| Oh, My Love It's You That I Dream Of.. by Spikes Slayer2 |
| Chapter #1 - Chapter 1 - Somewhere in my heart |
| “Oh, My Love It’s you That I Dream Of” Post Chosen but before Angel season 5. Buffy is recuperating in a small hotel after the battle with The First Evil. Giles feels that Buffy needs a little extra help and offers her a small potion. As the rain falls, will she take time to remember Spike and the times that they met and never told anyone? (e.g. she knew about him going to Africa..) Want to know.. Read and find out =) Big THANKS goes to Amy for betaing my story for me.. *sends virtual hugs*  Chapter 1 - Somewhere In My Heart ~*~ She sat alone in a small, rickety chair and stared out the cracked window of her hotel room. They had just beaten the First Evil and she now finally had time to rest and think about her life. Yes, she wasn't the only Slayer now, no longer The Chosen One but she was still just Buffy. Chosen... She thought. What did it mean anyway? Was she chosen to turn Sunnydale into a crater? Or was she chosen to lose anything that meant something to her? Chosen. She didn't like it. Once again brought from her reverie by the piercing clap of thunder that threatened to shake the walls apart, she noticed that the raindrops falling down the window mirrored her own tears. 'What am I even crying for?' It wasn't if she had anything left to lose. *Knock Knock* "Buffy? Can I have a word?" Buffy quickly wiped the tears away and looked up to see Giles standing in the doorway. "Sure." She said, her voice raspy from the lack of use. "I was thinking that now everything is over, you might consider taking this." Giles held out his hand to reveal a small bottle filled with a slightly glowing red potion. She could smell the sweet perfume it produced as Giles removed the lid. Buffy savored the smell of vanilla and strawberries but eyed Giles and the potion suspiciously. "What is it and what does it do?" She demanded. Giles paused for a moment, unable to come up with the right words as he could hear the defensiveness in his Slayer's voice. "Buffy, I noticed that in the weeks leading up to the battle with Caleb and the First you somehow managed to disregard any type of rest patterns." He paused to see the reaction Buffy would have. When she did not explode like he thought she would, Giles took the next step and continued. "And I thought that, if we were to make it through the battle, you would need some help in returning to your full strength and mental state. This potion is a small sleep inducing liquid that allows the user to fall into a deep slumber to take time to heal physically and mentally." "What do you mean mentally, Giles?" asked Buffy, cutting him off. "Oh, right. It means that it will help you overcome any type of mental exhaustion and pain. I thought that it would help you recover from losing Spi-" "How dare you even mention him around me! He saved the world and all you can do is give me a potion that will mask the pain of losing him! He was my everything Giles, and now he's gone! I love him! And that bothers you so much that you're willing to give me a potion that will somehow make me forget him! I cannot believe this, coming from you, of all people!" Exploded Buffy as she stomped around the room, and glaring at Giles, who merely stared at her. "I can quite understand that Buffy, especially after I tried to get rid of him. But I can assure you this potion will not make you forget him in any way. It works in the opposite direction if I'm not wrong. 'The potion of slumber taken will make the user remember times when happiness was not lost and two were but one mind.' That it was it said, it simply means that as you heal you will be returned to moments when you were happy ..... or any other moment actually. I do not intend to make you forget Spike. I only wish that you remember him and somewhat and be able to move on, from this tragedy." Stated Giles as he sat down next to Buffy and handed her the small bottle. Buffy accepted the bottle and stared at the floor, "Thank you Giles." She whispered. Giles simply nodded and gave her a small hug. "Take as long as you need, I will see to it that you are not disturbed." He shut the door to Buffy's room, praying that she would begin to heal as she lay down on the double bed and cried. ~*~ Buffy cried for what she thought was hours after Giles left her room. She could still hear the rain and the thunder outside and as a new wave of tears made themselves known. She took the small bottle from the table and drank it down in one go. Laying back down on her pillow she pulled the covers around her as she continued to cry, hoping that the potion would work and she would truly be taken back to a time when she was with Spike. Her eyes were becoming heavy but she couldn't tell whether it was the potion working or just her own exhaustion that had finally caught up with her and was taking its toll. "Please spike, I just want to be with you again. I want to make you believe me, I need you to believe me. I love you!" She whispered as the familiar smell of sweet vanilla and strawberries again filled the room and sent the fatigued Slayer into her dreams to heal and remember the times that her head and heart genuinely desired. A/N - Hope you liked.. is it worth continuing? let me know =) |