeah!"
It was an impossible situation that she found herself in; there were probably a few Country & Western songs describing Buffy's predicament. She was in love with William... but he was married. And to her snooty bitch of a cousin, Cecily. Buffy first met him at the wedding, and thought he was damn cute. And then Cecily and William had moved to Sunnydale -- Cecily said that the town was so 'quaint' and that she wanted to have a cozy, quiet little town to settle in. Cecily preferred jetting or taking a limo to more glamorous places like London, L.A., or New York, but not to live in them. So Buffy had gotten closer to her English cousin -- and her English cousin-in-law -- than she'd ever expected to. William proved to be a total sweetheart, becoming more and more attractive to Buffy, while Cecily had shown herself to be a manipulative, bitchy shrew.
Buffy wouldn't make any effort to spend time with her cousin if it weren't for William. Going to visit Cecily meant that she got to see him too. Therefore, she put up with her cousin (whom she'd come to loathe) for the perk of spending time with the man she secretly wanted to have to herself.
Things couldn't go on this way.
As fate would have it, Cecily was out of town for a week, all the way across the Atlantic, in London, so there was no chance of them getting caught in flagrante delicto -- if things progressed that far, that is. If it were anybody else, Buffy would feel horribly guilty. Planning on seducing another woman's husband was a rotten thing to do -- but Cecily was a huge bitch. She treated sweet, doting William like shit, always putting him down and treating him more like hired help than a husband and lover.
Buffy was tempted to just 'slut it up', to put on her slinkiest outfit, and to do her makeup in a sultrier way. But she didn't want William to get nervous and tense, she wanted him to be relaxed before she pounced. Buffy, herself, was really nervous and wasn't sure she'd be able to go through with it when all was said and done, it was best to play it as cool as she possibly could until the time was right... If there were such a thing as a 'right time' to tell your friend (and cousin-in-law) that you wanted to fuck him.
Buffy took great care in picking her outfit. She chose a blue silk blouse; a long black skirt that zipped up in the back; and a shiny pair of black high heels. She wore her hair up, and curled a few strands that hung down to frame her face. Instead of sultry makeup, she went with her usual 'natural' look. She made sure to shine her lips up with lip gloss -- she'd learned long ago from an issue of Cosmo that shiny lips drew a man's attention to them, thus making them more likely to want to kiss you. And she definitely wanted there to be some smooching going on later.
William had always been nice to Buffy. Beyond nice. When her mother had gotten sick a little over a year ago, William had insisted on going with her to the hospital. He'd let her cry on his shoulder when she'd been afraid of losing her mom, and he'd listened to her. Ironically, the people who should have been there to show their support for her (Cecily, and Buffy's then-boyfriend, Riley) were too busy. But William had been there for her without a second thought about dropping whatever he was doing and being there to hold her hand. Even when he had to go away on business, he called Buffy to check on her and to see how her mother was fairing, as well as sending Joyce beautiful flower arrangements and boxes of her favorite Swiss chocolates. That had gone a long way to show Buffy that William was the one, that she really wanted him in her life -- and that she just plain wanted him.
There was the possibility that she'd ruin their friendship by throwing herself at him, and that would be bad. But she couldn't go on this way: having these feelings for William, but having to bite her tongue and hold back. He didn't like talking about his marriage at all, so they normally avoided the subject. But she had to press the issue, she had to make him see the truth, even if it meant that he would be angry with her and spurn her. Cecily was going to destroy William from the inside out if he didn't get away from her. So what Buffy had planned was sort of... noble... in a very naughty kind of way.
As she got dressed, Buffy recalled a conversation that she'd had with Cecily...
8 months into William and Cecily's marriage...
Buffy drained her glass of wine, praying for the strength to sit and listen to her cousin prattle on and on about how horrid it was that she had to spend time with William, and that he'd probably try getting 'a cuddle' that night. For 15 minutes running, Cecily complained about how clingy and annoying William was.
Some bluntness was called for. "Okay, let's see if I got it straight: you and William hardly ever have sex, and when you do, you hate it. You put him down all the time, you think he's 'annoying' -- you obviously don't love him. Why don't you just get divorced? Do both of you a favor and just end it."
"Oh, that wouldn't do. Being divorced would be shameful," Cecily said dismissively.
Buffy snorted. "This ain't the 1880s. People get divorced all the time, it's pretty common. 50% of all marriages don't last."
"Yes, but I don't want to be a statistic. Plus, I wouldn't have access to all of the luxuries that I've become accustomed to."
"What are you talking about? Your parents are loaded. You'd still be rich without William's money."
"Yes, but not as rich, and the Giles name opens just about any door. What I have is an ideal arrangement, really. Aside from having to let him strain and sweat on top of me once a month. William is timid and easily controlled, I do like that about him."
Buffy looked at her, not able to hide her contempt and disgust. "Oh, that's real nice. You don't even understand how horrible what you just said is, do you?"
Cecily laughed. "You'll see when it's time for you to take a husband, Buffy. Marriage is 99% business, 1% love."
"Somehow, I don't think that you're typical. How the hell did you get so cynical? There are lots of jerks out there, but William is a really sweet guy. You got so unbelievably lucky when you found him. When I get married -- IF I do -- it's going to be because I can't live without him... the guy that I pick."
"Well, it works for me. You'll have a rude awakening if you choose to marry for love, dear, sweet, naive Buffy."
Buffy wanted to tell Cecily exactly what she thought of her. She wanted to tell her what a mean, nasty, evil bitch she was. And a punch in the face on William's behalf would be nice too. But Buffy held her tongue. If she cut ties with Cecily, that would mean no more socializing with William either...
Back in the present, Buffy shook her head as she zipped up her skirt.
Cecily was an asshole. And for the life of her, Buffy couldn't imagine how William had fallen in love with that woman. Why did he let her treat him so shabbily? It wasn't like William was an idiot; he was actually very intelligent (another thing Buffy found that she liked big on men: a huge squishy brain). He could make big decisions without anyone's help, and he could deal with the people he did business with. It was mainly in casual, social situations that William's natural timidity emerged. But under all circumstances, a bitchy brunette could walk all over him without him saying one harsh word against her. Maybe William was into being treated that way? Some guys liked being submissive. No... Buffy didn't believe that. She'd seen the hurt on his face after Cecily said something mean to him, she'd seen tears in his eyes in the past. He didn't enjoy it, he didn't get off on it. But he stayed with Cecily for reasons unknown.
Buffy and William were friends, but she never repeated the exact words that Cecily said to her about him. She couldn't. It would kill her to be the cause of him being hurt. Every time she thought about telling him an exact quote of Cecily's, her mind fast forwarded to what his inevitable reaction would be to what she'd say. His very expressive face would crumble; his eyes would fill with tears; his chin would wobble. Buffy couldn't take even imagining him doing that because of something she'd told him. And wasn't there that saying about people 'shooting the messenger'? On those grounds, she kept Cecily's cruel words from him.
Then Buffy flashed back to the conversation she'd had with Cecily just the other day...
Two days ago...
Buffy rolled her eyes, holding back a weary sigh. Her pain in the ass, stuck-up cousin was calling her on the phone for some reason. Perhaps to brag about how fucking rich she was.
"Hi, Cecily. I was just on my way out. What's up?"
"Buffy, I'm glad I caught you. I'm leaving for London tomorrow to visit with Mummy and Daddy."
"Oh, that's nice. Tell them I said hi," Buffy said, trying her best to fake interest.
"I need to ask you for a favor."
Buffy raised her eyebrows. She didn't know why Cecily thought she would go out of her way to do anything for her. The cousins had a bit of a prickly relationship. "What is it?"
"I was wondering if you could keep an eye on William for me."
"He's not going with you?" Buffy thought, Lucky him! He gets a break from your nasty ass.'
"No, he's staying behind. I need time to myself."
Buffy frowned. "What do you mean 'keep an eye on' him? You afraid he's going to throw wild parties while you're gone? What are you, his mother?"
"There's this little whore who was shaking her hips at him a few days ago. She's a secretary at the foundation, a slutty blonde named Harmony Kendall."
Buffy smiled, pleased that Cecily was worried about William getting his head turned by someone else. It would serve the bitch right if he ran off with another woman. Then her smile faded at the thought. As happy as Buffy would be if William left her cousin, she'd be brokenhearted that he was with another woman. If someone was going to steal William, it should be her, damn it!
"What is that you want me to do exactly?" Buffy asked.
"Just drop by the house to check on him, see what he's up to. And call me to tell me immediately if he has any guests."
"You really think he likes this Harmony woman?"
"No, he's completely devoted to me." Cecily paused to chuckle -- Buffy wanted to reach through the phone and rip her lungs out. "But William is weak-minded and easily swayed. Which is why I'd like you to keep watch."
Buffy thought of a few possible responses. She could a) tell Cecily to go fuck herself; b) say yes, she would check on William and report back, even though she had no plans to do so; or c) say yes, and do what her cousin asked, just to be nice. Buffy chose secret option d: she would go and pay William a visit, but not out of any concern for Cecily. Buffy didn't like the thought of some new woman trying to get William, and she'd happily nip that in the bud for her own selfish, crazy, inappropriate reasons.
Buffy had told Cecily that she would 'keep an eye' on her husband for her. If there was a God, Buffy would have a lot more than just her eyes on him...
It was from that phone conversation that Buffy saw the need to let William know, in no uncertain terms, that she was interested in being more than friends. The erotic dreams and fantasies she kept having about him had made her hornier than hell and itching to make those fantasies come true. And she couldn't let him possibly find someone else before she worked up the nerve to make her move. She decided that she would go to visit William in the afternoon the day after Cecily left. They would have the mansion to themselves, nice an' private-like; and she would have the entire day to work up the nerve to finally show him how she felt.
Back in the present...
Buffy applied some vanilla body spray, and checked herself in the mirror one last time before leaving.
"You can do this. You need to do this," she said to her reflection.
Squaring her shoulders, she set off for William's house.
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05/18/17 04:16 am
pj! I remember wishing one of your stories would be finished seriously about a decade ago. Amazing. I just tried an old password I used to use and amazingly got in too. Memories!
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03/20/17 01:20 am
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