Regrets

by Azrielle

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Rating: NC-17. Please do not read if you are not old enough, it contains GRAPHIC sex scenes. You have been warned. If this offends you please go elsewhere.

Spike is a Vampire so  of course  there will be biting.

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Summary: This is a challenge posted by
ioki_1@optusnet.com on the bloodsheadverse at /www.bringonthebloodshed.com/bloodshedverse/
 
Challenge 12:

After Chosen Buffy is given a reward by the Powers That Be.

She may go back in time and directly change any one incident (other than actually becoming the slayer) from her life. Obviously whatever she changes will have an indirect effect on other events.

What would Buffy choose to change and what will the effects of her interference be?

Must have: Spike obviously!!!
                 A red cocktail dress
                 A black Arabian horse.

Can have: ANYTHING ELSE YOU WANT!!!!!

 

 

 Regrets  

 

“I just want to sleep, yo. For like a week!” Faith said excitedly as she walked up to the small group gathered at the edge of the crater. 

”I guess we all could. If we wanted to.” Dawn murmured softly. 

”Yeah, The First is scrunched so… what do you think we should do, Buffy?” Willow asked stepping up right beside the blonde slayer standing at the edge of the crater that was all that was left of their homes. 

”Yeah, you’re not the one and only Chosen anymore. Just gotta live like a person. How’s that feel?” Faith asked stepping up to her other side. 

”Yeah, Buffy. What are we going to do now?” Dawn asked. 

Buffy just turned to Dawn and smiled. She opened her arms to her sister. Dawn hugged her tight and they cried, for the vampire they both loved, for the hero he had become.

 

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“So you get to decide…what is your biggest regret? What do you want to go back and change? It’s your call, anything you want to change. That’s your reward.” They both stood waiting patiently, watching the emotions flit through her eyes. 

 

Buffy closed her eyes and sighed. Her biggest regret? How bad she treated Spike. All he wanted to do was love her, and all she wanted was to punish herself when her friends pulled her out of heaven. He loved her so much he sought out his soul for her. When she found herself in love with him it was too late. What if she let him into her heart earlier? What if she didn’t use him to punish herself?  What if she…

 

Suddenly she was talking, mouth moving faster than her words could form in her head. When she finished she sighed happily.

 

“Ok Slayer, close your eyes, when you open them you will have a big surprise.” The female smiled and placed the tips of her fingers against Buffy’s heart, the male placed his fingertips against her temples. They spoke in unison in some strange ancient language. Buffy didn’t understand any of it. None at all. She felt strange. Really strange.

 

She opened her eyes to tell them that something was wrong and looked directly into yellow fear filled eyes. “Spike?” She squeaked. “What are you…what am I…”

 

“Gave me quite a scare Luv. Don’t do that again.” He rested his forehead against hers and sighed. His hand came up, fingers entwining in her golden tresses. “Can’t have you passin’ out like that at the wedding…” He murmured softly. Leaning in he captured her lips in a passionate kiss.

 

“Let the healing power begin. Let my will be safe again. As these words of peace are spoken, let this harmful spell be broken.”

Thunder crashed and lightning flashed. Suddenly, all of the demons disappeared. Buffy and Spike gazed into each other’s eyes as Willow’s voice filled the air. Buffy grabbed Spike by the lapels and flipped them over, so she was on top, though neither of them attempted to pull away from the other.

“Hi, guys.” Willow said sheepishly, raising one hand to wave.

 

“Merciful Zeus! You got here just in time Will…” Xander’s words trailed off as he turned towards Buffy and saw her now straddling Spike. He watched her lean forward and kiss him softly. 

 

“Uh…Buff? She broke the spell…you can get off of the Evil undead…” He walked over towards them and held out his hand to help her up from her compromising position.

 

She turned her head and looked up at her friend. “I <i> know </i> the spell is broken Xander, like I told you I escaped the spell cause I’m the slayer. My feelings are real and Spike and I are getting married.” She turned back to her vampire and took in the shocked expression he wore. “Come on fang face.” She crawled off of him and helped him to his feet.

 

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“Is that all I had to do to shut you up? Declare my love for you for real without a spell?” She asked as they walked silently side by side.

 

“Slayer…I…I don’t know what to say…” Spike stammered staring at the ground.

 

“Don’t you…aren’t you happy? If you don’t want to…if you want to call it off…”

 

“No nothing like that luv. I just need time to adjust is all…I can’t believe you really…feel that way… <i> about me.” </i> He almost whispered the last two words, she had to strain to hear them.

 

“Of course I do Spike. How could I not? You are gorgeous, you never give up on things you want, you know me, I mean really know me, and you haven’t run away yet. No matter how hard I’ve pushed you, no matter how many times I said I wanted you gone…you stayed. The few kisses we’ve shared…mind blowing, knee weakening kisses, that just left me wanting more of you…” She glanced at him out of the corner of her eye. “Plus…I could so kick your ass…” She grinned and launched herself at him, wrapping her arms around his neck and her legs around her waist.

 

“Mmmm Slayer, you smell so good…” Spike murmured nuzzling into her neck. “Mmmm Buffy. My Buffy…I like the sound of that.” He grinned against the soft flesh of her neck, sending shivers down her spine.

 

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“I want to go in and tell him myself…I don’t want him getting any dusty idea’s about you.” Buffy said softly leaning into Spike.

 

“T’s ok luv, I’ll just sit out here and have a smoke.” He pulled her close and inhaled her scent.

 

“I won’t be long…then we’re gonna have to go tell my mom.”

 

“Anything you want luv…” He grinned suggestively.

 

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“Buffy you can not be serious…please…tell me you’re joking…” Giles said polishing his glasses feverishly.

 

“I know it's nuts, but… Spike’s strength matches my own, he never gives up in battle, he loves with his whole heart…He knows what I am, what I do, I don’t have to hide anything from him, not being the slayer, not being anything I want to be…he will be my partner in every way imaginable. I want that…I want it so much…I hope you can accept that and be happy for us…and I still want you to walk me down the isle.” She took in his shocked, horrified expression and sighed softly. “I know you’re going to need some time to adjust to it…but Giles…no matter what you say…”

 

“Have I ever been able to stop you? I mean really Buffy. I trust your judgment, really I do…it’s just…” Giles removed his glasses, closed his eyes and sighed. ‘I just don’t want anyone else I love to die at the hands of an evil bloodsucker.’ He opened his eyes and glanced at her. She was standing there so dejected. “What ever you chose to do with your personal life…I will support your decision…and as long as it’s ok with your mother I’ll walk you down the isle.”

 

Buffy let out a whoop of joy and grabbed him in a bear hug.

 

“I need to breathe…” Giles gasped.

 

“Oh…sorry…I’m just so excited…I have to go…we’re going to go tell my mom.” She walked towards the door, hand resting on the handle she turned to him once more. “Thank you Giles. I meant it when I said you’re more of a father to me than Hank ever has been. I love you.” Tears in her eyes she turned and fled his flat.

 

“I love you too…” Giles said softly to the now empty room.

 

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Before anyone asks, when Buffy returned she did NOT retain any of her memories at this point.

 

End part ONE.
This is for Corrina (Always_ibj) for her challenge on the bloodsheadverse. ;)


Regrets 2

Buffy reached him and was wrapped securely in his arms within moments of leaving Giles’ flat. “Hey now…what’s with the tears?” He asked tilting her chin up so her eyes met his.

“Giles…he’s…” She choked back the fresh wave of tears that threatened to fall. “He trusts me…to choose to be with you. You don’t know what a relief that is.” She said, trying to choke back the emotion. “He…he means more to me than my own Dad.

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“Mom…Mom…” Buffy said walking into the house, She was clinging to Spike’s hand tightly in her own.

“She’s not home…only heartbeat within these walls is yours luv. Whatever will we do with the house all to ourselves?” Spike grinned cockily at her.

“She didn’t mention going anywhere…” Buffy said entering the kitchen. She noticed a note tapped to the fridge.

Buffy,

I had to go out of town for a few days, emergency gallery business. I left some money in the usual spot, and my number for the hotel is by the phone. I love you honey, be careful while I’m gone, I’ll see you soon.

Love Mom.


Spike read the note over her shoulder. Leaning in he growled softly into her ear. It left her weak kneed and she leaned back against his lean form.

“Spike…” It was a whisper, a caress of his name.

He wrapped his arms around her waist and pulled her flush against himself. She could feel his erection pressed into the soft flesh of her ass. “I want to make love to you woman. Now. Please Buffy would you allow me the pleasure of making love to you?”

“Upstairs…” She whispered turning in his arms and wrapping hers around his neck. She jumped up and wrapped her legs around his waist, feeling his erection now pressed into her overheated core.

Spike didn’t speak. He walked towards the stairs and stopped at the bottom. “T’s a long way up…”

“Want me to walk?” She asked kissing along his jaw line.

“No bloody way luv. Just meant I don’t know if I can wait long enough to get you all the way upstairs…” He murmured even as he started to ascend the stairs. “I am not letting you go ever. You are mine now…”

He could feel her heart thrumming in her chest against his unbeating heart, he could feel her hot breath against his cool skin. The sensations she was creating in his body were driving his lust.

“Yes Spike…I am yours…completely…” Her fingers entwined in the curly hair at the base of his neck.

He entered her bedroom and set her gently on the bed, kneeling down in front of her he unzipped her boots and pulled them off.

Buffy smiled shyly at him. He could smell her arousal. His dmon wanted out. Spike shook his head and concentrated on pushing it back.

He unzipped her pants. He gripped the bottom of her top and lifted. Buffy raised her arms above her head. Spike pulled it over her head and tossed it behind him. Reaching for her bra he broke the clasp in his haste. “Sorry luv.” He apoligised, looking anything but.

“That’s ok…I needed a new one anyway…” She blushed as her hands automaticly rose to cover her breasts.

“No…I want to see you…” He growled softly, causing Buffy to shiver. Swallowing her selfconsiousness she moved her hands.

Spike lifted his to her breasts, fully covering them with his palms. “I love your breasts…” massaging them gently he removed one hand so he could place his mouth around one puckering nipple. “Ohhhh” Buffy moaned, arching into him.

Spike wrapped one arm around her and pulled her off of the bed against his cool, pale, hard body. Buffy’s fingers danced along the back of his neck, eliciting a primal growl from the aroused vampire. One of her warm hands trailed down his back, bringing it around the front she pulled his t-shirt from his jeans.

Running his tongue over her jaw line Spike moaned feeling her half naked body pressed so intamitly against him. Feeling her fingers on his flesh, Spike reached for the waistband of her jeans and pushed them down.

While she stepped out of her jeans he quickly pulled his t-shirt over his head and tossed it. Shy now that she only had a thin scrap of lace covering her throbbing sex Buffy pulled back the covers on her bed and crawled under them.

Spike let her hide for a moment while he removed the rest of his clothing. She watched curiously as he walked to the end of the bed. Her eyes widened when he stood there, facing her completely naked, she admired the impressive girth of her soon to be husband.

Spike picked up the covers delicately, trying not to startle her. Buffy watched as he inched the blankets down. When they got to her waist she grabbed for them, but he was quicker. He ripped them from the bed and tossed them aside.

“I want to see all of you luv. You’re so bloody perfect don’t know why you’re hidin’.” Slowly he crawled up the bed towards her, settling himself between her thighs. “You’re gonna need new knickers too…” He purred before ripping them off of her and tossing them to the side.

“Hey! Those were my favorites…” She said pout forming on her bottom lip.

Spike grinned predatorily at her. “Shouldn’t have left them on then…” his eyes locked with hers, taking himself in hand he teased her opening with his throbbing cock. “Smell soooo good…” He moaned, sliding slightly into her moist pussy.

“Ohhhhhh” She squirmed against him.

“You ok?” He asked stilling his movements.

“Yeah…you’re just…so big and…” She panted. Looking up into his eyes and seeing the hunger there was her undoing. “I want it all…now…” She pleaded.

Spike didn’t need to be asked twice. He thrust in slowly until he was completely sheathed inside of her wet heat. He couldn’t speak. Never having felt anything like it Spike almost lost it right there. Looking down into her eyes he saw her love for him. Waiting a moment for her to adjust to the intrusion he began to kiss her neck gently, running his tongue over any spot it could reach.

He knew she was ready when he felt her move against him. He closed his eyes, taking a deep breath before pulling out and sinking back in. It felt like they had been doing this forever, they were so perfectly matched. Spike’s thumb found it’s way between their bodies and rubbed against her engorged clit.

“Uuhhhhhh” She moaned bucking wildly against him. “OHSPIKEOHSPIKEOHSPIKE!!!” Her brain shu down, she could only scream those two words in the midst of her very first orgasm with the man she loved. Spike followed moments later, the grip of her slick pussy clenching around him as she came rendered him unable to stop himself.

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“Hungry?” Spike asked when he heard her stomach growling.

“A little…” She admitted. “You?”

“A little peckish…” He admitted. “I’d toss on my jeans and run to the butchers…but the sun now bein’ up…I’ll go later…” He said already rising from the bed. “I can wait luv.”

“You don’t have to…I mean we have some…blood…in the fridge…” Watching him pull his jeans over his narrow waist had her hungry for him again.

“Eat first young lady. You need your strength…” Spike grinned at her. “I can smell you…”

Buffy blushed. “That’s gross Spike…” She hid her face in her hands. “Really?” She asked quickly glancing at him.

“Every time we fought in the past luv.” He raised an eyebrow at her. “Here…just put this on…don’t see much of a need for clothing on that delicious body for now…” He tossed Buffy her robe.

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Buffy cooked her pizza pop first. She started eating while she waited for his blood. The microwave pinged, dumping the contents into a mug she placed it on the counter in front of him.

She finished her pizza pop while watching him. Spike glanced down at the mug. He glanced at Buffy. She was grinning at him. “You better hurry up if you want to make it back upstairs anytime soon…”

Spike grimaced as he gulped down the foul tasting swill.

“Oh poor baby…” Buffy smiled playfully at him “You want something tastier?” She tilted her head to the side, exposing her throat to him. “Just look at my.. poor neck? All bare and tender and exposed.. all that blood just .. pumping away..”

Spike licked his lips hungrily, moving towards her slightly. His eyes trained on the pulsating vein in her neck. He could hear the blood rushing through her veins, could smell the rich intoxicating sustenance that had been denied to him for so long. He growled in frustration. “You’re just bloody well teasin’ me slayer…you know I can’t bite you…thanks to the sodden chip they shoved in my brain.” He turned from her and began pacing the room.

“I wasn’t teasing you Spike…” Buffy said seriously, she placed her hand on his arm. “I know you could make it feel good…especially if we were…” Blushing down to her roots, She shyly looked down at the ground.

Spike lifted her chin with a shaking hand. “You’re serious?” He asked incredulously. “You actually want me to drink from you?”

“Well…I don’t just want you to feed from me…I want you to claim me…” She whispered.

Spike growled possessively and picked her up. He could smell her arousal. He set her gently on the counter, hands still trembling he tried to undo his jeans. He was shaking to badly and couldn’t get them off.

Buffy, noticing this hopped off the counter and got to her knees in front of him to undo the button. Slowly she slid the zipper down. Licking her lips she glanced up at him. “Tryin’ to kill me pet?” He whimpered.

“No…I’m trying to satisfy you…” She giggled.

“Seein you…down there on your knees in front of me…offerin’ what you’re offerin’ I feel like I’m gonna explode without you even touchin’ me.” He whimpered as she slid her hand into his jeans and wrapped it around his pulsating cock.

She stood slowly, hand still around him, stroking slowly. “I want you” She whispered softly before bringing her mouth to his gently.

“Uhhhhh.” Spike moaned, stilling her hand. Impatiently he pushed his jeans down past his hips, not bothering to take them all the way off. He pulled the tie on her robe and let it fall to the floor at her feet. “So perfect…” He murmured, drawing her closer. Buffy arched into him.

He grabbed her around the waist and lifted her onto the island counter again. Spike moved lightning quick and was on top of her in seconds. He could smell their mixed scents from the last time they made love. Knowing she was dripping wet from the scent of her Spike thrust into her.

Buffy screamed in ecstasy arching towards him. “Oh god Spike…” She rocked franticly against him. “Oh god…not gonna take long…”

“Me either baby…” He growled. He was teetering on the edge, trying to hold on, desperately wanting her to cum first. Leaning down, his cool tongue pressed against her throbbing pulse point.

Buffy moaned and increased her pace. “Ahhhhhhh…”

Spike nibbled on her flesh with blunt teeth, and felt her clench tightly around his throbbing cock. “Don’t hold back Spike…make me yours…” She whispered into his ear.

“With a roar, his fangs elongated and his mouth descended on her neck. Buffy turned her head slightly offering him everything with her gesture. Spike plunged his fangs into her, his hips pistoning at lighting speed. “Yes…yes Spiiiiiiike…” She screamed, milking his cock with her velvety folds.

Spike let go, losing himself in the sensation of her blood, flowing feely down his throat, their cum, leaking out of her around his pulsating shaft. She shuddered as she came down from her orgasm. Spike licked the wounds gently, cleaning and closing them. Pulling back he looked into her eyes. “MINE” His growl was feral, possessive, it left absolutely no doubt that she was his.

“Yours.” She whimpered softly. Looking into his eyes she still saw a hint of fear, fear that she would reject him. Swallowing hard she made her request. “Can I claim you too?”

Spike groaned in pleasure, feeling himself harden within her again. Biting into his wrist and bringing it to her lips was his only answer. She shocked him by grasping his wrist tightly and taking a deep pull of his blood, instead of just a flick of her tongue that he expected.

Licking the wound gently, just like she felt him do against her neck, she licked her lips and looked into his eyes. “MINE” She tried to imitate his feral growl.

“Yours…always yours Buffy…” He whispered bringing his mouth to hers in a bruising kiss.

Buffy’s arousal hadn’t waned and she rocked against him again. “I love you Spike…”

“I love you too…could stay here forever…buried inside your delicious quim…” He said softly. Their lovemaking wasn’t as urgent this time, it was tender and loving. As they approached climax together they held each other tighter.

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“That Was Willow…” Buffy said hanging up the phone and leaning against Spike. “We’re going Bronzing…after I patrol.” Buffy grinned at him. “You gonna come with?”

“You want me to come to the club with you after we patrol…to hang with your friends? You sure they’re gonna like that pet?” Spike asked nuzzling closer. “Especially when they see your pretty mark?” He asked nibbling at it gently with blunt teeth.

“Uhhhh…” Buffy moaned. Placing a gentle hand on his chest she pushed him back slightly. “Wait a second…you’re gonna patrol with me?” She asked seriously.

“If you think I’m gonna let some thing out there…”

“Just wait a second here…what makes you think I need protecting?” She asked aggressively. “I am the slayer you know…the one girl in all the world chosen to protect the world…” She stopped when she noticed his indulgent grin. “Ok what?”

“Never said you needed protecting pet. I know what an amazing warrior you are. I don’t want to patrol with you to fight your battles…I just want to offer back up…you never know what kind of nasties are lurkin about…”

“Oh…well in that case…you can be my back-uppy guy…I just…don’t want you thinking I need a knight in shining armor…cause I don’t.” She pouted.

“Ohhhh look at that lip…gonna get it…” He growled leaning towards her and gently nibbling on her protruding lip.

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