Lust

by Azrielle

Remember the beginning of “Something Blue”, when Spike is chained to the bathtub? Well that’s where this story starts…lots of smutty goodness I assure you, Will be Spuffy. My muse started yelling at me to get my butt to the computer and start a new story. Really I am not surprised, she just finished a box of chocolate covered cherries.

Lust

“It's about time. Hope you got it warm enough.” Spike growled
~ Teasing little chit. ~ He growled softly, impatiently waiting for his dinner.

Giles handed a mug of semi-warm blood to Buffy. She took it, and sighed. She made a face as she put it close enough to Spike that he could take the straw into his mouth.

Spike sucked through the straw as if it was the most delicious thing he’d ever tasted, trying to make Buffy squirm. “I don't know why you're so dainty all of a sudden. You've done this for Angel - you must have.” He said casually.

Buffy pulled the mug away, the straw still dangled from between Spike’s lips. ~ Infuriating jerk. ~ Buffy thought to herself.

“Hey! Give it!” Spike shouted indignantly. ~ Gonna make you pay Slayer. ~

“Okay, that's it. The invalid amnesiac routine is over. The kitchen is closed until you can tell me something useful about the commandos.” Buffy said angrily. ~ Stop looking at me like a wounded puppy. ~ She thought to herself, trying to ignore the desire she felt.

“I'm tryin' to remember. It was very traumatic.” Spike said. He leaned back against the tub and smirked at her.

“How long are you going to pull this crap?” Buffy said exasperated

“How long am I going to live once I tell you?” Spike asked curiously
~ If I kissed you how long would I last? You smell so good. ~ He wondered silently. ~ Know if I asked that question I’d end up fitting in an ashtray. ~ He grimaced.

“Look, look, Spike - we have no intention of killing a harmless.. uh, creature.. but we have to know what's been done to you. We can't let you go until we're sure that you're .. impotent” Giles said looking at the vampire chained to his tub.

“Hey!” Spike said angrily.

“Sorry, poor choice of words. Until we're sure you're, you're…” Giles searched for the word.

“Flaccid?” Buffy supplied sweetly. ~ Nothing flaccid about him. ~ She thought lustily.

“You are one step away, missy.” Spike said, offended with her choice of words.

“Giles, help! He's going to scold me.” Buffy yelped sarcastically.

Spike growled, as he tried to grab Buffy, but the chains held him back.
~ Come a little closer Slayer. Oh the things I could do to you. ~

“You know what? I don't think you want us to let you go. Maybe we made it a little too comfy in here for ya.” Buffy said glaring at him.

“Comfy? I'm chained in a bathtub drinkin' pig's blood from a novelty mug. Doesn't rank huge in the Zagut's Guide.” Spike said shrugging his shoulders. ~ Unless you were chained in here with me. ~

“You want something nicer? A look at my… poor neck? All bare and tender and exposed… all that blood just ….pumping away…” Buffy said seductively, trailing her finger down over her jugular.

Spike licked his lips. ~ Yeah…that’s what I want. ~ He thought feeling his cock twitch and grow.

“Oh, please.” Giles said rolling his eyes. He turned on his heal and stalked out of the bathroom.

~ Look at the way his tongue moves over his lips. No. Bad Buffy. No sexy spike thoughts. Spike? Sexy? Where’d that come from? ~ Buffy licked her lips and leaned a little closer to Spike. “Spike…I…”

Spike leaned forward, his lips seeking hers. ~ Damn bloody chains. ~ Spike thought as he felt them restraining him. “Closer Buffy…” He whispered.

Buffy opened her eyes and looked into his cerulean blue ones. She moved closer, and closed her eyes again. Buffy leaned in expectantly.

Spike captured her mouth in a tender kiss, leaving Buffy breathless and confused.

Buffy broke the kiss and backed up. She covered her mouth with her hand. ~ What the hell is wrong with me? ~ She asked herself. She turned and fled the bathroom.

“Bloody hell.” Spike muttered under his breath, he tried to adjust the growing hardness in his jeans pressing painfully against the zipper.
~~~~~`
“I’ve got to run out for a little while will you be ok alone with Spike?” Giles asked when Buffy reached the living room.

“Slayer here Giles. I’ll be fine with one chained up vampire.” She smiled softly at him. “As a matter of fact, I’m gonna go back and check on him …see if he’ll talk.” Buffy said. ~ Alone with Spike. After he kissed me. After I *let* him kiss me. I *wanted* him to kiss me. ~ She thought shocking herself, she was so engrossed in her thoughts she didn’t hear Giles quietly shut the door on his way out.
~~~~~`

~ Bloody hell. She’s not going to come back and help me get rid of this, gotta take care of it myself I suppose. ~ Spike thought angrily to himself.

He undid his pants in quick jerky movements, his hand chained together not making it very easy.

Spike grabbed his hardened length in his hand he squeesed and pumped himself slowly. ~ Bet she’s tight. Her heat…surrounding me…~ Spike thought stroking harder.
~~~~~`

Buffy stopped outside the bathroom. She heard chains rattling. ~ What the hell is he doing in there? ~ She wondered. She stood quietly and listened.
~~~~~`

Spike was panting from exertion. He was fantasizing that it was Buffy’s hand roughly stroking his manhood. ~ Bloody chit is standing outside the door. ~ Spike realized. ~ Better give her something to listen to. He thought grinning evilly to himself.

“Slayer.” He growled softly. “Yeah…touch me…” He moaned just loud enough for her to hear.

Buffy gasped, ~ He’s…oh god…and he’s thinking about *me*? No. He’s not. He can’t be, he’s just teasing me. ~ She decided. ~ I’m gonna go in there and bust him for teasing me.

Spike heard her gasp and grinned pumping faster. Knowing she was on the other side of that door, listening to him turned him on more that he thought it would. “Please Slayer…want you so much…” He growled softly.

He heard the door opening and leaned his head back against the tub, closing his eyes and giving over to the sensations. ~ Guess I’m ready to die. ~ He thought stroking faster. “Mmhhhhh.” He moaned, knowing she was standing over him.

Buffy entered the bathroom and was totally unprepared to be faced with the reality of her sexy mortal enemy masturbating and thinking of her, she couldn’t catch her breath.

“Spike?” She asked timidly “What are you doing?” She was panting, seeing him, like that cock in hand stroking and knowing he was thinking of her was driving her wild, she could feel the moisture of her arousal soaking through her panties.

“What’s it look like Slayer? Not getting any satisfaction any other way.” Spike said closing his eyes and continuing his ministrations. “You like watchin’ me?” He asked casually, he started pumping his hips in time with his stroking.

“No…I…I just…” Buffy came closer and knelt by the tub. She leaned over and kissed him roughly on the lips. ~ I want to …~ She couldn’t even finish the thought it was so wrong. “Spike….I…”

“Talk to me Slayer…it’ll make me come….call my name….” He growled. ~ I want you so much. Hot little body of yours.

“Is it ok if I do more than that….Spike?” She asked seductively.

Spike growled and nodded, he couldn’t form coherent words.
~ Her arousal is driving me crazy. ~ Buffy climbed in the tub and stood poised over him. She reached under her long leather skirt and untied her panties, letting them fall onto Spike’s stroking hand.

Spike groaned when he felt the soft material hit his hand. He opened his eyes and realized what she had just dropped on him. Spike grabbed them quickly and used them to stroke himself. “Yeah…Slayer…please…touch me…” He begged inhaling her scent. “Want it so bad…please Slayer.”

Buffy sank down and impaled herself on his cock. Her eyes went wide at the sensations it caused in her body and she slowly rocked against him. “I…have a name…say it…” She panted, she could feel the zipper from his jeans digging into her slick thighs.

“Buffy…oh Buffy…kitten…so hot…amazing…ohh. I lo…” Spike’s words were cut off by her hot mist lips pressing tentatively against his. He opened his mouth and allowed her access.

Spike growled hungrily. And thrust up inside her relishing the feel of her on top of him, surrounding him with her scent, her flesh, her blood pumping just below the surface.

Spike reached his still chained together hands over Buffy’s head and let his arms fall around her pulling her closer.

Buffy broke the kiss to breath and Spike rested his head on her shoulder. “Spike…feels so good…” Buffy moaned, grinding harder, faster.

Spike couldn’t contain his demon any longer. He felt his fangs descend and before he could stop himself he sank them deeply into her jugular.

Craving

~~~~~`
Buffy broke the kiss to breath and Spike rested his head on her shoulder. “Spike…feels so good…” Buffy moaned, grinding harder, faster.

Spike couldn’t contain his demon any longer. He felt his fangs descend and before he could stop himself he sank them deeply into her jugular.

Buffy stiffened as orgasm after orgasm ripped through her body.
~ Spike…Spike is making me feel this way. ~ Buffy thought, fear gripping her.

~ Buffy *my* Buffy ~ Spike thought savagely, tasting her blood and feeling her squeezing him. He came undone and thrust his seed into her. He withdrew his fangs. And tenderly licked his mark. “I’m sorry Buffy…I should have asked you….I just couldn’t help it….I just needed to taste you..” He murmured nuzzling into her neck.

Buffy sighed deeply and relaxed. “You didn’t…Spike you didn’t kill me.” She said wonderingly. She tried to pull back from his intense gaze, but stopped when she realized his handcuffed hands held her.

“Buffy …the way you make me feel, I’d tear to pieces with my bare hands anything, that tries to threaten or hurt you.” Spike growled possessively.

“Spike …this can’t…we can’t…let me go…” She said struggling against him. ~ I can’t talk to him like this pressed up against him, knowing he’s ready to do …that…again. ~ Buffy thought desperately.

Spike raised his arms over her head. He let her lose and sighed defeated. “Fine. Go then. Run away again.” He said softly.

“Spike I’m not. I just have stuff to do.” She said just as softly. ~ I’ve got to get you out of my head. ~

“Slayer…you’ll be back. Gonna crave me you are.” He said with a cocky grin. ~ Just like I crave you. ~

Buffy turned and fled without another word.
~~~~~`
“It is my will that my heart be healed. Now.” She sighed. Willow placed the mirror down on the bed.

She picked up the spellbook lying next to her. “I will that this book speak it's words to me.” She said glaring at the book, almost daring it to speak. Willow sighed again, She put he book down. ~ Nothing happened. ~ She thought sadly.

Willow picked up a bent Q-Tip. “I will that this Q-Tip gets.. unbendy..?” She said concentrating on it.

~~~~~`
Buffy entered the living room and whimpered softly. She could feel his presence, that tingle that she knew was Spike’s unique vampire tingle.

Buffy sighed in frustration. ~ Just have to stay away from him. ~ She thought. ~ If I don’t give in to the craving it will go away. ~
~~~~~`

“And I see how you could feel that way, I do…” Giles said.

“No, you don't. You say that you do, but you don't see anything.” Willow said, her eyes taking on a strange blue glow for a second.

Giles removed his glasses, suddenly finding his vision a bit blurred.
“Um.. Oh, sorry.. Um, sorry. P-perhaps I'd better be going. Let's um, let's talk about this later.” He said stumbling from the room.
~~~~~`

Spike sprawled out in the tub. ~ I can not believe that I’m not bloody dust. Just couldn’t resist her neck, blood pumping just below the surface. ~ Spike could feel himself grow hard at the thought of her, sliding down on him, the way she panted when she came. Over and over she clenched him.

~ Then she ran away. To the living room. ~ He thought with a smirk.
~ I can feel her body calling to mine. ~ He thought hungrily.
~~~~~`

“I mean, I'm going through something. You'd think every once in awhile Buffy would make best friends a priority.” Willow said sadly. ~ At least *one* of my best friends care. ~ She thought dejectedly.

“You know, Will, she had to watch Spike so Giles could come and see you, and get the ingredients for the truth spell.” Xander replied pulling her into a hug.
~~~~~`

“Spike's more important than me. I get it.” Willow pouted.

“Buffy's gotta find out what's up with those commandos. Right now she needs Spike.” Xander said comfortingly.

“Well, fine. Why doesn't so just go marry him?” Willow said, her eyes glowing blue and quickly dissipating.
~~~~~`

Buffy walked slowly into the bathroom. “Spike?” She called softly.

“Baby I’m sorry…please forgive me? Please untie me baby I need you in my arms.” He begged, staring into her eyes.

“Yeah…” Buffy breathed walking slowly towards him. She undid his chains and Spike leapt from the tub.

He grabbed Buffy’s face and pulled her in for a bruising kiss. Buffy wrapped her arms around his neck and molded her body to his.

“Buffy…missed you so much…love you kitten…” Spike murmured raining tiny kisses down on her upturned face.

“Spike…love you…love the way you feel against me…” Buffy whispered, licking his ear suggestively.

“Never been this way for me Slayer…” He said pushing her softly backwards. Buffy felt the toilet brush against her legs.

Spike gently pushed her into a sitting position, and got down on one knee.
~~~~~`

Giles stumbled through the door. ~ Where the bloody hell is that girl I need some help. ~ He thought selfishly. Giles stumbled towards the bathroom, his eyes becoming more and more blurry.

He gently pushed open the bathroom door and watched in horror.
~~~~~`

“Buffy, I thought fighting with you was the height of passion, but the love I feel for you has blinded me to anything else. I love you Buffy. Will you make me the happiest man on earth? Will you marry me?” Spike asked looking up into her hazel depths.
~~~~~`
~ Come on Buffy, Pull out a stake. ~ Giles said silently. He rubbed his eyes, and shook his head. ~ My eyes and ears are playing tricks? What kind of spell is this? ~ He wondered.
~~~~~`

“Oh Spike. Of course it’s yes.” Buffy said happily. She allowed him to place his ring on her finger and then jumped on top of him, pushing him roughly to the floor. She kissed him passionately on the lips.
~~~~~`

“What the bloody hell is going on here?” Giles yelled, finding his voice.

“Giles! You’ll never believe what’s happened.” Buffy squealed turning in Spike’s lap, and making the vampire groan in pleasure.
~~~~~`

Purpose

“What the bloody hell is going on here?” Giles yelled, finding his voice.

“Giles! You’ll never believe what’s happened.” Buffy squealed turning in Spike’s lap, and making the vampire groan in pleasure.

~~~~~`
“Will, don’t be silly, She doesn’t even like Spike…” Xander said exasperated. “You know it’s her job.”

“Fine. Take her side then.” Willow said angrily. She pushed Xander lightly and ran from her room, slamming the door behind her.

“Shit!” Xnader muttered under his breath. He decided to go home incase Willow called.
~~~~~`

“Giles, did you see my ring?” Buffy asked happily. She removed herself from Spike’s comfy lap and sat on the couch beside her watcher.

“Thankfully, not very well.” Giles sighed. ~ I can’t believe he gave her a bloody ring and she took it. ~

“I'm not crazy, and I know that you probably don't approve, and my father's not that far away, I mean, he could- but this day is about family - my real family - and I would like you to be the one to give me away.” She said softly.

“Oh, Buffy! That's… that's so…” Giles was touched that she would ask him to give her away. ~ At her wedding. To a vampire. ~

“Oh! For God's sake! This is nonsense. Something is making you act this way. Don't you realize what you're doing?” Giles asked coming to his senses.

“Living a dream.” She said happily, smiling at Spike. ~ What I’ve always wanted has been right in front of me all along. ~
~~~~`

“Spike…someone’s gonna catch us…. We have to wait...till tonight” She whispered.

“Don’t wanna.” Spike pouted. “Want you all the time Buffy.” He sighed softly into her hair. He stroked her back softly and kissed her again.

“Come on let’s go back into the living room and see if Giles is ok…he didn’t look too well when we came in here.” Buffy said breaking the kiss and resting her head on his shoulder.

“Can I ask you something Luv.?” Spike whispered against her hair.

“Anything.” She said looking into his gorgeous face.

“I love you Buffy, more than anything else, feels like I’ve always loved you…I …would you…I want to claim you.” Spike said hurriedly. “I’ll understand if…. You know if you don’t want me to…but I thought…”

“You want to claim me?” She asked. “What exactly does that mean?”

“I’ll be tied to you until I’m dust. Protecting you, loving you…Buffy, I want you to belong to me.” He growled softly.

Buffy felt his growl in her bones and it shot a thrill right through her, making her body respond. “I already do spike. But if you really want to you can…um…If you claim me…can I claim you too?” She asked. “I want you to belong to me. Forever.” She leaned in and kissed him tenderly.

“Slayer.” Spike growled against her lips. “What you do to me…how you make me feel…god Buffy I love you so much.” Spike was almost panting with need.

“I love you too Spike.” She said unzipping his fly. She pulled his jeans down around his knees and made him sit on the closed toilet lid.

Buffy walked over to the door to make sure it was locked. She looked back at Spike and saw his cock was already hard and ready. For her. She walked slowly to where he was seated, caressing her hips suggestively.

Spike licked his lips in anticipation. ~ My Girl, My Slayer, My Buffy, Mine. ~ He thought profoundly.

She lifted her skirt to bunch at her hips and straddled him sinking onto his hardness. “I want to look into you’re eyes…. Tell me you love me.” She said rocking her hips gently against him.

“You know I do.” He gasped.

“Tell me you want me.” She said rocking faster.

“Always.” Spike said arching his back and thrusting into her. “Point in fact…”

Buffy leaned in and kissed him savagely on the lips. “Spike…” She panted when she broke the kiss. “Make me yours…claim me…” She whispered, arching her back and exposing her tender neck to him.

Spike felt her walls clench around him as he leaned forward. His fangs descended and he growled possessively before plunging them into her flesh. ~ Love you. Mine. ~

“Spike…oh…feels so good…” She breathed as climax ripped through her body.

Spike tenderly licked his mark. “MINE.” He growled.

~ Right in my ear. ~ Buffy thought feeling another wash through her.

“Coming baby coming for you….” Spike growled softly into her ear. ~ Love you. Love you. Love you. Love you. ~ He chanted silently as he released his seed deep inside her quivering milky folds.

“Spike…” Buffy moaned. She bit down on his neck and felt his cool blood enter her mouth.
~~~~~`

“I'm a little distracted. Willow was really upset. I shouldn't have let her go away mad.” Xander said. He rubbed her back softly and glanced towards his door.

Anya grabbed his face and kissed him hard on the mouth.

“Regaining focus.” Xander said pulling her closer.

“We just got rid of your mom. Let's not bring Willow into this. It's time for just the two of us.” She said leaning in for another kiss. “We can go find her later, after….”

Xander nodded and covered her body with his.
~~~~~`

When Buffy tasted his blood, she felt stronger, sexual, loved. ~ My man, My Vampire, My Spike, Mine. ~ Buffy thought slowly licking the spot she’d marked him.

~ Say it baby. Please say it. ~ He silently begged. “Mine.” She moaned lustily.

Spike lost control and shot his seed into her a second time.

“That was so….intense…wow.” She whispered into his ear.

Spike nodded and pulled her close. She left him speechless. Spike had never been speechless in his life, but this girl, this Slayer had literally blown his mind with her claim.

Buffy lay her head against his chest and sighed contentedly. “I love you. I …I don’t ever remember being this happy in my entire life.”

“Love you so much Buffy…you give me purpose…you make me want to make good choices. Don’t want to disappoint you ever again Luv.”

You won’t. You can’t. I know! It's crazy! I mean, we fought for all these years, and then…” Buffy smiled softly. She cupped his face in her hands. “Sometimes you just look at someone, and you know… You know? I think maybe we fought because we couldn't admit how we really felt about each other.” Buffy said passionately.

“Buffy…luv…I…”

“Spike…I’ve wanted you for so long. When we fought…that’s where the fire comes from…the intensity. I know it's nuts, but... I believe that real love and passion have to go hand in hand with pain and fighting.” Buffy said looking deep into his eyes. “You give me all of those thing and more.”

Spike closed his eyes and kissed her softly.
~~~~~`

“Giles are you okay?” Buffy asked walking into the living room and pulling Spike along behind her.

“I rather think not. I seem to be rather…rather… blind. Completely, in fact.” Giles said sadly.

“What? How could this happen?” Buffy questioned waving her hand in front of his face.

“A spell, I believe.” Giles sighed rubbing his eyes angrily.

“Well, we'll fix it. Don't worry.” Buffy said.

“What you want is a general reversal spell. Gonna need supplies.” Spike murmured, walking over to the bookshelf and picking up a book.

“Are you… helping me?” Giles asked turning to the sound of the vampire’s voice.

“Well, it's almost like you're my father-in-law, in'nt?” Spike asked

“See? This is how it's gonna be. Spike'll even take care of you while I'm at the magick shop. From now on, we're a family.” She said walking over towards Spike.

Spike pulled her against him and kissed her passionately.

Giles could feel his panic rising. He stood up abruptly and wobbled his way to the kitchen. “That's alright. I have more scotch.”
~~~~~`

“So the plan is to cure my total, incapacitating blindness … tomorrow?” Giles asked incredulously.

“They were all out of Tagas Root at the magick shop. They'll have more tomorrow. I'm completely on top of it.” She said. Buffy planted herself in Spike’s lap and kissed him softly. “Missed you.” She whispered in his ear.

“Not as much as I missed you.” He whispered back.

“Brought you something.” Buffy said. She got up and walked over to the table where she had placed her package. She pulled the gift out and showed it to him

Spike grinned at her.

She climbed back into his lap holding her treasure proudly. “Aren't they a perfect little us?” She asked holding up the cake topper for his inspection.

“I don't like him. He's insipid. Clearly human.” He said trailing kisses up and down her exposed neck.

“Oo, red paint. We could smear a little on his mouth - blood of the innocent...” Buffy said

That's my girl…” Spike growled softly. He grasped the back of her head and pulled her into a passionate kiss.

“Stop that right now! I can hear the smacking.” Giles said sternly.

“Giles…he’s my fiancée and you can’t stop me from …”

Buffy was distracted by a knock at the door.
~~~~~`

“Hey Buff, Did Willow stop by?” He asked casually.

“Xander…what are you doing here?” Buffy questioned.

“I’m looking for Will. I thought she’d be here…” Xander said glancing around. “Spike! He's all untied! Which you probably noticed…”

“Yeah…I noticed …now why would Willow be here?” She asked.

“Well we kinda got into a fight and…she was supposed to come over and help Giles with a spell…”

“To help stop Giles from being blind?” Buffy asked

“Giles is blind?” Anya asked fascinated.

Xander walked over to Giles and waved his fingers in front of Giles' face.

“Please stop whatever you're doing. You smell like fruit roll-ups.” Giles said disgusted.

“Why are you holding hands?” Anya asked noticing the way Buffy was leaned up against Spike. ~ Strange. ~

“They have to hear it sooner or later...” Spike said smiling happily down at Buffy.

“Spike and I are getting married!” She said looking up at Spike adoringly. .

“How? What? How?” Xander couldn’t make up his mind, which question to ask first.

“Three excellent questions.” Giles said snidely.

“What are you lookin' at?” Spike asked looking into Buffy’s eyes.

“The man I love.” She replied leaning in to kiss him softly, her tongue seeking entrance to his mouth.

Spike wrapped his tongue around hers and pulled her body closer.

Anya and Xander looked at each other disgustedly.

“Can I be blind, too? Wait… Married… I know something…what is it..? Everything's so familiar… Work, brain - work! Oh! Oh oh! Willow!”

“Mm..what about Will.. Mmm, honey, get off.” She said pushing lightly against Spike’s chest, while trying to listen to Xander

“Something about Willow and her griefy-poor-me mood swings - so, so tired of it.”

“What does it have to do with what's going on?” Buffy asked pressing her back up against Spike’s chest.

“She told me you two should get married.” Xander said glancing at Spike, who had his arms draped possessively around Buffy.

“And… that I didn't see anything.” Giles said realizing what Willow had done.

“She did a spell on Giles?.” Buffy asked rolling her eyes.

“Yes...to have her will done. Whatever she says is coming true.”

“And you were effected Giles. I bet she knows how to stop it.” Buffy said determination overcoming her features. “I probably only escaped because I'm the Slayer. Some kind of natural immunity.”

“Yeah. Right. You're marrying Spike because you're so right for each other.” Xander said jealously dripping from his voice.

Spike growled softly and pulled Buffy tighter against himself.

“Xander…” She warned.

“That's it - you're off the usher list.” Spike said.

“People, Willow is out there and she probably doesn't know what she's doing.” Giles said getting to his feet.

“We gotta find her.” Xander said urgently.

“Before somebody gets really hurt.” Buffy said already heading for the door.
~~~~~`

Yearning

“People, Willow is out there and she probably doesn't know what she's doing.” Giles said getting to his feet.

“We gotta find her.” Xander said urgently.

“Before somebody gets really hurt.” Buffy said already heading for the door.

“Giles, you stay here, incase she calls or drops by, Spike and I will check the library…cemetery’s…public places. Xander you and Anya go to her house. Maybe her mom has seen her.” Buffy said giving orders.
~~~~~`

“She’s not here. I guess we’ll check the cemetery’s next.” Buffy said looking around the almost empty library.

“Let’s go then Luv…she’s probably at home…she’ll fix the watcher.” Spike said putting his arm around her shoulder.
~~~~~`

“Hi Mrs. Rosenburg. Is Willow home?” Xander asked hopefully. “Anya and I really need to talk to her.”

“Yes Xander come on in. She’s in her room, you can go on in.” She said waving them in.

~~~~~`

“Spike…touch me.” Buffy said getting as close to him as she could. “I need you to touch me…”

Spike groaned and thrust his fingers into her hair. He pulled her in and kissed her tenderly. “My Slayer.” He whispered. “Need to be inside you Baby…please…feel your heat around me.”

Buffy nodded against his chest. “Let’s get inside somewhere…” She panted, playing with the curls on the back of his neck.

~~~~~`

“Will…Will?” Xander called softly knocking on her door.

“Go away. I don’t want to see anyone.” She yelled through the door.

Xander could hear the tears in her voice. He opened the door, willing to face her wrath, to help her through her tears.

“Go away Xander. I don’t want to see anyone.” Willow said stubbornly laying down on her bed and closing her eyes.

“Well Giles doesn’t have that option thanks to you!” Xander said angrily. “And Buffy…she wants to marry *Spike* Spike the vampire?”

“What?” Willow asked. “Xander, why are you all wiggy?” She asked.

“Your Spell worked Will, Giles is blind and Buffy want’s to marry the evil undead.” Xander said

“But I didn’t do a spell that would…” She trailed off and her eyes grew wider and wider. Xander thought her eyeballs were going to fall out of her head.

“Will? Will what is it? Can we fix it?” He asked.

“It was my Will be done spell. Yeah I can undo it.” Willow sighed sadly. “I need to go to the magic box to get some supplies.”

“Ok…let’s go then the sooner this is fixed the better we will all be.” Xander said clenching his jaw. ~ I want Buffy to hurry up and realize how wrong for her Spike is. ~

“We have to go to Giles’ place and get the key.” Willow said. ~ I can’t believe it worked. But if it worked why didn’t he come back? ~ She felt the tears forming behind her eyes and impatiently wiped them away.
~~~~~`

“Buffy…come to my crypt with me. It has a bed…” Spike whispered in her ear.

Buffy nodded. She grabbed his hand and pulled him in that direction.
~~~~~`

“We found her Giles.” Xander said walking into the watchers flat.

“Well where is she? Is she here? Is she going to fix me?” Giles asked quickly.

“She’s meeting us at the magic box…she need some supplies.” Xander said.
~~~~~`

Spike went down into the basement of his crypt, He lit some candles as Buffy slowly descended the stairs.

She walked over to him and pushed his duster off his shoulders. She let it hit the floor. Spike growled in anticipation.

Buffy felt her body responding to his growl, aching to touch him, yearning for his hand on her flesh.

She grasped his shirt and pulled it out of his pants. Buffy lifted it over his head and tossed it to the floor.

Spike reached out and grabbed her skirt. He slowly undid the zipper relishing the sound it made.

He slowly let the garment fall and realized with a gasp that she was not wearing any underwear. “Naughty girl.” He growled pulling her close to kiss her. He inhaled the scent of her arousal and felt tightening in his groin.

Buffy felt her body respond to the growl. Moisture shot to her core and her nipples tightened as his flesh met hers.

The mark he had left on her neck was craving the feel of his fangs in her flesh claiming her as his.

Buffy turned her neck to the side exposing his mark. Spike licked gently over the wound and kissed it softly. ~ My girl, My mark. Always ~ He thought happily.

He picked Buffy up and carried her to the bed. He sat her gently on the black satin sheets and pulled her shirt gently off.

“Buffy, I have never seen anything as beautiful, I love to look at you in candle light.” Spike said pushing his jeans down his legs.

He quickly stepped out of them and joined her kneeling on the bed between her legs.

“So are you Spike. You’re like a statue, carved of the finest marble.” She said reaching her arms out to him. “Make love to me Spike.”

“Yeah baby slow and sweet…” He whispered. Spike leaned forward slightly and caught her lips with his. He kissed her tenderly.

Buffy felt her bones melt. Spike slowly trailed his hand over her hip and up her abdomen, he gently grazed her taut nipple with his thumb.

Buffy felt a ripple of pleasure shoot through her body. She could feel his mark calling to him. Her tongue sought his. She felt him slowly entering her.

“Spike…” She moaned as she wiggled against him. “Please…” She whimpered as she felt him slowly withdraw, leaving her breathless in anticipation.

Spike leaned forward and cupped her breasts in his rough hands. “So bloody perfect Luv.” He murmured in her ear.

“Claim me again…please…I can feel your mark calling to you…” Buffy said softly looking into his eyes.

“Buffy.” He whispered reverently.

“Spike.” She called out as she felt him slowly thrust in and out of her soaked core. “I love you.” She moaned.

“Love you too Buffy…only you baby…” Spike murmured, his thrusts becoming deeper and harder.

Spike felt his fangs descend and plunged them into his mark. He took a deep pull of her blood and licked the wound clean. “Mine” He growled into her ear.

“Oh…yeah…Spike….yeah…” Buffy screamed, his growl sending shocks of pleasure shooting all over her body. She clenched around Spike causing him to thrust harder.

“Always yours Spike.” She whispered in is ear before biting him with blunt teeth and drawing a little blood into her mouth.

Buffy swallowed and bucked wildly beneath him. “Mine Spike. You are MINE.” She screamed, feeling the waves begin to crash around her.

As both of them hurled towards completion looking deeply into each other’s eyes Spike leaned down to capture her mouth with his….
~~~~~`

Resignation

“Ok, I’ve drawn my circle and I am ready to break the spell.” Willow said nervously.

“Ok…” Xander said.

Willow closed her eyes and concentrated. “Let the healing power begin. Let my will be safe again. As these words of peace are spoken, let this harmful spell be broken.”

Thunder crashed and lightning flashed.

~ Oh….oh I am starting to be able to see again. ~ Giles thought blinking into the barley visible light.
~~~~~`

Spike broke the kiss to stare deep into her eyes. “I feel so drawn to you Buffy…your body, your blood they call to me Luv. I’ll never be able to let you go.” He said sincerely looking deep into her hazel eyes.

“You’ll never have to Spike, we’re engaged and we’ve claimed each other. What we have is special.” She rocked her hips faster. “Spike…please.” She whimpered grinding against him, clenching her walls around him as she came.

Thunder crashed and lightning flashed as Spike spilled his seed. They instantly pulled away from each other both of them stunned.

“What the hell is going on?” Buffy asked. “Why are we…and… with the naked?” Buffy said pushing him off and jumping up to find her clothes.

“Come on back to bed Luv…Where you going?”

“Never Spike…and…we are not responsible for anything we do while we’re under a spell…” She said. ~ This can’t happen. What would they say? ~ “Hurry up.” Buffy said as she straitened her skirt.

Spike grinned at her from the bed slowly pulling the sheet down his body, exposing it to her eyes inch by inch.

“Spike…get dressed.” She said in exasperation and threw his clothes at him. She turned on her heal and bolted up the stairs.

Spike hurriedly got dressed and followed her. “Buffy….”
~~~~~`

“Giles…Giles are you Ok?” Willow asked as she stepped in front of the blind watcher.

“I…I’m starting to see….I can see you Willow…” Giles stammered.

“Oh Giles…I’m so sorry…” Willow said

“Willow…you acted very irresponsibly.” Giles scolded. “Especially after I told you not to use magic.” He murmured.

“I know Giles but I”

“I don’t want to hear excuses Willow. I want you to seriously consider what you have done.” Giles fumed. He took off his glasses and polished them furiously.
~~~~~`

“Bloody hell Slayer… would you just wait a minute?” Spike asked grabbing her arm.

“NO! No waiting.” She said punching him and landing the hit right in the nose.

“Owww. What the hell was that for Slayer?” Spike questioned.

“Spike…let’s just go…no talking.” She replied.

“Sod off. I’m not going anywhere.” Spike growled.

“Yes. You are. We have to go to Giles place and find out what the hell happened.” Buffy said angrily.

“I know what bloody well happened. Red decided to play a little game and make us fall in love. Really wish she’d stop doin mojo on me.” He said just as angrily.

“Spike…you have to come back until we know what those commando’s”

“I am *not* going to be tied to the tub again. Come on Slayer…You know I can’t hurt humans.” Spike softly.
~~~~~`

“Where is Spike?” Giles asked as Buffy walked in alone.

“He stayed at his crypt.” Buffy shrugged.

“Buffy do you realize…”

“Giles…I have had enough of him for one day…he wanted to stay and I let him. I know he can’t hurt anyone…is there a problem with that?” She asked quietly.

“No…No we can check up on him I suppose…” Giles said

“I’m so sorry Buffy…Have a cookie ease my guilt?” Willow said coming in from the kitchen and offering her a plate heaped with home made cookies.
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Buffy took one of the offered treats and sighed. She felt restless. Like a caged animal. She paced the floor and nibbled on the still warm cookie.

“I’m going out to patrol. I can’t just sit here. I’m just too tense from Willow’s spell making Spike and I fall in love.” Buffy said looking directly at Willow.

“Buffy…my spell didn’t say anything about love.” Willow said softly.

“Yeah she said ‘If Spike’s so important why doesn’t she marry him?’” Xander piped in.

Buffy rolled her eyes. “Yeah whatever. I’ll see you guys later.”

~~~~~`

It was well after midnight when Buffy returned home. She had dusted sixteen vamps that night and she was pumped. ~ Felt so good to stretch my muscles. ~ She thought stepping under the hot spray of the shower.

Buffy finished her shower and quickly got into bed. She tried to ignore the mark on her neck calling to him. ~ If I ignore it it’ll go away. Eventually. ~ She thought miserably.

Buffy fell into a deep restless sleep.
~~~~~`

Spike lay lethargically in bed. Every few minutes he would lift the sheet and inhale their mixed scent.

~ Made love to her right here. ~ He thought sadly. ~ Wish she was here in my arms right now. ~
His body was unconsciously calling out to hers. Spike closed his eyes and fell into a fitful sleep.
~~~~~`

Buffy awoke when she was half way out of bed. ~ What the hell am I doing? ~ She wondered. She crawled back under the covers and closed her eyes.

Buffy tried to get back to sleep but images of Spike kept flashing through her brain. Spike on top of her. Spike giving her the best orgasms of her young inexperienced life. “UHHH.” She moaned and rolled over, smoothing out her sheets. “Get out of my head you stupid vampire. I don’t want you.” She murmured through gritted teeth.
Her body told a different story than her head, calling out for her vampire.

She closed her eyes and sighed. Buffy eventually drifted off to sleep.
~~~~~`

After patrol Buffy returned home. She felt and sluggish, hungry and sad. So sad moments later she felt tears running down her face.
~ What the hell is wrong with me? ~ Buffy wondered silently.

She went into the kitchen and made herself a sandwich. Buffy ate it quickly and found she was still hungry. She opened the cupboard and saw the hot chocolate. ~ Yes. That will satisfy this stupid craving. ~

She went to the cupboard and got a cup, she poured milk inside and heated it in the microwave. When it dinged she removed the cup and added the hot chocolate.

Buffy lifted the cup to her mouth and had a taste. ~ Something’s missing. ~ Buffy thought peering into the cupboard. ~ Perfect. ~
She thought spying the bag of miniature marshmallows. She greedily grabbed the bag and dropped a handful into her cup.
~~~~~`

Spike awoke with tears streaming down his face. ~ She’ll never want me. ~ He thought sadly. ~ I will always be a monster in her eyes. ~

Spike stood and quickly threw on his jeans. He wrapped the sheet around himself and maed his way to the upper level of his Crypt.

Spike grabbed a pen, paper and an envelope. He sat down and composed the first letter he had written in over a hundred years.
~~~~~`

Buffy tossed and turned. She couldn’t get comfortable. ~ Why can’t I sleep? And why am I still crying? ~ She thought angrily wiping the tears from her face.

She closed her eyes and fell into a restless sleep.
~~~~~`

~ Ok. I’m ready. ~ Spike sighed. He was resigned to his fate.

He placed the envelope on his chair. ~ Hope she finds it one day. ~ Spike thought sadly.

He stepped outside into the crisp night air and inhaled deeply. ~ Gonna see my first sunrise in well over a hundred years. ~

Spike walked out of his Crypt trailing the sheet behind himself.
~~~~~`

Senses

He stepped outside into the crisp night air and inhaled deeply. ~ Gonna see my first sunrise in well over a hundred years. ~

Spike walked out of his Crypt trailing the sheet behind himself.

He walked through the woods until he came to a little clearing in the wood atop a hill. ~ Perfect spot to greet the sun. ~ He thought kneeling in the soft dewy grass.
~~~~~`

Buffy awoke again. ~ Something’s wrong. ~ Her senses screamed to her to get up.

Buffy got out of bed and threw on some jeans and a sweatshirt. ~ Four thirty in the morning? ~ She thought catching a glimpse of the red numbers on the face of her alarm clock.

She quickly made her way downstairs and silently left the house.

Buffy closed her eyes when she got outside. She opened them again and let her senses lead her.
~~~~~`

Spike sat silently. ~ I Wonder what would’ve happened if Red hadn’t interfered? ~ He wondered. ~ Would she be in my arms right now? She came to me before the spell. ~
~~~~~`

~ What the hell am I doing here? ~ She wondered staring at the open door to Spike’s crypt. ~ Why is his door open? ~ The Slayer in her taking over and stepping silently inside. She took a quick look and realized he wasn’t upstairs.

She made her way to the lower part of his Crypt. Spike wasn’t there either. Buffy made her way back upstairs. ~ Well I may as well wait for him. ~ She thought plopping down on the chair. She heard paper crinkle underneath her and stood up to retrieve it.

Buffy felt the tears start when she saw her name written elegantly on the envelope. ~ He can’t be gone. ~ She thought desperately.

She picked up the cream colored envelope and tore it open.

Dear Buffy,

I’m sorry Luv. I know you could never choose me. I know you think it was all a spell. But I do love you Buffy. I am in love with you. Meant what I said, I can *not* be without you. I wanted you before Red went and did her sodden spell. Since I’ve had you, Buffy you are all I think about, dream about.

I will be gone by the time you read this, I am truly sorry Goodbye Buffy.

Love Spike.

~ ‘Buffy my spell didn’t say anything about love.’ ~ Willows words replayed them selves softly in her head.

~ Spike. No. ~ She thought desperately, sobs wracking her small body.
~~~~~`

Spike could feel it. The signals that told him the sun would be rising soon. The tingles he got in the base of his spine. His instincts told him to run. To hide. ~ Nope. Can’t bloody exist without her. ~ He thought hanging his head sadly.
~~~~~`

Buffy could feel him. Spike was outside, pretty close by. She looked at her watch. ~ Shit. The sun will be up in an hour. I *have* to find him. ~ She thought desperately.

Buffy dried her tears and quieted her sobs. She closed her eyes and let her senses take over. “Spike.” Buffy growled softly running her fingertips over the mark. She inhaled deeply. ~ I can do this. ~ I can find him. ~ She thought eagerly. She could feel his claim calling to her.

Buffy finally stopped trying to fool herself. ~ I do want him. ~ She thought honestly and let herself be led to him by the claim.
~~~~~~`

Spike could smell the sun rising. ~ Half-hour. ~

He closed his eyes and pictured Buffy. Looking up at him with her gorgeous hazel eyes ‘Make love to me Spike.’ Her words replayed in his head.
~~~~~`

Buffy could feel him. She was getting closer. ~ He’s probably in that clearing. ~ She thought suddenly running in that direction
~ I have to find him now. ~ She thought desperately. She was so focused on finding him that she didn’t notice the branches scratching her face and bare arms. She didn’t notice the small traces of blood that welled in some of the deeper scratches.

Buffy broke through the clearing and stopped dead in her tracks. There was Spike. Sitting on his bed sheet in only a pair of jeans ready to greet the sun.

“Spike?” Buffy said softly. She heard a deep growl come from him, it melted her bones and made her knees feel like jelly.

“Spike…please come inside…don’t…don’t do this.” She said tearfully walking closer to him.

“Go away…” He growled turning his face away from her so she wouldn’t see his demon face covered in freshly shed tears.

“Spike…please…come inside with me…” Buffy begged taking hold of his hand and trying to pull him to his feet.

“What for Slayer? I am a monster. You could never love me, when I said I loved you that was real. You were influenced by a bloody spell and not responsible for your actions.” Spike said looking up at her with yellow eyes, wrinkled forehead and elongated teeth. He growled again when he inhaled the scent of her blood.

“Spike…we don’t have time for this...” Buffy said trying again to pull him to his feet.

“You’re hurt.” He growled. He pulled her to her knees beside him. Spike gently caressed her cheek. He could feel her blood calling out to him He wanted to taste her so bad.

“I’m fine…It’s just a few scratches. Spike I …I need you…I’m sorry ok? I lied…I do have feelings for you and they started before Willow did her spell. Which by the way was *only* to get us married and *not* fall in love. We did that all on our own.” She leaned in and kissed him softly.

She rested her head on his shoulder. “Spike I am in love with you.” She whispered in his ear.

“You…you love me slayer?” Spike asked. He pulled back and stared into her eyes unbelievingly.

“Yes Spike. I am in love with you. I want to be with you. If anyone has a problem with that they can go to bloody hell.” Buffy said looking into his eyes.

“Buffy You can’t…”

“But I already do…Spike please….” She choked back a sob. “Please I love you and I need to get you inside…”

Spike nodded and let her help him up. He was walking a little unsteadily. “Are you ok?” Buffy asked concerned.

“Fine Luv, just haven’t eaten in a few days ” Spike replied. ~ I really hope this isn’t a dream. ~ He thought to himself leaning some weight on Buffy

She pulled him closer and held him tightly. Having her hold him upright Spike knew that this was real. Where she led he followed. He believed in her.
~~~~~`

Comfort

“Fine Luv, just haven’t eaten in a few days ” Spike replied. ~ I really hope this isn’t a dream. ~ He thought to himself leaning some weight on Buffy

She pulled him closer and held him tightly. Having her hold him upright Spike knew that this was real. Where she led he followed. He believed in her.

“Hurry Spike…The sun will be up in a few minutes.” Buffy pleaded almost dragging him up the walk.

“Luv…please…so tired…” Spike said dragging his feet even more.

“I promise you can rest soon, come on up the steps…that’s it…” Buffy said helping him up the steps.

She finally got him in the house and breathed a sigh of relief. “Ok Spike…I want to take you up to my room…do you think you can make it? I don’t want my mom finding you on the couch.”

“K luv, I’ll just lean on you…” Spike croaked.
~~~~~`

Buffy helped Spike into her bed. He lay there lethargically. “Sorry luv, I shoulda…haven’t eaten any since Red broke that spell…but I thought I was gonna be dust by now…”

“Spike…no more talk of dust…I’ll take care of you in a minute. Gotta make it safe for you.” She grabbed a thick blanket from her closet and hung it over her window.

Buffy quickly went into the bathroom and got a glass of water. She shut and locked her bedroom door behind herself.

Buffy climbed into bed beside Spike. She looked at him and realized he was sleeping. Buffy softly ran her fingers through his hair. ~ He is so beautiful when he sleeps. ~ She thought feeling the butterflies rushing around her stomach.

“Spike….Spike time to eat.” She whispered in his ear. She slowly trailed her fingers over his stomach.

“Can’t Buffy.” He said simply not even opening his eyes.

“What? Why not?” She asked.

“Luv. Haven’t eaten in days…afraid I’d hurt you…take to much…” He said softly opening his yellow eyes and looking into hers.

“You won’t Spike…I trust you. I’m not going to lay here beside you knowing you’re starving…you have to…” Buffy said moving closer to him.

“No.” He growled forcefully. Spike tried to push her away. “Buffy please…please I don’t want to hurt you…” Spike said softly. Buffy could hear tears in his voice.

“Spike…I promise you won’t. I will not let you take to much ok? Please? For me please Spike…I need you to….” She whispered.

Spike opened his mouth to reply and Buffy pushed forward so his fangs slightly pierced her neck. Spike growled softly as he felt the first drops of blood hit his parched tongue.

Buffy felt his arms come up around her and pull her closer as he embedded his fangs further.

Buffy moaned in pleasure and relaxed into his embrace. And listened to the soft sucking sounds he was making against her throat. She brushed her hand over his chest and let herself comfort and feed him.

Spike drank deeply on her blood, feeling stronger and more satiated with each pull of his slayer’s blood. ~ She’s getting a bit weak. ~ He could tell from her heartbeat. He instantly pulled his fangs from her neck and rolled her slightly so she was lying on her back.

Spike quickly licked the wound to seal it. “Are you Ok Buffy?” He whispered.

Buffy nodded. “I’m fine Spike…hold me…we both need some sleep.”

Spike lay back on the bed and opened his arms to her. Buffy rested her head gently on his shoulder and pulled as close to him as she could get.

“I love you Spike…” Buffy said sleepily.

“I love you too Buffy…more than anything…” Spike said almost drifting off.

They closed their eyes and fell into a deep dreamless sleep.
~~~~~`

“Buffy?….Buffy?” Joyce called knocking again.

“Mom?” Buffy called through the door.

“Oh sweetheart good you’re awake…I know it’s Saturday and I promised to take you shopping but I have to go in to the gallery…I’m going to leave my credit card by the phone and you can go if you don’t mind ok?”

“Uh…yeah…” Buffy said loudly. “When will you be back?”

“I hope around suppertime…but I’m not sure…” Joyce said.
~~~~~`

“We have the whole day to ourselves…what do you want to do?” She asked suggestively.

“How bout house shopping?” Spike asked pulling her closer.

“House shopping?” Buffy asked incredulous. “I …I thought we’d you know…with the naked and the orgasms…” Buffy said running her hand over his washboard abs.

“Slayer! Is that *all* you think about?” Spike asked smirking at her.

“Well…yeah.” She smiled. “Why do we need to go house shopping?” Buffy asked. “And how can you do that in daylight?” Buffy raised her eyebrows at him. “If this is an attempt to get out into the sun and get dusty you can forget it!”

Spike grinned at her. “You don’t have to worry about that ever again Luv, as long as you are with me and still want me…”

“I’ll always want you Spike.” She said softly kissing him on the lips.

“Right then. I want to house shop cause you need a proper place to visit…not some bloody crypt. Somewhere your mum and friends can stop by… We can look online…you mum has a computer right?”

“Yeah But Spike how are you going to pay for it?” Buffy asked biting softly on her bottom lip and eliciting a growl from spike.

“You look so…I love it when you do that…” He growled pulling her body on top of his for a kiss.

Buffy ground herself into him. “I want you inside me…” She whispered looking deep into his eyes.

“Yeah…” Spike growled already helping her off with her clothes.
~~~~~`

“I don’t know Giles…she was supposed to go shopping with her mom so I guess she’ll call when she gets back.” Willow sighed.

“What on earth does she need to go shopping for? She owns more clothing than half the stores in that mall.” Giles said exasperated.

“I don’t think it’s about what she buys I think it’s about the alone time with mom.” Willow said softly. “She’s been wiggy ever since I broke the spell.”

“Of course she’s been wiggy Will…she was engaged to *Spike* Her mortal enemy…the vampire not good enough to kiss the ashes clinging to her feet after she dusts a vampire.” Xander said.
~~~~~`

Buffy moistened her lips and kissed along Spike’s collarbone.

Spike let his strong callused hands roam over her naked flesh. He grabbed her hips gently and lowered her onto his waiting cock.

“Spike…oh yeah…” Buffy breathed into his ear. “Love you so much…”

Spike thrust up to meet her. He stuck his fingers into her hair and pulled her down to his lips for a sensuous kiss.

Buffy broke the kiss to breathe and looked deep into his eyes. She saw his love for her shining through.

“I love you too Buffy…” Spike said softly looking into her eyes. He flipped her quickly so she was on her back and thrust into her quickening his pace. Spike took one of her pert nipples into his mouth and sucked gently.

Buffy thrust up to meet his every thrust and they both crashed into blissful orgasm screaming each other’s name.
~~~~~`

“Oh…look there’s one. Two bedroom…fireplace…one and a half baths…wall to wall carpeting…fully furnished…Spike it’s the next street over!” Buffy said excitedly.

“Ok luv.” Spike said. “What’s the number…I’ll call and make and appointment.
~~~~~`

Bindings

“Oh…look there’s one. Two bedroom…fireplace…one and a half baths…wall to wall carpeting…fully furnished…Spike it’s the next street over!” Buffy said excitedly.

“Ok luv.” Spike said. “What’s the number…I’ll call and make and appointment.”

Buffy brought him the number and Spike made an appointment for the same night.
~~~~~`

They stood outside the house holding hands and waiting for the Realtor to arrive.

“The outside is nice.” Buffy said looking cautiously at the little house nestled in some huge trees.

“Yeah, I like all the trees Pet.” Spike said giving her a cocky grin.

“Here she comes.” Buffy said glancing towards the driveway. A woman dressed in a navy blue skirt suit got out of her car and walked towards Buffy and Spike. She had long chestnut hair tied in a neat ponytail, bright shining brown eyes and a friendly smile.

“You must be William and Elisabeth?” She questioned reaching out her hand.

Spike grabbed her hand gently and shook. “Yes we are and you must be Helen.” Buffy said shaking her hand as well.

“Let’s go on in and I’ll show you around.” She said leading the way up the walk. “If you don’t like the landscaping you can always change it.” She said over her shoulder.

“We like the trees.” Buffy said looking into Spike’s eyes a predatory grin on her sweet mouth.

Spike shuddered involuntarily and grasped her hand tighter.
~~~~~`

Helen led them into the foyer and through the kitchen. There was a staircase leading up to the second floor.

“The first door is the guestroom.” She said opening the door and ushering them inside. Buffy and Spike looked around the room. It was very plain, a double bed, two dressers, a closet and two night stands It was decorated in many shades of gray.

They left the room and Helen opened the next door, the bathroom. Done in warm earth tones it was very inviting.

“In here is the master bedroom.” Helen said opening the ornately carved double oak doors.

Buffy gasped when the doors were flung wide. There was a balcony, thick blue velvet drapes pulled back to reveal the beauty they could see in the back yard. Lush trees, flowers and a pond.

Buffy noticed the huge bed against the right wall. Above it hung a mirror the size of the bed.

Buffy blushed crimson with thoughts of what they could do together in that bed.

Spike looked at her when he felt her pulse quicken and knew that she loved it.

“There is a hot tub just off this bedroom, as well as a shower.” She said indicating a door on the left of the room.

“We’ll take it.” Spike said happily.

“Just like that? Without even seeing the rest of the house?” She asked incredulous.

“Yeah, one condition. I give you the deposit and a check for the rest I get the keys now. I want to celebrate with my woman.” Spike said looking into Buffy’s eyes.

“Congratulations the place is yours.” She said handing over the keys. “I’ll just go get my briefcase and we can settle up.” She said smiling at the happy couple.
~~~~~`

“Thought she’d never leave pet.” Spike said shutting the door softly behind Helen and turning to grin at Buffy.

“I know, I couldn’t wait to get you alone.” She said looking at him through her lashes.

“Want you…” He growled stalking closer.

“I’m yours for the taking.” She said lifting her shirt up and over her head.

~ Sexy. ~ Spike thought watching her muscles ripple as she pealed off her shirt.

Buffy threw the garment at him and Spike caught it. He lifted it to his nose and inhaled her unique scent.

He followed her up to the bedroom, watching her ass wiggle the whole way.

“Buffy love you so much…” Spike growled removing his own shirt.

She could feel his mark tingling just like hers did on him. Spike reached over and lightly traced his fingers over where his fangs sank into her flesh. “Mine.” He growled

Buffy shuddered involuntarily and stretched her fingers out to caress the mark she left on him. She felt her body reacting to his growl, instantly moisture rushed to he core. “Mine.” She growled back

Spike let out a low growl and cupped his hands to her pert breasts. ~ Perfect fit. ~ He thought contentedly.

Buffy arched her back, trying to get closer to his touch.

“Can’t live without you Buffy. You make me feel alive. Only time I ever feel this way is when I’m with you.” He whispered locking his gaze with hers.

“Spike you make me feel incredibly wanted and sexy. You make me feel loved and I don’t even remember what life was like before you.” She whispered back.

Their lips met in fiery passion. They kissed until Buffy had no breath. The pulled away both slightly panting. Buffy from her need to breathe - Spike with want of his golden goddess.

“Spike I want and need you in my life. When I walked in on you in that bathroom, calling my name and…and touching yourself…I couldn’t deny it any longer. I’ve always wanted you. But I was scared. Scared of what everyone else would think or say. I used the spell as an excuse and I’m sorry.” She blinked rapidly and looked down at the bed to try and stop the imminent tears from falling.

Spike placed his fingers under her chin and tilted her face back up so her eyes met his.

“I…I don’t care anymore Spike…what they think. There’s only you. You are all I will ever want or need. I love you and I belong to you.”

Spike’s eyes were rapidly filling with tears. He was overwhelmed with her declaration of love. “Love you so much.” He choked out leaning in for a searing kiss.

Buffy moaned into his mouth and let her arms slip around his back. Spike pulled her closer. He felt his cock growing even harder as her nipples tightened into hard little pebbles against his chest.

“Spike reached for her zipper as she reached for his. Both of them tugging impatiently.

Spike undid her pants first and pushed her lightly back on the pillows. He pulled her pants off slowly. His hungry gaze eating up each new inch he revealed.

When he finally pulled her clothing from her body, He picked up her left leg and licked her ankle with his cool moist tongue.

“Spike…” She hissed through clenched teeth. Spike gently kissed her knee before releasing her leg.

Buffy opened her eyes and looked at her lover. He was staring at her with such hunger and devotion she almost lost control. “Take those off…” She growled.

Spike complied pulling off his jeans and quickly tossing them to the floor. Buffy sat up on her knees and reached for him. She snaked her arms around his back and rubbed her body against his.

“Christ woman you are so hot…” Spike growled grabbing her ass and grinding into her. “Saw you looking at the mirror earlier Luv…you want to experiment?” He growled in her ear.

Inspite of the deep blush radiating from her body Buffy nodded.

Spike leaned back against the pillows in a semi-sitting position, his knees bent, pillows supporting his back.. “Get atop me Kitten, facing towards my feet.” He instructed helping her.

Buffy straddled Spike as instructed and moaned when she felt him enter her fully. “Spike…yeah…that feels so good…” She moaned grinding against him.

“Ok sweetness now lean your back against my chest and spread your legs wide.” Spike murmured grasping a nipple in one hand and stroking her swollen clit with the other.

Buffy did what he asked. *Then* she looked up. Buffy saw herself writhing in pleasure, her pussy stretched by his thick cock. She felt shockwaves of intense pleasure crashing through her body as Spike rubbed her clit.

“You like that Baby? Watching yourself get off?” Spike growled into her ear.

“Spike…I’m gonna come…oh god I’m coming…” Buffy growled softly. Spike sped up his thrusting and shot his cold seed into her quivering pussy.

Buffy spasmed against his cock and shuddered in pleasure.

Spike felt her squeezing him and came again. “Buffy…Oh yeah…sweetness…only you can make me come like that.” Spike growled possessively into her ear.
~~~~~`

“No Willow, I went to work. She went shopping by herself today. I haven’t heard from her since I’ve been home.” Joyce said shrugging into the phone. “She left a note saying she’d be back before curfew, that’s all I know.

“Well…Ok…I guess…I’ll talk to you later.” Willow sighed and hung up the phone.

“Buffy’s mom hasn’t seen her. She’s been at work all day. Something’s going on Giles. Buffy wouldn’t just blow us off like that. I think she’s more upset about the spell then she is saying.” Willow said slumping down in the chair. Tears fell freely from her face.

“Will she’s probably just patrolling. You know how she is. If she’s upset she beats up demons…then she’s all better, and everything is worked out.” Xander said. “If you want Anya and I can go look for her.” He offered generously. ~ Make sure she’s not hanging out with the evil undead. Leftovers from the spell. ~

“Thanks Xand…You really are my best friend.” Willow said smiling shyly at him.

“No problem Will. We gotta look out for each other here on the Hellmouth.” Xander smiled back. He took his ex-vengeance demon, now human girlfriend by the hand and led her out into the dark night.
~~~~~`

Horrified

“Thanks Xand…You really are my best friend.” Willow said smiling shyly at him.

“No problem Will. We gotta look out for each other here on the Hellmouth.” Xander smiled back. He took his ex-vengeance demon, now human girlfriend by the hand and led her out into the dark night.
~~~~~`

“I have to be home in a few hours Spike…wanna do a quick patrol with me?” Buffy asked. ~ I’m not ready to leave you yet. ~ She thought getting slowly out of bed and pulling her clothes on.

“Yeah Luv, I want you to stay with me though…why can’t you just come back here?” Spike pouted getting out of bed and pulling on his clothes.

“I …I really want to Spike…but I left mom a note saying I’d be back before curfew.” Buffy whispered snaking her arms around Spike’s waist. ~ I wish I could just stay here wrapped around you. ~ She sighed softly and rested her head on his shoulder.

Spike rested his chin on her head and inhaled her scent. “MMm love the way you smell…Buffy I love you so much…” He murmured rubbing his stiffening cock into her.

“I love you too Spike…come on before we start something we can’t finish right now…” She groaned pulling him along by the hand.

Spike couldn’t contain his smile. ~ Everything is so bloody perfect. ~ He thought happily.
~~~~~`

“Xander why are we out here walking through this cemetery when I could be at home having multiple orgasms?” Anya said softly.

“We have to look for Buffy…she could be still under the affects of the spell…you saw how anxious she was Ahn…
She’s one of my best friends…I can’t stand the thought of her with *him*.” He said angrily.

“Why not Xander? Are you jealous?” Anya asked angrily. ~ Always Buffy and Willow. ~ She thought as the jealousy monster bit her in the ass.

“What?” He almost choked. “You know I love you Ahn…”

“Yeah…but you did have a thing for Buffy…maybe you still do?” She asked hurt and jealousy dripping from her words.

“Come on now…don’t be like that…” He said taking her in his arms and pulling her close.. “It’s not about how I feel…He’s evil…god he *so* doesn’t even deserve to ever have touched her…and if she wasn’t under that spell she never would have…uh I can’t even think about it. She deserves a normal guy…he’s a vampire Anya the very thing she’s supposed to *hate* and kill do you get that at all?”
~~~~~`

Buffy felt Spike stiffen beside her at Xander’s words. She silently fumed at her friend. She looked at her vampire, her gaze questioning.

“Hold up a second Pet…your friends are just up ahead…” Spike said pulling Buffy to a stop just outside the cemetery. ~ Bloody hell. She won’t tell them. ~

“I know, I can hear Xander ranting. I don’t care Spike. They need to know sooner or later that I will not tolerate them talking to you or about you like that… you don’t deserve it. I want to tell them all. What better time than now?” She questioned trying to pull him in the direction Xander’s voice was coming from.

“Buffy…are you sure you’re ready for that? The accusations and all that rot?” Spike was scared that she was just putting on a brave face. He could hear her heart beating a mile a minute. ~ I don’t want to push her anymore than I already have. ~ He thought silently.

“Spike I want them to know. I want everyone to know. I love you, and I don’t…I won’t hide it anymore. Not ever again.” She said leaning in to kiss him passionately.

Spike broke the kiss and looked into her eyes. He saw nothing but truth in them. He nodded and grabbed her hand, leading her through the trees to her friends.
~~~~~`

“Hey Xander, Anya.” Buffy smiled brightly holding a deathgrip on her vampire’s hand. ~ It’ll be ok. It’s my choice. They have to accept it. ~

“Buffy?” Xander’s jaw dropped open. ~ She’s holding his hand. ~ He thought unbelievingly.

“Xander close your mouth.” Anya said poking him in the side.

Xander snapped his mouth shut and turned his beady eyes to Spike. “What the hell do you think you’re doing?” He asked the grinning Vampire.

“Anything my girl wants mate.” Spike smirked.

“Spike…play nice.” Buffy whispered giving him a quick smile. She turned in Xander’s direction. “Xander…I love Spike. We are…a couple.” Buffy smiled at Spike and clutched his hand tighter. ~ Good thing I he’s not human. His poor hand would be broken by now. ~

“Buffy you can’t be serious…you let that …that thing…touch you…” Xander trailed off his face going white at seeing Spike’s bite on her neck. “You bastard!” He shouted punching Spike in the nose. “Buffy how could you?” He questioned, horror in his slowly widening eyes.

“Bloody hell whelp…” Spike growled clutching his now bleeding nose.

“Xander Harris what is your problem?” Buffy asked stepping in between the testosterone driven man and her vampire. He took a step towards Buffy. Spike’s menacing growl stopped him in his tracks

“He bit you Buffy…how did he do that? Were you going to tell us that the chip stopped working?” He shouted pointing at Spike’s mark upon her skin, spittle flying in every direction.

“Xander it didn’t. The chip still works.” Buffy’s words were cut off by Xander’s continued shouting.

“You put us all in danger Buffy…I…I can’t trust your judgement anymore.” He screamed pulling a stake from the waistband of his jeans he tried to get around Buffy. “Somebody needs to do it…dust him for you.”

“Xander Stop it!” She screamed and pushed him roughly away from them. “You don’t…you have *no* idea how much he means to me, you ever threaten him again…”

Xander stumbled and fell to the ground. He was shocked. ~ He turned her against us. ~ “Buffy don’t kid yourself…Spike can’t love you. He can’t feel…and one day…I’ll prove that to you. I don’t know why you’re defending him…but I will find out.” Xander said angrily. Turning on his heel he grabbed Anya’s hand and pulled her along behind him.

Anya turned and gave one last sad look to the couple.
~~~~~`

“I’m sorry Spike.” Buffy said turning to look into Spikes ~ Smiling? ~ Face. “Uh…that didn’t go so well why are you smiling?” She questioned.

“Buffy…Luv…you meant it…you really did.” Spike growled grabbing her and pulling her into a bruising kiss. He couldn’t help it, his demon surged forward.

Buffy felt his fangs grazing her lips and then the gentle pressure of him licking away the drops of blood that had collected on her tingling mouth. ~ Mmm so gentle. ~

She slid her tongue into his mouth and purposely pricked her tongue on one of his descended fangs.

Spike growled hungrily and sucked gently on her tongue, her rich blood coating his throat. ~ My girl. ~ He thought happily.

They broke apart panting. “Of course I meant it you silly vampire. I love you.” She said leaning in for another kiss.

“I just thought…I thought you’d change your mind when…” Spike trailed off. “Doesn’t matter Luv. All that matters is you are in my arms…and that’s where you want to be.”
~~~~~`

“GILES!!!” Xander shouted running into the watcher’s flat at breakneck speed. Anya trailed behind him panting.

“What is it Xander? Is it Buffy?” Giles asked. He ripped his glasses off and polished them anxiously.

Willow sat up from her spot on the couch and rubbed her sleepy eyes. “Xander? What’s going on did you find her?”

“Yeah. I found her alright. Something’s really wrong with her…she says she’s in love with Spike.” He said gesturing wildly.

“There’s nothing *wrong* with her Xander.” Anya spoke for the first time since telling him to close his mouth.

“Anya didn’t you see it…he *BIT* her!” Xander screamed in frustration.

“Yeah. He did. Again. If you paid any attention Xander you would have realized a few things. First, they flirted all the time before they got together, they just hid behind their threats, second he bit her before Willow did her spell and he didn’t kill her. Third, she bit him too…or did you fail to notice that?”

“No she didn’t she wouldn’t…” Xander said angrily.

“Xander…if you can’t face the truth about your friends you’ll never be able to face the truth about me. Goodbye.” Anya sobbed running out of Giles house hot tears streaming down her face.

Xander turned to face Giles and the shocked expression on his face told him his girlfriend would have to wait.
He flopped down on the couch and told Giles and Willow exactly what happened at the cemetery.
~~~~~`

Buffy and Spike softly kissed goodbye. “I’ll see you tomorrow Kitten. You’d better get inside before your mum comes out looking.”

“Kay. Night Spike.” Buffy murmured softly leaning in for another kiss.

They were so wrapped up in each other neither of them noticed Joyce watching from the living room window.
~~~~~`

Anya ran until her breath was coming in short little gasps. She stopped and bent over inhaling deeply.
~ Stupid Xander. He’s so blind. Why does he refuse to accept what’s right in front of his stupid beady eyes? ~ She wondered

Anya started walking slowly down the street. She was so wrapped up in her thoughts she didn’t notice the two vampire’s following her as she turned the corner.
~~~~~`

Lust

by Azrielle

Some things are worth saving

Anya started walking slowly down the street. She was so wrapped up in her thoughts she didn’t notice the two vampire’s following her as she turned the corner.
~~~~~`

Buffy entered the house on cloud nine. She shut the door behind herself and sighed contentedly.

Buffy leaned back against the door and smiled to herself. ~ He loves me so much. ~ She smiled to herself and tucked a stray hair behind her ear.

Buffy closed her eyes and pictured his intense gaze. Boring into her. ~ My Spike. ~

“How was your night?” Buffy jumped at the sound of her mother’s voice.

“Oh…mom…you scared me. I had a good night.” Buffy said casually strolling past her mother to flop bonelessly on the couch. ~ Yeah. Real good night. ~ She smiled to her self rubbing her tingling lips.

“You look pretty happy.” Joyce said smiling at her daughter.

“I am mom. I…I fell in love.” Buffy said dreamily.

“Well…that’s nice.” Joyce closed her eyes and sighed.
~ With a vampire. ~ She thought trying to hold the tears in.

“I’m gonna grab a snack and head up to bed.” Buffy murmured.

“Ok. Goodnight sweetie.” Joyce gave Buffy a quick hug as she made her way up to the sanctity of her room.
~~~~~`

“Why?” Anya wondered aloud. ~ God. I love him so much and I'll always love him…before I knew him, I was like a completely different person. Not even a person, really... ...and I had seen what love could do to people, and it was ... hurt and sadness. I didn’t think I could ever hurt this much. He made me feel safe and warm. I get it now. It was a lie. He never really accepted me. I know why people push Love away. ~ Anya thought sobbing.

Suddenly two pairs of hands grabbed her. She screamed and tried to struggle. ~ Damn it. I wash I had my powers back! ~ She thought fiercely kicking out her legs.

Anya heard a inhuman roar and one of the pairs of hands dispersed into dust. She moaned quietly and sank to the ground whimpering. The other pair of hands having been ripped viciously from her as her attacker was thrown into a nearby wall. Shocked Anya looked up into the eyes of another vampire. One she recognised.
~~~~~`

Spike turned the corner and saw Anya, walking with her head down, two vampire’s trailing slowly behind her.

~ Stupid chit. She deserves to be eaten. ~ He watched as the vampire’s grabbed hear and heard her scream.

Spike remembered vividly the thrill of the hunt., the chase, catching your prey. Blood delicious and warm sliding down your throat.
Spike closed his eyes and inhaled. ~ The delicious smell of fear. ~

~ Bloody hell. ~ Buffy’s image popped into his head. Her luminescent green eyes piercing into him. ~ She’s Buffy’s friend. ~

~ Hope you appreciate my migraine Slayer. ~ Spike thought to himself, launching his body at the nearest vamp, ripping it to pieces. He grimaced as the dust settled waiting for the pain to over take him.

~ NO PAIN! ~ Spike thought with glee. As if to test the fact he slammed his fist into the other vamp. Spike felt the impact in his fist and watched fascinated as the stunned vampire flew through the air.
He looked quickly at Anya assessing that she was ok Spike turned, like the predator he was and stalked his prey. He took two steps forward and let his demon out to play.
Spike was on him instantly hitting and smashing the vampire with savage growls of pleasure. ~ I can hit these monsters. ~ He thought gleefully.
The strangled sound of Anya’s crying pulled Spike from his violent haze.
He stood and walked over to her. Spike grasped her by the hands and pulled her to her feet. “Come on, I’ll walk you home.” He said putting his arm around her shoulder and leading her away.

“I can’t go home…Spike…I …I broke up with Xander.” Anya sobbed.
~ Bloody hell. ~ “Come on then, I’ll take you to Buffy’s. She’ll put you up for the night.” Spike said changing direction and pulling the distraught girl in step beside him.
~~~~~`

“Buffy was almost finished her sandwich and glass of chocolate milk when there was a knock at the back door.

She frowned. ~ Who could that be at this time of night? ~ She thought glancing at the clock before going to the door.

“Giles?” Buffy asked baffled. “What are you doing here?”
“Buffy…Xander is at my house. He was rather upset, blathering on about you and Spike…” Giles stopped when he looked into her eyes and saw the anger and stubbornness that made up the fire in his slayer.
“He had no right Giles.” She said angrily. “I wanted to tell you myself.” She let out an angry breath and turned away from her watcher.
“So it’s true then?” Giles asked apprehension in his soft voice.
“I don’t think Xander’s prejudice ramblings have any roots in truth.” Buffy sighed.
“Buffy. Is this some sort of thrall?” Giles asked. ~ I have to know if she’s let him in to her heart. If she has god help us all. ~ “Xander said Spike has bitten you…and that you let him.”
Buffy bit her cheek and cringed. “Giles. It’s not like that. Spike loves me.”
Giles scoffed. “He can not love Buffy.” ~ I don’t know what the hell that monster did to make her trust him. But I do intend to find out. ~
Buffy turned angrily to him and invaded his personal space. “He bloody well does. I have seen it Giles. He can be a good man, Giles. I feel it. But he's never gonna get there if we don't give him the chance.” Buffy said passionately. She turned from her watcher and paced the room.

“Buffy, I want more for you. I can hear it in your voice. And that way lies a future filled with pain. I don't want that for you.” Giles said sincerely.

“You want to know what is making me hurt Giles? I love him. What I feel for him goes beyond love. He and I belong together. What hurts me is that no one will let me make my own choices. When do I deserve to be happy? When do I get what I want?”

Buffy wiped impatiently at her tears. She sighed in frustration. “He tried to…Giles he tried to dust himself cause he thought I could never love him. He was almost gone before I got to tell him. I won’t take any chances I want to be with him. If you can’t accept that we have nothing left to say to each other.”
“Well, I hope you're right. You're gambling with a lot of lives.” Giles said rubbing his hands through his tousled hair.
He looked up and caught Buffy’s gaze. She was staring at the still open door, a grin lighting her eyes.
“What happened?” She questioned looking into Spike’s eyes and taking in Anya’s tear stained face.
“Seems Anya broke up with the whelp and she was walking the streets when she was attacked.” Spike shrugged. He led Anya to a chair and helped her sit.
“Spike saved me.” She whispered breathlessly. “They were gonna kill me, and he saved me.” She looked into Bufffy’s eyes.
Buffy looked up at Spike and he shrugged.
“What do you mean he saved you?” Giles asked staring intently at the shaking girl.
“He killed the vampire’s that grabbed me, and he brought me here.” She said here eyes filling with tears again.
~~~~~`

Giles couldn’t comprehend the fact that Buffy was in love with Spike. ~ How could a slayer fall like that? For a vampire? And how the hell could a vampire like *Spike* change? ~ He wondered. He sighed and shut off his car.
“Well? Did you talk to her?” Xander pounced as soon as Giles entered.
“Yes. I talked to her. She is determined to be with him.” Giles shook his head.
“Didn’t you try to change her mind?” Xander asked. He was shaking he was so angry.
“While I was there as a matter of fact Spike showed up.” Giles continued as if Xander never spoke a word. “It seems he saved Anya from being attacked from vampires.” Giles said still trying to wrap his head around the fact.
“What? Oh my god! Is she ok?” Xander asked as irrational fear gripped his heart in an icy grip.
“Yes. Thanks to Spike.” Giles said softly. “I need to go to bed. Anya is at Buffy’s. You can reach her tomorrow, I trust you can see yourselves out?” He asked over his shoulder.
Giles didn’t stop on the way to his room to hear Xander or Willow’s answer.
~~~~~`
“I was so scared Buffy.” Anya whispered snuggling further into Buffy’s arms.
“It’s ok now Anya. You have nothing to worry about.” Buffy soothed patting her back comfortingly.
“When I was a demon, I had nothing to fear. Vampire’s! Ha I could kick their asses without even breaking a sweat. But being human? It was really scary.” Anya whispered.
“I know.” Buffy said softly.
“There’s only one think that scares me more.” Anya whimpered tears slipping silently down her cheeks. “What if he never really loved me? What if he was lying? About everything? I know now he could never accept what I was. So how could he really love me?” She sobbed uncontrollably into Buffy’s lap.
~~~~~`

Forever is a long time

“There’s only one think that scares me more.” Anya whimpered tears slipping silently down her cheeks. “What if he never really loved me? What if he was lying? About everything? I know now he could never accept what I was. So how could he really love me?” She sobbed uncontrollably into Buffy’s lap.
~~~~~`

Buffy tucked Anya in to bed after the exhausted girl had cried herself hoarse.

She went down and made up the couch for herself and fell asleep.
~~~~~`

Spike stayed out the rest of the night killing demons.
~ At least I’m not a useless sod anymore. I can hurt demons. ~ He thought happily, making it home mere minutes before sunrise.
~~~~~`

Buffy heard the knocking in her sleep-muddled brain.
~ There’s someone at the door. I should get the door. ~
She thought opening one eye.

“Oh Xander…What are you doing here so early?” She heard her mother ask.

“Hi Joyce…I…I uh heard Anya was here…I really need to see her.” Xander said sadly.

Buffy got up off the couch. She walked over to the door and glared at Xander. “She doesn’t want to see you Xand, and I don’t blame her.” She growled.

Buffy turned on her heal and started up the stairs.

“Buffy Anne Summers!” Joyce scolded. She couldn’t believe Buffy could be so rude to one of her best friends.

“Buffy…please…is she ok?” Xander’s voice cracked as the tears started to flow.

Buffy sighed and turned to face him. “She’s shaken. And she’s hurt.” Buffy said softly, ashamed of how she acted. ~ He looks so sad. ~ She thought taken in his disheveled appearance.

“Buff…I need to see her…could you please tell her that I’m here…” He said looking down at the floor.

“Xander…look, I’ll tell her when she wakes up. Why don’t you go home and I’ll get her to call you ok?” Buffy asked. She was still fuming from the way he talked to Spike and the things he told Giles. She wasn’t in the mood to deal with Xander right now.

“Ok. I’ll go home and wait.” He said softly turning from her. Buffy watched his shoulders shake in silent sobs as he retreated through the door.
~~~~~`

“Xander…Xander wait…” Joyce called running after him. She had watched Buffy retreat upstairs and then followed him out.

Xander turned to look at her his tear stained face red, his eyes puffy, instantly Joyce had her hand on his shoulder. “Are you ok? Do you need to talk?” She asked sympathetically.

“I…Mrs. Summers…I love her so much…I don’t know what to do…I feel like part of me has been missing since she ran out of Giles place…she’s all I can think about.” Xander closed his eyes and rubbed his tears away impatiently.

“Xander, I’m sure it will be fine. All you have to do is talk to her and she’ll see how much you love her.” Joyce said softly.

“Thanks.” Xander said finally gaining control of his churning emotions.

“Why was Buffy so …”

“Spike. She told me they were dating and I kinda went nuts. Hit him and everything.” Xander smiled sheepishly. “I…I had a crush on Buffy before and I couldn’t believe she’d take up with another vampire. Especially Spike. Soulless demon.
~~~~~`

“Bye Mom…I’m going out.” Buffy called to the kitchen.

“So where are you off to? Maybe I could drop you off?” She asked coming out of the kitchen.

“That’s ok mom, I was just going to Spike’s place, to drop something off for him it’s only five houses down, and Willow is picking me up there in about half an hour and we’re going to the mall.” Buffy smiled winningly at her mom.

“Buffy are you sure this thing with Spike is…I just don’t want to see you throw your life away…you have so much potential…you could be so many things…”

“Mom…when will you understand…I am something, I am the chosen one. I *will* die a violent bloody death before I turn twenty one. Why can’t I just be with someone I love? Today, now while I’m alive to enjoy it.” Buffy said softly, passion for her ~ Spike. ~ Ringing out in her voice.

“Buffy…I just want you to have something…normal. Normal... guy…normal dating…”

“I am not normal mom, it doesn’t apply. I need to be out there experiencing life, eating well and getting enough rest and not having to worry about somebody else’s dumbass. That is what makes me a better Slayer and that is what will keep me alive longer.

Joyce closed her eyes and nodded.

“I’m glad you understand mom. I love you.” Buffy said softly giving her mom a hug.

Joyce turned and watched which way her daughter went.
~ I don’t have to like it Buffy. ~ She thought determinedly.
~~~~~`

“Ahn how can I accept your demon? I didn’t even know you then, and it doesn’t really matter does it? I fell in love with you! I love you and you love me that’s all that matters. . The rest …the rest should just stay where it belongs, in the past.” Xander said taking her in his arms.

“But why is that ok for us but not Buffy and Spike? She’s one of your best friends Xander. How can you have a double standard like that?” Anya questioned, resting her head on his shoulder.

“Spike doesn’t have a soul.” Xander replied

But he loves her anyway, and she loves him, isn’t that all that matters Xander?” She asked.

“But…I…ok. They love each other so him being a soulless monster shouldn’t matter? He killed thousands of people…Ahn…you don’t just…”

“Xander…I was alive a thousand years before Spike. How many people do you think I’ve killed?” She asked.

“Anya this isn’t about you. I know you aren’t planning on biting me in my sleep…I don’t know that Spike won’t. I do know in fact that he can and will bite her, so the question I ask is how long before she trusts him enough and he turns on her? What could possibly stop a soulless monster like him?”

“Love Xander. That’s it. That’s what stopped me from becoming a vengeance demon after walking out of Giles place, and what stops Spike from hurting Buffy.”

Xander finally understood. ~ Gotta apologize to Buffy. ~ He thought to himself.

Xander put his finger under Anya’s chin and lifted her face so he could look into her eyes.

“I love you. I get it now. I’m so sorry.” He whispered and leaned towards her for a kiss.

Anya broke the kiss to breathe. She leaned in and whispered into his ear. “You have a *lot* of orgasms to give me to make up for this, I suggest you get to work.” She then bit down gently on his earlobe.

“Yes ma’am” He said getting to his knees in front of her. Xander spent the rest of the day worshiping at Anya’s altar.
~~~~~`

~ I have to do it for Buffy’s own good. ~ She thought. Joyce had waited an hour to be sure Willow had picked Buffy up.

She left the house and walked five houses down. She walked up to the door and knocked loudly waiting for the vampire to open the door.
~~~~~`

“What do you think of these?” Buffy said modeling a pair of long leather boots. “I want to get a jacket too.” She said casually looking through the rack at the leather shop.

“Buffy…are you happy with him?” Willow asked suddenly.

“Will…I’ve never been this happy in my life. Everything is finally going right for me…I am the luckiest girl in the world right now.” Buffy was glowing.

“So you’re not still mad about the spell?” Willow asked hopefully.

“Will…I have something to tell you…” Buffy said pulling her friend to the row of chairs behind them.

They sat down and Willow looked at her friend expectantly.

“I…well…I’ve had a thing for Spike for a while now…and when he was chained to Giles tub I kinda…threw myself at him. And he…and we…” She told Willow everything that had happed between her and Spike, only leaving out the detailed sex.

Willow sat wide eyed and listened to the tale.
~~~~~`

“Mrs. Summers…” Spike said opening the door wider.

“I'm sorry to, uh... Well, I would have called, but you know. Is Buffy still here?” She asked

“Uh…no Red picked her up a bit ago…but please, you're always welcome.” He said stepping back to let her enter.

“My goodness, your place is amazing.” She said looking slowly around at his books and entertainment unit.

“Yeah, I like my space. I don't get out much during the day, so I need things to occupy my time.” Spike said trying to toe his manacles under the couch without her noticing. ~ Bloody hell. She noticed. ~ Spike thought to himself when he saw her eyes widen.

“No, you wouldn't.” Her gaze paused on the manacles that He was trying so hard to conceal and her eyes widened. ~ I don’t even want to know. ~ She thought closing her eyes and sighing softly. If Spike could have blushed he would have been crimson.

“Can I get you something? I keep a lot of different things, for Buffy…” Spike trailed off.

“Oh, no thank you, I, uh...” Joyce stammered. “So…I understand you spent the night? At My house.” She said pointedly.

“I'm sorry about that. I was right selfish, I almost…”

“I, I'm not interested in the details. That's not why I'm here. “ Joyce said holding up her hand to stop his words.

“Okay.” Spike said looking into her eyes. “What’s this about then Joyce?”

“I'm here because I'm worried about you two. In general.” Joyce sighed softly. “That's not all I'm concerned about. I don't have to tell you that you and Buffy are from different worlds.”

“No, you don't.” Spike shrugged.

“She's had to deal with a lot. Grew up fast. Sometimes even I forget that she's still just a girl.” Joyce said softly. ~ She’s still my little girl. ~ Joyce thought to herself. She felt tears threatening and choked them back. ~ I came here for a reason. ~

“I'm old enough to be her…”

“Don’t…don’t say it. I know. She's just starting out in life…she could…be anything…go anywhere, but she won’t…Because when it comes to you, Spike, she's just like any other young woman in love. You're all she can see of tomorrow. But I think we both know that there are some hard choices ahead. If she can't make them, you're gonna have to. I know you care about her. I just hope you care enough.”

“I hope…I hope that you aren’t suggesting that I break it off with the slayer so she can have a normal life…Joyce I love her. She tastes like forever to me. I love her more than anything I want to show her the world. Not hide her away…she is my salvation, she’s my world. Joyce she’s a slayer. Most of ‘em die real young…I won’t let that happen to Buffy. I won’t ever let anyone hurt her.” Spike growled.

Joyce looked directly into his eyes and saw the same look in Spike’s eyes she had seen in Xander’s earlier. "Forever is a long time Spike." She said softly.

"if anyone knows that it's me Joyce." Spike picked up a stake from the coffee table and tossed it lightly to Joyce. She caught it in both hands and looked at him surprised.

“You want me to stay away from her you have to dust me. Just take that pointy stick and ram it into my heart. I’ll turn to Dust and you can tell Buffy I left. For her own good. Cause that’s the *ONLY* way I’d ever turn my back on her.” Spike said coming to a stop in front of her, arms wide ready to die. For Love.
 

Joyce looked directly into his eyes and saw the same look in Spike’s eyes she had seen in Xander’s earlier. "Forever is a long time Spike." She said softly.

"If anyone knows that it's me Joyce." Spike picked up a stake from the coffee table and tossed it lightly to Joyce. She caught it in both hands and looked at him surprised.

“You want me to stay away from her you have to dust me. Just take that pointy stick and ram it into my heart. I’ll turn to Dust and you can tell Buffy I left. For her own good. Cause that’s the *ONLY* way I’d ever turn my back on her.” Spike said coming to a stop in front of her, arms wide ready to die. For Love.

Joyce looked into his eyes and saw a man that truly loved her daughter. A man who would do anything for her baby girl. A man who would show her the world and what it felt like to truly be loved.
"Spike…I'm sorry." Joyce cried. She dropped the stake and it clattered to the floor.

"T's OK, if she were my daughter I would have done the same, your only looking out for yours. I respect that, and I promise you. I will never hurt Buffy." Spike said looking into her eyes.

Joyce was stunned by truth in those words. "It's just that she's…"

"I know, she's all you've got…she's all I've got too. She's everything. I used to be…I don't even want you to know some of the stuff I've done. Because of Buffy…she made me the man I am by loving me, trusting me and believing in me." Spike bent and retrieved the stake. "You sure Joyce…last chance…"

Spike held the stake out to her.

"Spike…I am glad Buffy has you…I didn't realize." Joyce placed her hand on his shoulder. "Spike…I…"

Spike placed his hand on top of hers. "I know Mum. Let's go and have us some coca and talk about it OK?" He smiled at her and led her to the kitchen.
~~~~~`

"I'm gonna go hang at Spike's till patrol…wanna come hang with us?" Buffy asked.

"I have to go home…supper and homework." Willow smiled sheepishly. "But I'll drop you off."
~~~~~`

Xander pulled Anya into his lap.

"Well…you're forgiven. I love make up sex." She said saucily and kissed him softly on the lips.

"Ahn…I love you. I couldn't imagine you not in my life. Will you marry me?" He asked pulling a small red velvet box from his pocket. He opened it and turned the beautiful ring so she could see it.

"Oh Xander…" She threw her arms around his neck and pushed him back on the chair. She straddled him and kissed him full on the lips.

"Xander I have never wanted anything as much as I want to be your wife." She said passionately. "Can we…let's go tell your parents…and your friends…" She smiled happily.
~~~~~`

"Honey…I'm back…" Buffy called walking into Spike's house.

"In the kitchen Luv." He called.

She walked into the kitchen and gasped. "Mom? What are you doing here?" She asked

"I…I came to talk to Spike." Joyce smiled at her daughter. "I'm sorry Buffy for doubting your judgment. As far as I'm concerned…You and Spike deserve to be happy together, and I am glad you didn't listen to anyone who tried to tell you otherwise." Joyce smiled.

"Thanks mom." Buffy said giving her a quick hug.

Buffy walked over to Spike and wiped his coca mustache away. She leaned her head against his shoulder, her hand seeking his.

"How was shopping luv." He smiled at her holding his hand.

"Do you even have to ask?" She giggled. "It was *shopping* I had an awesome time." Spike tucked a stray hair behind her ear and she smiled up at him.

"Why don't we invite Spike over for supper tonight? Then you guys can patrol from there OK?" Joyce asked watching how affectionate they were with each other. She smiled inwardly. ~ Yeah my girl is in love with a vampire, he loves her back, and all is good in the world. ~
~~~~~`

They were just clearing the supper dishes from the table. Spike washed, Buffy dried and put away.

The phone rang and Joyce picked up. "Hello?...Oh Hi Xander...uh sure. Give us about half an hour OK?"

"What's going on?" Buffy pounced as soon as Joyce hung up the phone.

"Xander, he wants us to meet him at his house..." Joyce said smiling.

"Oh...well I guess we'll patrol after that then." Buffy smiled up at her vampire.
~~~~~`

"Thanks for coming. Have a seat in the livingroom, we're just waiting for a few stragglers." Xander said nervously opening the door for his best friend.

"What's up Xand. You look kinda pale...are you OK?" Willow asked placing her hand on his shoulder.

"I'll be fine. And you'll see in a few minutes why I'm nervous." Xander said shooing her into the livingroom.

A knock interrupted and Xander opened the door to find Buffy, Spike and Joyce standing on the other side. "Come on in." He said leading the last of them to the livingroom.
~~~~~`

"First of all I have an apology to make." He turned to Buffy. "I am so sorry. I was ...I don't think stunned is a strong enough word...when you told me about Spike...I...but I get it now. I really do. And I am sorry."

Buffy looked up into his eyes and saw his sincerity. "It's OK Xand, I know why you freaked, I understand. Thank you for apologizing."

"Spike. Thank you. I owe you a great debt for saving Anya." Xander said looking at the shocked vampire.

"'S no problem mate. I like the bird." He glanced at Anya and smiled.

Xander took a deep breath. "I asked Anya to marry me." He said nervously.

"Xander!" Mrs. Harris said shocked.

"Congratulations." Buffy beamed getting up to give him a hug.

"Have you set a date?" Willow asked hugging him too.

"Not yet. We just wanted to tell you all..." Xander smiled at Anya sheepishly.

"Can I help you plan the wedding?" Mrs. Harris asked a stunned Anya.

"Yes. That would be wonderful." Anya said softly, tears forming in her eyes. "You don't mind? Me marrying your son?"

"Goodness dear no. I want him to be happy, and I've never seen him as happy as he is with you." She put her arms around Anya and hugged her close.

"Finally did something right boy, She'll make a man out of you." Mr. Harris said slapping his son on the shoulder.
~~~~~`

"Do you believe it? Xander married." Buffy said happily.

"Can't believe he thanked me." Spike murmured.

"I know and apologizing. I think Alexander Harris is finally growing up." Buffy smiled happily.

"Come here." Spike said opening his arms to her. "I think you should call your mum and tell her you're staying the night." Spike growled into her ear as she crawled into his lap.

"No." She murmured stroking her fingers over his chest.

"You don't want to stay?" He pouted running his fingers over her thigh.

"Didn't say that did I?" She asked pulling his T-shirt from his jeans.

"Then what?" He questioned pulling her shirt and bra from her body.

"Ohhhhh" She moaned as he captured one of her nipples with his mouth. Buffy curled her fingers into his hair and pulled him closer. "I already told her. When we dropped her off at home." She murmured grinding into him.

"Oh naughty girl." Spike murmured. "Maybe you need to be punished?" He questioned picking her up and carrying her to the bedroom.

"Oh...please punish me Spike..." She begged as he deposited her on the bed.

Spike slowly undid her pants and pulled them off of her. He gasped as the scent of her arousal floated up around him.

"Slayer..." He growled softly adjusting his hardness in his jeans.

Buffy looked up at him innocently. "What's wrong Spike?" She questioned spreading her legs so he could see the moisture soaking her curls.

"Saucy little vixen you are." He growled pulling her to the end of the bed.

"Going to punish me now?" She asked seductively.

Spike grunted as he lifted her. He stood her beside the bed and turned her around. Facing it. "Bend over." He growled.

Buffy complied and placed her palms on the mattress. Spike stood behind her stroking himself through his jeans. He reached out a hand and tapped her butt lightly.

"I'm going to get off easy." She whispered.

"Oh no. You're going to get off...but there will be nothing easy about it." Spike ground his Jean clad cock against Buffy's quivering folds. "In fact Slayer it is quite hard now as you can feel."

Buffy moaned softly and pushed back against his hardness, trying to create friction against her heated core.

"No no none of that." He pulled away and slapped her ass hard. He left a deep red hand print on her golden flesh.

"Uhhhh." Buffy moaned as she felt herself getting wetter in anticipation. She bent and rested her head on the bed awaiting whatever came next.

Spike spanked her again. Hard. Leaving another hand print on her ass. "God. Spike..." She moaned.

"Am I hurting you Luv?" He questioned fearfully.

"Only in a good way." Buffy murmured wiggling her hips seductively.

Spike reached down and swatted her again. He brought his fingers up and stroked the wetness on her thighs. "God Buffy you are so wet..." Spike murmured bringing his moistened fingers to his lips.

"Spike...I want you inside me..." She moaned trying to push herself against him.

Spike took a step back and landed two sharp blows to her ass. One on each cheek. "Oh...yeah..." She moaned feeling her clit throb with need. "Touch me...please..." She moaned.

Spike ran his hands gently over her hips. "Want to feel me inside you Baby?" He asked bending and licking from her clit over her slick entrance and over her anus.

Buffy convulsed in pleasure. She arched her back to bring more contact to her over sensitive flesh. "Please..." She moaned quivering with need.

"Naughty girl." Spike growled again. He licked the imprints his hands made on her sensitive flesh.

"Oh Spike....please...." She begged.

Spike stroked her slit with his fingers slipping two inside. As soon as she moved against him he withdrew his fingers. He smiled when she whimpered. He slapped her ass again. "Did I say you could move?" He questioned as he undid his pants.

"Did you say I couldn't?" She questioned innocently

"Mouthy chit." He slapped her ass again. Spike pulled his pants off quickly and stood behind her stroking himself while staring at her wetness.

Spike leaned closer and stroked her thighs again. "When I touch you, you are to hold still. Got it?" He growled.

Buffy nodded slightly.

"I asked you a question." He asked slapping his palm against her wetness.

"Oh...god I've got it..." She moaned.

Spike slipped two of his fingers inside her. He thrust them in and out rubbing softly against her g-spot.

"Oh...Oh Spike." She bucked her hips. Buffy whimpered softly as he pulled his fingers from her.

Spike grasped himself with the hand soaked in Buffy's juices and rubbed them against this hardened length.

"Naughty girl." He moaned felling her juices around his hardess.

"Need to taste you Luv." Spike crawled up onto the bed. "Come here and climb on top of my face..." Spike growled almost panting with need. "Face my feet Baby...I need your mouth...on me..."

Buffy did as she was asked and took his hardness into her mouth. ~ I can taste me. ~ The thought made her impossibly wet.

"Oh...Buffy..." Spike moaned as she sank her quivering folds into his face. He gently inserted his fingers into her and sucked gently on her clit.

Buffy ground into him. Spike pulled his drenched fingers out of her wetness and placed them at her other entrance. He slowly pushed forward until his fingers were surrounded by her.

Buffy gasped and pushed down on his fingers. Spike placed three fingers into her pussy and stroked against the fingers already inside her. "Like that Baby?" He questioned as he took her clit into his mouth.

Buffy screamed and bucked wildly against him. "Oh Spike....yeah...." She moaned grinding against him.
She took him back into her mouth and pumped up and down holding tightly with her hand as she licked and sucked on his hardness.

Spike knew she was close. He could feel her walls clenching around his fingers.

Buffy pushed back against his fingers, pushing them in deeper and grinding her clit roughly into his mouth. She came with a muffled scream as she sucked Spike's seed down her throat.

Spike shot his seed into her mouth as she came in his. They leisurely licked each other clean, causing new sparks of arousal to shoot through them both.

"Buffy...you make me...oh Luv..." Spike moaned as she took his whole length into her mouth. He grabbed her hips and thrust into her mouth.

"Inside me Spike..." she panted turning and climbing up his body. She placed herself over him and sank down on his hardness.

"Oh Buffy...forever isn't long enough..." Spike murmured looking into her eyes.
~~~~~`

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