Secrets Don't Make Friends
Parts 22-24
 


Written by: DivaDelilah



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Summary: Set in late Season 4, after Faith has body switched and is in prison. Adam isn’t in play, Spike is working with the Scoobies reluctantly.
Disclaimer: I own nothing except mounds of baby paraphernalia.  Joss, Mutant Enemy, and Fox own all...I'm just daydreaming.
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Part Twenty-Two - Confessions


Willow and the girls rushed in, flushed and excited. Cordelia's eyes raked over Angel, trying to ascertain whether there was any change in him that she could see. When she couldn't tell, she looked at Willow helplessly. Tara and Anya whispered to each furtively, never once taking their eyes off Angel.

Giles studied Willow in puzzlement. How had they known something was wrong with Angel? Maybe Buffy had found out how to…No. That wasn't it. "Willow, what's wrong? Did something happen at the museum?" he asked carefully.

"What? Oh no. We were just hurrying back. Um, Tara said-she said she felt something in the air. Like a powerful magick. So we came straight back here. You know, to check on…things," she fumbled.

"Is this true, Tara?" Wesley asked, also suspicious of the redhead's answer. As weird as things had been in the past few days, he wasn't sure this was a coincidence he believed in. Especially since Cordy was biting her nails and staring at Angel like he was going to disappear.

Tara's eyes flew open, and she looked around nervously. "Y-yeah. I-I thought…W-Willow's r-right," she stuttered, trying to look innocent.

Cordelia leaned over and whispered in Willow's ear, and the redhead shrugged. A reverse whisper was initiated and Cordelia snickered. When the men looked at her, she frowned. "Sheesh. There was a cute guy at the library place checking me out. Willow wanted to know if I got his number."

A low pitiful growl emerged from Angel, and the blondes opposite him chuckled. He glared at them, then perked his head up, as if listening to something.

'Angel, Spike says you always were a baby. Just cuz you had a seizure is no excuse to turn into a eunich,' Buffy relayed.

Angel sighed mentally. 'Buffy, tell Spike to go fuck himself. Now is not the time to bait me. I feel like someone ripped off my…Well, I don't feel very good,' he said tiredly.

Buffy giggled. 'Angel, are you afraid to say 'nuts' to me? I hate to say this, but a bit has changed since we were dating. I'm a lil bit more worldly, and I can assure Spike says worse things when he…shut up, Spike! I can't think straight if you're yammering in the background.' Angel snickered, and she growled. 'And you. Do you know the things I had to see diving into your head? Why the hell haven't you shared some of the stuff I saw you and Sp-you do?'

"Excuse us?" Cordelia interrupted. "But I thought we were going to all talk outside of our heads when in a group?"

The three of them looked at each other then the group guiltily. Angel's eyes skittered to Buffy's and she grinned, flashing yellow eyes at him mischievously.

Giles gasped, and everyone turned to look at him. "Well, it's bloody freakish! How many Watchers get to see their Slayer play with a vampire face like it's a ruddy Halloween mask?"

Buffy looked hurt and her lower lip began to tremble. She began picking at her nails, staring at her hands as if they held all the answers to life's questions. A set of matching growls filled the air, and a pair of bumpy faces glared at the elder Watcher malevolently. Spike felt a small tear hit his hand, and though stunned to note that it was pinkish, he reacted angrily.

"That's fucking terrible thing to say, Watcher! Not only is insulting to me an the Poof, but do you really think a teenage girl with enough things setting her apart needed to hear that?" he asked in a low threatening voice.

"Yes, maybe I do! I have put up with Buffy doing a lot of things that were not good for her, as a person and as the Slayer. I respect her right to do as she pleases, but I question her judgment sometimes. I'm very glad she is happy..dating…you, Spike, but this claim business continues to worry and frighten me. Buffy is not just my Slayer, but she has become like a daughter to me, and when she starts flashing vampire fangs at me, it freaks me out!" Giles replied sharply.

Buffy raised her head, her eyes reflecting a whirling tempest of emotions. She closed them for a second, and when they opened, they were yellow. Her forehead ridged and her fangs slid into place, and she looked at Giles. "Look at me. This is who I am now. I'm not a full-fledged vampire, nor will I ever be. I'm not dying inside. I would know and what's more, they would know it. I have powers no Slayer has ever dreamed of Giles. I can hunt better than I ever could as a plain Slayer. The things I can hear, see, and smell are…I can't describe it to you. It's amazing." She stood and began pacing, a move very much reminiscent of the blonde vampire she was mated to.

"Giles, I can smell the tea you had for breakfast on your shirt where you must have spilled it. I can smell the incense Willow and Tara burned last night. I can smell, well, you don't want to know what Xander smells like or that I can hear whispers in the house next door. I can people talking down the street. I can feel every person in this room and sense things before they happen. I sense Willow and the gang before they came in. It won't make me invincible, not that I need to worry about that anymore, but it'll really come in handy when I don't want to get skewered," she said with a half smile.

"Buffy, I don't mean to make you feel…out of place. But I will caution you that I'm not sure this claim business is such a good idea. There has to be a reason it isn't done very often," he replied.

Angel looked up. "Because humans die too easily. A Slayer…well, a Slayer getting claimed is a once in a millennia happening. It's obvious that with their healing and a vampire's immortality, they become completely unkillable. Drawback is, they share pain, they share loss, they share…everything. And lose only their weaknesses for it. It's about trust and love, Giles. Something most vampires can't earn, nor give."

"Besides, aren't we more concerned with what just zapped the poof?" Spike asked, raising an eyebrow. "Personally, I have no desire to greet the prick anytime soon."

Buffy shuddered and turned away from them. Putting her hands over her eyes, she tried to block out the memories of Angel without his soul. Her intense concentration only led to both Angel and Spike managing to worm their way into her mind, whispering soothing things that no one else could hear. Her whole body filled with a warmth and peace that calmed her fears, and she thanked them just as silently. When she turned back around, she was puzzled to see tears on Cordelia's face. She was just about to say something when the ex-cheerleader moved to the stairs, silently exiting the room.

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The brunette slipped away from the crowd easily, locking herself in the upstairs bathroom. She'd known this would happen when she asked Willow to do the spell. But maybe it would work itself out. She couldn't see Spike letting Angel horn in on his woman, and the three of them couldn't form some weird couple for very long. Perhaps she should do what she planned in the first place. Let Angel do what he needed to, and love him, hoping he'd eventually come back to her.

A knock on the door startled her out of her musings, and she sniffled, then called, "Just a minute." She looked in the mirror, happy to see that no makeup had run, and her eyes weren't puffy from crying. Maybe no one will be able to tell, she thought. She opened the door and cocked her head to the side in confusion.

Spike smiled at her gently, a look she'd only ever seen him give Buffy. "Look, pet, I know this is hurting you. And I wish it didn't. But Angelus, Angel, has a long history with Buffy and I, quite possibly the only two people he'd ever loved until you. This claim, the thought sharing…it has made him feel freer than he's ever felt with a soul. And we're trying hard not to succumb and endanger us all. But he needs your help, because Buffy and I, well we don't have very much luck with restraint."

Cordy smiled, and closed her eyes, praying she was doing the right thing. "You don't have to," she whispered. Clearing her throat, she continued, "You don't have to show any restraint. Angel was having those seizures because Willow found a spell from Jenny Calendar, you know the gypsy he killed that dated Giles? And it anchors his soul permanently. He's safe…for everyone."

The blond vampire stared at her gaping. "Y-You mean?" he stuttered.

She nodded. "And I'm telling you because I had Willow do it, knowing…knowing that he'd go to you and Buffy. I can't deny him that, Spike. I just can't. Just make sure he doesn't forget about me, okay?" she asked, a slight smile crossing her features.

Spike blinked his eyes, still dumbfounded. "Pet, I don't know how to-You've just- Has anyone ever told you that you are quite possibly one of the most generous people on the planet?"

She shook her head. "Not in those words, no."

"Then I'm glad I did. But I have to know, why even tell me? You know what he'll do…where he'll go. Wouldn't you be better off taking him home and showing him yourself?"

"Because I want him to be happy. Unfortunately, I know this is what will make him happy right now. Maybe forever, but I doubt that. I think he'll come back to me, and when he does, I'll be waiting," she sighed.

Spike nodded, still in awe of the size of this seemingly selfish girl's heart. "He will come back, pet. I can guarantee that. But I can't guarantee when or for how long. A Sire's pull is… well, kind of like a shoe sale to a woman. Irresistible," he said grinning.

"Who am I to argue with that?" she laughed. "I know he'll need to do his thing once in awhile. And I suppose I can deal with that. Just promise me this?"

"Anything, luv. You have earned my eternal gratitude," he said gravely.

"Cut him in on this claim thing. I'd really like to see Angel in the sunlight," she whispered. Clearing her throat and taking a final swipe at her eyes, she moved past Spike to the stairs, fixing a plastic smile to her face that didn't agree with what she felt in her heart.

The vampire watched her make her way back into the crowd, chatting like she hadn't just handed the man she loved over to the two people in the world he loved more than her. Sometimes humans are remarkable, he thought.




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Part Twenty-Three - Preparations



Buffy's ears perked up at the sound of Spike's voice in her head. She noted Cordelia coming back into the room, but ignored the urge to go to her to answer Spike's call.

'Buffy, I have to tell you something,' he said, sounding nervous.

'What? Does it have to do with Cordy and how horribly she's hiding that she was crying?'

His tone grew sharp. 'Don't think of sniping at her, luv. She's done something for us that even you need to appreciate the value of. Grab my Sire, and head for the sewers. Meet me at the mansion; I have some things to retrieve from my crypt on the way.' he ordered.

'But Spike-why?'

'Don't argue. Do it. Make our excuses and thank the cheerleader.'

Buffy sighed heavily, and turned her attention to Angel, calling out to him. Speaking through her mind, she told him what Spike had said to her.

His eyebrows shot up, but he got up, clearing his throat. "I think Buffy and I should go shake down Willy. Again. With this other magick floating around, it seems like he'd have to know something," the elder vampire said, hoping it sounded remotely believable. He knew something was up, and it had to do with what had happened to him; that much Buffy had told him.

Buffy nodded. "He's right. We'll go beat…er, coax the information out of Willy. I don't care if it takes all afternoon."

Cordy snorted and Buffy shot her a 'look'. The brunette cleared her throat, and smiled at the crowd. "Sorry! Geez, I had something caught in my throat. Why else would I make such a gross sound."

Giles looked at Wesley, who shrugged, and then at his Slayer. "Well, if you feel it will be helpful, go ahead. We'll stay here and hold down the fort, as it were. I'm sure the girls can dig about on their…laptops. And Wes and I will attempt to contact some more esoteric sources," he said in resignation.

"Hey Gman, what do I get to do?" Xander whined plaintively.

"You mean besides ceasing to call me that infernal nickname?"

Cordy rolled her eyes. "What you always do, doofus. Run out for some munchies!"

"I'll have you know I've graduated from snack boy," he retorted, ignoring Giles completely.

"To what? Errand monkey?" Cordy asked wryly, picking up laptop and settling into the armchair.

Buffy motioned with her head to Angel, who followed her silently. As they made their way to the sewer grate, Buffy ran ahead to open the lid, and Angel ran out under Spike's blanket, smoke billowing behind him. Buffy tilted her head slightly, grinning as she picked out Xander and Cordy still sniping at one another in Giles' apartment.

"You know, this vampire hearing is mega cool," she confided with a grin.

"Tell me about it."

 

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Spike threw the chest out into the main part of the crypt, jarring the rusty steel lock on it open. He frowned at the broken lock, examining it for a moment. Bloody piece of crap. It's only…What? Fifty years old? And it broke just like that? He sighed, tossing it aside, and opening the lid. The lock really wasn't as important as the goodies inside. He rummaged through, picking up items and relishing the memories they held.

When he was satisfied that he had everything he needed, he shut the lid on the trunk, and hefted it up. Grinning from ear to ear, he walked out the door of the crypt into the sunlight, sucking in a deep breath of air. How did I not miss this in all those years of living only at night? he thought. His mind strayed to Buffy on the beach, her hair shining against the blazing California sun and he knew. His Dark Goddess had been a creature of the night, not just literally but figuratively, and she wouldn't have been as beautiful or delicate in the harsh daylight. But Buffy… she was meant to be seen in the sun. Her deadliness was mirrored in the moonlight as she fought, but her beauty was truly unleashed in the sunshine.

He rolled his eyes, and fought back the urge to write a poem about her. Even as a vampire, that bloody ponce he'd been as a human occasionally surfaced. Strangely, it was happening more and more since he'd claimed Buffy. He guessed it must be part of the claim, releasing more of his humanity to smother his demon. But there was no chance he was letting that git, William, out in front of any of the Scoobs, even Buffy. A fellow's got to have some pride left!

He noted he'd finally arrived at Angel's old mansion. A wave of nausea hit him as he thought of Angelus had degraded and emasculated him here. Perhaps this hadn't been the best choice of rendez-vous points… He shook his head, clearing it of all the negative thoughts about Angelus and Dru. If the cheerleader had been telling the truth and the gypsy's spell worked, what was going to happen here would be a benediction. A cleansing for all three of them, and together, they could forget the past. Maybe even make a future of some kind.

He opened the door, groaning internally at sappiness of his inner poet. God help me if that git gets going in front of the whelp. I'll never live it down, he thought. He looked around, noting Buffy and his Sire hadn't arrived yet. Good. Gives me some time to set this stuff up, he thought, grinning wickedly. Lifting the trunk up again, he headed upstairs to get everything ready.




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Part Twenty-Four - Anticipation



The soft candlelight flickered as the breeze from the window filtered in. It licked at the flames on the candles then floated over the satin sheets, rustling the edges gently, before sliding over the chilled skin of the vampire on the bed. He sighed contentedly, his eyes remaining closed as he remembered the last time he'd been so excited. The darkness around him seemed to hum in tune with his body, all in anticipation of the events to come.

It had taken him only a few moments to set up his surprises; he'd been so hyper. He'd picked the jasmine and roses in the garden first, sprinkling them all over the room and the stairs to show them the way. Thankfully, Angel had left the electric off, so most of the mansion was shrouded in darkness, save the candles he'd placed strategically. The sheets had been a lark, really, stolen from Angel's old apartment on the way here. He'd added the essentials from his own crypt of course, and then stripped, lying on the sheets and soaking in the feeling of peace that was washing over him.

One eyebrow rose lazily when he heard the door being opened downstairs. He sucked in a deep breath, holding it until the voices below started coming closer. He could sense his mate and his Sire, could feel their unease and excitement radiating from them. Spike reached over and grabbed his cigarettes, lighting one quickly, his mind focused on sending positive energy to the two beings climbing the stairs. He smiled softly as he heard Buffy comment on the smell of the jasmine, and Angel's response about Spike's soft side.

When the door creaked open, all he could see was two sets of yellow eyes scanning the room, finally lighting on the cherry of his cigarette. He heard Buffy gasp softly, and he slid his demon face down in order to see her face more clearly in the dim light. His eyes traveled to his Sire, whose face was unreadable, even to someone who'd known him for a century.

"Spike, this is… you've…," she faltered, her eyes still taking in the scene he'd created.

Angel cleared his throat, swallowed hard, and spoke. "Spike, what is all this?"

He rolled onto his side, pinching his cigarette out with his fingertips and tossing it away. The sheet fell down to his hips, revealing his lack of clothes, and Buffy's throat tightened. A flood of warmth ran through her body as she stared at her mate, wanting to heed his mental call. He looked up at Angel and said softly, "The cheerleader and the Witches found a spell. On the gypsy's old computer. You're little issue earlier? It made your soul permanent. As in, not losable, or so they say."

Angel stumbled forward, his face reflecting the shock he was feeling. Spike motioned for him to sit on the bed and he did so, staring numbly at the window. "H-How? Do we know for sure? And why are we here when…?"

Spike chuckled. "Eloquent as always, Peaches. The cheerleader took me aside and told me she knew what you wanted, what you needed. She gave us her blessing to do what we need to."

Buffy let out a squeak, her eyes going round as saucers, and she moved to the bed, sliding in next to Spike and wrapping her arms around him. She buried her face in his back, the images from his mind weaseling their way into hers. She let out a light moan, and Angel raised his head.

"Cordy? She gave us permission to…"

"Fuck. And yes, she did. She just wants you to come back to her. At some point. When you can walk again," he said, a slight grin crossing his face.

Angel looked at Buffy, her yellow eyes instinctively rising to meet his, and then back at his Childe, whom he'd missed more than he'd ever let anyone know. He felt the conflict in his Soul about doing this to Cordy, but he knew deep down, he'd be miserable if he didn't take this chance. His hands moved to his shirt of their own accord, and the buttons seemed to fly from their holes.

Buffy whispered, "She just wants him to come home. That's all?" Her eyes were trained on Angel's hands as they undid his shirt, and Spike chuckled again.

"She wants him to be cut in on the claim, luv. Something about taking my broody Sire to Disneyland."

Buffy laughed, the sound echoing off the walls in the quiet mansion. She felt a wave of shyness overcome her as she realized she was about to be with two creatures who'd been pleasuring each other since before her grandmother was even born. The feeling of inadequacy that Spike had rid her of came creeping back, and it made her curl up inside.

Spike noticed immediately, and rolled over, taking her into his arms. "Buffy, look at me. You are perfect. You are not bad in bed. I don't care what the poof's alter ego told you; you know better. Would I lie to you about this?"

When she refused to answer, he let out a primitive growl. She answered in kind, and he growled again. A rumbling growl startled them both, and Buffy's face slid back to human as she looked at Angel, who was naked and glaring at them both.

"Buffy," he said gently. "You know I'd never really think… Spike is right. You're not bad in bed. You can't be, because Spike walks around like he's Hugh Hefner. I've seen your thoughts, Buffy, and none of them can be classified as coming from someone who's too inexperienced for us."

"Thank you," she whispered, ducking her head.

Spike growled and pulled her chin up, forcing her to look at him. "I don't want passive, scared Buffy here today. I want my Buffy, my mate, in this bed with us. Got it?" He leaned down and ran his tongue over the marks on her neck, sucking on them.

Buffy growled at him, grabbing him by his ears and pulling his face to hers roughly, her tongue plunging into his mouth without warning. Her hands pulled him closer, and her nails ran down his chest, drawing blood. His eager snarls inflamed her, and she leaned down, licking at the droplets running down his chest. Angel's growl caused her to lift her head, staring at him through the demon's eyes.

Spike shook his head, holding Buffy back for a moment. "A precaution, luv. Don't always trust spells these days," he said, holding up a pair of ancient looking shackles that had been dangling behind the bed.

Angel simply smirked at him. "Boy, you know they aren't shackles enough in the world to hold me back if I intend to get out."

"These will. An old gypsy made them for me when Dru and I were traveling around Prague. Right before the mob got to Dru, in fact. And I've carried them ever since, using them mostly to contain Dru when her madness drove her to try and hurt herself or me. I dug them out last spring to use on B…to use again. They're magickally enhanced; no one can break through them, not even you, Peaches."

Buffy grinned. "Trust me, he's right. They felt like kryptonite when I was in them."

Angel gave Spike a dirty look and he shrugged. "Got to amuse myself somehow, don't I?"

"Spike, do you really think this will work?" he asked desperately.

"Yes, Sire," he said, his eyes shining with an emotion Angel hadn't seen for decades. He held up the shackles, and Angel slipped his hands into them, pulling the chains taut to test their reach. Turning to Buffy, Spike took her hands in his. "I have the cell phone in my pants. If there's a problem, Cordy said Willow had all the ingredients ready to give him his soul back. Okay?"

She nodded gravely, her hand trailing up Angel's thigh absently. The muffled groan he released made her smirk, and Spike grinned at her. Feeding off his encouragement, Buffy smoothed her palm over his thigh again, brushing her fingers over the springy hair near the top.

Spike moved behind her, nibbling on her neck as she kneeled before Angel, reacquainting her hands with the feel of his body. She urged Angel to turn on his side, and he complied willingly, pressing his large frame to her slight one. Spike followed suit, aligning his body with Buffy's and groaning as his cock met Angel's between her thighs. Buffy half moaned, half whimpered at the sensation, arching her hips first into Angel and then back into Spike.

Angel looked at his Childe pleadingly, and Spike quickly complied, his hands covering Buffy's as she explored Angel's skin. When their combined hands reached his cock, he gnashed his teeth, fighting the demon off, until he opened his eyes and saw Buffy and Spike, both in game face, staring back at him. He released his demon eagerly, pushing his hips into their hands roughly, twisting and pulling on the manacles that held him.

Buffy smiled kittenishly and looked at Spike, who nodded. Their hands lifted Angel's cock, positioning it so he could slide into her easily, and he moaned at the heat emanating from her core. She sank onto his erection slowly, savoring every bit of him as he moved inside her. A strangled cry of pleasure escaped her lips, and she squirmed impatiently.

Spike chuckled at the look on Angel's face. He doesn't know my girl very well. It's bloody hard to get her to go slow, he thought. He dipped into Buffy's mind cautiously, listening to her incoherent babble fondly. He didn't feel threatened in the slightest by Buffy's intimacy with his Sire. He scooted back slightly, allowing Buffy to roll herself and Angel so she could sit astride him. He's in for it now, Spike thought. The git's not had sex in four years, and Buffy'll ride him like a bronco. Can't wait to see his reaction to that.

Angel looked up at the girl he'd once know as she sat on his lap, her inner walls squeezing his cock like a vise. He couldn't bring himself to speak; he was so amazed. Was she always this passionate and I missed it? Or was Spike the one to unleash this side of her personality? he thought. Buffy smirked down at him, her expression a mirror of the one Spike was always making, and began to rock upon him. His eyes rolled back in his head, and he growled loudly, his body feeling things he'd hadn't dared to dream of for the last four years.

Buffy opened her eyes as she rode Angel, searching out her mate. "Get over here, Spike," she ground out, panting for breath. Her bronze body was starting to sweat, leaving a glistening sheen illuminated by the candles. "Now."

"Anything for you, luv," he said, kneeling beside Angel.

"Straddle him. Let him suck you off. And look at me. I want to see your eyes," she commanded, still pounding her pelvis onto Angel's.

Spike obeyed quickly, moving into position as she'd asked. When Angel's lips closed around his cock, he roared. It had been so very long since he'd had a seeing to by a man. In fact, it had been since Angel had been ensouled. He'd never let another man touch him the way his Sire had. Having his Sire's mouth around him was something he'd never expected to feel again, and he wasn't sure he could hold it for very long. He looked up at Buffy, asking her his question with his eyes.

She leaned down and kissed him deeply, twining her tongue with his, never losing the rhythm in her hips. "Soon, baby. Soon."

Spike groaned, the pull of her mouth and Angel's making his body move back and forth, straining for more of both. "Buffy," he warned.

She slammed her hips down onto Angel's, grinding her hips and working her inner muscles around his cock. Angel let out a strangled cry, and Spike followed, the vibration from Angel's cry causing his composure to slip completely. Angel spurted wildly inside Buffy and she kissed Spike hard as his seed flowed into Angel's mouth.

When they cries died down, Spike lifted himself off of his Sire, curling up near him. Buffy climbed off Angel's lap, settling between them happily. She looked from one vampire to the next, all three of them still in game face. "Sleep for a few?" she asked, a yawn escaping as she spoke.

Spike snorted and Angel grinned. "Tired already?" they asked in unison.

She rolled her eyes. "Still getting used to the vampire hours, here. Can't you big, bad men humor little old me just a little?" she pouted adorably, knowing neither of them could resist it.

Spike sighed. "Your wish is my command, baby."

Angel chuckled. "And you call me a poof."

"Eat me…oh yeah, too late," Spike retorted.

Buffy frowned. "Less talk, more sleep," she growled. She pulled the vampire on either side of her as close as possible and started to drift off.


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