Warning: B/A scene at the beginning but nothing graphic. This is my first attempt at an almost PWP story (minimal plot) Also, please note that although Angel is called “Angel” in this story, he’ll act more like Angelus.
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“I love you,” Buffy confessed to Angel as he guided her slowly inside his bedroom.
Since returning to school as a senior after the long summer, the only mantra Buffy recited over and over inside her head was: "I will get Angel to be my boyfriend this year." She was a high school nobody who hung out with friends belonging to the same category. As far Angel was concerned, she didn’t exist until she showed up in his English class one day with her new honey blonde hairdo sans the eyeglasses. It was on that very same day that Angel began to ask her out.
They were three weeks into their new relationship when Angel’s birthday came. At the party Cordy had thrown for him, Buffy had a great time. Everything seemed to have gone pretty well until the party ended and Angel asked her to up to his room.
“Right back at you, honey,” he answered as he carefully began unzipping his fly.
“What are you doing?” Buffy was so mortified that she had taken a few steps back.
“What does it look like I’m doing, baby?” He told her briskly as he dropped his pants and boxers. It had been three full weeks of keeping his hands to himself and it was driving him insane. Ever since he saw the newly transformed Buffy, all he could think about was how great it would be to get her into bed. He knew that she was kind of new to the game of making out. The first few kisses that they shared confirmed it. So he had to keep in mind to take it slow with her.. He didn’t want to scare her off. However, now that it was his birthday, he thought it was about time he started getting some action from his innocent blonde girlfriend. He liked the idea of taking her innocence since he knew it was going to be a rare experience, especially with the school he goes to. He already felt so hard as a rock just thinking about it.
“Oh God!” Buffy blushed profusely as she quickly covered her eyes with both of her hands.
Angel laughed softly and moved to uncover her eyes. “ I’ll have none of that now. Please…” He pleaded.
“But I already told you that I’m not ready to have sex-“
“We’re not going to, I swear. But there are other things we could do that could be almost as good as the real thing.”
“You want me to give you a….”
“A head. Please baby, I need you...“ He pleaded as he pulled her down so that was now kneeling, facing his swollen cock.
Buffy looked at his nude form in fear. “ I don’t think….”
“Baby, you have to.”
“ I can’t Angel. I’m sorry.” And with that she quickly ran out of his room, her face filled with tears.
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Buffy cried throughout the night. She cried so hard that she ended up having a slight migraine the morning after. Life sucks, she thought to herself. Her mind kept going over what happened the previous night as she brushed her teeth and changed into her shirt and jeans.
She remembered running outside Angel’s room with Angel following quickly after her to tell her that their relationship wasn’t working out. He told her he was sorry for making her cry. He said he didn’t mean to hurt her and that inside he was hurting as well.
Buffy could not believe he dumped her. She also couldn’t believe how much she hated herself at that moment. Angel was her whole world. How could she have turned him down like that? If only she had said yes and tried doing what he wanted her to do then she and Angel would still be together.
How hard was it really to suck his freakin’ thingy. Truth was, she hadn’t even seen one up close before. She had no idea that a guy’s thingy could grow that big. Even at that moment, she still found herself cringing at the memory of its bell shaped top with something gooey oozing out of it. Ugh! It wasn’t a pretty sight.
But even if it was far from being a thing of beauty, Buffy still blamed herself for reacting the way she did. Angel had cared about her. At least, that was what he said every time they would kiss and neck in the back of his car.
It’s not too late. There’s still a chance that Angel would take her back. If only she knew how.
“Angel’s broken.”
Joyce’s voice brought Buffy out of her deep thought. She didn’t realize that she was already standing at the bottom of the stairs of their living room. “Huh?”
“Our Angel’s broken, “Joyce repeated, showing her the broken angel Christmas ornament that she took out of the box. “I must’ve accidentally broken it when I took it from the attic.”
“Oh,” Buffy said when she realized what her mom was talking about.
”We need to buy a new one,” Joyce chirped as she handed her daughter a box of other ornaments to put up on their tree.
“I could run to the store if you want.” Buffy offered.
“No, we could do that together when I get back from Boston on Sunday. Anyway, we still have three weeks before Christmas.”
“Okay.”
“Are you all right, sweetie? You look a little pale and-“
“Angel and I broke up.” Buffy croaked before her mom took her in her arms to comfort her.
“Aw….My darling Buffy,” Joyce coaxed. “I’m sure everything’s gonna be okay.”
“Oh mom, you always say that but it never does.”
“Buffy...”
“They always leave. They all do. First my dad and now-“ She broke into a fresh set of tears.
”What happened?” Spike emerged from their kitchen, looking agitated. He just came from the back door and the minute he heard Buffy’s soft cry, he got worried.
As soon as Joyce saw Buffy’s best friend impatiently standing beside her, she automatically handed over Buffy to him.
“Buffy…” He whispered softly as he hugged her fiercely.” What happened, pet?”
“A-Angel…and I ….broke-up.” She managed to say between sobs. ”H-he dumped me.”
“That bastard.”
“It’s not his fault.”
“Sure it’s not,” he said sarcastically.
Joyce cleared her throat and spoke-up. “Buffy, I still have a few boxes of decorations left in the attic. I think I’ll go and get it.”
“I can help you carry them, Mrs. Summers.” Spike offered.
“No dear, I’m fine. They’re not really heavy,” Joyce explained before she started to head upstairs.
“The poof doesn’t deserve you, Buffy. You should be happy that he left you.” Spike told her when they were finally alone.
“But I love him, Spike.”
“ I don’t know…Maybe you just think you do. You really don’t know him that well so how could you think-“
“How could you say that? You don’t even know a thing about falling in love, Spike! I mean, God! You change your girlfriend as often as you change your socks.” She pointed out.
“ I know this may sound a little hard to believe, but the poof happens to be a lot worse than yours truly. He’s not who you think he is, Buffy.”
“I did not say he was perfect, Spike. I like him the way he is. He’s my soul mate.”
Spike heaved a big sigh and tried to calm himself. “What exactly happened between you two that made him dump you? I mean no man in his right mind would let you-“
“It’s all my fault,” she said, feeling hopeless. She wished there was some way she could make Angel change his mind. She could come back and say that she could try again to please him. Things would’ve been a lot simpler if she would only learn how to overcome her fear of having sex. If only she had someone who could help her...
“What ever it was, Buffy, I’m sure that it’s totally not your fault. You should- why are you looking at me like that? Do I have something between my teeth?”
“Spike!” She chirped, her face suddenly showing signs of hope.
“Buffy?” He asked worriedly.
“We’ve been best of friends for a long time, right?”
“Yeah, but I don’t see what this has anything to do with-“
“And all this time I’ve always been there for you whenever you needed me.”
“That’s true,” he said. “ How come I have a feeling that I’m not gonna like where you’re going with this?”
“You’re an expert when it comes to pleasing women.”
“Uh…hu…”
“Spike, can you help me?”
“Sure yeah. What do you want me to do?”
“Can you teach me how to please a man in bed?”
TBC
A/N: Been toying with this idea for a while now. Unlike my other story – “For you I will”, this is gonna be over in 8 or 10 chapters, it depends. Let me know if you if you liked it so I could start writing the rest of the chapters.
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pj! I remember wishing one of your stories would be finished seriously about a decade ago. Amazing. I just tried an old password I used to use and amazingly got in too. Memories!
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