Hello, pet. Sorry I'm runnin' late. The Niblet had trouble gettin' to sleep again. Told her a few stories from when I lived in Europe. Some of Dru's mad antics. Yeah, I know you don't like me tellin' her that stuff, but don't worry, nothin' bloody. Nothin' that she wouldn't be allowed to hear. You have my word on that.
I brought you some flowers. Didn't know which ones you'd like best, though. These are freesias and lilies - right pretty they are. Jus' thought they'd brighten up the place a bit. I know your Scoobies don't come round much. Guess it's difficult for them... I know that Red's girl, Tara, brought the Bit along last week though. Good on her, she's nice like that, you know.
Yeah, yeah, luv, we both know I'm skirtin' round the bloody obvious here. It's been thirty-three days. Imagine. I can't get my head round it, pet. So full of life, you were. Best fighter I ever came up against, never could've imagined this, despite all my stupid schemin' an' plottin' back before. An' I'm havin' trouble wrappin' my head round the fact that I'm still bloody here. There's only one reason I haven't walked out into the next sunrise. You know it, an' I know it, Hell, poor thing, even she knows it.
Dawn. I'd go. I'd lie here beside you, an' wait for the bleedin' sun, if it wasn't for her. She needs me. I get that. Besides, I promised you, didn't I?
" 'Till the end of the world. Even of that happens to be tonight."
Lookin' at everythin' now, I'm pretty sure the world ended when you did. Well, at least my one did anyway.
God, I miss you. Love you so bloody much. I wish... No, not selfish enough to wish you back here. As much as I miss you, I'd never take this away from you. Not your reward, not your peace. You fought long and bloody hard for it.
Oh, Buffy, this gets harder every night, with every one of these soddin' nightly visits. I always thought the first night would be the worst. God. No. This is harder. Last night's was easier, and I know that tomorrow will be three times harder than now. Always is.
Bugger it, I've gotta go, kitten. Promised myself I'd get back to your place, keep an eye on little sis' an' all that - her nightmares are gettin' worse, an' I'll be damned (fingers crossed I'm not already) if I'm not there to look after her. I'll be back tomorrow night, you can count on it. Hope you like the flowers, princess, I'll bring new, different ones tomorrow. Promise.
Love you, baby. Hope Heaven's as good as it should be. Until tomorrow night then...
Spike leaned forward, his forehead touching the cool marble of Buffy Anne Summer's headstone. His hand brushed over the lettering, patted the dirt, and in the eerie silence of the cemetery, the vampire stood up, turning away from the grave, silent tears pouring down his face.
" 'Night, pet..."
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05/18/17 04:16 am
pj! I remember wishing one of your stories would be finished seriously about a decade ago. Amazing. I just tried an old password I used to use and amazingly got in too. Memories!
pj
03/20/17 01:20 am
10 yrs later, i finally rem my username and password. Pari, you rock. Hope you are well.
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12/23/16 01:12 pm
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AudryDaluz1
10/06/16 08:34 am
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08/31/16 03:45 pm
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Chrissel
08/31/16 03:43 pm
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