Title: The Trouble with Nightmares
Author: Nightmelody

 nightmelody@hotmail.com
Summary:  Following events of 'Afterlife,'early season six. Buffy
feels unsafe, and can't sleep unless Spike is with her. Shortfic.
Rating: NC17
Disclaimer: Mutant Enemy owns the characters and BTVS. Just playing
with words.



                                  The Trouble with Nightmares

Buffy went up to bed shortly after all the Scoobies arrived. Dawn
helped her find pajamas and towels, and stayed with her while she
settled into bed, looking lost and fragile.

"I'm so tired," Buffy said. "But I don't think I can sleep. It's
too...scary, and jumpy."

"I could sleep in here with you, if you want. I wouldn't mind." Dawn
said.

"Where did Spike go?"

"Probably back to his crypt. Do you want him?"

Buffy nodded. "I know I could sleep if he was here. He's really
strong."

"He is. And he cares for you. For me, too"

"Yes."

"I'll send Xander to get him."

Xander protested at first, but Willow made him go.

"She's been in a hell dimension, I'm sure it is hard for her to
relax. Spike is strong. And if that will help her, well, she deserves
it."

Spike came willingly enough, and Dawn ushered him upstairs to
reassure Buffy while the others went about their business of  getting
to bed themselves.

"I'll just sleep on the couch then, all right?" Spike asked.

But Buffy shook her head, her eyes huge. "Stay here? With me?" She
patted the bed, and then rolled onto her side, her back to him, on
the edge of the bed.

"Sure." Spike sat on the bed, thrilled to be near her, while she
drifted off to sleep.

So the pattern was established. Every night after patrol, Spike would
slip into Buffy's room and lie next to her on the small bed, while
she slept. Shortly before dawn he would creep back to his crypt and
fall exhausted into his own bed.

He couldn't sleep next to her, of course. He spent every night in a
sexual daze, concentrating on not touching her, not touching that
soft golden skin, not touching those delicious curves ... Once or
twice a night he would slip into the closet and relieve the huge
aching erection he had from being with her, alone in her bed.

Once in a while, after he'd returned from the closet, he could trust
himself to touch her, just a little. He'd bury his face in her soft
hair, drown in her scent. Or gently draw his fingers over an arm or
face. That would send him into a fever of arousal again. On nights
like that he would creep from her room just before dawn, shaking,
exhausted, and disgusted with himself.

Buffy became aware of his visits to the closet couple months after
her return. Finally one night–they'd only been in bed a little more
than an hour–she pretended to sleep, keeping her breathing steady.
Spike slipped into her closet.

She knew he wasn't smoking, and why would he need to hide to drink?
When he came back to bed, she  leaped on him, imprisoning his wrists.

"What are you doing in my closet?"

"Huh?" Spike gave her his dumb and innocent face.  "What, you're
afraid I'm touching your precious togs?"

She glared at him.

"Just wanted to be alone a minute."

"It was longer than a minute. And you do it all the time."

"Sorry, slayer, I'll try not to wake you."

"But what do you do in there?"

Spike growled and broke free, rolling so his back was to her.

"Nothing important. Now, lets go to sleep."

"I want to know!"

Spike sighed. "No, you really don't."

She rolled him back over and straddled him, once again grabbing his
wrists. She expected him to fight her off, but he didn't move.
Instead he squeezed his eyes shut and drew in a sharp breath, a
shiver running through his whole body. Then he frowned, trying to
mask the desire that was probably shining in his eyes with the scowl.

"You have a headache, Spikey?" She spoke in her bitchiest tone.

His eyes snapped open , ablaze with anger. "Yeah, but it's not the
head  you're looking at that aches."

It took her a moment to figure out what he meant.

"Eeww, gross, Spike." She flipped off of him.

His head jerked in reaction. "Not gross." He shot back. "Just...
the way it is. Natural, with us being in bed together night after
night. You... get to me."

 She thought for a moment. "You mean, you--? In the closet?

"What do you think?" .

"Three times a night?"  She squealed.

Spike was scowling, now.  "Sorry. Can't help it. Vampire stamina and
all. Felt like that about you for a long time. You knew that."

"Well, I forgot."

"Well, I can't forget." He leaped up and dragged on his coat. "I'll
leave."

"Wait!" She grabbed his arm. "Did you touch me? When I was sleeping?

"Sometimes. Sometimes I touched your hair, or the skin on your arm,
or face.." His fingers trailed along the edge of her hair and then
lightly stoked her cheek.

"You ever do anything... nasty?"

He didn't speak until she stamped her foot in rage.

"All right! One time you snuggled against me. You know, your ass
against my ..." He swallowed hard.  " I kind of lost it for a
minute. Thrust against you. Just for a little while."

"Then you just , just-- stopped?" She asked, skeptical.

He shrugged.

Her eyes grew huge."You CAME?"

"Well, duh. After that I stayed at my crypt for a few nights, but you
had another nightmare."

"That's all the touching?"

He shrugged. "I peeked, didn't touch, though."

"Peeked?"

"Sometimes your top gapped, so I could see. And a couple of times I
lifted your waist band to see your--"

She punched him.

"It was worth it!" He fired back "A bloke could go crazy, wanting but
never even seeing... at least I saw what I was missing." He got up
in one fluid motion and stalked up to her.

"You think I'm so evil?" He growled, right in her face. " You think
the whelp would have handled it any better? Night after night?" He
snorted. "Even your precious watcher would be getting a woody if he
had to stay in bed with you every night."

"Jeez, Spike. You're pathetic. You need a girl friend." She hated it
when he made sense.

"Yeah, you know what? I do. I haven't got laid in ages, babysitting
your ass all the time. So that's what I'm going to do, right now.
Clubs will be open for hours. Thanks for the great suggestion."

He slammed out of her room and left on his motorbike.

Buffy tried to sleep, but her mind kept whirling around with thoughts
about Spike.

She'd known he was in love with her. Somehow, she had just forgotten
the sexual connection. He'd been so sweet to her since she came back,
not flirty or sexy.

But she should have remembered about the Buffybot. He'd had all kinds
of perverted sex with it.

Even farther back, when Willow had done that stupid spell when they
thought they were engaged, he'd been crazy for her. He'd kissed her
like a starving man, she remembered. And he had whispered the things
he wanted to do with her, how she made him feel. "The watcher will go
to sleep tonight, and we can be alone,"  He groaned in her ear, his
hands everywhere.

"Sure. We can make out when he goes to sleep."

He gave a whispery groan and bit her ear, and she felt his whole
body  quiver.

And he'd been sleeping with her in this narrow bed for months. So he
probably had shown a lot of restraint, going into the closet to
relieve himself. She had noticed a lot of tissues in the small waste
basket  the last time she'd straightened up the room, but hadn't made
any connection.

She shouldn't have hit him. He'd really been pretty... decent. For
a vampire.

A vampire in love

She owed him an apology.

She called the Bronze, figuring that was the likeliest place to find
a girl, and asked for him.

It took a while, but he came on the line. "What?" He barked.

"It's Buffy. I... I just wanted to apologize. For hitting you, and
stuff. You... you didn't really do anything wrong."

"Yeah." He gave a loud sigh. "Well, I am going to stay in the crypt
for awhile. Maybe we can get a pager or a cell phone, so you could
get ahold of me when you have a bad dream. Only take me five minutes
to get there on my bike. Less, maybe."

"Have... have you met somebody? A girl?"

"Met lots of girls. Meeting girls isn't my problem, y'know?" He hung
up on her.

Buffy stared at the phone in astonishment. He  hung up on her. And he
was going to have sex with some girl.

And the girl would probably totally fall in love with him, because he
did look like an angel. Not to mention the to-die-for body. And he
could kiss! She remembered that from their 'engagement'. Probably did
the other stuff well, too. Over a hundred years of experience.

And he'd been devoted tp Druscilla. Attentive, caring. How many girls
would be blown away by just a little of that??

What if he got involved with another vampire?

A vampire girl friend might persuade him to go all evil again.

The thought of losing Spike as her patrolling companion, as her
bodyguard, made Buffy feel depressed. And if he went evil, she would
have to stake him. That sucked.

Why did he have to have these stupid feelings for her? They were
ruining everything.

But you would never have had his help all these months if he didn't
care for you. He could have found some other way to get around the
chip. Left you. Stayed evil.

A few days later she found a note on her pillow. Spike's new
schedule, if she wanted him to patrol with her. He was now busy six
nights a week from eleven until three a.m.  He would be willing to
patrol with her before or after.

Must be the new girlfriend, keeping him busy.

"So, you got a new girlfriend?" She asked casually the next night on
patrol.

"Not really. Lots of girls out there. Why settle down with the first
one I meet?"

So, he was playing the field. For some reason it made her feel
relieved, that he hadn't found a girlfriend yet.

"How 'bout you? You started dating?"

"Oh, no. No time, with the job, and the slaying and all. And Dawn
needs me."

"Yeah." They dusted a couple fledglings.

"So, what are you doing between eleven and three, then?"

"Oh, I picked up a little job."

"A job."

"Yeah. Bouncing in a demon strip club out on the highway."

"I didn't know there was a demon strip club."

"Well, it is pretty exclusive. And not being in town, you probably
wouldn't have run across it. Pays really well."

He told her the amount he got, in cash, every night. Buffy nearly
lost her teeth. He made almost as much in one shift as she made in a
week.

"Can you get me a job there?"

He laughed. "They don't let humans in the door.  But they might make
an exception for you, since you're so pretty. And the slayer. They'd
want you to strip, of course."

"Eeww!"

Spike laughed again, his eyes bright. "I'm sure you'd be a huge
moneymaker, almost as much as the daywalker chick they feature. Lord
knows, I'd be tucking the twenties in your g string. Be broke all the
time."

"Spike!" She had a sudden vision of his cool fingers brushing her
bare skin as he tucked money into her g string.

"Sorry. Fantasy moment."

He still wants me. For some reason, that thought pleased her.

He walked her to her front door.

"You want to come over on your night off? Dawn would like to see you.
We could watch videos."

"Sure. How about I take you two out to dinner first? Maybe that
Chinese  buffet Dawn likes so much."

Two nights later he saved her from getting pecked to death by a pair
of  large, birdlike demons. She got a nasty gash high on the shoulder.

Back in her room he bandaged her up, trying to keep his hands from
shaking, from her proximity, and her blood and from the knowledge
that if the peck had been a few inches higher, it would have nicked
her jugular. She could well have bled to death.

"They were going for my neck," she whispered.  "And they were so
fast, with those fluttery hops. If you hadn't been there... "

"Even with me being there, they did you a right nasty wound." Their
eyes met in the knowledge that she could have died tonight.

Spike grabbed her tight. "Promise you won't go patrolling alone," he
begged. "Don't go if I'm not there to watch your back. Promise." He
gave her a little shake. Then he clutched her tight and rained kisses
on her hair and face. Soft closed lip kisses, except when he neared
her lips and neck. Then she felt the cool wetness of his tongue.

"Spike!" She said, as a jolt of desire ran straight to her center.

"Sorry, sorry," he whispered into her hair. She felt a gentle, swift,
blunt toothed bite on her neck and then he pulled away in a whoosh of
leather.

She felt bereft. "Spike, Spike, you'll come back won't you? When your
shift is over?"

He smiled from the hall, "Yeah."

Dawn came stumbling out of her room, then Tara, followed by Willow.

"What's going on?"Willow asked, eyes round.

"Buffy, you've been hurt." Dawn said, eyeing the dressing on her
collar bone and rushing to her.

"Ran into a pair of bird type demons tonight. Killed one, the other
got away, but Buffy got jabbed. Lost some blood."

"I'll be okay. We just need to find that other bird."

"I gotta go," Spike said. "I'll be back around three thirty."

"Where did he go? Is he looking for that demon alone?" Willow asked.

"No, he has a job from eleven to three. Bouncer in some demon strip
club on the highway. You would not believe how much money he makes."
Buffy flopped back onto her pillow, looking as pale as the cotton
sheet.

"I'm fixing you some herb tea. And an omelette," Tara said. "It'll
help with the healing."

Later, the house quiet, the food eaten, Buffy hugged her pillow and
thought about living, and dying, and Spike.

When she first had been brought back, she would have been glad to
die, to return to heaven. But now she felt differently. She didn't
want to leave Dawn again–she could see the type of damage losing Mom
and her had done to Dawn, making her angry and sad. She didn't want
to leave her friends. She wanted to live, she wanted a life that had
good friends and pleasant times, as much as she could.

She didn't hate slaying, not with Spike along. It was fun, most of
the time, like playing a game. With him fighting along side her, they
were close to unbeatable, though stuff like tonight could still
happen. Of course, they could have backed off the birds and tried a
little research. That might have been smart.

She felt like she was losing Spike, and he was important. With him
around, her chances of surviving a few more years were much better.
But he wasn't really satisfied with their relationship.

 Okay, he had needs, like everybody.

Would it be so bad to meet those needs?

Deep down she knew that sex between them would be fantastic. She just
knew it.

Her friends wouldn't like it. Xander would go apeshit.

But it was her life!

She took a warm bath, to try to calm her thoughts, and then rested
until she heard Spike's motorcycle come to a stop in front of the
house. Her heart began to pound madly.

"What are you doing still awake? Did you have a bad dream?" Spike
came into the room, his hands in the pockets of his duster.

"No. Just been thinking."

"Oh. Are you in pain? Do you need some medicine?"

"No. Well, I could use a back rub. I feel kind of knotted up."

"Back rub." He swallowed.  "Okay."

She had changed into a pink knit pajama set that she hadn't worn
since she had been seeing Riley. It had pink eyelet inserts, very
pretty. She rolled onto her stomach and flipped her sheet down.

He sat down on the edge of the bed, and his cool hands rested on her
shoulders for just a second. "The wound is still bleeding," he said.

"Yeah, kind of seeping. I've had to change the dressing twice."

"Maybe you should see a doctor, get some stitches.'

"No, that'll just be another bill we'll have to pay." She hesitated,
then said, "Maybe ...maybe you could lick it. That would close it
right? Isn't that how vampires do it if they don't want to kill the
person they're feeding on? And it wouldn't be unpleasant for you,
right?"

"Buffy, are you trying to kill me?"  Spike leaped off the bed like it
was on fire. "I do that and you're gonna have to knock me out to keep
my hands off of you. Slayer's blood-- it's an aphrodisiac, y'know?
Bloody fucking hell, are you channeling Angelus?  I can only take so
much before I go completely insane."

He turned to leave.

"Don't go," Buffy cried, and he looked at her with huge
eyes. "You...you're important to me. To my life. I don't want to lose
you. So, okay, let's try it your way, try being ... together."

Spike stared at her, disbelief all over his face.  "You're saying,
we... ?"

"Yeah." She looked straight into his eyes. Then pulled the dressing
off her shoulder, never taking her eyes from his.

Spike slipped off his duster, and Buffy could see that he was already
aroused . He slid onto the bed and held her shoulders. With a groan
he began licking the wound, slowly, angling his tongue against the
deepest part. At first it hurt, but his cool tongue took the pain
away, leaving the wound feeling cool and a little numb.

It lasted for a long time, and then his lips and tongue began to
trail up her neck to he jaw and ear. Buffy shivered, it felt so
delicious.

"If you want me to stop, tell me now while I still can." His voice
was low and husky, sending even more shivers down her
spine. "Otherwise you're gonna have to beat me off  you. I'm pretty
near the point of no return," he whispered into her hair.

"It's all right. I want this."

He looked her deeply in the eyes. "If this is just going to be this
one time, tell me , and maybe I'll able to do it and walk away." His
eyes held a bleak look, and she knew he would not be able to just
walk away, that any denial from her would be painful.

Buffy threaded her fingers through his hair making the curls spring
free. "Not thinking of just one time. I was thinking we should be
together, because it is right for you to be here with me. Was
thinking we could meet each others needs, instead of me taking all
the time."

He stared into her eyes for a moment, "Not just the one time, then."

She nodded. Then it was like a tornado striking. Buffy found herself
naked and flat on her back under a very aroused and naked vampire in
just seconds. He kissed  hard with a tongue that pressed against her
own, devouring. She could feel his steely cock pressed against her,
and he reached both hands down to yank her legs apart. She squeaked
in surprise. Now she could feel the head pressing against her opening.

"Not going in yet," He gasped into her mouth. "Just want to feel you
get wet."

Gasping? He doesn't even need to breathe. Must be ... arousal. She
liked that he was so turned on by her.

She shimmied a little against him, pleased to see the way his facial
expression changed, lips parted, eyes shut. "I'm already wet," she
pointed out.

"Ahh, yeah, that's good sweets. So good. I'm not waiting. Have to do
f-foreplay–" he began to push into her– "with me inside."

Buffy blinked in astonishment as his cool hard cock filled her to the
point she thought she might burst. It didn't hurt, but she was so
full... a little more and it would be painful.

"You okay?" He rumbled against her neck. " Ahh, god...  Can't
believe how hot you are."

"Yeah." She swallowed. "Just can't move."

"That'll change," He whispered. "Trust me."

He began licking and nipping at her neck while his fingers pulled and
twirled her nipples. The neck action had her slayer senses screaming,
while the nipple play was so delicious, shooting tendrils of pleasure
straight to the walls clutched around his hardness.

 Between licks and nips he moaned into her ear. "Never felt anything
like you... god, Buffy...  little titties so pretty . .  Gotta
taste... getting wetter, mmm...."

Buffy felt out of control, unsure of what he might do next. This
wasn't like her other times, which had always followed the same
basic, predictable order. Spike was mixing everything up, and it was
making her crazy.

"Spike," she gasped, clutching at his shoulders, involuntarily
clutching her inner muscles around him.

He hissed.

"Buffy, not gonna be able to just rest in there, if you do that.
Christ, you weren't kidding about those muscles, were you, luv?"

She had no idea what he was talking about. "Talk, talk talk. " She
pouted. "I want some kisses."

His lips immediately latched onto hers, and she shivered as his long
tongue stroked hers, rubbing and caressing tenderly. They kissed for
a  long, long time, and Buffy wasn't even aware of the  exact time
his rigid cock began to move within her in time with his clever,
thrusting tongue.

She just came to the realization, at some point, that she had never
felt anything so delicious in her life, and the fleeting thought ran
through her that Spike was her first lover who really fit her. Both
Angel and Riley had been too enormous to kiss her mouth while inside
of her. His weight didn't feel crushing, either, it was arousing,
creating delicious pressure...

One smooth hand slid between them, and gentle fingers glided over her
clit, while the kisses and shallow thrusts continued, on and on, at a
mesmerizing pace.

Buffy lost all sense of time, swamped by sensation, his tongue,  his
thick hard cock, his smooth fingers... she spiraled into one climax
after another, whimpering and moaning against his mouth... and he
began to thrust harder, pounding and ramming into her, and Buffy
wrapped her legs and arms around him fiercely, meeting his thrusts
with her own, clutching his cock with her inner muscles, making him
quiver and moan...  And then he came, groaning her name, his face
shifting into bumpies as he buried his face in her shoulder, tongue
once again bathing her wound, and she came one final time, a huge
burst of pleasure that left her nearly unconscious.

It was a while before either of them moved. A knocking on her door
finally caught their attention.

"Buffy, are you okay?" It was Dawn.

"Ye... Yeah," Buffy called. "Just, um, Spike was fixing my wound."

"Yuh huh. Right. Well, try to keep it down, okay?"

"Kay," Buffy buried her blushing cheeks into Spike's shoulder, and he
chuckled.

"Well, guess everybody knows things have changed." She whispered.

"That bother you?"

"No... " Something else was on her mind. It was beginning to get
light. "Did...did that take a really long time? Were we, um, you
know,  for hours?"

Spike chucked and glanced at the bedside clock. "Yeah, we were.
Wanted it too last,  make it memorable. In case it was the only
time..."  He shrugged, and a sad look crept over his face.

"Are you nuts? You think I'm not gonna want to repeat that? A lot?"

"God, I hope. Otherwise I'm not likely to survive this."  It was his
turn to bury his face in her neck, embarrassed.

"Spike, I know you love me... and I think I'm starting to love
you...You are the one I trust... the one I want to sleep with."

"Won't rush you... well, except for the sex part. I'll probably be
all over you, all the time."

"That sounds good." She snuggled against him, eyes shut, and yawned.

"Yeah? So, you think we should go shopping?"

"Shopping?" Her eyes flew open.

"For a bigger bed? One that doesn't squeak so much?"

"Mmm, that would be fun. New sheets and spread, too? You buying?"

"Yeah, I'm buying."

"Really? Then, maybe a new nightie? And some pretty pillows? Thicker
curtains?"

"Yeah, yeah, anything you want. And something for Dawnie, too. We'll
go to the mall this afternoon."

Buffy wrapped herself around him and yawned again. "Well, if my
friends give me a hard time about this,  I'll just explain that
there's shopping involved. That'll settle it."

They drifted to sleep, content in each others arms.
the end

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