Written by: Chelle
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It had been one week since Angel had left. One week since Spike had seen
Buffy. He was loathe to admit the fact that he had resorted to "lurking" to try
to find out any morsel of information he could about the Slayer. He had heard
her friends use terms such as: ‘depressed', ‘withdrawn', ‘solemn', 'grim' and
the one that really bothered him was overhearing Xander say she wasn't eating
enough to keep a bird alive. He had seen many of Dru's pet birds die from not
eating.
So after waiting for a week, he found himself ringing the doorbell at the
quiet house on Revello Drive, hoping Joyce wouldn't stake him for asking to see
her daughter. Spike was carrying several pizza boxes. He'd gone into the pizza
place to order one pie but he had no idea what sort a Slayer would enjoy. Why
the bloody hell humans needed so much to choose from was beyond him. All he knew
was that she needed to eat. He made sure he had SOMETHING she'd like.
Joyce opened the door and smiled, as recognition played across her features.
"Spike, hello! How are you?"
"Hello Joyce. I'm fine. I was wondering if I may speak with Buffy?" He smiled
and held up the pizza. "I brought a pizza."
"Indeed you did. Several from the looks of it." She looked at him closely.
"Do I have to invite you in again?"
Spike shook his head and walked past her. "No. Once a vampire is invited,
he's always invited. Well, unless you perform a ritual to stop it."
Joyce nodded and then shrugged, "I forget stuff like that."
"Who wouldn't?" Spike glanced around the small living room and then towards
the stairs. "Is she here?"
The woman followed his gaze up the stairs and let out a big sigh. "She is
here. I can't get her to do anything. She won't even get out of bed. Hasn't
budged in a week. All she does is play this hauntingly sad song over and over
and over. I'd let you go up but she's in such a bad mood she'd probably stake
you."
He handed her the pizza boxes and smiled. "I think I can handle it. Could you
pick something out of one of those that she'll eat and bring it up there in a
few minutes?"
Joyce raised an eyebrow and said, "I thought you were her enemy. Doesn't she
hate you?"
"She probably will by the time I'm finished forcing her to get on with her
life." He started up the stairs and then turned. "And no..I'm not her
enemy."
Spike opened the door to Buffy's room slowly. He could see her outline under
her covers and he kneeled beside the bed, shaking her gently. She mumbled
something inaudible and snuggled further into her comforter. Spike shook her
again, harder this time and she rolled onto her back, saying, "Leave me alone,
mother! You're pissing me off."
That angered Spike. You were supposed to respect your mother. "Buffy, it's
me."
"Angel?" Buffy whimpered, sitting up a little and trying to focus her eyes.
That angered Spike more. He didn't say anything for several seconds and when
he did speak he said, "Wrong again, Slayer."
Buffy flopped back down, crying out a little. As she did, a half empty bottle
of rum rolled out from under her cover and hit the floor with a loud clank.
Spike picked it up and leaned close to her, smelling her breath. Sure enough, he
could smell it. Joyce walked in and he spun to face her, "You allow her to
drink?"
The woman glared at the bottle, "No, I do not. She must have stolen it from
the liquor cabinet."
Spike nudged Buffy again and she yanked the cover over her head. "Get up."
"Leave me alone, damn you." She drawled, trying to burrow herself in the
cover.
"Joyce," He turned and glared at the woman. "go run the tub full of cold
water, please?"
Joyce nodded, thinking that Spike apparently had a death wish. The vampire
turned back toward Buffy, yanking the cover off of her. He took a moment to
appraise her choice of sleep wear, and then cursed himself for being so easily
distracted. He lifted her into his arms and walked across the hallway. The tub
was already half full and he tossed her into the water.
Buffy screamed and sat bolt-upright, trying to get out of the tub. Spike held
her firmly, yanking her feet out from under her and shoving her head under the
water. Joyce watched from a few feet away, about to protest, when Spike let her
back up. "Are you awake yet?" he asked Buffy.
"It's so cold." Buffy whimpered, still fighting. "Let me out."
Spike held her firmly in place and replied, "You'll get out once you've
learned a lesson."
"I have!" Buffy cried. "I have learned a lesson!"
"And that would be?" asked Spike.
"To perform that vampire invite reversal as soon as I get out of this ice!"
She screamed.
"Wrong answer, luv." Spike dunked her again. He was strong but she was too,
and he was as wet as she was within minutes. "Damn it all to hell, Slayer. Be
still!"
"Screw you." She called loudly.
Spike continued to dunk her in the cold water until she sputtered, her teeth
clanking together while she sobbed. "Now have you learned a lesson?"
Buffy nodded, "Yes."
"And what is it?"
"Not to drink." Buffy whimpered pathetically, looking drowned.
"Good job, luv!" Spike quickly turned on the hot water, allowing it to warm
the chills away. "Are you completely awake now?"
"Yes." Buffy was so furious she couldn't move.
"Good then, listen closely to what I'm about to say to you." Spike stared
deeply into her big blue eyes. "You are not going to be drinking any more. Ever.
Do you understand that?"
Joyce watched as her daughter nodded and shook her head in disbelief. Buffy
didn't agree with anything for anyone unless she was forced. Spike stood up and
threw a wash cloth at Buffy, telling her she had fifteen minutes, and sailed
past the woman, who was standing with her mouth agape. She finally followed him
into Buffy's room and watched while he yanked her bed clothes off the bed.
Together they made it up again with clean linens. By the time they had finished,
Buffy stood before them in the pajamas that Joyce had laid out.
Spike turned and glared at Buffy, handing her the bottle of liquor. "Drink
the rest."
Buffy shook her head.
"Why not?" Spike asked harshly.
"I don't want it." Buffy replied.
"Why not?" Asked the vampire.
"Because I don't want it is why!" She shouted and glared at her mother. "Why
did you let him in here?"
Before Joyce had a chance to reply, Spike said, "Joyce, can you leave us
alone?"
Joyce nodded and said something about heating up the pizza and left quickly.
Spike glared at Buffy, trying to let his anger dissipate before he spoke.
Finally he said, "Listen very carefully to me. If I catch you drinking again, I
will personally take off my belt and tan your ass until it's a nice shade of
cherry red."
Buffy didn't doubt for one second that he was likely to try it. She nodded
absently at him. Spike shoved the bottle into her hand and pointed to the
bathroom, "Go pour it out."
She reluctantly poured the remaining contents of the bottle down the drain
and returned to her bedroom. Spike was sitting on the edge of her bed with her
hairbrush. "Come here."
He pulled the towel off of her wet hair and quickly brushed through the
tangles, being gentle enough not to hurt her, but aggressive enough to show her
he was pissed. Buffy practically held her breath until he was finished brushing
it. Spike put the brush on the bed and didn't say anything.
Buffy was sitting with her back to him and she turned slowly, so that they
were both facing outward. Neither spoke, they just sat quietly, staring at the
bookcase she had on the far side of the room. Finally, Spike said, "You should
be ashamed of yourself."
"Why should I be ashamed?" she asked.
"For worrying your friends and your mother so much." Spike replied and turned
around to face her. "That's shameful."
"I don't want to be alive anymore. I can't live without him and I won't."
Buffy began to cry and pulled her shirt away, exposing her neck. "Please,
Spike?"
The vampire glared at her for several seconds, trying not to notice the vein
that pulsed a few inches from his face. Finally, he grabbed her and jerked her
to her feet, shoving her in front of the full length mirror in the corner of her
room. He stood behind her holding her behind the neck, but only she was visible
in the mirror. "Look at yourself, Buffy. Look at what you've become. Is he worth
it? Is Angel leaving worth losing yourself for? Is it? I think not. Not many
girls your age make a difference, pet, but you certainly do. He's fucking gone,
Buffy. I saw him leave with my own two eyes and killing yourself won't bring him
back!!"
Buffy kept sobbing and tried to pull away, but Spike kept talking, "Let him
go! Let him go and hang on tight to what he did leave behind. YOU! Don't fold
under pressure, Slayer, because right now you're a wreck and probably couldn't
fight your way through a school yard bully."
"FUCK YOU!" Buffy roared, yanking free.
"Oh, did I hit a nerve?" Spike grinned. "Poor little Buffy can't fight and
she's all pathetic and weepy. You make me ashamed to be a vampire if YOU are
what they send to kill us."
Buffy yelled out, punching him in the face with all her strength. Spike
recoiled but stood his ground, not putting up any resistance, just fighting to
keep standing. She punched him in the stomach, in the face, some blows landed on
his shoulders and arms, but she punched. Her tiny fists rained fury down on
Spike and with each blow, she cried harder and harder, sobbing as if that was
the only thing holding onto her sanity. Soon, her punches were just limp armed
slaps and when Spike thought she'd had enough, he pulled her roughly into his
arms, massaging the back of her neck. "Let it out." He held her firm as she
collapsed against him.
Joyce had watched from the doorway, holding a pizza box, not believing her
eyes. Spike had a power over her daughter that she didn't know whether to fear
or applaud. She had no doubt that Buffy had finally met her match. She also had
no doubt that fireworks were exploding around them. The sparks between them were
clearly visible and Joyce didn't know quite what to make of it. Not being one to
look a gift horse in the mouth, she decided to accept it. Buffy was out of bed
and was at least showing some sort of emotion. Quietly, she slipped the pizza
box on the desk, nodded at Spike, and shut the door.
The phone rang in the hallway and she grabbed it up. "Hello?"
"Joyce?" Giles relied. "How's Buffy?"
"You aren't going to believe this Mr. Giles. But she's up, showered and about
to eat dinner!"
"You did hear that I asked about BUFFY, didn't you?" Giles asked. "Surely you
can't be talking about the same Buffy."
"I saw it with my own two eyes." She laughed. "And you won't believe who her
dinner guest is. The person responsible for all of this."
"Angel's back?" Giles raised an eyebrow and looked at the Scooby Gang who had
gathered at the library with him to get ready to patrol.
"No." Joyce took a deep breath. "It's Spike, he has quite a way with her."
There was a pause, a click and Joyce said, "Mr. Giles? Rupert?" It was clear
he had hung up. "Well, that was rude."
Back at the library, Giles grabbed a stake and motioned for the kids to
follow him.
Buffy finished off her fourth slice of pizza and patted her stomach. She
would have been content stopping with the second slice but Spike kept it coming,
not taking no for an answer, while she filled him in on all the details about
the mayor. When he headed back toward the box, Buffy groaned, shaking her head
vehemently. "I've had enough. I can't move now."
The blond vampire paused, looked her over and nodded his head. "Okay, you win
this round. Do you feel better?"
She nodded, "I'm okay."
"Just okay?" He asked. "Not great? Not wonderful? Not like a new Slayer?"
"Just okay." Buffy said. "All that other stuff may come….in twenty years when
I'm finally finished moping."
"You're finished now, I think." He sat beside her on the bed and pushed a
stray hair away from her face. He couldn't help but notice that when her hair
dried naturally it had waves through it.
Buffy pulled away from his touch and started to stand. "Spike, I…."
He caught her arm and held on to it, "Don't ever pull away from me."
"I can't deal with this now. The stuff that happened between us can't…" Buffy
jumped as the door was shoved open and Giles flew in, followed by Xander,
Willow.
"Get back!" Giles shouted at Spike, holding up a crucifix. He grabbed Buffy
and shoved her toward Xander. Buffy wasn't expecting to be shoved so roughly and
fell over an area rug, landing hard on her knees.
Spike stood slowly, glaring at the Watcher, avoiding the cross. "You would be
wise, indeed, not to manhandle her again."
Buffy jumped up quickly and knocked a stake out of Xander's hand, then she
turned just as quickly and grabbed the crucifix from Giles, positioning herself
between Spike and the gang. "It's okay, guys. We're friends."
"What?" Xander exclaimed. "Are you crazy!? That's SPIKE! Remember? The one
Angel tried to feed me to? The one who…"
"I know who he is!" Buffy fired back. "And trust me. He's harmless."
Spike glared at the back of Buffy's head and said, "Well, I wouldn't say
harmless, really."
Buffy turned and gave him a look, then she spoke again. "I had reservations
about him as well but trust me. That night, in the cemetery after I disappeared,
well, Spike saved my life. Twice. If it wasn't for him, I'd be dead."
"Dead!" Spike agreed. "And it wouldn't have been pretty. She was all crazy
talking, wanting to be evil. Then she was begging me to kill her so I saved her
instead."
"Why would you do that?" Giles asked the vampire, doubting his motives.
"For spite?" Spike chuckled and then added seriously, "She was drunk. I
couldn't very well kill her and feel good about it. I try to stay sober now.
Unlike SOME people."
"Spike!!" Buffy glared at him. "Would you please stop helping me explain?"
"I'm the one about to be staked here, luv. I think in this country the
accused gets to speak on his own behalf." Spike shrugged. "Besides, you're
leaving out the other parts."
The Slayer's eyebrows flew up and she turned a bright shade of scarlet. Spike
laughed out loud and added, "You know, the part about me helping you beat the
mayor if you hadn't put him in a coma first."
Buffy exhaled loudly and said, "Right. Spike was going to help me with Mayor
Wilkins and stop the ascension." "I don't like this at all." Xander eyed Spike
up and down. "I could accept Angel ‘cause he was different but this guy…."
Willow nodded in agreement. "He doesn't have a soul. I could give him one, I
suppose, if that's what Buffy wants…."
"The hell you could!" Spike growled.
"GUYS!" Buffy cried. "Look, this is how it is. I trust him, okay? You guys
aren't expected to follow suit, but at least give him a chance to prove himself
before you jump the gun. He's different. He feels stuff."
"It's impossible!" Giles shook his head. "Demons do not possess the ability
to FEEL anything."
"Screw that!" Spike shot back. "When Dru left me I thought my freakin' heart
had been ripped out, chewed up and spit on a sidewalk to be trampled on. Your
books don't tell you a damn thing. I can tell you that. Who do you think saved
your ass from Angelus?"
Giles was taken aback, not knowing what to say. "What?"
"When that dickhead kidnapped you and wanted to chop you to bits with a
chainsaw, I stopped him." Spike paused and glanced off into space. "Off course,
I was getting something in return but still."
"It's true, Giles. Spike and I made a deal and he kept up his side of it by
keeping you alive for me. He attacked Angelus and that's probably the only
reason the world wasn't sucked into hell." Buffy sighed loudly.
Joyce, who had followed the troops into the room, spoke up. "I like Spike.
I've really talked to him before and he is very capable of feeling things. And
he came in here and made Buffy snap out of it. He's been here for a while and
hasn't hurt her at all."
"As her old watcher, I can't allow…" Giles began.
Joyce interrupted, "As her mother, I can allow it. You weren't here. You
didn't see the way he helped her. I did."
"It's insanity!" Giles snapped.
"Insanity would be to allow her to continue to mope." Joyce fired back.
"Buffy says they are friends and I'd feel better knowing that Spike was helping
her."
"Why?" Xander asked the woman. "We help her."
"Spike's a vampire so he's stronger." Joyce pointed at Buffy. "Look at her,
Xander. My little girl has to fight DEMONS! She needs someone to helps her
besides you all."
"Well, why the hell should Spike be allowed if Angel wasn't?" Giles stared at
the woman. "You made him leave, Joyce. And he was a good boy."
"He wasn't very good after he changed. Something could have happened between
him and Buffy again…it was too tempting." She replied.
"I don't like this." Giles turned his attention back to Buffy. "How can you
be sure?"
"I just am." Buffy said. "You don't have to trust Spike, Giles. But you and I
HAVE to trust each other, and I'm being straight with you. It's okay. It
is."
Spike smiled a little as he stared at Buffy. < She likes me. > He
wanted to hug her but figured that would surely get him hurt. Instead he looked
at Giles and said, "I will prove it."
"You'll have to." The man replied, turning and leaving the room.
Willow and Xander stared at Buffy, then at each other. Xander turned first
and stormed out. Willow glanced after him and then looked at Buffy. "Call me
later, okay?"
"I will." Nodded the Slayer.
Willow glanced suspiciously at Spike and added, "If you change your mind
about a soul…"
"I won't." Spike shook his head.
Xander yelled for Willow from the bottom of the steps and she quickly left
the room. Joyce smiled affectionately at Buffy before pulling the door closed.
Buffy took a few steps across the room and Spike caught her arm again. She
pulled away and he grabbed her around the waist, grinning. "I thought I told you
not to pull away from me."
Buffy looked up at him and said, "I'm tired. I want to go to sleep."
Shaking his head, Spike spoke softly, "Earlier, you were saying that you
can't do something. Finish saying it."
"Not tonight." She replied.
"Yes, tonight. I'm not leaving until you do."
Buffy's shoulders sagged and she stepped out of his grasp. He didn't try to
stop her, but followed her closely as she sat on the bed. "It's too soon, Spike.
I can't see you…THAT way. I don't even know what I was thinking. We can't….be
together."
Spike's jaw clinched as he listened to her. "Tell me you didn't feel
anything."
"Tell me you did." She replied. "What was it, Spike? Just a good time for
you? You only did it to get back at Angel for what he did with Dru, didn't you?"
Spike struggled with the urge to smack the hell out of her. How dare she
defend him to her friends only to berate him in private. "You don't believe
that, Buffy."
"You don't know what I believe."
"Tell me you don't believe that." He watched her, wanting her to rush into
his arms. When she didn't reply he walked toward the door. "Let me tell you
something, Slayer. If I had done it to bother Angel… I would have let him
know!"
It dawned on Buffy then how stupid this argument was. He was absolutely right
and she was just trying to pick a fight so he'd leave her alone. There was no
denying the fact that what they had shared had been wonderful, she was just so
scared of being hurt by him that she was inventing a reason to be hurt. "Let me
let go of Angel, Spike. I can't be..with you…until I do."
"I can't be with you either, Slayer. I just thought I liked you." With that,
he turned and headed down the stairs, not bothering to acknowledge the
bewildered look on Joyce's face.
He stormed through town, looking for someone to pick a fight with. He found a
willing opponent in a vampire that Angelus had sired the previous year. Spike
was savage as he fought the man, relishing the way it felt to have his fist
connect with something Angel had made. The fight seemed to go on forever and
when Spike finally plunged a stake through him, he felt a little better. Only a
little. Anger coursed through his veins like poison and the only thing Spike
could think of was the way Buffy acted. There was no way in HELL he'd let her
get away with making such a fool out of him.
Buffy had changed her clothes quickly and rushed past her mother after Spike.
There was no way she could leave things so unsettled. There was an apology in
order and she'd have to be the one to make it. Rushing toward his hotel room,
she was oblivious to the fact that she was being followed.
Faith kept a close eye on Buffy as she slinked after her. Careful not to make
a sound. Grinning, she patted the knife in her pocket, wondering what if would
feel like to slide it into Buffy and yank it upward. Then she tried to imagine
the sound of Buffy's screams. Soon...very soon...she wouldn't have to imagine.
Buffy knocked on Spike's door, leaning an ear against it, hoping to hear him
inside. After several minutes, she decided he wasn't there and tried to think of
where to look next. Glancing at her watch, she realized that it was only after
midnight, so she headed towards the Bronze.
As she walked, she thought about the first time she had walked to the Bronze
after moving to Sunnydale. Angel had been following her and she had ducked into
the side alley, attacking him and arguing with him. She grinned a little,
recalling the way she'd been so turned off by his cockiness and had sassed him,
hating him for his good looks and the effect he had on her even then.
She stopped walking and glanced down that same alley. Nostalgia pulled her
into the darkness and she paused, looking up at the rail that she had used to
swing around and kick him. That was the night he had given her the cross
necklace. Buffy never could have imagined that night how much it would come to
mean to her…how much he would come to mean to her. Closing her eyes, she
replayed it in her mind.
Angel had picked himself up off the ground after she kicked him and asked.
"Is there a problem, ma'am?"
Buffy had stood her ground, replying, "Yeah, there's a problem. Why are you
following me?"
He had given her that crooked smile she loved so much and chuckled. "I know
what you're thinking. Don't worry, I don't bite."
But he did bite. Maybe not in the sense of literally biting her, but he did
bite into her heart and soul and he was still hanging there like a leech. She
had given him everything she ever had and he still left her, unwilling to even
try to see her side. He chose for both of them and Buffy hated him for that.
She turned angrily and then groaned when she saw someone at the end of the
alley. "Faith, don't screw around with me tonight. I'm in a very bad mood."
Faith walked further into the alley, smiling sweetly. "I'd say I'm sorry to
hear that but I'm not."
"I'm warning you…"
"Warning me?" she murmured. "I'm so not scared it's sad. You can't even talk
a big talk anymore, B." Buffy rolled her eyes and started past Faith. The girl
grabbed her, slamming her against the side of the Bronze, sneering, "Let's see
if you can walk the walk."
Buffy threw Faith's arms off of her and quickly flipped her, slamming her
face first into the opposite wall. Faith shoved backwards and both girls toppled
over a crate, landing in a pile of garbage that had overflowed from a dumpster.
Rolling as one, they took turns punching each other, jabbing fists as fast and
hard and they could to any exposed area. Buffy was weak. She hadn't trained
properly in weeks and pizza was the only food she'd had in days, but she fought.
Faith used her foot to propel Buffy backwards and fished the knife out of her
pocket. The blond saw it, and her eyes widened. Buffy made the mistake of glancing away from the blade, looking for a weapon,
and Faith seized the opportunity to drag the knife across Buffy's abdomen. The
girl shrieked in pain, glancing at the wound, shocked. "Hurt didn't it?" Faith cackled. "Wanna see what your liver looks like?" Buffy realized in that moment just how far Faith was willing to take it. At
no point during the entire experience with Faith did she ever really believe the
girl was unreachable. Now she wasn't so sure. She crouched low and sprang
upward, leaping high and using both feet square in Faith's face, who landed with
a satisfying thud against the dumpster, leaving an imprint of her body in the
side of it. Buffy quickly grabbed a metal bar that was lying next to a trashcan
and slammed it onto Faith's wrist, forcing the knife from her hand. Faith howled
in pain and stared in disbelief at her wrist, which had been snapped in two.
Buffy grabbed the knife, holding it in one hand while she clutched her
stomach with the other. "What's it going to be, Faith? If you want to leave this
alley, I suggest you go. If you want to keep ‘walking the walk', I'm game." Faith stood on shaking limbs and glared at Buffy. "You know Buffy, we could
have been friends. We could have shared everything. Clothes, friends, we already
shared a man…but he couldn't stand you either, could he?" Without thinking, Buffy backhanded the girl with the handle of the knife,
sending her reeling again. She could feel blood pouring from the gash in her
stomach and had no idea how bad it was. Faith began to half walk, half crawl
away and Buffy followed, knocking her down each time she tried to stand upright.
Blood trickled from Faith's nose and mouth and she wiped it absently. "You
haven't won." "Haven't I?" Buffy shrugged. "Seems to me that you aren't any better off than
you were before and I still have friends, a home and a mother…all you have is…a
man in a coma and I put him there." Faith came at her again, charging like a bull, screaming like a banshee. They
flipped backwards, end over end, neither making a move to rise after they rolled
to a stop. Several seconds passed and Buffy said, "Whore." "Bitch." Faith muttered. "Screw you." Buffy sat up, still clutching her stomach. "You wish." Replied Faith, also sitting up. The two girls glared at each other for several seconds before standing. They
appraised one another, circling like wrestlers, looking for a weakness. Finally
Faith said, "You broke my fucking arm." "Too bad it wasn't your neck." Buffy retorted. "And you stabbed me. You made
the first move." "I hate you." "I hate you more." "Go to Hell." Faith screamed. "I'll save you a seat." Silence fell around them and then they both spun, walking in the same
direction, out of the alley. Buffy elbowed her way past Faith but the girl
quickly elbowed past her. "I'm going this way." "We both have to go this way." Buffy replied. "It's a dead end." "I'm going to kill you one day, B." Faith said, coming within inches of
Buffy's face. Buffy stared up at her and grimaced, waving her hand back and forth. "Did you
enjoy the shit sandwich you ate?" Faith blew her a kiss and whirled, walking away fast. Buffy dug a hand into
her pocket and counted her money, then she made a beeline for the 24-hour
pharmacy up the road. Spike could smell blood. Normally it wouldn't bother him but this time he
recognized it. It was the blood of a Slayer. The smell was stronger, sweeter
than blood from a mortal. You could smell the power in a Slayer's blood and it
was one of the most desirable things he had ever tasted. Not Buffy's, but the
other two he had killed. He was fully aware that there was another Slayer in
town and he figured that it was her. < Surely Buffy is at home safe in bed,
she said she was tired. > If it was the other Slayer in town, he'd kill her, drain her and end Buffy's
problems with her. Spike noticed blood drops leading away from an alley and
followed them closely. Every few inches down the sidewalk there was more and
more. She had obviously been wounded badly. At the end of the sidewalk the blood
stopped and Spike glanced around. He saw bright lights in a shopping center and
saw the word ‘Pharmacy' and nodded. Buffy walked slowly down the aisles looking for sturdier bandages than the
ones she found. She wanted the butterfly kind that often took the place of
stitches. Trying to seem inconspicuous, she had drawn her jacket tightly around
her, wanting to avoid questions. Blood covered her hands and she could still
feel it dripping so she grabbed what she figured would work and went to pay.
As she turned, she bumped into Spike. "Buffy!" He said, grabbing her by the
shoulders. "You're hurt." Buffy nodded, shocked to see him there. "How did you get in here?" "Does it matter?" Spike looked at the blood that was dripping from under her
jacket and quickly pulled it open, swearing loudly. He glanced at the bandages
in her hands and shook his head. "You'll need more than that." "I'll be fine by this time tomorrow." Buffy began to walk around him but he said, "Wait right here. Do NOT
move." Spike rushed up and down the aisles until he found the peroxide, some better
bandages, tape and medication to guard against infection. He paused on the
painkiller rack and added some Excederin PM to the loot in his arms, then rushed
back to where he had told Buffy to wait. She wasn't there and he swore again,
going to the counter and hurrying the cashier along. He saw her at the far end of the road, about to cross the block and head
toward her house. Running, he caught up with her and growled, "Can't you do a
damn thing that people ask you too?" "You didn't ask. You ordered." Buffy replied, still walking. "What the hell are you doing out here to begin with?" He demanded, pulling
her toward his hotel room. No sense making her walk an extra mile when he had a
place too. "I was trying to find you and I live this way." She turned and headed the
other way and he rushed in front of her, blocking her path. "Tonight, you live this way. You're a bloody mess and we'll go to my place
and fix it." He pointed in the other direction until she turned, sighing loudly
and headed toward his room. "If I wasn't in pain I wouldn't listen to you!" Buffy murmured, wishing she
could stomp. Spike didn't say anything until he had unlocked his door and led her inside.
Flipping the light on, he tossed the bag of medicines on his bed and turned to
face her. She was removing her jacket and he cringed when saw the wound through
the tear in the front of her blouse. "Take your shirt off." Buffy raised an eyebrow, "Or not. I'll just lift it up and…" Spike crossed the room and pulled it gently over her head, almost fainting at
the sight of her naked breasts. < Does she not own a bra? > He dropped
onto one knee, using her already bloodied shirt as a rag, he mopped up as much
of it as he could before he stood. "Lie down, I'm going to get some more
towels." Buffy watched as he walked out of the room and cursed herself, hugging her
arms across her chest. While he had been on his knee in front of her she was
reliving their first night together, when he had done that same thing to trail
kisses all over her stomach. Biting her lower lips, she gingerly pressed her
stomach. Spike opened the door again and sighed, "I say lie down, you stand, I
say come here, you go there. Our lines of communication must be down. Lie on the
bed, Slayer." She glanced at the bed, trying not to remember how good it had felt to lie
there with him. Reluctantly, she reclined on the edge and watched him closely.
He had a bowl with him, which he quickly filled with water in the bathroom, then
stopped beside her. Buffy had her arms wrapped around her tightly, hiding her
breasts from his view. He looked at her, felt her discomfort and pulled his
shirt off, putting it over her shoulders and chest. Spike handed her a cup of water and two pills. She looked across the room,
trying to see what kind it was and saw the familiar labeling that proclaimed it
to be a painkiller/sleep aid. Swallowing them quickly, she closed her eyes, not
willing to look at Spike's bare chest. Buffy jumped a little as he ran washcloth along her stomach, cringing at the
pain. Spike ignored her, rinsing the blood away. The wound was about six inches
long and ran horizontally, slashing straight through her belly button and
leaving it gashed open on either side. "You need stitches." "I'm not going to the hospital." Buffy replied. Spike shook his head and reached for the peroxide. Buffy sat up quickly,
shaking her head. "No way! Don't even think about pouring that on me." "It's peroxide!" he proclaimed. "Not alcohol." "You can have a love affair with it if you want," she pointed to his hair.
"But if burns." "Don't be a baby." He pushed her back and opened tuned the lid. "What cut you
anyway?" "Faith." She said, watching his every move, trying to hold his hand away.
"The other Slayer?" he asked, grabbing both of her wrists in one of his
hands. "Well then, we can't skip disinfecting the wound, no telling where HER
knife has been. You can't be too cautious." Buffy panicked as he poured at least half the bottle on her stomach and held
her at bay. She became motionless, waiting for the burning to start, crying out
loudly when it did. "Get it off!" she moaned. "Please Spike, get it off." Spike could tell by looking at her face that she was in pain, he watched as
the peroxide foamed, wiping it and pouring a little more. Her eyes were tightly
clenched and he stared at her, hating causing her more pain than she'd already
had for one night, but allowing the demon inside of him to relish it, feed off
of it. She was the Slayer and the thing inside of him was applauding the tears
that coursed down her cheeks. "Please?" She cried, trying to sit up. Spike quickly but gently wiped the peroxide off of her, using a clean towel
to dry her completely. Grabbing the bag, he fished around until he found the
lotion for bacteria. It had three million safety labels on it and Spike got
frustrated, unable to open it. "I tell you. Humans are so freakin' overly
cautious it's sickening." "This coming from a man who HAD to use peroxide!" Buffy snapped. "To be
cautious!" After several more attempts, his face morphed into a vampire's face in anger
and he bit down on it, ripping the bottom out. Pleased with himself, he dumped
it on her stomach, tenderly using his fingers to smooth it out along the cut.
"Would you hurry up?" Buffy glared at him. "I could have been in and out of
the hospital by now." "Hey!" He snapped, still in vamp face. "I'm doing this for free, y'know. Try
to be a little considerate here because it's not like I enjoy saving your ass
repeatedly. Especially when you're such an ingrate about it." Buffy narrowed her eyes and said, "I was just fine tonight. And you could use
a healthy dose of modesty! Angel never threw stuff up in my face!" Spike grabbed the bandages from the bag and quickly stuck Band-Aids and gauze
all over the wound, taping it firmly in place. He stood up and glared down at
her. "Don't compare me to him again. Truth is, if your Angel was so blasted
perfect, he'd be here instead of me, wouldn't he?" Buffy gasped and stared at him, not believing he said that to her. Fighting
back tears, she tried unsuccessfully to rise, but a combination of the pain and
the sleep medication left her unsteady. Spike watched her struggle, overcoming
the demon inside of him and changing back to his "human" face. He pushed her
back firmly and said, "Stay put." "I'm leaving." She snapped. "Are you?" Asked Spike, standing over her. "Cause from where I'm standing,
I'd say you aren't. It's almost light outside and I don't fancy walking you
home. And don't give me any more sass or I'll use the rest of this tape on your
damn mouth." Buffy pounded the bed with her fist, "You infuriate me!" Spike shrugged, "It's mutual. Now go to sleep before you put me in a worse
mood." She rolled away from him, hugging the cover to her chest, she closed her
eyes. Spike glared at her for several seconds and then started picking up the
trash and bloody items. He ducked into the bathroom, carefully rinsing the
towels in the sink and shoving them in the tub. When he walked back into the
bedroom, Buffy was on her back again, breathing deeply and sound asleep. Spike
squatted beside her, brushing her hair off of her face. Smiling, he brushed his
lips against her temple and shook his head. Why did he have to like her so damn
much? "Wake up, Slayer." Spike nudged her. "YooHoo! Your watcher is on his way to
get you." "Wesley?" Buffy asked, stirring. "Who the hell is Wesley?" Spike demanded. Buffy sat up, looking confused. "What?" Spike shook his head, too tired to care. He had stayed up all night, staring
at her, checking her bandages and making sure she hadn't lost so much blood that
she died without him knowing it. It was just after eight am and when he figured
he'd ring the watcher. He'd been easy to track down, since he was the only Giles
listed in the phone book. Standing, he tossed her a T-shirt, saying, "You'd best
get up." Grumbling, she pulled herself to the edge of the bed, motioning for him to
turn. When he refused she angrily yanked the T-shirt over her naked chest. "You
could have looked the other way!" "I could have." He nodded. "How do you feel?" "I'm fine." She glanced at him as she stood up. "Thank you…again." "I like the way you thanked me last time I saved you." He grinned. She
didn't. Spike watched her walk into the bathroom and slumped against the desk. How
had things become so awkward between them? He figured he liked it better when he
wanted to rip her throat out. The sink area was exposed and he walked behind
her. She was washing her face and when she stood, he handed her a towel. "Can I
ask you something?" "Yeah." Buffy replied, drying her face. "Why were you looking for me last night?" Buffy sighed and put the towel on the sink, shrugging. "I wanted to apologize
for picking that fight with you." "Which one?" Asked the vampire, crossing his arms. "The only one I picked. And I only picked it after YOU started it to begin
with because you have to be an asshole!" Spike raised his eyebrow, "Lady, is that your idea of an apology?" "Damn it, I'm trying!" she snapped. "This is hard for me! I'm really, really
sorry about the stuff I said." "Did you mean it? Do you honestly believe that I screwed you to annoy Angel?"
Buffy walked past him, looking for her shoes. "No, I don't think you did."
"Why did you do it?" Spike followed her closely. Buffy sat carefully, pulling her shoes on, trying not to hurt her stomach. "I
don't know. I don't know anything, Spike. I don't know what I think or feel or
want. I'm so confused and angry and I can't figure anything out." Spike felt his jaw clench, he wanted to shake her. He was so freakin' sick of
women. First Dru, now the Slayer. The SLAYER! Of all the women in the world he
had to like her. He wanted to tell her that he liked her spunk and spirit and
HER since the first time he saw her. He wanted to tell her that she was more
beautiful than anyone he'd ever seen and then remind her that he'd seen millions
of women in his two hundred years. Instead he said, "Whatever, pet. Have it your
way." Buffy felt her heart fall. She wanted to tell him that she had often thought
of him, thought about how much she enjoyed sparring with him and how much she
enjoyed his company the other night. She wanted to tell him that what they had
shared did mean something and she wanted it, but she said, "My way would be your
friendship." Spike snorted. "Friends? After what we did? You know what happened after you
and Angel shagged and tried to be friends." "I thought you didn't want to be compared to Angel. Why should our
relationship be compared to what happened with Angel?" Buffy cried. "Because Buffy, the same damn thing has happened again." He shouted. Then
added. "Fuck. I don't mean to yell at you." "What do you mean?" she wrinkled her forehead in confusion. "What's happened
again?" "You shagged Angel and he went bad, wanting to kill you. You shagged me and
all I can think about is how much I don't want to kill you! That thing you've
got between your thighs fucked with my mind more than my dick!" Spike heard a
knock on the door and looked at Buffy. "Friendship is all you're willing to
offer me?" Buffy stared deeply into his eyes, resisting the urge to kiss him, and
nodded. "I'm sorry." Someone knocked again and Spike said, "Fine. I'll be your friend. But I'm not
letting go of the possibility." Buffy smiled, "And I'm not letting go of the grudge I have from the tub
incident." Chuckling, Spike turned to open the door, then paused. "You may consider
alternative forms of punishment. I hear sex is the new weapon of choice." "Spike!" Buffy warned. "Is sexual innuendo going to be the underlying thing
with us?" "More than likely." He said. "Good." She smiled. That evening, after a lengthy conversation with Giles, a trip to the hospital
and fourteen stitches later, Buffy opened one of the many pizza boxes in her
refrigerator and burst out laughing. The pepperoni had been arranged in a heart
a toothpick was stuck in the middle. Buffy had no idea what was going to happen with her and Spike. The only thing
she was absolutely sure of was the fact that she liked Spike. A lot. She was
about to bite into a slice of pizza when the phone rang. "Hello?" she
answered. "Buffy, hun?" Her dad said. "How are you?" "Hey dad! I've missed you! When can I come up there?" Buffy smiled, relishing
the sound of his voice. "You haven't seen my graduation pictures!" "That's why I'm calling, baby. If you come at all, it'll be at the end of
summer break for a couple of days, I'm so busy I wouldn't be able to spend time
with you." Hank paused. "I'm sorry." "Aww, daddy!" she whined. "I haven't seen you in forever! You even missed my
eighteenth birthday. I'll have mom bring me so you don't have to make the
drive." "I said no, Buffy. I'll call you again soon and I really am sorry. I love
you." Hank hung up and turned to stare at the man behind him. "Are you happy
now?" "You've done right by the council." The man replied. "You've done right by
the honor of the Chosen line." "But has the council done right by me?" Hank asked. "I gave her up, just like
it says." The man stepped closer to Hank. "Only after you were forced." "But I did it." Hank reasoned. "You have led her to believe that she is your daughter. She was given to you
to watch. When we inseminated Joyce with a Slayer, you knew that you would need
to tell the both of them of Buffy's legacy early on." "She doesn't deserve this. I want to be in her life." "She's finished." Hank glared at the man, dumbfounded. "What do you mean?" The old man shook his head sadly; "Buffy should have died when it was fated,
at the Master's hands. She thwarted us when we attempted on her birthday even
though it was said to be impossible. Her time has run it's course and she must
die. The reports that Wesley has sent us indicate that…. " "I won't let you kill her." Hank shook his head. "Oh, I won't be killing her." The man straightened his tie and stared at
Hank. "It's only fitting that her real father does it. Pity he never knew." Buffy was exhilarated. A week of bed rest and lots of pampering from her
mother had left her itching to finally get out and patrol. She had promised
Giles that she'd take Xander along but she hadn't really spoken to Xander since
the big scene in her room with Spike and didn't much want to at the moment. She
was a big girl. She spun, kicking the vampire in the throat, feeling her muscles come alive.
Her body reacted instinctively and her stake was rammed through his chest within
seconds. Smiling, she spun to face the woman vampire who had been with the man,
"Come and get it." The woman lunged but Buffy sidestepped, running the stake through the demon's
back as she stumbled passed her. The Slayer bubbled with energy and she quickly
glanced around, searching for more vampires. She leapt onto a headstone,
scanning the cemetery, contemplating screaming that she was here if anyone was
interested. When all she saw was a sea of gray, multi-shaped headstones, she
muttered. "A little action. Is it too much to ask for?" Spike stepped out from behind a large marble monument and chuckled. "Looks
like someone is in rare form. That's the fourth one tonight." Buffy turned quickly, yelping a little at the sound of his voice and losing
her balance. He caught her in his arms and held her there for a moment before he
put her on her feet. She stared up at him; "You've been following me?" "And?" Spike shrugged and fished a smoke out of his pocket, lighting it. "And I don't think I like it." Buffy pulled the cigarette out of his mouth
and stomped it. "That either. It's nasty and smells funny." Spike glared at her for a moment, then blew a mouthful of smoke in her face.
"I'll quit if you intend on getting close enough to me to notice the smell."
Buffy threw her hands in the air, but giggled a little. "I see you are still
on the same theme." The vampire nodded, then pointed at her stomach. "Are you sure you should be
patrolling? How are you?" Buffy picked up her bag and started out of the cemetery. "You'd know how I
was if you bothered to call or come by." Swearing, Spike followed. "I should have called or come by? What for? Did you
scare off your friends with that attitude of yours?" The Slayer rolled her eyes and continued walking. She had heard Giles mention
some vampiric activity he'd witnessed down by the docks three nights ago. No
reason why she shouldn't check it out. It was her ‘sacred duty', although she
doubted anyone in their right mind would call getting bloody, cut and maimed
sacred territory. Spike kept up with her even though he was hungry and really wanted to go find
a donor. The silence wasn't uncomfortable but he liked the sound of her voice,
so he said, "You graduated this week, yes?" "Last week." Buffy hefted her bag on her shoulder, wishing she had left the
two jars of Holy Water out of it. "That's a big deal among people, huh?" He glanced sidelong at her, taking the
bag and putting it on his own shoulder. "It may be to some people." Not sure whether or not she liked his help, she
shrugged and tried to take her bag back. Spike shook his head and pushed her hand away. "Was it a big deal to the
Slayer?" "Not really." Defeated, she crossed her arms and glanced skyward. "It's a
pretty night." He'd spoken with her enough to know that when she changed the subject,
something about the topic she was running from was bothering her. "What's the
matter? Did you look fat in your cap and gown?" Buffy spun and grabbed her bag, glaring at him. "That was really nice! Want
to call me ugly too?" Spike watched her stalk off and shook his head in amazement, wondering if she
was suffering from a split personality disorder. Then it dawned on. He caught up
with her again and chuckled, "Do you need some Pamprin?" Buffy stopped walking but didn't look at him. "Why not?" "Explaining why not is still talking about graduation, Spike." He felt his temper start to flare. "You asked me to be your friend but you
won't let me." Buffy felt bad. She was taking out her anger at her father on
him. Putting her hand on his arm she said, "I'm sorry. Graduation would have
meant a lot to me if my dad had come but he didn't. He didn't bother coming to
see me for my birthday and he doesn't want me to come see him this summer like
always. I'm just a little upset about it." "Want me to kill him, luv?" He grinned. Then laughed when she smacked him on
the arm. "Hey, that's what friends are for." Buffy headed toward the docks again, accepting the fact that Spike was going
to come with her. She didn't really mind. He launched into a story about a
graduation party he had crashed once, feeding on the valedictorian and several
jocks. Buffy listened intently, only speaking to reprimand him for too many
details. By the time they reached the waterfront, she had forgotten about her dad and
about Angel and most of all, she had forgotten that this was the same old Spike.
A soulless vampire that had tried to kill her a million times. She opened her
mouth to tell him about the frat party she had gone to when she was grabbed from
behind. Without much thought, she tossed her attacker over her head grabbed a
stake, whirling to plunge it in them. Spike caught her arm and grabbed the stake. "It's not a vampire." Buffy glanced at the thing and watched as it began to writhe, shedding the
skin that had made it appear human. Before her eyes, it gyrated until the tan
colored flesh was discarded, leaving behind a gristle covered demon. Every inch
of it looked ready to drip as it glistened in the moonlight. "What is it?" Spike grabbed Buffy's hand, backing her away with him. "It's the Lorviken."
"Well how do you suggest I slay it?" "Honestly?" Spike asked. "I suggest we both run like hell." As one, they turned and sprinted back the way they had come. Buffy could hear
the slimy foot falls behind her and she half turned, seeing it a few feet behind
them. "It's gaining." "Wait ‘til it's wings dry." Spike let go of her hand and they both picked up
the pace. He knew he could probably pull ahead of her but he didn't, staying
completely even with her. A golf course loomed ahead of them and Spike noticed the sprinkler system was
cutting itself on it rows, shooting sprays of water in every direction. He
grabbed Buffy's arm and pulled her with him, not stopping until they stood under
the water. The Lorviken howled, circling just outside the spray of water, eyeing
them. "It's scared of water." Spike whispered. "Really? I never could have guessed that." Buffy stared at the creature, the
fighter in her looking for it's weakness. It stood about six feet tall in a
hunched position, possibly seven when erect. "Smart ass." Growled Spike, allowing the vampire inside of him to surface. "I
think cold water makes it shrink." "Cold water makes a lot of things shrink." Buffy laughed. Spike chuckled. "Not mine." "Not your what? What are you talking about? I'm talking about my clothes!"
Spike narrowed his eyes at her about to reply when the sprinkler they were
under shut off. The Lorviken cackled and lunged. Buffy and Spike separated, both
stepping in opposite directions. Spike punched the demon, getting it's attention
off of Buffy. The thing turned, leveling him with a blow across the face, it's
jagged skin ripping into Spike's flesh. The vampire stumbled and landed hard on
his backside. The Slayer glanced and saw a sprinkler not quite ten feet away about to
spring to life. "Hey ugly. Are you blind. I'm the Slayer!" The Lorviken turned away from Spike and shambled toward her. Eyeing her up
and down, it's mouth opening and shutting like it was getting ready to chew on
her. Drool began to pour and Buffy wrinkled her nose. "Attention K-mart
shoppers, bibs are on sale now on aisle three." Spike jumped to his feet, thinking that Buffy had finally lost it. She'd
finally gone insane. He charged, knocking the beast to the ground and the
sprinkler snapped on. "Hang onto him!" Buffy screamed, flinging herself on top
of both of them to help hold it under the water. The Lorviken screamed in rage, trying to shake them off. Spike realized that
it was getting smaller and smaller, until finally in sank into the wet grass, no
more than a puddle. He rolled onto his back, hanging onto Buffy who was half on
him. She smiled down at him and said, "I thought stuff like that only happened
in the ‘Wizard of Oz'." "I'm melting, I'm melting." The vampire shrieked, sending them both into
gales of laughter. Buffy relaxed against him, giving herself completely to the first real laugh
she'd had in weeks. His arms were around her waist and a familiar tingling was
beginning to spread through her. If she didn't pull away now she probably
wouldn't be able too at all. "We better go." She whispered, standing. Spike stood behind her and pressed the toe of his boot into the grass where
the thing had disappeared. "I hope that's that. I hope he doesn't rise
again." Buffy dug through her bag and rammed a stake into the earth. Spike cleared
his throat and said, "Uhm, I don't want to point out the obvious…but…" "I'm marking the spot in case Giles has to do something to make sure it
doesn't rise again." She put her hands on her hips. "I'm smart. I can't get by
on looks alone." Spike grinned, "Ahhh, but you could with looks like yours." Buffy hefted her bag but he took it from her. She tried several times to take
it back and then threw her hands up in exasperation. Spike followed her,
watching the way she wiggled her hips when she walked, remembering how well she
wiggled when she wasn't walking. Giles glared angrily at Wesley before throwing his cup across the library,
smashing it against the far wall. Wesley followed the cup with his eyes and then
took a few steps back, mumbling. "How on earth you passed the Council's
psychiatric evaluation all those years is beyond me! Honestly, Mr. Giles, your
temper…" "Is about to get me arrested for assault." Giles stepped towards Wesley. "Now, now, Mr. Giles." Wesley quickly put the table between the two of them
and held up his hands. "No need for violence." "Those are my thoughts as well. Buffy will not be subjected to ANY more of
the unnecessary violence that the Council would like to place upon her." Wesley removed his glasses, trying not to show that he was shaking. "I'm
afraid it has already been started, Giles. And if you warn her this time, she'll
be killed for your weakness." Xander shoved the library door open, dragging a blanket and a pillow behind
him, looking ruffled. He paused, staring at the two watchers, before swearing.
"I left my house to get away from a lovers quarrel. Now look at this!" Giles felt a small wave of compassion for the boy and then remembered Buffy's
promise of asking Xander to patrol with her. "Where's Buffy?" Xander tossed his pillow on the counter before crawling up any lying down.
"She was walking toward me wearing a towel on her hair and nothing else when my
dad decided to scream and pound the wall. Then I woke up." Giles cleared his throat, reddening. "She was supposed to ask you to patrol
with her." "She didn't." Xander pulled the cover to his chin and snuggled into it. "Wake
me only after it's apparent I've stopped dreaming." Wesley glanced at the boy and then back at Giles. "I'm going home. You will
remember what we discussed. It's most important that you…." "Go away….. now." Giles said through clenched teeth. He watched as Wesley
left and then started to pick up the pieces of his shattered cup, wondering how
he could be expected to turn a blind eye to the Council's plan. They wanted to
put Buffy through yet more testing. He'd accidentally stumbled upon Wesley
speaking on the phone with someone about it, and began eavesdropping as soon as
he heard Buffy's name. Anger coursed through his veins as he tried to sort out a
plan. "Giles?" Buffy called, staring at Xander's sleeping frame on the counter and
musing about how funny it would be to shove him off. Giles stood and grimaced. Spike stood a few feet behind Buffy, carrying her
bag and both of them were soaking wet. He couldn't force himself to be
comfortable around ‘William the Bloody' and doubted he ever would. He was about
to speak when Xander woke up, saw Spike and screamed. "Wake me up!! Now it's a
nightmare!" Spike glared at the young boy, wondering if Buffy would forgive him if he
rammed his fist down his throat. He watched as the Slayer punched the boy
lightly on the arm and mumbled something that sounded like, "Don't even
start." Giles stepped around the table and gazed up and down Buffy. "I take it the
night has been troublesome." "Way troublesome." She walked past him and bounced onto the table. "We had to
fight a Lord of the Dance." Spike chuckled and said, "Lorviken." Giles turned and looked at the vampire. "Are you quite sure? A dombril will
appear to be the same but…" "But only a Lorviken will shrink in water." Spike
joined Buffy at the table, sitting in a chair instead of next to her. "That's not the only thing that will shrink in water." Xander piped up as he
stood and walked into Giles's office, closing the door. Buffy and Spike looked
at one another and laughed out loud. Giles ignored them all. "Good Lord. The Lorviken was captured in Eastern
Europe over one hundred years ago." "And it was just as bad then." Shaking his blond head, Spike recalled the
last time he'd seen it. "Hideous thing, really. Almost as bad as a chaos demon.
It had obviously fed and merged its body with it's victim because it hatched out
of it only after Buffy threatened it." "Yes," the watcher nodded. "I witnessed it as a youth. It lived in captivity
and was shown as a specimen to potential Watchers." "The council had it?" Buffy asked. Giles realized what was happening then. The Lorviken was only one of hundreds
of horrible creatures that the council had and if it was here in Sunnydale, it
was released for a reason. The reason was looking at him expectantly and he
nodded at her. "Yes. One of the tests is being able to look at these demon
species and maintain a clear head. Know and identify them and their weaknesses
without panicking." "How in hell did Wesley pass?" she recalled hearing about how he had panicked
at the sight of Balthazar. "Who the hell is Wesley?" Spike asked, remembering that Buffy had mentioned
him when she awoke once. "He's my new Watcher. Giles got fired." Spike glanced at Giles but didn't reply. Part of him wanted to taunt the man,
poke fun at him and laugh, but he suppressed the urge, noting the solemn look on
his face. Buffy noticed the look as well and said, "What's wrong, Giles?" He shook his head and walked to stand before the Slayer, glaring down at her.
"You are not, under any circumstances, to patrol alone. Do you understand me,
Buffy? You lied to me tonight saying you'd be taking Xander. Don't let that
happen again." She nodded at him, feeling her stomach flip a little. When a watcher wigged
it usually meant big trouble in little china. Or big demons in little hellmouth
land. Or if the watcher was Wesley it could mean a lot of other things. If
Wesley wigged he may have seen his own shadow. Buffy chuckled at herself. "I'm serious, damn it!" Giles shouted, grabbing her shoulders. "Do not
disobey me on this." "Geez Giles, take a pill!" She scooted off the table, angry that he'd use
that tone in front of Spike. "So will water kill a LoserTek?" "Lorviken." Giles corrected. "And yes." Buffy smiled and gave a small shrug, "Who cares if I can say it as long as I
can slay it."
A summer breeze wafted through Buffy's open window and she breathed in
deeply, loving the way the ocean air smelled. Smiling, she opened one eye and
glanced at the clock. It was after ten and she realized, almost sadly, that
until she started college she didn't have to worry about waking up early.
Getting enough sleep was something she used to daydream about though. She'd have
to ask Willow about afternoon only college classes. Feeling good, she threw the cover back, making the bed up when she stood.
Skipping, she headed for the shower. While the water massaged her back and neck,
Buffy wondered if this was what letting go felt like. She had thought of Angel
every second until last night, when Spike had shown up and distracted her. It
didn't hurt that ‘letting go' involved such good company. Good looking company
to boot. As she soaped her hair, she opened her mouth and sang one of the songs
from ‘Cats', which she had watched a million times while she was lying in the
bed under house arrest. Memory, turn your face to the moonlight Joyce heard her daughter and smiled. It had been a long time since she'd
heard Buffy's melodious singing voice. She'd always had a gift for vocals but
was too shy to do much with it in front of other people as she got older. As a
little girl, Buffy bragged that she'd star in ‘Annie' and sing on Broadway,
belting out showtunes for anyone who'd listen. In middle school, the dream
turned to starring on All My Children but always, there was singing involved.
Joyce hummed along as she made her bed and crossed the hall to make Buffy's.
When she opened the door she was shocked. The bed was neatly made and the
assorted clothing that usually littered the floor had been piled in the hamper.
Smiling so big it hurt, Joyce wondered what was making her kid so happy. While Buffy dried off she sang the last few bars of the song. Touch me She sang it again and really listened to the words, wondering if whoever
wrote it had a vampire for a friend. Angel had often spoken longingly of his
days in the sun. Shrugging, she kept singing as she got dressed. That last part
stuck with her and she realized why. When she had touched Spike she understood
what happiness was and her new day was beginning. It had begun when she lost
herself in his arms. Willow rode her bike up to Buffy's front porch and hopped off, waving at
Joyce who was up to her elbows planting shrubbery. The woman yelled for her to
go on in and she opened the door, shouting for Buffy. "Up here." Buffy called. Willow took the steps two at a time and smiled at her friend. "Guess what?
You'll never guess. Let me tell you…no guess what!!" "Hmmmm," the slayer glanced up from her toenails, which she was painting an
awesome new shade called Lizard and said, "You and Oz did it?" Willow's face fell and she flopped on the end of the bed. "Did he tell you?"
Buffy's eyes widened and she stared at her friend. "Is that really what you
were gonna tell me?" The redhead bobbed her head up and down, then joined Buffy in a loud squeal.
Buffy grabbed her, hugging her tight and Willow added, "It hurt. It really
hurt." "Yeah. The first time always does but the second, third, fourth…mmmm….you're
in for some fun." Buffy was exited for her friend. Sex was amazing…with the
right person. < With Spike. > Willow gave Buffy a baffled look and shook her head. "You said you and Angel
only did it the ONE time." Gulping, Buffy tried to cover her tracks. "No, I mean, that's what I
heard." "I know you Buffy. That …mmmm…was an…mmmm…of experience. I told you so you
tell me. Was it Angel?" Willow grinned blushing a little. "You know I couldn't be with Angel." She looked wistful for a moment,
wondering what if would have changed if she could have been with him. "Buffy, come on! I tell you everything. First base, second base and the only
time I ever got to third I practically had you on the phone while it was
happening I called you so fast." Buffy bit her lower lip and exhaled loudly. "Can I trust you?" Willow looked
offended and Buffy quickly added, "Never mind…I know I can. Okay, here goes.
That night that you guys were hunting me all over town…I had sex in the cemetery
with someone. Massive sex. Porno sex." "Wow." Whispered Willow. "That's so romantic. And ironic really since you
fight there and sex is so…not fighting. Who was it with?" "Spike." Replied Buffy. Willow jumped up. "That's so insane!" "What?" Buffy shouted. "What happened to so romantic?" "He's a vampire!" "And Oz is a werewolf." Buffy capped her nail polish and put it on her night
table, hanging her legs over the side so her toenails could dry. "He never
attempted to hurt me, Willow, and it was amazing. Then I spent the next day with
him on accident." "Are you in love with him?" Willow practically moaned the words. "NO!" Buffy exclaimed, then quietly added, "I told him we can only be
friends." Willow read Buffy's face for several seconds before she said, "And no part of
‘being friends' makes you happy does it?" Sadly, Buffy shook her head. "I don't know, Willow. I mean, sure, he's a
vampire. A soulless-blood gulping -creature of the night-murderer-who tried to
kill me enough times to make a whole seasons worth of campy television
drama…but…God, Will…once he kissed me…I was his….He could star in my drama every
week." Willow grinned. "Cable or network television?" "Networks nowadays would be scared of my show." Buffy didn't smile. "As weird
as it is, as fake as it would seem, it's just too real for TV. What should I
do?" "Tone it down or be censored?" offered Willow. "I guess you have to decide if
it's worth the controversy. You know some people wouldn't understand if you did
get with Spike that way." "Well, this Slayer doesn't bow for censorship." Buffy stood up, deciding that
she'd go to Spike's room and thank him the way he liked. And she'd have fun
doing it. The sedan pulled up outside of Wesley's house and he began to pace when he
saw Fagan step out of the driver's seat. He knew a councilman was coming but
never would have dreamed it would be Fagan. During his tenure at the
watcher-training center, he had idolized this man, mimicking his stature and
demeanor. Always wanting to be just one step closer to what Fagan was. Perfect
in Wesley's eyes. He opened the door and grinned, stepping aside to indicate a tray of tea,
cookies and pastries he had flown in from England. "Hello, Fagan, sir." Fagan, a man of at least sixty, large in stature and possessing quite an air
of self- importance, stared around the small cluttered apartment. He sniffed his
nose with disdain and said, "I spoke with Hank. He'll not be giving us any
problems." The watcher nodded. "Buffy is quite a capable Slayer. Unleashing your
unwanted demons here for disposal will give her a much needed round of exercise
and thereby kill two birds with one stone." "We only need to kill one, Wesley." Fagan took a seat, spreading his coat
around him even though summer was upon California with a vengeance. "I don't think I follow, sir." Wesley sat opposite him, admiring his
expensive jewelry and exotic walking cane. The old man's crippled hand rubbed the tip of that very cane. "What I failed
to tell you on the phone is that Buffy Summers will die. Soon." "My Lord." Wesley stood up, began to pace again. "We must warn her. Somehow
thwart her destination. Have you pinpointed a date." "Sit down, buffoon, and let me finish!" Snarled Fagan, tapping his cane
angrily. "The reports that you have given the council indicate that the strain
of personal issues coupled with being the Chosen one have left Miss. Summers in
quite a detached and wayward state. Am I correct?" Wesley felt the blood begin to drain from his face as he nodded, then shook
his head quickly. "Well, yes, at first she was but…" "Silence!" Shouted the old man. "This Summers' girl has been a thorn in the
council's side for years. Merrick, the man who finally located and trained her,
seemed to have faith in her awkwardness and the council has noted her abilities
to a point but, this girl is too modern, too willful. She has friends, commoners
who are privy to secret information and trades, she bedded a vampire, and we
recently discovered that she is being influenced by someone too close." Wesley was trying to digest this information, unable to grasp why such
drastic measures would be needed. "Someone too close?" "I'm sure by now you are aware of the great dislike the Council has for
Rupert Giles. He was only considered to begin with as an honor to his
grandmother, who always wished that he would carry on the Giles legacy of the
Chosen lineage. We thought him little more than a breeder, possibly a researcher
or a trainer but none of us could guess he'd become a watcher. Surprising us
all, he finished top of the line in everything, but it was only after we had
taken his sperm and used it to inseminate someone that he was given his Watcher
place. You may have a daughter out there, you realize. Someone else is training
her, watching her, those are just the ways we have always embraced." Fagan
paused and looked at the young watcher across from him. Wesley gasped, "Is Buffy my child?" Fagan shook his head, "No. I know it seems almost barbaric and cruel to
invent life inside of unsuspecting women but it takes a special girl indeed to
be a slayer. It takes one that we invent, using good breeding, heritage,
families who have been touched by the supernatural. In the old days, before
there was DNA and fancy hospitals, believe it or not, the councilmen would
resort to raping the women deemed worthy just to plant a Slayer in them. Buffy
was given to Hank. He'd just been given his watcher status but he and his wife
developed quite a bond with her and never told Joyce or the child the
truth." "Who is her father?" Wesley already figured out the answer but needed to hear
it. "When Merrick was killed, we gave Buffy three months to live at the most, she
wasn't properly trained. We forced Hank to detach himself and allow destiny to
run it's course. Because we considered her to be nothing more than a pebble in
our shoe, we activated Giles without checking into the files. Actually, we had
hoped that the idiot would perish along beside her somewhere down the line.
During Buffy's birthday test, we noticed something odd. Giles felt compelled to
help her, warn her and risk himself to save her. We checked the records." "Oh good God." Wesley felt faint. "Giles is her father. This type of thing has never happened before and their
obvious affection for one another puts the fate of the world at risk, it puts
the council at risk." Fagan lowered his head. "If there was any other way…" "Isn't there?" Wesley's mind raced. "There are two Slayers, can't one simply
retire?" "No, they die. Retirement is not an option." "So you will see to it that she dies yourself?" "No." Fagan said again. "Buffy is on the verge of snapping. A slayer's whole
life force is centered. She'll discover the truth about Giles, about the ways of
the council, she'll think she has murdered a human being and if the profile that
we have been given fits, she'll go insane, just like Faith. We'll step in, offer
to take her out, by then Giles will know the truth as well and hopefully…no
definitely…he'll choose to kill her himself as opposed to our methods." "That would shatter Mr. Giles." The young watcher murmured. "A man can hope." Fagan smiled. "I have a personal stake in this. Giles's
suffering is what I have lived so long to see." Buffy appraised her choice of clothing, smiling and satisfied that she looked
sexy. She wanted to look so sexy that Spike would pull her to the bed, ‘shag',
and ask questions later. The tight mini-skirt, low cut halter and high heeled
sandals had gotten her several catcalls and whistles while she walked into town.
Plus, she had bought a new vampish lipstick in a color she'd never usually
wear. She paused, getting a grip on her emotions and hoping that she could control
herself. Knocking lightly at first, she frowned, realizing that the dead
probably slept like the dead, so she knocked louder. A muffled swear came from
the other side of the door and she grinned, wondering if that was the only cuss
word he knew. Spike yanked his pants on; swearing he'd kill whoever it was and then piss
their blood on the corpse. Did no one in this town respect a ‘Do Not Disturb'
sign? The maid certainly didn't and Spike had shown her. Apparently someone else
needed a lesson. He pulled the door open quickly and calmed down instantly. It
was the Slayer. It was the Slayer dressed like any one of the many hookers he'd
encountered but wouldn't feed on, much less screw, even though they could be
easy and willing targets. Stepping aside, he allowed his gaze to follow her, roaming it's way up her
backside to the curve of her exposed shoulders. She turned as he shut the door
and stood, feet apart, watching him watch her. Spike made no move, didn't say a
word, just stood there not knowing why she looked trashy when he knew she
wasn't. Finally, she stepped toward him and grabbed his face between her hands,
kissing him deeply, ramming her tongue in his mouth. Spike grabbed her hands and shoved her back. "What the hell are you doing?"
Grinning, pulled her shirt over her head. "Anything you want me to." "Are you drunk again, pet? Because I told you what would happen if you did
that again." He growled, but gazed at her naked breasts anyway. "You'd spank me." She gyrated her hips a little and then turned, pushing her
skirt down over her hips and bending over as far as she could. He had a full
view of her naked ass and the other jewel in that area, which was glistening in
the little bit of sunlight that filtered through. Buffy smacked her own ass and
said, "I may like that." He turned away, completely turned off by her appearance. Her actions were
even worse. "Get dressed." Buffy's face fell. She stepped out of her skirt, wearing nothing but her
heels, and walked to where he stood. She ran her tongue along the cool naked
flesh of his back, them slid her fingers into the waistband of his jeans, gently
working her way to the front. When she reached the button and pulled it open,
Spike spun, shoving her on the bed. Buffy laughed and spread her legs, beckoning
him to undress and join her. Spike walked to her pile of clothes and picked them up, tossing them on the
bed. "I said get dressed." Buffy sat up, hugging herself and trying not cry. "Why?" "You disgust me." He said simply, not believing that she would act so brazen
after such a nice night patrolling. He was tired of her games, tired of her mood
changes and most of all he was tired of reacting so strongly to everything she
did. She lost the battle and tears brimmed the edges of her eyelids. "But I
thought that…" "I THOUGHT YOU SAID WE HAD TO BE FRIENDS!" Spike shouted. "I changed my mind." Buffy whimpered. "I thought you said you wanted more."
"I changed MY mind." Spike snarled. "Look at yourself. You look like a whore,
you're acting like a whore, god, you even smell like a whore. What happened to
you?" Buffy yanked her shirt on and stepped into her skirt. "I thought you'd like
it." "You really are naïve aren't you?" He snorted. "I can pick up a whore
anywhere and she'd treat me to the same sleazy little show you just put on.
You're supposed to be classier than that." "I thought you'd like it." She repeated again. "Well, I don't." He glared at her. "I swear, I think you're crazier than Dru
ever thought about being. At least she had a little self-respect." Stung by his words to the point that she wanted to die, she shouted, "If self
respect means screwing you and Angel both every single day for months …then I
guess she had it by the barrel full." Spike drew back to slap her, wanting to hear the sound of his open hand on
her smart little mouth. Buffy stumbled backward, cowering against the wall and
he stopped himself, unable to hurt her. Turning away he ran his hand through his
hair and said, "I think you better go." Allowing the tears to run down her cheeks, Buffy sobbed loudly. "I wanted
you, like before." Spike turned slowly and looked her from head to toe. "I wanted YOU, like
before. The real you." Still sobbing, Buffy flew past him, toward the door. Spike stepped in front
of her and pulled her to face him. "Buffy," He waited until she looked up at
him. "I'm sorry that I almost hit you. I never…." "I'm sorry too." She yanked free and ran out into the sunlight, leaving Spike
to wander what he'd done to be damned to hell on earth. Buffy changed into old jeans and a T-shirt before she went patrolling with
Giles that night. She had decided that a) she was too dorky to pull off the sexy
look and b) she was never having sex of any kind again. Ever. She would just be
a Slayer and devote herself entirely to that. She was good. She was awesome. She
was aware of her surroundings. "You're awfully distracted, Buffy." Giles said, staring at her closely. "You
did notice that I staked two vampires didn't you?" No, she had not noticed that but she said, "Duh! I was letting you have a
little fun." Giles narrowed his eyes at her. "A-ha. I didn't just stake any vampires so
you are distracted!" "No, I'm not. I'm reversing your psychology on you….and move." Buffy shoved
him out of the way and tossed her stake into an oncoming vampire's chest. It
didn't strike the heart and she rolled her eyes, rushing the vampire and using
her foot to angle it the right way. "How was that for distraction?" "Hmmm. If you weren't so distracted you could have made that shot with a
blindfold on." Giles smiled a little. "That's the first one tonight. I honestly
thought we'd see more. Oh, there's one." Spike jogged toward them and was in front of Buffy within minutes. She
stepped away, hiding herself behind Giles, not wanting to face him. He glanced
at her and turned to Giles, "Something's up. Willy told me that the vampires are
going underground, avoiding something." "Hmmm." Giles repeated, noticing Buffy and turning around, exposing her.
"What on earth are you doing?" "Watching your back." The Slayer quickly replied. The watcher scratched his head and turned his attention back to Spike. "Did
he give you any indication of what they're avoiding?" Spike grinned as he saw one of Buffy's big blue eyes over Giles's shoulder
and shook his head. "No. He just said that something bad was going down and to
look out for it. Whatever it is, it drove a whole pod of new vampires back out
of town." "I saw we shake it's hand." Buffy said. "If it has one, that is. That's a few
less vamps I have to worry about." "Yes, luv, but you may have to worry about that, then?" Spike said, reaching
around Giles and turning her to where he was pointing. "Why waste time worrying when we can always run?" Giles reasoned. Buffy's eyes widened. The thing that was advancing on them had several arms,
several eyes and several hands. "Wonder which one of those I'd shake?" "Let's just shake a leg?" Spike suggested, not liking the looks of the thing.
It's mouth was as wide as it's whole head, and as it roared, it vomited a
smaller demon from it's mouth. The smaller demon scurried to sit on the thing's
shoulder, looking like a newborn baby that had been skinned, raising a fist
towards Buffy. "God, that's gross." Buffy dropped to her knee and dug through her bag,
fishing out the crossbow and some bolts. She loaded it with perfectly steady
hands and took aim, pressing the trigger. The bolt stuck the smaller demon
through the forehead, knocking it off the shoulder of the big one. The larger
demon whirled, looking for it's baby and Buffy shoved it from behind, burying a
large knife in it's back. It howled, backhanding her and she toppled end over
end until she landed at the bottom of a small hill. "Buffy!" Willow cried. She and Oz rushed to where Buffy was lying sprawled
out and Oz helped her to her feet. They'd seen Giles's car and figured they'd
find them in here. Willow had received a very important package they needed to
see. Buffy glanced back up the hill and saw Giles and Spike rushing toward them,
taking a moment to breathe a sigh of relief that they were okay. She ran a hand
through her hair and felt something sticky and realized her head had a small
cut. Oz handed her a wadded up napkin and she smiled gratefully. "I think we best head to the library." Willow said, glancing around the
darkness. "You aren't gonna believe what was delivered." Buffy had her head down on the table, listening intently to what Giles was
telling them. Apparently, the council had more tests. Worse tests than being
locked in a hellhouse with the male version of Drusilla. He went over the
conversation he had heard with Wesley, making sure he mentioned that he'd told
Wesley off, and finished by telling Buffy that he needed her to go to Los
Angeles. Buffy groaned, still not raising her head. Part of it was humiliation, since
Spike was seated across from her. The other part was the fact that she'd be
tempted to go see her father if she was there. "Why Los Angeles?" "I have a colleague there who I trust completely. He's involved with the
council to some extent and I do think he could stop these horrible tests that
are being drawn for you." Giles glanced at her, wondering why she'd been so odd
all night. "Phones nowadays can ring Los Angeles." Spike shrugged, he was still holding
the threatening letter that had been delivered to Buffy, c/o the library. The
thing that had gotten Willow so upset. "And phones nowadays can be bugged." Willow pointed out. "I want Buffy out of Sunnydale for now." Giles took off his glasses and
pulled the chair out next to Spike, then paused, moving to sit beside Oz. Buffy raised her head and followed his movements. "I'm the Slayer, Giles. If
nasty stuff is going to happen here, I should be here." Giles shook his head. "I think that Wesley, myself, Xander, Anya and your
mother should be able to handle the hellmouth for now. Anya is quite gifted at
binding spells and she should be able to get most of the demons contained
without pause. The vampiric activity is almost non-existent at the moment as
well. I'd feel better knowing that you were there, and that you were going to
accompany Radcliffe back here." "What about me and Oz?" Willow asked, jealous of being overlooked. "I can
bind too!" "You and Oz will drive Buffy in the van. We'll get darker drapes of course"
The watcher quickly pulled out a pen and began jotting his plans on paper. "Why would we need darker curtains?" Oz asked. Giles glanced at the three teens and the vampire. "Well, for Spike of course,
he'll be needed with you. Strength in numbers." Buffy put her head back on the table to avoid Spike's amused grin. "When do
we leave?" "Tonight." Giles replied. Not quite four hours later, Oz pulled the van in front of the only place they
found that might have a ‘vacancy'. It was a cabin rental, about ten miles out of
LA downtown. They had driven in circles looking for a place to crash for the
day, since Spike needed shelter and they all wanted to sleep all day and work
all night. Nothing like the protective cover of darkness. Buffy watched as Spike and Oz headed into a big lodge and sighed. Willow
turned and looked at her. "All right, spill. For someone who was going to seduce
a certain vampire, you're awfully stand offish to him. He's tried to make
conversation with you all night." "Not open for discussion, Will." Buffy cringed as she recalled the sound of
Spike's voice telling her she disgusted him. Willow nodded, then added. "I'm SO looking forward to spending the whole
night with Oz. Wow." Faking a smile for her friend, the Slayer gave her a limp thumbs up, then sat
up straighter as the two guys returned. Spike glanced at Buffy then spoke, "Apparently, there is a big festival in
town. We got the last cabin they had." As they drove up a winding road, they all marveled at how beautiful the place
was. Oz chuckled, "It should be for two hundred bucks a night." "What!?" Both girls exclaimed. "Thank Spike." Oz replied, parking at a cabin in the back, nestled in a patch
of trees." Buffy glanced at Spike who grinned and said, "I've always wanted to rough
it." They unloaded their bags as Willow unlocked the doors and turned on all the
lights. Buffy heard her exhibit geeker joy and smiled. Lugging her stuff in
behind the guys she gasped. It was amazing. There was a large stone fireplace
that ran the entire length of one wall, complete with a bear skin rug in front
of it. Two leather sofas sat facing one another, and off to one side there was a
formal dining area. In the far corner was an entertainment unit. It had the
biggest TV Buffy had ever seen and about a hundred movies to choose from lining
shelves. Willow rounded the corner and said, "Oh my GOD, Buffy! It has a hot tub, a
sauna and would you believe….a tanning bed! This place is unreal!" "It's gorgeous." Buffy nodded, walking into the kitchen and opening the
cabinets and refrigerator. "Are you hungry, baby?" Spike asked. She jumped, tingling at the sound of him calling her ‘baby'. It rolled off
his tongue, his accent making it the most sensual thing she'd ever heard. "No.
Just checking stuff out. Are you hungry?" He winked at her and said, "I'm good!" She followed him down the hallway, pausing to look in the bathroom, running
her fingers along the edge of the clubfoot tub and intricate tapestries. The
showers were clear class and there were his and her sinks. Turning, she bumped
into Spike, who had been watching her. He held onto her for several seconds and
then ran his thumb over the small cut on her forehead. "They may have peroxide
here." She laughed and punched him playfully. "I know I have stakes here." He nodded down the hall and she followed him again, stepping over the luggage
that had been left in the hallway until they decided on rooms. One room had a
huge king size bed. It was beautifully decorated with creams and burgundy
shades. Buffy glanced into the other room, which had two queen size beds. She
glanced at Spike briefly before pulling her stuff into that room. It was just as
beautiful, but more masculine. Decorated in navy blue and hunter green. Spike followed, watching as she walked out onto the patio, and hung over the
rail. She had changed clothes after patrolling and was wearing a floral wrap
around skirt that flowed to her ankles and a pink tank top. She was the most
innocent and beguiling looking creature he had ever seen. That was the
fascination. When she looked like this, he could forget she was a Slayer. The
wind blew her hair away from her face and she leaned into it. He regretted every
single thing that he had said to her that day. Buffy came back in, avoiding his gaze and dug around in her suitcase for
several seconds. "I'm going to take a shower." He watched her go, busying himself with unpacking both of their suitcases so
he wouldn't succumb to the urge to join her. He shook his head wondering why one
small Slayer would need so many clothes. When he heard the shower turn off, he
had finished unpacking and had turned down both beds. Buffy stood in the doorway, wondering what the hell he was doing being so
nice now. Not that she was about to mind it….but if he wanted to be nice, he
could have joined her. "I unpacked your…" He turned and forgot what he was saying. She was wearing a
gown that came to her mid-thigh and it was the most beautiful thing he'd ever
seen. "That's a beautiful gown." Buffy stared at him for a second, dumbfounded. She'd brought this one because
it was loose, comfortable and ugly. "Spike, it's Winnie the Pooh." "I'm going to the shower." He quickly brushed past her and she took the bed
by the window, carefully making sure she pulled the drapes and blinds all the
way. She climbed into the bed, pulling the cover up to her ears and laid
perfectly still when she heard him enter, check the curtains, and climb into the
other bed. And when she heard Willow start to moan in the other room, she wasn't
prepared for the way her body reacted. Angel glanced at the Los Angeles skyline once more before he pulled the
blinds. He was on the eighteenth floor of an apartment complex, not sure he
liked it too much. He missed the mansion, he missed Sunnydale and most of all he
missed Buffy. Lifting his bag of blood to his lips, he downed it in one gulp and walked
quietly to the bed, hoping tonight he didn't drain himself again by crying blood
tears. Buffy tried not to pay attention to Willow's obvious pleasure by tossing,
turning, and burying her head in the cover. Finally giving in, she put her hand
between her legs. Delicately, she slid her finger into her own juices,
moistening them, then stroking across the swollen nubbin that ached more and
more every time Willow keened in the next room. She was quiet, painfully aware that Spike was just a few feet away from her
and that vampires had amazing hearing. Gliding her fingers back and forth, she
began to raise her hips with each stroke, wishing that he would fill her
emptiness and pound her into oblivion. Harder and harder she stroked herself,
trying to concentrate on letting go of the tension her body felt. Spike heard a gasp from the bed next to him and keened his ears. He heard her
heartbeat quicken, heard the springs bouncing and gazed in her direction.
Apparently she had forgotten that vampires could see in the dark. He slid into
his vampire face so he could watch her more clearly, viewing her in the vivid
colors of the night. She had tossed the cover aside and had a look of
concentration on her face, one hand in her panties and one under her gown. Buffy tried so hard. She squeezed herself down on an imaginary cock, trying
to trick her body into thinking she was actually being screwed. Just like Willow
was right then. Buffy, the girl who lost her virginity first, was fucking
herself, and doing a piss poor job of it, while Willow was being worshipped in
the next room. Trying not to cry out in her frustration, she rolled, putting the
pillow over her head so her sobs wouldn't wake Spike up. He watched as she rolled, turning her back to him, realizing she couldn't
come. The first sobs were muffled but as her crying intensified, Spike stood and
walked to her bed, kneeling beside it. He could smell her arousal, could almost
taste it the air was so thick with it. Touching her shoulder, he rolled her
until she was lying in one of his arms, facing upward. He was still kneeling
beside the bed and he kissed each swollen eye, cradling her, rubbing her face
with his free hand. Gently, slowly, he lifted the hand that had been in her panties to his mouth,
sucking each digit. She gasped and let him lead it back to her panties, pressing
it into her mound. Spike inched her panties down just a few more inches and slid
his own fingers into her tight passage, working in and out. Buffy bucked against
his hand and hers as they collided, worrying her aching core. Spike made no move to join her on the bed, made no move to kiss her, he just
cradled her against his chest, staring at her face. He could feel her channel
begin to constrict and knew she'd be loud, but he didn't try to inhibit her.
When the orgasm hit, she screamed his name, lifting her hips and thighs off the
bed, trying to shove his hand further. Still stroking her, he slid his arm out
from under her and stood. When the shaking stopped, he pulled his hand free and
walked back to his bed. Willow thought she was actually going to die as Oz's tongue circles her
swollen clit for what had to be the thousandth time. He had a pattern going with
his tongue: into her hole, around her hole, around her clit, up and down the
slit and back into her hole. She had already come against his face at least a
dozen times, but he said he couldn't get enough. She was glad. She couldn't
either. He hit her button just right and she howled, squeezing his head between her
legs until he thought the top of it would blow off. Oz pried her open again and
slowly climbed up the bed, allowing his member to rub against her throbbing
clit. Willow bucked upward, and as she did, he caught her hips and slammed into
her. She was so tight, he was almost afraid she would sever him at the hilt.
There was no way he'd last long when she felt this good. Oz stopped moving and pulled away, wanting to prolong the moment. Willow
glanced up at him expectantly and he devoured her mouth in his. Their tongues
danced against one another as he slid into her again, loving the way it felt
after he'd been out for several seconds. He wanted to pound her hard, but he was
still afraid she was too new, so he kept his thrusts at a medium pace. Willow had seen porn. She knew he was holding back and she hadn't been on top
ever. She pushed his chest back and quickly flipped him, mimicking a move she'd
seen Buffy do before in training. Oz looked a little shocked as she straddled
him, grinding down onto his crotch until she was fully impaled. He put his hands
behind his head, not daring himself to touch, he wanted to watch her bounce.
She was tentative at first, unsure of how to move her hips, but soon she
found her rhythm and held onto it. Willow pounded onto Oz twice as hard and fast
as he had pounded her. She almost jumped off of him when he lowered his hand
back to her clit and pinched. Coming together, Oz sat up, holding her against
him, his face even with her breasts. He took the opportunity to suckle hard and
felt her clamp on him. Yep, it was gone. His dick had disappeared and only Willow would ever be the
one to find it again. Spike smiled, almost chuckling as Buffy lay motionless on her bed. He had
stunned her. Good. Her breathing was becoming more relaxed now and he knew that
she was wondering why he didn't join her, why he didn't enjoy her body the way
he wanted to. The answer was simple. After what he'd said to her that day to
break her, she needed to work up the courage to come to him again and he
wouldn't be the one to make that move. He wanted her to have enough confidence
in herself, without the whore clothes she'd worn, to come to him. When she did,
that meant that she forgave him for how harsh he had been…and he could forgive
her for trying to be something she wasn't. He didn't want her to have to pretend
that she was a sex starved half wit in order to be with him. He wanted HER to
want him. Buffy ached. She was torn between her need for him and her anger at him. Why
didn't he finish what he started? She hated that man! He wasn't even a man. He
was an animal. Did he want her to come to him? Wouldn't he have said so? She
wanted to. She had to. She stood on shaking legs and stood next to his bed. The
sun had risen and the room glowed with an orange tint, but no direct light
entered the room. Buffy could see him perfectly, he had his eyes closed. "Spike?" She touched his thigh, which was bare. "What, luv?" He kept his eyes closed but every other part of his body reacted
to her fingers on his thigh. "I….." Buffy swallowed hard. "I want to sleep with you. Here, in your bed.
Please?" "Why?" Spike opened his eyes and looked at her. "I want you." Desire burned through her. "*I* want you, Spike. The real me. I
need you." With lightning speed he reached up and pulled her on top of him, kissing her
deeply. He had her gown over her head within seconds, sucking her pert breasts
into his mouth one at a time while she put her legs on either side of him.
Smelling her arousal, he lifted her, like she weighed nothing and slid her
slowly down his cock. Buffy rocked wildly, digging her fingernails into his shoulders for support.
Her sensitive little nub found friction against his tight black curls and she
exploded again, pausing to enjoy the orgasm. Spike didn't mind that she stopped,
he used the opportunity to sit up, kissing her deeply. Grabbing her hips, he
urged her to roll onto her stomach, covering her back and firm ass with nips and
kisses. She ground her twitching core into the bed and he chuckled, pulling her to
her knees. Entering her savagely, he pounded as hard as he could, reaching
around her to cup her breasts, using them as guides. Buffy slammed her ass
against him, relishing the feel of his balls slapping the backs of her thighs.
She called out his name, begging him to go faster. He complied and exploded,
shooting such a hard, heavy load she yelped out as the coldness filled her
insides. Shaking, she stretched out on the bed. He followed and pulled her into his
arms, kissing her so hard his lips ached. Breaking the kiss, he growled, "What
took you so long to come to my bed?" She sighed and snuggled closer. "What took you so long to come to mine?" "I wanted to make sure you had a fair go at yourself before I showed you how
it's done." He grinned. "Can you show me again? I wasn't paying attention the first time." Buffy
wiggled against him and he growled, sinking his fingers into her warm, wet flesh
and Buffy knew she'd never be the same. Spike woke up alone in the bed. He sat up quickly, scanning the room.
"Slayer?" he called. Swinging his legs over the side, he walked to the closet,
pulling a pair of black jeans off of a hanger. Yanking a maroon silk shirt off
of another, he padded out of the room on bare feet. He glanced into the kitchen
and nodded at Oz who was barely visible through a cloud of black smoke,
apparently he was cooking. Spike was about to speak up when he heard muffled
sobs coming from the living room. Willow and Buffy sat side by side on the sofa, leaning against one another.
Both girls were a sobbing mess and Spike felt a knot form in his stomach. He
squatted in front of them, lying a hand on both of their knees, "What happened?"
"Harry died." Buffy cried, choking on sobs. "Harry?" Spike wiped tears off of her face, aching for her pain. "Was he a
friend of yours?" Willow shook her head, still sobbing and pointed to the TV. He turned to see
the ending of the movie ‘Armageddon' and shook his head in disbelief. "It's a
movie! Damn sentimental humans!!" "But he died to save the world!" Willow protested. "Just like Buffy is
probably…going…." Buffy elbowed the girl and started crying even harder. "Thanks Willow! Remind
me of the inevitable, much!?" Willow stood and walked into the kitchen to find Oz, still sniffling. Spike
took her place, not liking the way he felt about what Willow said. He pulled
Buffy against him and whispered, "It's not inevitable." "What?" Buffy sat up to look at him. Spike shook his head and changed the subject. "I didn't like waking up alone.
You're supposed to be there after a night like we shared." Buffy chuckled and replied, "Damn sentimental vampires." Grinning, he pulled her into his kiss. She leaned into him and he wrapped his
arms around her tiny waist, pulling her further into his lap. Spike loved the
way she toyed with the back of his hair while she kissed him, trailing her
fingers up and down, tugging it a little. He growled into her lips, about to
take her right there. Willow cleared her throat and said, "I think we'll have to go out to eat."
Buffy broke the kiss and glanced at her friend, not getting off of Spike's
lap. "Why?" Willow was holding a plate full of round, black objects. She picked one up
and tapped it against the side of plate, making it clank loudly. "And it's a
pancake." "All is not lost." Buffy grinned. "I'll toss a few in my Slayer bag and sever
a few heads with them." "There's always that." Spike quipped, staring up at her and thinking that
he'd never been happier in his life. Giles had told Buffy not to call him unless it was absolutely needed. He
didn't want her to be traced to Los Angeles for any reason. There was just
something about the Council that had him unnerved. Ordering more tests was
absolutely absurd and he knew there was more to the story than what Wesley had
told him. He had agreed to beep her from pay phones though, if anything was
wrong. "Look out!" Anya cried, breaking her chanting to swat at a nasty looking
winged creature. "What am I doing wrong?" Xander swung his baseball bat, connecting with the flying demon and sent it
flying into a million pieces. "A hands on approach is more fun anyway." "My thoughts exactly." Anya smiled, running her hands over his chest before
she kissed him. Joyce rolled her eyes and looked at Giles, who shrugged. They'd been
patrolling for over two hours and so far they had bound four demon varieties to
a magickal stone. Giles was lucky that Jenny Calendar had insisted he buy it
when they attended the swap meet together. He had been appalled at the sights
and sounds of the crowded equivalent to a flea market, but agreed to buy it as
soon as she let him know what it was used for. Giles realized if he had thought
about it at all then, he would have questioned her on her knowledge of the
stone, considering it was Romany. Joyce glanced around anxiously. "How does Buffy do this every night?" "Because she is remarkable indeed." Giles smiled at Joyce, admiring her
acceptance. "I don't know how you do it. She's your daughter, it must affect you
on a very high level." "It does." The woman leaned against the side of a
mausoleum and sighed. "Sometimes, I just want to hang onto her. Not let her
leave the house to do this crazy job." Giles knew that feeling all too well but said, "It is hard, but she is quite
capable. We should probably head into town. I have a feeling that these demons
are being released off of a boat at the docks." He hadn't bothered telling Joyce that the council was behind it. That the
very council that chosen her daughter to slay, was behind the latest influx of
demons that plagued the hell mouth. How could he explain that? He didn't even
understand it himself. With Faith running rampant, the council should be
worrying themselves with her. Xander and Anya held hands as they headed toward the docks. He regaled her
with his own stories for a change and she welcomed the odd humor he had. It
wasn't often that she got to just forget that she was over one thousand years
old and had spent most of that time punishing men. Anya glanced sideways at
Xander, looking at the angle of his jaw. He was handsome. He was one man she
didn't want to punish. Unless he asked. The huddled together behind some craters and watched as a large boat made
it's way to the dock. Giles recognized the emblem on the side as belonging to
the council and shook his head. He had wanted to be proven wrong. He turned his
head to look as several men hurried on board the boat, while another few readied
a crane a few feet away. Whatever they were bringing now must be large. Onboard the boat, Fagan sipped aged scotch from a snifter. He heard the thing
below him bellow in rage, then felt the power of it as it shook the entire boat
with its weight. Fagan smiled. He didn't want Giles to be the one to kill the
Slayer now. He'd found just the thing to do it. It was poetic justice really.
Scowling, he lifted his crippled hand, and remembered when the same demon had
attacked him and Giles stood and watched. He'd see to it that Giles watched
again while it ripped that tiny little Slayer to pieces. Giles squinted as they
unloaded the large metal container. He could see that it jutted in several
angles where whatever was inside of it had pounded to get out. The thing inside
began to pound again and scream with rage. He felt Joyce shudder beside of him
and laid a comforting hand on hers. "It's okay." Two men approached the solid cage and turned the heavy lock on the front of
it. As they stepped back and when Giles got a clear view he gripped Joyce's hand
tighter, almost breaking into tears of fear. He had prayed he'd never see this
demon again. Prayed that no one in his lifetime would see it again. Of all the
things he'd ever faced or ever would, nothing had ever been as horrible. It was commonly known as ‘walking fear', but the council name for it was
Kralonis. It had earned the name ‘walking fear' because it read the thoughts of
it's victims, transforming itself into their greatest fear to weaken them,
overtaking them. What scared Giles the most though, was the fact that the
Kralonis could only be dispatched for one intended victim. It would continue to
stalk that victim until she or he died. It used it's skill to paralyze people
with fear as it went after it's intended. Giles had felt the wrath of the demon.
It hadn't harmed him, but he had been too scared to move and help a colleague
who had been marked by a foe. As he watched, Wesley stepped from the shadows and handed someone an article
of clothing. They tossed it at the Kralonis who caught it in it's arms and
buried its face in it. Joyce looked at Giles and said, "Why did Wesley give them Buffy's coat?" Giles glared at her briefly, then looked back at the demon as reality struck.
The council had a hit on Buffy. As soon as it dawned on him, he hit the ground,
passing out cold. Spike excused himself as Buffy and her two friends walked into the
restaurant. He ignored Buffy's glare, tempted to remind her that if he didn't
eat he'd die, and hurried down the back alley. There was an assortment of
homeless people littering the darkened corridor. Several reached up at him as he
walked by, as if begging him to take them. At least that's what he told himself
as he yanked the last one to their feet and sunk his fangs into their throat.
Buffy had told her friends she'd be back soon and followed Spike closely. She
snatched the man away and pushed him back toward the alley telling him to run.
She looked back at Spike. "I can't let you do that." "I'll die if I don't." Spike glared at her several seconds before he let his
features return to normal. "I don't have to kill anyone, but I MUST feed,
Slayer." "There's a butcher shop a few blocks down the road." She turned to walk away
and Spike caught her arm. "I don't drink from a butcher shop. I don't feed on rats and cows and pigs. I
feed on human blood. I wasn't going to kill him." "How could you stop?" Buffy was confused. She had always thought that a
vampire couldn't control itself until all the blood was gone. Spike shrugged. "After two hundred years of doing something you learn a few
shortcuts. Don't get me wrong, sometimes I kill for the fun of it, but I wasn't
going to kill him." "Why not?" she asked. Grinning, Spike took her hand and pulled her down the alley. "You keep
forgetting that I've seen the inside of your Slayer bag. No part of me wants to
get up close and personal with anything in there." Buffy smiled. "You want to get up close and personal with the person who
packs it?" "Only always." Spike replied. He would have kissed her but he figured she'd
freak out so soon after he'd fed. It was a damn shame that feeding made him all
horny. Well, the Slayer did too. A loud beeping sounded and Buffy jumped, digging her pager out of her pocket.
She glanced at the number and spun, racing toward a payphone. Giles had given
her over two hundred dollars worth of calling cards and she swore as her fingers
fumbled, unable to dial all the numbers. Spike took the card, pressed in the
proper codes, and dialed the number on her beeper. "Giles?" Buffy shouted when he picked up. "What's going on?" "Have you met with Radcliffe yet?" The watcher sounded frantic. "No. What's happening?" She heard him sigh in relief and then he swore. "The son of a bitches at the
council have put a hit on you apparently. Wesley is involved." "A hit?" She didn't like the sound of it. "They've put a demon upon you that will seek you out no matter where you go,
Buffy. Where are you staying? I'm coming up tomorrow." Buffy looked at Spike, asking him what the name of the place the were staying
was. Then she turned back to the phone, "Golden Eagle Cabins and we're in Cabin
forty- three. Giles, how long until it finds me?" "It will take it about twenty-four hours to gain the strength it needs for
the hunt. After it's been caged for so long, it has to reorient itself. I expect
it will have found you though within forty-eight hours." "What time will you be here?" she knew it was bad if he was coming. "I'll be leaving as soon as the sun rises. You know, I have a hard time
driving at night." Giles prayed that she'd be all right. "You have a hard time driving period, Giles." He chuckled a little, the said, "May I speak to Spike?" Buffy raised an eyebrow and motioned for Spike to take the phone. "Hello?" he
said. Giles cleared his throat and said, "Spike, I would like to ask a favor." "Go ahead then." Answered the vampire. "Until I get there, please whatever you do, do not let her out of your sight.
Make sure she is armed at all times." "No problem." Spike glanced at Buffy who was fidgeting with her bag. "I'll do
that." "Listen to me." Giles replied. "Your willingness to help her is most strange,
indeed. But I trust you for some reason and I am only going to say this once.
Buffy has never been in as much danger as she is right now. Her life may depend
on you." Spike was speechless. He didn't know what was going on but he could tell that
the watcher was frantic. "I'll make sure she's safe." Giles thanked him and hung up. Spike turned, eyeing Buffy closely. She was
glancing at all the people who were walking past with interest, clearly
paranoid. He slid his arm around her waist and said, "Let's get you some dinner
and go back to the cabin." She nodded and they joined Oz and Willow inside. Buffy gave them a rundown
about what Giles had said about the council, each of them offering an opinion,
Spike offering to kill them. Buffy realized that despite the content of the
conversation, it was nice. Like a double date. She smiled as they all stood,
staying behind with Spike to pay the ticket while Willow and Oz went outside to
get the van. Willow stepped out and breathed in deep, loving the assorted smells of the
city. She turned to say something to Oz when someone caught her attention.
Someone familiar. Someone that was smiling down at her. "Angel!!" "Hello Willow." He grinned, never imaging how great it would feel to run into
a familiar face. "You're in LA! We were wondering where you probably went and you're in LA and
we're in LA and…..oh." Willow glanced anxiously over her shoulder and saw Buffy
and Spike snuggling at the check out counter. "Is Buffy here too?" Angel asked, not sure whether he wanted to see her or
not. Oz looked at Willow's face and said, "She is. But you probably don't want to
see her, right. Too painful. Bad memories." Angel stared at the both of them and shook his head. "No memory of Buffy is a
bad memory." Willow was about to distract him by running, pretending that she saw a
vampire or anything, when she heard the door to the restaurant open. She turned,
hoping that they weren't still all over each other, but they were. Buffy was
walking backwards, her arms around Spike's neck, kissing him deeply. For his
part, Spike had both of his hands on her ass, caressing it, practically lifting
her off the ground. She heard Angel growl, somewhere deep inside of his throat and turned to face
him. Her heart broke when she saw the devastation that was written all over his
face. She made a step toward him but he took a step back, staring at Buffy and
Spike. Buffy broke the kiss and said, "Mmm, you keep that up and we'll be…" She
stopped talking when she saw Spike's face, the hatred that suddenly replaced the
longing. She turned, seeing what he saw, and gasped. "Angel?" Angel stepped back again, staggering a little like he'd been shoved off
guard. Shaking his head, trying to get the image out of it, he swallowed.
"Buffy…" She took a step toward him and he turned, running away as fast as he
could. Spike grabbed her arm, saying. "Let him go, Buffy." Buffy was stunned or several seconds, then she shook his hand off of her. "I
can't." Willow and Oz watched in astonishment as Buffy gave chase, then watched in
astonishment as Spike chased Buffy. Then they looked at one another and chased Spike. Buffy lost sight of Angel in a sea of mass confusion. The festival that was
in town was apparently in that area because Buffy couldn't really run fast
enough to catch him. All she wanted to do was explain about why she was with
Spike. She called his name again and kept running in the general area that he
had gone. The sidewalk was packed and she pushed her way through, getting
shouted at and called dirty names. She saw the back of his head and put on an
extra burst of speed. She never saw the shopping cart come rolling out of the side alley. She never
felt her feet get tangled in it. She never saw the sidewalk racing up to meet
her and she never saw Spike drop to his knees beside her. All she saw was
blackness. And that was good. "Owwww!" Buffy cried, trying to sit up. "It serves you right, wouldn't you say?" Spike was sitting next to her on the
sidewalk, cradling her head when she woke up. "What happened?" She asked. Then she remembered. "Oh, Spike. I can explain."
Not saying anything, Spike pulled her to her feet and glared at the crowd
that had gathered. "Shoo! Nothing to see here. Pesky Americans… always nosing."
He waved the people away with a brush of his hand and looked Buffy over. She was
fine. Buffy put her hand on his arm and said, "I'm sorry, okay?" "No, pet. It isn't okay." He was mad at himself for being so damn jealous of
Angel. And for chasing after the freakin' Slayer like a lovesick dog. < Cor,
did I just think the word love in the same thought as….the Slayer? > "I just wanted to explain about us." She put her hands on her hips. "What ‘us'?" Spike asked. "What?" Buffy's face fell and she realized he was saying there was no ‘them'.
"Don't do this." "Do what?" he glanced at Willow and Oz who were standing a few feet away.
"Now what are you accusing me of?" "Are you breaking up with me?" "Did I say that? Stop putting bloody words in my mouth, Slayer." He fumed.
Buffy's mouth flew open and she shouted, "You said ‘what us'? Like there is
no us." "Is there?" God, she was cute when she argued, Spike thought. "And I said
what ABOUT us!" "No you didn't!" She shook her head, then grabbed it in pain. "Stop trying to
confuse me! I had a blow to my head you know!" "And a well earned one at that!" He sneered at her. "And it was bloody
priceless too. Watching the Slayer get all tangled up and humiliate herself.
HAHA!" Buffy was livid. "I'm not humiliated!" "No?" Spike asked, then pointed at her face. "Why are you all blushy?" "My blood pressure is up! You piss me off." Spike widened his eyes, throwing his hands in the air. A couple walked by and
he said to them, "She is the one who went chasing after her old lover and she's
pissed at me. What about that?" "He's trying to break up with me!" Buffy told them. "And we JUST got
together." "Which is all the more reason I should be upset, huh?" Spike asked the man
and woman. The couple glanced at them, nodded at Spike and hurried away. "See.
They're on my side." Buffy shrugged. "I'm sorry and I'm asking you to forgive me. I'll do
anything." "I'll tell you what. You humiliate yourself and I'll forgive you." There,
he'd show her. She needed to be as embarrassed as he actually was. For being
such a soft wanker, running after her and then thinking she was all cute when
she was mad. "I don't get embarrassed!" Buffy crossed her arms. "I'll lay odds that I can get you so embarrassed you'll crawl into a corner
and hide." He was trying to look hateful. "You're on! But if I don't do that, you HAVE to forgive me AND you have to
show me a night like last night." Buffy glanced at Willow and Oz, not believing
she'd said that out loud. Spike glanced across the road and said, "If you survive Karaoke night at
Paul's Pool and Pizza, I'll be at your command." Buffy visibly shrunk, pulling her arms around her body. "What? No. No, Spike.
Anything but that…okay? I'll do flips down the road…naked even…I'll…I'll wear a
sign that says I'm stupid…I'll do…" Grinning, he grabbed her arm and pulled her across the road. He knew he'd
forgive her regardless of whether or not she had the nerve to sing, but at least
this way, he didn't feel like he was TOO defeated. Or Slayer whipped. He WAS
punishing her. Willow and Oz followed and Oz said, "Do you think they realize that they
sound like an old married couple?" Willow shook her head, "Do you think they realize they're in love?"
Let your memory lead you
Open up, enter in
If you find there the meaning of what happiness is
Then a new life will begin
It's so easy to leave me
All alone with the memory
Of
my days in the sun
If you touch me you'll understand what happiness is
Look a new day has begun
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