Summery: Buffy's summer after Angel left. Told from Buffy's POV. It's angsty. Obviously.
Disclaimer: I do not own any character represented in this story. They are all property of Joss Whedon, who provides me with something to do that isn't my homework. (Oh, and the song "From the Bottom of my Broken Heart" belongs to Britney Spears)
Author's Note: I am not a fan of Britney Spears. I don't have a problem with her, I just don't like her style of music. If you're a fan of Britney, please know that this is my personal opinion. Anyway, I like a few of her songs, but mostly I prefer other kinds of music. However, the song "From the Bottom of my Broken Heart" fits Buffy and Angel to perfectly to pass up. Oh, and I apologize about the length. I realize that it's very short. I'm done ranting now. :)
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From the bottom of my broken heart
There's just a thing or two I'd like you to know
You were my first love,
You were my true love
From the first kisses to the very last rose
From the bottom of my broken heart
Even though time may find me somebody new
You were my real love
I never knew love till there was you
From the bottom of my broken heart

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I sit alone in my bed every night. Every night it is the same. I can't think about anything but Angel even though he is the last thing I want to think about. He left me. I know he needed to, but part of me hates him for it. And the other part of me hates me for hating him.

I have been alone to long. I hate not feeling him next to me. I hate not talking to him. I hate not hearing his voice. I hate being alone. I hate having a broken heart.

Willow and Xander try to get me to come out with them, but I won't. I can't. I can't move. I feel as though I'm trapped in quick sand and I'm sinking deeper into it. And no matter how much anyone trys to pull me back out, they aren't strong enough. Because I don't want to be pulled out. I want to sink deeper and deeper until the pain consumes me.

For two years I loved one person. I spent the only part of my life that I could remember loving someone who wasn't around anymore. I still love him. I will always love him, no matter what nasty things I think about him I will always love him.

I hate so many things that have happened to me. I hate the loneliness. I hate the pain. But I could never hate him. Never.

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