Caught Between Two Lovers
Parts 40-43 


Written by: Pattyanne
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Summary: A retelling of Spike and Buffy's first meeting. Starts in early season 2. For the purpose of the story, Angel does not exist and Spike is a little....different.
Disclaimer: I do not own the show Buffy the Vampire Slayer or Angel (The Series). All of the characters belong to Joss Whedon, Mutant Enemy, 20th Century Fox, et al.
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Part Forty

I Want To Spend My Lifetime Loving You (cont..)

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" Though we know we will never come again
Where there is love, life begins
Over and over again.."
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As the sun made it's first full appearance in the eastern sky, Buffy fell into an exhausted sleep.

It hadn't been an easy thing for her to do. Despite William's efforts to put her mind at rest and instill a little confidence and security in her heart, her brain had refused to shut down for the maintenance work it was in desperate need of.

As a last resort, she made herself lie very still and silently quote all the opening dialogue and song lyrics from her mother's cast album of Camelot, something she could do by virtue of the 99,999 times she'd heard it.

Joyce was addicted to musical theater, and there wasn't a thing a person could ask about that she couldn't discuss, from the 'offest' Broadway production to the most lavish spectacle ever to hit the stage.

From the time she was a very small child, Buffy had been able to correctly answer all the questions in the "Broadway Shows" category of Jeopardy, and she had no equal when it came to playing "Name That Tune".

Along about the time King Arthur was hawking his proposal for a new order of chivalry, she finally drifted off.

When Willow's mother rapped cheerfully on the door and directed the three girls to "rise and shine", Buffy had less than four hours of sleep in the past twenty-four under her belt.

Cordelia and Willow, on the other hand, were fairly chipper. They bounced around the room, dressing and performing their usual morning rituals and chatting away about how great last night had been, until Buffy wanted to tie them up and gag them in self defense.

She sat up in her sleeping bag, massaging her temples as though she were trying to hold her head together. Claiming a headache as an excuse to stave off any more questions about her disappearing act at the dance, she forced herself to climb to her feet and make her way to the bathroom, more by touch than by sight.

A few splashes of cold water brought her out of semiconscious- ness. Giving her hair a couple of swipes with her brush, she dressed and followed her friends downstairs to the kitchen where Willow's mom was fixing them breakfast.

Cordy and Willow devoured mounds of scrambled eggs, strips of bacon, and slices of toast.

Buffy sat down at the table and propped her chin on her hand, then fell asleep immediately. When someone kicked her under the table, her eyes flew open and she sat up ramrod straight in her chair.

She ate mechanically, not really tasting the food, but hoping the nourishment would give her enough energy to get her through the morning. The conversation, she tuned out completely.

As she sat sipping cocoa so hot that it burned her tongue, the telephone rang. Willow hopped up and answered it, and after exchanging pleasantries with the caller, handed the phone to Buffy.

Something in her muddled brain warned her that it was her mother on the other end of the phone line, and she had better stop acting like a dying flower and start acting like a person who'd had a full night's sleep.

It was difficult to get the gist of her mom's words, but she seemed to be informing Buffy that "something had come up" and that she " would be at the gallery all day" and did Buffy "need a ride home first?"

Yawning, she asked Cordy if she could take her home, and reported her friend's affirmative answer back to Joyce.

She trudged back upstairs and gathered her belongs, then sat on the couch to wait for Cordy to do the same, which was a mistake, because she once again fell asleep.

After thanking Willow's mom for everything, Buffy collapsed into the passenger seat of Cordelia's little red Mazda. She rubbed her eyes with a closed fist, and her ring caught hold of a stray beam on sunlight, splashing tiny rainbows on the dash.

An idea suddenly popped into her head.

"Cordelia?"

"What...hey!...nice stop, MORON! I was at this intersection first, you know!"

"Yeah, you totally were," Buffy agreed. "I was gonna ask you to drop me off somewhere."

"I swear...they'll give anybody a driver's license these days," Cordy grumbled. "What did you say?"

Buffy sighed. "I asked if you could drop me off somewhere."

"Somewhere that's not your house?"

"Yeah. Could you please?"

"Whatever."

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" Save the night, save the day
Save the love, come what may
Love is worth everything we pay.."

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She directed Cordy out onto Ocean Front Road and made her leave her at the corner. Waiting until the little red car was out of sight, Buffy turned and headed down the short frontage road towards the Sea Breeze Inn.

William's car was parked directly in front of 'their' cottage, and she felt all the exhaustion drain away at the sight.

Newly energized, she tapped softly on the door.

No answer.

She made a fist and knocked a bit harder.

"Who is it?" a sleepy voice asked.

"It's me," Buffy replied. "Can I...."

Before she'd even finished the sentence, the door opened and she was yanked in so hard that her feet momentarily lost contact with the ground.

"Baby, what are you doing here?" he asked, wrapping his arms around her and smiling. "Did you miss me that much?"

"I really did," Buffy said, nodding and nudging him backwards until he fell down on the tousled bed, taking her along with him. "I woke you up, huh?"

"Ask me if I care." He rolled her over until she lay beneath him. "Did you get some sleep?"

"Some," she admitted, reacquainting herself with the hard muscle of his back and shoulders. "But I really wanted to see you again, so....ta-da! Here I am."

He smoothed her hair back from her face. "How'd you get here?"

"Cordelia dropped me off at the corner and then I walked." Un- able to hold it back, she yawned.

"You should go home and get some more sleep, love," he said, although he made no move to let her up.

Buffy made her eyes stay open wide. "It's an awfully long walk," she replied. "I kind of thought maybe I could sleep here for a while since you can't exactly drive me home."

"No, but I can call you a cab." His index finger wandered across the petal softness of her cheek and tapped the tip of her nose. "Isn't your mother expecting you?"

She gave him a jaunty grin. "Nope! She has to spend the whole day at the gallery. Something got there too soon, or didn't get there at all...I don't remember exactly what it was, but she won't be home until tonight."

"I see." Leaning on one arm, he used his free hand to remove the elastic from her hair. "So...you came here thinking that I would let you sleep in my bed, did you?"

"Yes, I was hoping." As his hand spread her hair about on the pillow, Buffy was feeling less and less sleepy. Her own fingers crept up and buried themselves in his short curls. "Unless you can think of something more fun to do," she said impulsively, blushing his favorite shade of pink.

He smiled down at her, instilling just enough lechery into his expression to make her color deepen. "I can always think of something pleasant to do when you're around," he said, his voice dropping a little lower in tone.

Buffy wasn't as easily flustered by his suggestiveness as she'd once been. "Like what?"

William traced his thumb over the slight shadows beneath her bright eyes. Hating to say it, he informed her that he was definitely in need of a bit more sleep or he'd be no good to her whatsoever. She didn't want him drifting off in the middle of making love to her, did she?

Sighing, Buffy allowed herself to be persuaded. "Okay, let's take a nap," she said, snuggling close as he arranged the blankets around them.

William lay back and watched as she squirmed around under the covers. A moment later, both of her shoes and her jeans were tossed on the floor.

He shook his head and advised her to keep her shirt on, telling her that he would not be held responsible for interrupting her sleep if she insisted on lying beside him in nothing but her bra and panties.

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" I want to spend my lifetime loving you
If that is all in life I ever do..."

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William turned her on her side, then pulled her back into his embrace. With one arm around her waist, he buried his face in her hair, taking in the familiar scent and letting it lull him into a state of blissful peace.

He was nearly asleep when his ears detected the sound of her murmuring something under her breath....

" When I was a young lad of eighteen years of age, our good King Pendragon died, leaving nothing to succeed him but a sword stuck through a stone and anvil. Below the hilt, in letters of gold were written the words 'Whose pulleth this sword from this stone and anvil is rightwise born king of all England'. A great tournament was held so that all the knights could come and have a go at the sword. I came to London as squire to my cousin, Sir Kay, and on the morning of the tournament...."

William bit down on his lower lip. He had no idea what she was doing but he wouldn't have interrupted it for anything.

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" I will want nothing else to see me through
If I can spend my lifetime loving you.."

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Part Forty One

Spellbound

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"Spellbound, obsessed
I'm entranced, possessed
I swear by stars above
I've never been so much in love..."

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Strangely, even in the places where their bodies touched, she didn't feel cold. It wasn't until she had been awake for a minute or so that she realized they were lying beneath an electric blanket.

Buffy turned onto her back, then all the way to her other side to look into his face and watch him while he slept. This was a first for her. He'd never really slept before when they spent nights together, or, if he did, she was asleep as well and missed it.

It was a delicious sight, she had to admit. His hair all mussed and curly, those long, dark lashes making little fans on his high cheekbones. He made such an enchanting picture that she didn't even notice the lack of breathing.

She was wondering what time it was when the little brass mantle clock chimed twice.

Only two in the afternoon? Plenty of time, then.

Sleeping in his arms was wonderful, and it was definitely something she wanted to do more of, but she'd missed him so much, for so long, that it seemed like a waste of time at the moment.

She'd kept herself occupied while he was gone. School work and slaying duties had taken up most of her free time, with a little bit of playtime initiated by her friends, but when she'd been through with all that, there had still been too hours of empty space she'd needed to fill.

So, she'd headed for the mall. And while she was there, she'd discovered the bookstore.

Reading had never been one of her favorite things to do. Her mother had spent years trying to convince her that there was no substitute for a good book when you had some time on your hands, but Buffy had always held more to the philosophy that life was to be lived and not read about.

But while traveling aimlessly up and down the aisles of Walden's Books, she'd happened upon the romance section and noticed a whole new trend had appeared in the genre. There were still plenty of cowboys, Scottish brigands, and pirates, but they'd recently been joined by a new type of romantic hero....vampires.

Most of the stories were fairly predictable and followed a basic formula; 1.Creature of the night spies beautiful mortal girl and seduces her without bothering to let her in on his big secret; 2. Vamp falls totally in love with her and she with him; 3. Vamp finally fesses up but decides he can't bear to take her from the life she was meant to lead and drives her away, keeping her from having to dwell in the darkness with him instead of romping in the sunshine with the secondary male lead, who, let's face it, was pretty dull and not nearly as handsome; 4. Saves her from some unspeakably evil danger, which was usually caused by either a jealous ex-lover of his or a former rival from his past; 5. All of which culminated in his total reformation and the realization that any life together was better than one apart; and 6. The big happy ending sex fest that followed.

The reason she knew all this was because she'd bought and read every book she'd found.

The vampire heroes were kind of generic, if you could call a vampire generic in the first place. They were all tall, dark, and handsome, with 'piercing eyes' of either ebony or jade green. All of them seemed to be leading a torturous life, feeling a great deal of guilt and remorse for their carnage, which they brooded about constantly, as though they were still possessed of their souls, and how lame was THAT!?

She couldn't help thinking, as she'd paged through the books, that she had a unique point of view on the subject. Maybe, someday, she would write a little something on what it was REALLY like to love and to be loved in return by a vampire. About how all encompassing it was. How it occupied every waking and sleeping moment, until all a person could think about was the next time they'd be with their lover.

No. Who would ever believe it?

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"Caught up, entwined in your embrace
You are my all
No looking back, too far to fall..."
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These fictional vampires were nothing like the real ones in a lot of different ways. For one, the only thing that changed when they vamped out was their teeth.

But you couldn't blame the authors for that. Up until she'd come face to face with her first vamp, she'd never even dreamed of the sorts of changes that occurred, the way their facial features totally deconstructed and re- formed.

In fact, if things were very quiet, she could actually hear the bones shifting, which seemed like it should hurt.

Still, even if they'd known about it, the authors probably wouldn't play up the differences. They'd want to keep their heroes handsome and sexually appealing. She was probably the only one in the world who found a real vampire to be that way, in both his human and demon guises.

Hard to imagine that she was the only one. William had shown her most clearly that all vampires were not cut from the same piece of cloth, as Giles assured her they were.

Vampires were individuals, just as people were. Some of them chose to be a certain way, while others opted to follow a different path and behave more like a human than an animal.

She suspected that it might have something to do with the kind of person they were before being turned. For some reason, it was a subject that had never come up between them, but now that it had occurred to her, she was definitely going to ask him just who William Hamilton had once been.

Probably a very handsome and dashing fellow, she decided, examining his fine features. The confident and "in charge" type. She could picture him attending social gatherings and commanding the attention of everyone in the room just by the force of his strong personality.

And that wasn't even factoring in his outrageously attractive face and form, which was a work of art all by itself.

The blankets had slipped down to his waist, giving her a nice view of his strong upper arms and well built chest, all tapering down to those incredible abdominal muscles.

And of course, if you kept traveling south, things just got better and better.

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"Spellbound
Baby, don't you know you've got me
Spellbound
Wrenched an unknown feeling from my heart
Baby doll, you know you keep me
Spellbound..."

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She couldn't lie there much longer without doing something. Even though she hated to wake him up, since he'd had so little sleep, the temptation to do just that was a just a bit too hard to resist.

Now, how to go about it?

She'd read somewhere that if you stared intensely at someone sleeping, that person would awaken. After a solid ten minutes of it, Buffy decided that there was no truth to the theory.

Rolling onto her back, she sighed loudly, then coughed a little bit. When that got no reaction, she faked a sneeze, jiggling the mattress for good measure.

Apparently, he was a really deep sleeper.

She cleared her throat, sat up and then laid back down, changed positions, scratched a non-existent itch in the middle of her back...nothing worked.

After taking it to the extreme of actually climbing out of bed, going to the bathroom, and returning to bed...with as much noise and movement as she could reasonably make...she had to acknowledge the fact that if she wanted him awake, she'd have to apply a little slayer strength to her shaking.

Or else....

The thought came to her without warning, then refused to go away. There WAS one more thing she hadn't tried yet.

Slipping one hand beneath the blanket, she placed it on his upper thigh. The unusual warmth of his skin was wonderful, and she let her fingers fan out and stroke the hard inner muscle they touched.

At that moment, 'something' stirred under the covers. She froze for just a second, waiting to see if she was going to be caught red handed, but he remained perfectly still.

Gathering up every bit of her nerve, she allowed her fingers to continue exploring, moving so slowly it would have required time lapse photography to detect any motion.

When he still didn't budge, she began to get a little bolder. Her hand moved up over his thigh and caressed his flat stomach, her little finger dipping briefly into his navel. Nothing happened.

"How can I wake you up?" she asked softly.

"You're going about it in the wrong way," he answered unexpectedly, making her jump in surprise. "I'm enjoying all the attention you're lavishing on my unconscious body far too much. I can pretend to be asleep all day for that."

"Oh!" Her cheeks turned pink. "You...sneak," she scolded half-heartedly. "That wasn't fair."

He looked up at her with lovely drowsy eyes. "I'd be happy to drop back off if you'd prefer to do it that way."

"Do what?"

"Whatever you like."

She considered his answer, tilting her head in contem- plation. "Okay, then...close your eyes."

He obeyed, wriggling down into the mattress a little deeper.

Buffy pulled the covers all the way down to the end of the bed, fully exposing his naked body.

"It doesn't seem quite fair that I'm the only one with no clothes on," he said.

"What difference does THAT make?" she asked reasonably. "You're asleep, remember?"

Kneeling next to his prone body, she peeled off her t-shirt and tossed it on the floor, leaving on her bra and panties for the moment.

"Did you take something off?"

"Do you always talk so much in your sleep?" She straddled him, placing one knee on either side of his waist, but keeping her body airborne. "Now...are you asleep?" she whispered, dropping forward onto her hands.

"Yes," he whispered back, visibly trying to suppress a grin.

Leaning down, she placed an airy kiss on his forehead, then trailed her lips down his nose and over both his cheeks. When she passed his own lips, he seemed to strain forward in search of a true kiss, but she denied him, ordering him to settle down.

Her lips placed a series of soft kisses along the line of his jaw, then tugged playfully on his earlobe, making him squirm slightly when she teased it with the tip of her tongue.

Ignoring the movement, she took her tongue elsewhere, zeroing in on the base of his throat. Licking it as delicately as a kitten at a saucer of milk, she moved a bit further down his body.

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"I'm so high on love
I won't come down..."
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Buffy was having an unbelievably good time playing with William's body, even though he wasn't truly asleep. The whole thing was giving her a sense of power over him that she'd rarely felt, having usually been on the receiving end of the advances.

She was enjoying herself so much, that she forgot to feel any of the irritating shyness such things normally brought out in her.

Blazing a gentle path of kisses down the middle of his chest, she turned her head and rubbed her cheek against his left pectoral, eliciting an almost soundless gasp from him.

She sat up, reaching for his arms and raising them until they were lying above his head. He smiled when she trailed her fingertips down the smooth flesh of his inner arms from his wrists to his armpits, stifling a laugh.

"Shhh" she murmured. "You're sleeping."

"I'm sleeping."

After a moment of thought, she reached around behind her. "Don't open your eyes," she warned him, unfastening her bra and letting it slide down her arms.

With the sort of cocky smile she'd picked up from him, she leaned over again and pressed her breasts against his chest.

His only reaction was to clench his fists.

Lifting herself slightly, she brushed the tips of her nipples over his smooth skin until they were hard and sensitive.

William's control was amazing. He didn't make a sound, although he did arch his back ever so slightly.

"Still asleep?" she inquired.

"Is that what you want?"

"Yep."

"Then I'm still asleep."

~~~~~~~~~~
"Oh, oh...what do we do?
You fell for me, I fell for you
Bewitched, but adored
I never loved like this before..."

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Watching him try so desperately to play the part she wanted, Buffy felt her heart swell in her chest, literally filling up with all the love she kept there for him.

She placed her lips against his ear. "I love you, William," she whispered. "You're my life."

It was obviously difficult for him not to say it back, but he managed to keep a rein on the control he needed, letting her call the shots.

"We're going to be together. No matter what my mother says, or Giles. I won't let them come between us. I'll be strong. You'll see."

It was a promise she would keep. No matter what obstacles the others tried to throw in their way, and there would be a lot of them, she wouldn't buckle under.

They would try everything, she knew, from gentle persuasion to endless lecturing. Giles especially would point out the impossibility of what she was doing. He would use every piece of ammunition in his arsenal to straighten her out, to make her understand that she was walking down a road that would end in disaster or death...HER death, to be exact.

She was the Slayer, he would say, the guardian of the Hellmouth. How could she put herself in such a vulnerable position? And not JUST her, but her friends and her family as well.

He would bring up William's murderous past, victim by victim, she had no doubt.

Giles would try...and he would fail. Willow and Xander would take their shot...and would have no success.

Even her mother wouldn't sway her from the path she'd chosen.

Thinking of her mother for a moment, Buffy was once again reminded of Joyce's passion for old musicals. Specifically, a line in a song from West Side Story that summed everything up nicely; "When love comes so strong, there is no right or wrong. Your love is your life."

For the first time since William had suggested it, the prospect of facing them all down no longer made her feel a trifle nauseous.

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"I had a dream
My wish was granted
We got a love I never thought I'd find..."

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By some super-herculean effort, William stayed quiet after her declaration.

She rewarded him for it by heading back down his body, stopping to taste and tease.

It was a dizzying encounter. This "being in charge" stuff was fun. She wished she hadn't waited so long to try it.

Rising to her knees, she tugged at the tiny satin ribbons that kept her panties in place on her hips. They fell away from her, landing on the most sensitive part of his body.

His hips jerked in an involuntary response.

After getting her underpants out of her way, she leaned down and drew a line with her tongue, starting at his navel and ending at the base of his impressive erection.

Air hissed in through his clenched teeth. "Baby," he whispered. "Please...."

She paused. "Are you talking in your sleep again?"

He swallowed hard and shrugged. "Sure. Why not?"

Although she'd been planning to hold off a little more, she scrapped the idea. "Okay, go ahead."

"Don't stop," he said immediately. "Take it in your mouth...suck me."

The blatant demand gave her an all over body blush, but she did as he'd asked.

Feeling wickedly sexy, she curled her fingers around his erection and kissed its tip. When she opened her mouth and let it slide in, his head tipped back and his legs locked up tight.

"Yeah," he muttered hoarsely. "Like that."

Buffy was still enjoying her power. The soft sounds he was making as he struggled to hold still made her own desire even stronger.

Then she heard a louder groan as he gave up the fight, tangling his fingers in her hair, moving in and out of her mouth in shallow thrusts.

"Buffy...sweetheart...feels so good."

Pleased, she drew him in further. Her mouth slid up and down in a steady rhythm, her cheeks hollowing on each upstroke.

"I'm...I'm going to come," he whispered.

She knew what to expect, and she brought her free hand up to cup his sac, letting him know what she wanted to do for him.

This gentle touch was about all he could take. With a shout of pleasure, he exploded, filling her mouth with his load.

Buffy dealt with it without making a face, then sat up and grinned. "Did you like that?"

William's mouth curved in a matching smile, but his eyes stayed closed.

"Shh," he said. "I'm asleep."

~~~~~~~~~~
"Under your spell,
I stay enchanted
You cast a spell
Our love's divine..."

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Part Forty-two...


Bad Boy


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"Boys will be boys
Bad boy, bad boy
Boys will be boys
Bad boy, bad boy..."

~~~~~~~~~~

Buffy stared at her reflection in the hall mirror, not much caring for it. She looked pale and nervous, nothing at all the way a Slayer should look.

She had spent a great deal of time practicing her confrontational, bad ass, 'get in my way and I'll wear your teeth on a chain around my neck' persona, wanting to appear as threatening as a five foot nothing, almost seventeen year old could manage; so much time, in fact, that she was able to switch to it quickly from her 'I'm just an innocent, helpless victim and please don't hurt me' face.

But confronting hungry vampires was nothing compared to confronting a mother with rather disturbing news about the career her only offspring had been pushed into.

As a child, she had played all the different stages in the "What shall I be when I grow up?" game.

From 'princess' to 'ballerina' to 'nurse' to 'veterinarian', she'd run the full course, collecting all the "Yes, of course, honeys" and "You'll make a wonderful whatever you choose to be, sweeties" along the way.

Somehow, in all the discussions she'd had with friends and family members, the topic of 'Vampire Slayer' had never been raised.

So, how did one go about explaining this sort of thing to a parent who had always pictured their child in a tu-tu or a nurse's uniform?

She took a deep breath. "Mom. I'm a...why don't you sit down...Mom...I'm a vampire slayer. Vampires. Real, honest to goodness, vampires. I slay them. It's sort of my job. Oh, and by the way, this is my fiance...who happens to BE a vampire." She sighed deeply. "I'm dead. She's either going to kill me or commit me."

Flicking off the bathroom light, she went into the living room and plopped down on the couch next to William. His arms opened instantly, gathering her up.

"You all right, luv?"

"Oh, sure. I'm just peachy. Couldn't be better, thanks." She looked up at him with wide, pleading eyes. "Take my mind off it."

"How can I do that?"

"Kiss me."

Placing one hand beneath her chin, he tilted her face up a bit more and placed an extremely gentle kiss on her slightly trembling lips.

Buffy tried to deepen the kiss and intensify the embrace. She turned and rose up on her knees, wrapping her arms snugly around him and returning his kiss with a searing one of her own.

After a moment, he attempted to pull back. "Sweetheart...as wonderful as this is....I don't think we should be doing it just now."

She pulled back, pouting. "Don't you want me?"

"You know better than that," he said firmly. "I want you twenty- four hours a day. But if your mother walks in, it won't endear me to her if she catches me with my hand up your shirt."

"No," she admitted. "But it'll make ME feel good."

He laughed, hugging her tightly. "I love you, and I promise that when it's all over, I'll take you somewhere and do everything I can to make you feel good."

The brief tussle had caused the top two buttons on her sweater to come undone, and she was displaying a rather tantalizing bit of cleavage. The sight, as always, made him instantly hard.

"On the other hand," he said, slipping his fingers just under the collar of the sweater.

Buffy heard herself let out a squeaky protest when his lips traveled down her throat, seeking the bare skin she was showing. "My mother...." she began weakly.

"Don't worry," he murmured against her neck. "I'll hear her in plenty of time to get to the other side of the room. God, you smell wonderful."

"I....I do? But...but I'm not wearing...perfume." Her head was beginning to spin.

"I know," he growled. "It's just your natural scent driving me wild. Making me hard."

~~~~~~~~~~ "Always getting so restless
Nothing but trouble
Boys will be boys, bad boy, bad boy

Get me feeling breathless
Nothing but trouble
Boys will be boys, bad boy, bad boy
~~~~~~~~~~

His hand lifted, and the back of his fingers stroked her cheek. When her lips parted, his thumb brushed over the lower one. "Good girl. You open that pretty mouth so sweetly."

The kiss he gave her was long and hard. At one point, he pulled away just enough to drag his tongue over her lips and whisper, "You taste sugary. Like ripe fruit....cherries, maybe. Or strawberries."

Buffy was finding it difficult to keep her feet on the ground, metaphorically speaking.

"That's....that's my lip gloss," she sighed. "Cherry Delight."

His fingers left her face and began to play erotic games on the bare skin of her shoulder, where her sweater had slipped down. "Is that a fact?" he asked, his tone a little husky. "Well, tell me, Cherry Delight...are you as juicy as I think you are?"

She wasn't quite sure whether he expected an answer to that question, or was just trying to provoke a reaction from her. Whichever it was, she couldn't come up with anything witty to say in reply.

"A car just turned the corner," he whispered in her ear.

"That's nice," she moaned, tilting her head to one side to give him more access to her throat. "I...WHAT? IT DID?"

Placing her hands on his chest, she pushed him off so hard that he wound up at the far end of the sofa.

She yanked the curtain aside, peering out into the dark.

"Oh...it's not her. That's Mrs. Darboldt's car. She lives next door."

Buffy turned around and sagged back down on the sofa.

"Well, in that case," William said, grabbing her shoulders and pulling her closer. "let's continue."

She shook her head. "No...now, don't. You were right before. If she sees you...I mean us...like this...we're both dead."

"I'm willing to take that risk."

"Yeah, but....oh....you shouldn't....do that."

He bit down gently on her ear lobe. "But I want to. I want you."

If he kept this up, things were going to get to the point of no return even more quickly than they usually did when he touched her.

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"Bad, bad, bad, bad boy
You make me feel so good
I want you bad, bad, bad, bad, boy
You make feel so good..."

~~~~~~~~~~

"What if she catches us?"

"What if she does? I intend to make an honest woman of you. I even put a ring on your...where's your ring?"

"On a chain under my sweater."

"Really? Can I see?"

"What? No!"

"Oh, come on. Just a peek. I want to see it all nestled against your skin."

"Stop it! You're tearing it."

"Then let me pull it up."

"Hey...you! Oh, all right. There! Happy now?"

"Wait a second. I barely got to look. Come on, back up with it...oh, very pretty. I think I'm going to buy you a pendant with a diamond that hangs just in that spot. Or maybe a pearl, to pick up the luster of your beautiful skin. Have you ever seen a pink pearl?"

"No. Can I pull my sweater down now?"

"They're very rare. I saw one in Tokyo, the size of your thumb. It was the palest shade of pink I've ever seen, and it would look stunning between your bare breasts."

"What are you doing!?"

"Unhooking your bra. I want the full effect."

"William...stop that...I...I mean it, now...."

"In a minute, Cherry Delight."

"...oh...oh, god....William....."

~~~~~~~~~~
"The way you hold me tight
You get me so excited
~~~~~~~~~~

"Hello?....Hi, Mom....Uh-huh....Yeah, I'll be here...Love you, too....Bye."

William sat up from where Buffy had pushed him onto the floor when the phone rang. "Anything wrong?"

"No. She's running a little behind, and she didn't want me to worry."

She was busy straightening her clothes, so she missed it when the look in his eyes changed.

"So, she'll be home....when?"

Buffy smoothed her hair. "Not for a while yet. She...no! Sit! Now!"

Too late. He was already unbuttoning his shirt.

Her only recourse was to turn and dive for the staircase, unable to hold back a scream of excited laughter. "Get away!"

"Never! Come back here!"

He was right on her heels as she scrambled up the stairs, grabbing at her hips.

She turned over and placed her foot in the middle of his chest, shoving him back down several steps.

"Oh, that's it!" he said loudly, shedding his shirt and reaching for his belt buckle."

Buffy gaped at him in shock. "You wouldn't dare!" she squealed.

"I wouldn't dare what?" He started up the stairs again, unzipping the fly of his trousers.

"Nothing...nothing." She backed up the stairs one at a time, keeping the same amount of distance between them.

He crooked one finger at her. "Come here, Cherry Delight."

"No, we can't," she said firmly from the top of the stairs.

William just shook his head. "We have plenty of time for short and sweet."

"I...what's THAT supposed to mean?"

"Come here and I'll show you."

She knew that if she got within a foot of him, it was all over but the shouting. Jumping up, she ran for her room at the end of the hall, forgetting that he was capable of moving just as fast as she was, faster even.

"No, no, no!" she yelled, trying to close the door.

'Yes, yes..." He shoved the door open hard, sending her across the room to fall backwards on her bed. "...yes!"

~~~~~~~~~~
"You do me oh, so right
My heart goes beat, beat, beat, beat
Beat-a- beat, beat!"
~~~~~~~~~~

Straddling her hips, William grabbed Buffy's hands and pinned them to the mattress. "Trapped. No where left to run."

Well, she wasn't exactly dying to run off somewhere. Es- pecially when his head dipped down and he planted a kiss on her that she could feel deep down in her soul.

Desire spread throughout her body, starting in her toes and working it's way upwards. When it reached her vital parts, she relaxed her legs and let him fall in between them.

"Buffy," he moaned, nuzzling her hair. "Let me...please, baby."

LET him? She was all set to MAKE him!

Still...she didn't want to seem too easy.

"But I'm a good girl," she protested.

"And I'm a bad boy." He nipped at her skin. "We're made for each other."

His hands released her and slipped up under her skirt, hooking in the sides of her panties, working them down and off.

"We don't have much time," she warned him, arching her back as he kissed her throat.

"That's all right, luv. I can still make you scream."

"William! I....oh, yes..."

"You like that?"

She put her hands on the sides of his face and kissed him; long, sweet, drugging kisses, doing it the way he had taught her.

Not wanting to bother with the buttons, he pushed her sweater up, nudging the cups of her bra out of his way.

Almost without her knowing it, her legs came up and trapped him, urging him forward. He sent one hand down between them, releasing his erection and rubbing it against her, getting set to plunge inside of her.

"Now, baby? I want you now."

Now was good for her.

"Take me."

~~~~~~~~~~
"Bad, bad, bad, bad boy
You make me feel so good
I want you bad
Bad, bad, bad, boy
You make me feel so good


I knew you would..."
~~~~~~~~~~

Pushing her legs farther apart, he sank himself into her, going deep, pushing hard.

Christ...nothing in his life had ever felt as good, like sliding into warm cream.

A soft growl issued from his throat as he reared back and then drove in again, drove in hard enough to push her up further on the mattress.

Buffy lifted her hips, meeting each gliding stroke that he gave her, her entire body vibrating with a white hot intensity.

The only clear thought she could focus on was that she never wanted this to stop.

"No, baby....I won't stop. Not until you come all over me...not until I feel it all wet and hot on my dick..."

She must have articulated that last thought.

"Yes, that's it," he muttered, pumping faster. "That's my good girl...my sweet little Cherry Delight...ahhh, yeah. Fuck you all night...forever....unh...yes.."

Buffy was unraveling fast. Surely she would be over that edge soon, free falling into space, taking him along with her.

It was so close...so close...just a little..bit...more...and then....she....yes...oh, yes.....there it was....so good...so amazingly good.

"William...I...I love you...."

"Love you...Buffy....ahhh...LOVE...YOU!"

~~~~~~~~~~
"Boys will be boys
Bad boy, bad boy
Boys will be boys
Bad boy, bad boy.."
~~~~~~~~~~

"Buffy? Honey, I'm home. Are you up in your room? Wait until I tell you what happened at the gallery today."

~~~~~~~~~~
"Boys will be boys..."

~~~~~~~~~~






Part Forty-three...


Everything I Do

~~~~~~~~~~ "Look into my eyes, you will see
What you mean to me
Search your heart, search your soul
And when you find me there
You'll search no more.."
~~~~~~~~~~ Buffy stared up at William, her eyes growing rounder by the second, her lips parted and trembling.

He quickly placed one hand gently over her mouth.

"Don't panic," he instructed her quietly, straining to hear Joyce's progress on the stairs over the wild drumbeat of Buffy's racing heart. "Tell her you're changing your clothes and you'll be down in a moment."

She whimpered beneath his hand.

"Sweetheart....do you understand?"

Closing her eyes briefly, Buffy nodded. William removed his hand.

"Go ahead," he mouthed.

She tried, but the words were stuck in her constricting throat and all that came out was a mousy squeak.

"Buffy?" Joyce called, her voice sounding closer.

"If you don't say it now," William whispered, "she's going to walk in that door in about three seconds."

The horrible thought of her mother doing just that, of turning the doorknob and walking in to find her only daughter lying on her bed, her skirt pushed up around her waist and her underpants nowhere in sight, was the catalyst that finally freed Buffy's voice.

"I'M CHANGINGMYCLOTHES I'LLBEDOWNINA MINUTEMOM," she all but screamed, running her words together in a nearly incomprehensible manner.

William winced at the sharp pitch. "Nice going, sweet- heart," he murmured, pulling back. "She'll never suspect a thing now."

"Honey? You okay?" floated up from the stairs.

Buffy swallowed hard, trying desperately to call up some semblance of the 'slayer remaining cool under fire' lessons that Giles had been attempting to drum into her head from day one.

She could recite the mantra by heart when she was sitting in the library with no distractions, life threatening or otherwise.

Lesson Roman Numeral One was, of course, the universal rule of thumb in any sticky situation, the ubiquitous and ever popular: Don't Panic.

She usually never did....until now. Even when she was scared out of her wits by whatever demon of the week was trying to turn her insides out, she managed to control the urge to fall apart long enough to take charge of a sticky situation and come out the winner.

Lesson Roman Numeral Two was slightly more work: Determine your ultimate goal and decide which actions are necessary to achieve it.

Her ultimate goal at the moment was very clear cut; To keep her mother from catching her in bed with her one hundred and fifty three year old vampire lover. Unfortunately, with her mom more than halfway up the stairs, that goal seemed pretty far out of reach.

Lesson Roman Numeral Three was the 'make or break' portion of the situation: Quickly assess ALL possible options, choosing the one that will do the most amount of good in the least amount of time.

Her options here were pretty much limited to A: Get up and get to the door before her mom did, thereby blocking entrance to the scene of the crime, and B: Hide.

~~~~~~~~~~
"Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
You can't tell me, it's not worth dyin' for.."
~~~~~~~~~~

William could tell by the change of _expression on her face just exactly what was going through her mind.

Despite his efforts to keep her calm and focused, she was about to lose whatever internal battle was raging inside of her.

His heart filled up with a sudden burst of tenderness for his little slayer, who was very young and so terribly uncertain of so many things. This little girl could stand toe-to-toe with creatures undreamed of in the most horrifying of nightmares, and yet underneath that stalwart demeanor was a very fragile sixteen year old girl.

He pushed himself up from the bed, separating their bodies, then grabbed her hand and pulled her to her feet.

Giving her a gentle nudge towards her door, he moved quickly across the room and silently opened the window.

"Buffy?" Joyce called.

He heard her take a deep breath and find her voice.

"I'm fine, Mom. I'll be down in a minute, okay?" she announced, looking around the room for her discarded underwear.

"All right. I'm going to make some tea. You want some?"

"Sure! Tea! I love tea!," Buffy chirped. "Tea is great." She spotted her underwear and snagged it, then pulled them on, hopping on one foot and then the other as she wriggled them up her legs.

"Oh, no," she moaned softly, eyes wide with alarm.

"What?" William had one leg out the window.

"I forgot to clean off," she hissed. "Things are....stuff is..."

"I understand," he assured her, watching her face turn pink at the very idea of articulating her predicament. "Just stop in the bathroom and clean up."

"What are you doing?" she squeaked. "Where are you going?"

"I'll climb down the tree and come to the door."

"But...your shirt." She twisted her fingers together in her distress. "You don't have your shirt. It's out there," she added, pointing vaguely towards her bedroom door.

"Sweetheart," he said quietly. "Calm down. All right? Now, listen. It's dark outside and no one will see. I have some things in the trunk of my car. You just get yourself together now, love. I'll wait a few minutes and then knock."

"You won't leave?"

"No." He smiled as reassuringly as he knew how. "Never again, baby."

Pausing to pass a moment of gratitude that he'd not taken off his pants and left them on the stairs as well, he swung out into the tree and dropped noiselessly to the ground.

~~~~~~~~~~
"You know it's true
Everything I do
I do it for you..."
~~~~~~~~~~

The sound of her mother's footsteps descending the stairs was all Buffy needed to get herself moving.

She stripped off the sticky panties and stuffed them into the bottom of her laundry hamper, then pulled a clean pair from her lingerie drawer.

Opening her door just a tiny crack, she peeked out to make sure her mom was really gone, then made a beeline for the bathroom, closing the door loudly so Joyce would hear it.

"Okay," she said to her wide eyed reflection. "This is going to work. Everything is going to be fine, if you just remember not to panic. Not panicking is key."

She ran some warm water and soaked a washcloth in it, then wiped off the mingled bodily fluids trickling down her thighs, dried herself, and pulled on the clean pair of under- wear.

Wrapping the washcloth and towel together, she stuffed it into the bathroom hamper.

By now, her heart rate was beginning to stabilize. Holding on to the edge of the tile counter, she forced herself to breathe in and out slowly to avoid the telltale hiccups she tended to develop when she was nervous.

She counted to fifty, then flushed the toilet and let the water run in the sink to maintain the illusion that she'd started by closing the door hard so that her mother could hear it.

When she couldn't think of one more reason to stay, she took hold of the doorknob, then gazed up at the ceiling.

"Please," she begged of whomever might be listening. "Help me now and I'll never ask for another thing as long as I live-so-help-me-god-amen."

At the top of the staircase she saw William's shirt just lying there, a piece of highly incriminating evidence. She bent down to pick it up."

"Whose shirt is that?"

Joyce was standing at the foot of the stairs. Startled, Buffy nearly yelped out loud.

"This shirt?" she asked, balling the material up in her fist. "This is my shirt."

"I don't remember ever seeing it before."

"It's...new?" The words came out as a question. "Oh. Well, put it on," Joyce encouraged. "Let me see how it looks."

"Aren't we having tea?" There was no hope for it, but it didn't hurt to try. Pulling the shirt on, she walked down- stairs and stood still for inspection.

The garment was ridiculously large, its sleeves hanging well below her hands.

Her mother frowned slightly. "It doesn't fit you very well, does it? " she observed critically. "What size is it?"

"Mmmmmedium?" Another question.

Joyce tilted her head, a signal that her bullshit detector had just activated. "Didn't you try it on before you bought it?"

Buffy swallowed hard. "I didn't...well, actually...I didn't exactly BUY it...you know, like...like go into a store and...and say 'I'll take THAT one'."

Joyce waited. Buffy squirmed.

"Xander!" she all but shouted, grabbing the only semi-plausible excuse she could come up with. "He didn't like the color...on him...so he gave it to me because...because I did. Like it."

"Really?" Joyce asked, one eyebrow arched. "I can't seem to picture Xander wearing a shirt like that. It looks expensive."

Buffy was willing to bet that it was. Before she could open her mouth to reply, the doorbell rang.

~~~~~~~~~~
"Look into my heart
You will find
There's nothing left to hide..."
~~~~~~~~~~

Moving from behind her mother, Buffy dove for the door, pulling it open wide to reveal William standing on the porch. His eyes widened in brief appreciation when he saw her wearing his shirt.

"Hi!" she said. Her voice cracked, and she cleared her throat to try again. "Hi."

He smiled. "Hello."

She wanted very badly to grab him by the front of his new shirt and drag him inside. Only the thought of what her mother would have to say about that kept her from doing it.

"Come in," she said, sending an urgent message of need with only her eyes. She stepped back to allow him in, closing the door behind him.

"Mom, this is...this is..."

"William Hamilton," he put in.

"William Hamilton," Buffy echoed.

Joyce smiled pleasantly. "Yes, we met last night," she said. "I see you found her at the dance."

"I did," he agreed politely. "Thank you again. I'd just gotten into town and I was...very anxious to see her."

"Yes, I could tell," Joyce said dryly, then turned to look at Buffy. "Do you have a date tonight?"

"Yes," Buffy nodded, then shook her head. "No. Not exactly. Not a...not a 'going out' date. It's more of a staying here and meeting YOU...thing."

Joyce looked pleased. No other boy Buffy had ever gone out with had volunteered to sit down and talk with her mother.

"How nice," she said sincerely. "I've made some tea."

William acknowledged the invitation. "Thank you."

"Buffy? Why don't you and William go on into the front room and I'll bring it in?"

Not trusting her voice, Buffy just nodded agreeably.

Once they were sitting side by side on the couch, he grabbed her hand and brought it to his lips for a soft kiss. "You all right, kitten?"

She nodded again, holding tightly to his hand. "Don't let go."

"I don't intend to." Looking into her eyes, he smiled. "I promise you it will all work out. I'll do anything I have to do to make that happen."

"I know."

"Do you believe me?"

"Uh-huh."

"Good."

It was not the most eloquent exchange, but it served the purpose well.

~~~~~~~~~~
"Take me as I am
Take my life
I would give it all, I would sacrifice.."
~~~~~~~~~~

The tea was poured, and a few social amenities had been observed when Joyce cut straight into the heart of the matter.

"I have some concerns," she said, placing her cup on the coffee table and looking directly at William.

"That's understandable," he replied, waiting for her to continue.

She settled back into her chair, crossing her arms over her chest. "Let's get the most obvious one out in the open. How old are you?"

Twenty-eight at the time of his turning, he felt he could safely take off a few years. "I'm twenty-five last January."

Joyce glanced at her daughter."Older than I thought, then." She returned her narrowed gaze to William. "You DO know that Buffy is only sixteen?"

"I believe she's almost seventeen."

"My point is that she's much younger than you."

"Yes, she is," he conceded. "And, believe me, I didn't set out to fall in love with a sixteen year old girl." Turning his gaze to Buffy's, he squeezed her hand. "It just...happened."

Joyce leaned forward. "In love?"

"Very much."

"How exactly did that happen?"

They both sketched out a brief explanation of the relationship that had developed during Joyce's absence, leaving out the intimate details that no mother wants to hear spoken.

She was impressed by the story, and more than a little enchanted by it as well.

But enchanted or not, there were still some things that disturbed her.

"When I came back from New York," she said. "Buffy was going to introduce you to me."

He knew there was no avoiding what was coming. "I know," he said softly, wondering how many years would have to pass before he could call up the memory of what he'd done without it making him sick at heart. "And I left her. I'm not excusing it, and I'm not going to try and explain the...the circumstances.."

"I don't care about the circumstances," Joyce said bluntly. "I care about my daughter's heart...and her feelings. You're the man who shattered them to pieces."

Sighing deeply, he stared at the floor. "Yes."

Joyce was silent for a moment, then said, "But...you're also the man who seems to have...put them back together."

Buffy, who had said nothing at all, now spoke up. "He really did, Mom."

Joyce met her daughter's pleading eyes. "I believe you," she said simply. "I saw how things changed."

Turning back to William, she said, "I know this is going to sound absurdly old fashioned," she began, "but I'm going to assume that your...intentions...are honorable ones?"

William's head jerked up. "Entirely."

"And," she went on, "you understand that there are certain things that I will not tolerate happening until she's MUCH older."

Buffy's face turned crimson. "Mom!"

Joyce shook her head. "Buffy...he isn't one of the boys you've dated in the past. He's a grown man, and I have to know that he'll be able to...put these things to one side until you're old enough for that sort of relation- ship."

This was obviously not a time for any 'true confessions'.

"Mrs. Summers..."

"You can call me Joyce."

Briefly surprised, William nodded. "Thank you. Joyce, I understand what you're referring to. It's not a problem for me."

"Maybe not now...but what about a few months from now?" She shrugged. "Can I trust you not to...press her for anything like that?"

"Yes," he said. "Yes, you can."

"Plus," Joyce went on to point out, "she's in high school. She has to put school before any kind of relationship. She has curfews you'll have to abide by. Can you?"

"Yes."

~~~~~~~~~~
"Don't tell me it's not worth fighting for
I can't help it, there's nothing I want more
You know it's true, everything I do
I do it for you..."
~~~~~~~~~~

Joyce sat quietly, mulling the whole thing over in her mind.

She wanted very much to believe in all of this, for Buffy's sake. Her child had always worn her heart on her sleeve, and it was there now, beating with all the sincerity that only a sixteen year old girl in love for the first time could feel.

This man who said he loved her, loved her enough to wait for her to grow up a bit more, was also showing his emotions in a most unguarded fashion.

But she was under no illusions. Love that burned like this couldn't be contained for long. He and Buffy would become intimate long before she reached her majority. Joyce was smart enough to know that there was no preventing that.

All she really wanted was a bit of time first, time to get used to it, time to get to know him, to make certain she could trust him to do right by her child.

She leaned forward, willing him to meet her eyes.

"Promise me that you'll take care of her, no matter what happens. Look at me and tell me that you'll be responsible for her, that you'll answer for her future."

William didn't hesitate. "I'll love her...and take care of her...until the end of the world, Joyce."

Taking a deep breath, she let it out slowly. "I'm going to take a gigantic leap of faith here," she finally said. "I think...that I can trust you. Don't make me sorry I did."

~~~~~~~~~~
"There's no love, like your love
And no other, could give more love
There's nowhere, unless you're there
All the time...all the way..."
~~~~~~~~~~

"I know I really should have asked you this before but...you have a job of some kind?"

William nodded. "I'm financially secure. I have some...investments and a large inheritance. She'll have everything she could possibly want."

Joyce smiled. "Oh. Well, that's a very nice thing for a mother to hear."

Buffy couldn't hold back. "He already gave me a ring. Mom. I took it off before you came home, because...I wasn't sure what you'd think."

"I see."

"But...I don't want to keep any secrets from you. And if...if you don't want me to wear it yet...then I won't."

Joyce almost laughed at the glum look and tone her daughter was projecting. "Buffy," she said, trying to maintain a serious expression. "A ring isn't something to be ashamed of."

"I'm NOT ashamed of it," Buffy protested loudly. "I'm really proud of it."

"Honey...that didn't come out the way I meant it to. I'm sorry...and thank you for being honest about it."

"Do you want to see it?" her daughter asked eagerly.

"I would love to."

Buffy reached up under her sweater and felt around for the clasp on the chain she was wearing. It came apart, and the cool metal fell into her hand.

"Oh, my...Buffy. That's stunning!" Joyce took her daughter's hand and stared at the ring, then at William. "I guess you definitely can support her, than?"

"Very well," he assured her, leaning back into the sofa cushions.

One gigantic weight had finally been lifted.

Unfortunately, it was just the beginning.

They still had miles to go.

~~~~~~~~~~
"Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
I can't help it, there's nothing I want more
I would fight for you, I'd lie for you
Walk the wire for you, yeah I'd die for you

You know it's true
Everything I do
I do it for you...."
~~~~~~~~~~


TBC...



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