RATING - PG
CONTENT-It's kind of angsty, but mostly it has G rating.
PAIRING/CHARACTER - It's Dawn's POV
SPOILER WARNINGS - Pretty much The Gift, Graduation.
DISCLAIMER- I don't own any of these characters. Joss Whedon and the people at FOX do :)
Untitled
By Ali
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Dawn's POV.
It was a windless night.
The wind didn't drift through the trees, the moon stayed up there, in the sky, an empty hollow.
As I neared Buffy's grave.. under the willow tree, filtered from the moonlight in the dark night sky.
Would she of liked it? She was always like that. Surrounded by darkness.
As I sat down next to Buffy's grave, I wanted to cry. Cry, for her, cry for me, cry for everyone she left behind. I haven't cried. Not once. Everything just burned. Everyone told me it was ok. Willow told me it was alright. And as everyone sobbed.. I just stood there. I can't cry. It's too painful, and the tears won't come. But I guess I'm past that point.
I guess right now I'm near hysterical. And as I sat down, under the tree, staring at the imprinted words on the grave, I was wondering.. my head was spinning... My sister is under there. She was always there for me. My savior, my protector. She saved me .. She died for me. My older sister, my role model.. was under there.. closer to the worms in the earth then she was me. She was under there.. in that box. 6 feet under.
I stared at the grave.
A hand placed itself on my shoulder. I didn't flinch, didn't move. The strong placement of the hand made me knew who it was.
He didn't say anything. He stood there, hand on my shoulder. And we stayed as we were, for a long while. Just staring at her grave.
"She loved you."
Angel stayed silent when I said that.. just stood there. I continued, suddenly starting to babble. "She never loved Riley. She liked him a lot.. but there was always that pain in her eyes. That longing for you..."
Angel was silent, still.
"She was like that ever since you left. Why did you leave, Angel? Why weren't you here for us? Why weren't you here for her?! She died for me. Why weren't you here to help her?! WHY? She died for me .. I was the Key and she DIED .." The tears came. for the first time since my mother died.. I started to sob. "She loved you and you left her. You broke her heart and you weren't even here to save her!"
And I looked at him, tears rolling down my cheeks, and I saw the guilt in his eyes. The endless pain. The same look that Buffy always had. I knew it was unfair to blame him. It was easier.. easier then bringing up the truth. The truth that she died for me..
I was sobbing, wailing. My sister. Closer to the earthworms then me. In a box, for Christ's sakes. The tears for Giles, for Willow, for Xander and for Angel. Her love.
Unsure of what to do, I walked away, tears streaming down my face, and so caught up in my own misery, that I left Angel, standing silently at the grave; his own tears dripping to the ground.
And a half an hour later, the dust settled on the claddaugh ring; shining flawlessly on the grave; it matching to the very same one in the box 6 feet under.
Ashes to ashes.
Dust to dust.
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