Sorry, I noticed there was a missing part, because the site doesn't read a certain font, but now I added it... it's just a single sentence, but maybe it makes sense! ;)
sorry again
SOMEONE UP ABOVE IS ROOTING FOR US
Author: Lu
Main Characters: Buffy/Spike (of course!) + Xander/Anya (just hinted)
Disclaimer: I know these characters don’t belong to me
Setting: Post “ Chosen”
Thanks to : Jill and Maribel for their help, you’re great as always, girls!
Feedback: I’d like it
Summary: Guess who comes back, with the help of the last person he expected it from?
PART 1
Los Angeles, Sept 5 2003
“ I’m not gonna open a damn book!” Dawn shout resolutely.
“ First, watch your mouth, Missy!” Angel reproached her.
“ Then, you * have* to do your homework. School will start in two weeks, you can’t go there like that!”
“ Why should I? It’s totally useless! Sure, it’s my new school, but I’m sure that sooner or later a demon will destroy it, so why should I bother to study?”
“ Nice try, Dawn, but it’s not a good reason to ignore your school-duty!” he insisted.
“ Anyway, I won’t need it if I die. And I will soon, everyone keeps on dying here…”
Angel’s eyes softened and he approached the girl.
“ Please, don’t talk that way. I’m here to protect you, Nib.. “
“ DON’T! You have no right to call me that. Only one person could… and it’s not you!” she snapped, departing furiously to lock herself in her temporary room.
After the battle against the First; Angel, Cordelia and the others had gently offered to accommodate Buffy, Dawn, Xander, Willow, Kennedy and Andrew provisionally at L.A. with them.
Robin and Faith had decided to travel away for a while to restore their forces after the combat.
Giles had preferred to go to Cleveland to examine the other Hellmouth, escorted by the other Potential Slayers, craving for a new adventure.
But for now, that place didn’t give any big worry.
It was hard to establish who felt the worst between Xander and Buffy: they barely ate, rarely talked, preferring to retire in long silences and trying to isolate as much as possible.
That was what Buffy was doing in that moment, while the two were arguing, but the sharp reaction of her sister had forced her to approach the vampire.
“ I apologize for her. Believe me, she didn’t mean to be so rude, she likes you and she is very thankful to you for what you have done, as every one of us is. But she has some points, after all…” she said, touching her hair nervously.
“ It’s like if you called me… Goldilocks… or.. * pet*… “ she explained, making a huge effort to say the last words without breaking down and cry.
Angel’s eyes hardened.
“ Well, it seems she is not the only one mourning him!” he muttered coldly.
“ You can’t understand…”
“ Exactly, I can’t understand how you can feel something for Spike, for God’s sake! So, you had suddenly forgot his past, just because he’s got back his soul. Well, I did it first, he just copied me!”
Buffy gave him an icy glaze.
“ Are you done with this * crap*?”
“ What?”
“ First; it’s not just because of his soul, it started before, but I’m not gonna discuss *that* with you. Second; it’s not that I forgot his past, but I forgave him, just like I’ve forgiven you… * twice* actually! And third; just ‘cause you like so much talking about souls… have you ever wondered how he got his back? Well, I’ll tell you: he went to God knows where to find a demon, which, after making him face terrible tests, granted him a wish… and guess what his wish was? Angel, you got your soul because you were cursed with it, Spike got his because he earned it: yours is a malediction, his is a reward! Think about it!” she retorted and then she ran upstairs.
Angel tried to follow her to prevent her from locking herself again in her room.
“ Buf…” but another voice, coming from the room in front of them, captured Buffy’ s whole attention and that strong emotion startled her.
- - I thought I told you to piss off with this bloody…- -
She sprang the door open, screaming his name, to realize with an infinite sadness it was just a recording: Andrew was showing Cordelia the videocassette with the filming he had done at Buffy’ s house, before the great final battle.
“ She wanted to watch my video, but I suggested watching ‘ Star Wars ‘ instead!” the boy justified.
“ Seeing Luke Skywalker wouldn’t have the same effect on you! I’m sorry!”
Buffy was silent for a while, fighting against the tears that were about to fall from her eyes.
How could she be so mistaken? He was gone and he would never come back: she had to accept it.
That videocassette was the only tangible memory left of him.
“ Could I…” she asked shyly, her voice trembling.
“ See the video? Sure! And if you want, I’ll make all the copies you want, Buffy!” Andrew said, glad to be useful.
Cordelia watched the two of them perplexedly.
“ Why would you want to see that? The house was a mess, there isn’t a single telegenic person, and every Potential’s hair style is horrible, not to mention their clothes, eewww!” the brunette exclaimed.
After all, no one had ever told her about Buffy and Spike.
She thought she was upset due to the destruction of Sunnydale and the several deads before and during the battle, but not because of the lack of that vampire.
Andrew dragged her out of the room.
“ C’mon, Cordy, let’s go!”
“ Why? I ‘m not finished watching it…” she complained.
“ I said LET’S GO!” he repeated, closing the door and leaving Buffy alone in the room, in front of the video recorder.
No one dared to disturb her, but after a while, Xander got in, maybe he was the only one who could understand how she felt.
He observed her for several minutes, as she watched, stopped, and re winded the only two minutes where she could see and hear Spike, even risking to spoil the videotape.
And then, the girl noticed his presence.
“ Xan! Maybe you wanna see..”
“ Don’t worry, Buffy, watch it as much as you please! After all, I have lots of pics with Anya and all the gifts she gave me… while you have got only .. that!” he replied, sitting beside her.
“ See?” she said, pointing at the screen.
“ It’s so typical of him: being all rude and pretending to hate the video camera, when I know he liked being shot, vain as he was!” she commented with a ghost of smile.
“ Xan, I miss him so bad!” she confessed, throwing herself in her best friend’s arms and crying her eyes out.
Xander let her cry it all on his shoulder.
“ I’m also sorry for you, about Anya; just when things were going to be fine between you two, it’s not right, nothing is right! At least, you had the chance to show her your love, so she died knowing you loved her.. Instead, although I had lots of chances with Spike, I’ve been so stubborn and bitchy I wasted them all. So, when finally I found the courage to admit my feelings and tell him I loved him he didn’t believe me!” the blonde confessed to Xander, which had lost the strength to react and to amaze himself at a revelation like that
“ Buffy, I’m sure he understood that!” he confined himself to say.
“ No, Xander, I saw it in his eyes: he thanked me for saying that, but he didn’t believe my words. And I can’t blame him, he saw me kissing Angel when he came back…”
“ You kissed Angel?” Xander interrupted her, more surprised this time.
“ Yeah, but it was an innocent kiss, a goodbye one, without passion, feeling, nothing. All I thought was that he was cold just like Spike, and I did the opposite when I kissed Spike, but only at the beginning…”
“ And you didn’t explain it to Spike…” the boy guessed.
“ It was too late. I entwined my fingers with his and our hands went on fire, but I didn’t care: I knew the end was near and I’ve got only few seconds to talk to him before the explosion, I would have liked to stay with him ‘till the end; but he would never forgiven me for that, I know. So, I use that moment to tell him something important, something I really meant! There wasn’t time to clarify things about Angel…” she cried.
“ So, using your words, I have this painful hole inside. And I’m the idiot who dug it out!”
“ Buffy, do you think I’m better? Do you think you are the only one who wasted all the chances? I hadn’t even had courage to marry the woman I loved! I had the chance to bring her to the altar, to have children with her, to spend my life with her, possibly dying very old! Instead, I ran, scared by God knows what! So, she became a Vengeance Demon again. Maybe, if that hadn’t happened she wouldn’t feel that sense of guilty that brought her… to sacrifice herself… to save Andrew…” and this time he was the one who cried.
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05/18/17 04:16 am
pj! I remember wishing one of your stories would be finished seriously about a decade ago. Amazing. I just tried an old password I used to use and amazingly got in too. Memories!
pj
03/20/17 01:20 am
10 yrs later, i finally rem my username and password. Pari, you rock. Hope you are well.
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12/23/16 01:12 pm
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AudryDaluz1
10/06/16 08:34 am
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08/31/16 03:45 pm
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Chrissel
08/31/16 03:43 pm
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