Till Death Do us Part
Our luck is running out of time
You're not in love with me anymore
I wish that it would change, but it won't, if you don't
Our luck is running out of time
You're not in love with me anymore
I wish that it would change, but it won't
'Cause you don't love me no more
The room is dark and through it a slim figure moves silently instinctively avoiding the furniture with all the grace of someone who has done this before many times, but this time she pauses, collecting items here and there, stuffing them into a large holdall. Her fingers tremble as she carefully picks up her favorite picture taken at their wedding; she considers the photo carefully before shoving in into the holdall and walking from the room.
The wedding had been small, just her mother and Angel’s father attending, but it didn’t matter not to her and not to Angel. It had been a spur of the moment decision, the wedding was organized in less than a week, they had known each other only six months. It had been enough, they where in love and nobody looking at the two of them then could ever have guessed that this would be their fate.
You need so much but not from me
Turn your back in my hour of need
Something's wrong but you pretend you don't see
I think I interrupt your life
When you laugh it cuts me just like a knife
I'm not your friend, I'm just your little wife
The small blond slunk out of the door before closing it softly behind her. There is a haunted look in her eyes almost mirrored by the defeated slump of her body as she cradles a bundle in her arms protectively, her other hand tentatively touches the side of her face, which is dark and swollen in the orange glow of the street light. She still wonders how it came to this and why...
The bruises they will fade away
You hit so hard with the things you say
I will not stay to watch your hate as it grows
You're not in love with someone else
You don't even love yourself
Still I wish you'd ask me not to go
She knows that the incident that happened just before Katie was born effected him, she knows that whilst closes his eyes to it during the day, he has no escape in his dreams. He cries out at night, but turns away when she tries to comfort him, Angel had never turned away from her before, not ever.
He takes a drink, she goes inside
He starts to scream, the vases fly
He wishes that she wouldn't cry
He's not in love with her anymore
Buffy is confused by the change in her husband; he is constantly telling her that she is not good enough, a failure in bed and at home. Nothing she does can make him happy anymore, he hasn’t so much as held Katie since the day she was born. She wants to talk to him about it, convince him to get some help, but she doesn't know how to handle these uncharacteristic rages he comes home in…
He makes demands, she draws the line
He starts the fight, she starts the lie
But what is truth when something dies
He's not in love with her anymore
The final straw came when he was home late again, he hadn't phoned and Buffy was frantic, the baby was teething and restless, dinner was ruined and when Angel walked through the door, she forgot all about his recent moods and stared at him vehemently.
"Where the hell have you been? The baby's been screaming the house down, dinner's fucked and..." she breaks off to look at him, "and you're drunk again! What is wrong with you?"
"What is wrong with me? I go to work all day and earn enough to keep you, you lazy bitch!" he swings his fist and cracks a stunned Buffy right on the side of her head. She drops to the floor and stares at her husband with wounded but furious eyes.
"You arsehole, you better get out of my sight before I put a stake through your heart" she spat.
He looks shocked, turns and walks away. She doesn’t see his eyes brimming with tears, he doesn’t understand either…
You're not in love with someone else
You don't even love yourself
Still I wish you'd ask me not to go
As the taxi pulled up, Buffy looked back up at the house that had been her home for so long, and couldn't prevent the tears sliding down her face. Too many memories where between those walls and she hated that a few actions could change all that, their little family was splitting and she is unsure how to fix it, if that is even possible.
Sliding into the back of the taxi, she tells the driver to take her to the airport and pulls out her mobile phone. She needs somewhere to stay and since her mother’s death last year, there really only was one person she could impose on to that extent.
“Hi Giles, sorry to call so late, but I kinda need a place to stay for a while, can I crash with you?”
“Buffy?” Giles’s voice was clogged with sleep as he looked at his watch, “Have you and Angel had a fight? Maybe you should discuss it in the morning”
Her voice begins to waver, she’s sure she can’t do this, not without help. “I’ve left him, Giles but I don’t have anywhere else to go, please, I’m on my way to the airport now, Katie’s with me”
Shocked at the tears he could hear in his daughter in law’s voice, Giles quickly agrees to allowing Buffy to stay with him and tells her to call when she knows what time her flight will land.
After hanging up the phone, she looks down at the bundle in her arms the little girl looks back at her, her big brown eyes full of the trust only an infant knows. Buffy whispers her daughter "Don't worry baby, we'll see daddy again when he's better.” And she knows it’s true…
She's had enough, she says the end
But she'll come back, she knows it then
A chance to start it all again
Till death do us part
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05/18/17 04:16 am
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05/18/17 04:16 am
pj! I remember wishing one of your stories would be finished seriously about a decade ago. Amazing. I just tried an old password I used to use and amazingly got in too. Memories!
pj
03/20/17 01:20 am
10 yrs later, i finally rem my username and password. Pari, you rock. Hope you are well.
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12/23/16 01:12 pm
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AudryDaluz1
10/06/16 08:34 am
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Chrissel
08/31/16 03:45 pm
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Chrissel
08/31/16 03:43 pm
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