Rating: G I think
Disclaimer: I wish I could say they were mine, but, sadly they aren't, and I'm just having my own fun.
Summary: It's a songfic!! Set to 'You Were Meant For Me' by Jewel...Buffy and Angel get back together. A bit angsty, but its fluff basically....
Notes: To Nic, Sam and Sian- you guys are the best! Also to everyone who believes Buffy and Angel *will* be together in the end!

\\ I hear the clock, its 6am
I feel so far, from where I am
I got my eggs, got my pancakes too
I got my maple syrup, everything but you
I break the yolks and make a smiley face
I kinda like it in my brand new place \\

Buffy sighed as she looked around her dorm room. Willow knew that sigh. It was Angel sigh. She turned in her chair to look at Buffy. Sure enough, she had that sad little pout thing going, and was holding the photo of her and Angel at Prom, tears dewing in her eyes.

"Buffy," she began. Buffy knew what was coming 'you've got Riley now'. But the truth was, what she had with Riley was nothing. Her heart didn't skip a beat when he walked up, she didn't feel that tingly feeling around him, and when he touched her arm or kissed her, it wasn't like it was with Angel. Nothing could be like it was with Angel, ever.

She looked away, squeezing her eyes shut to stop the tears, though she felt one trickle down her cheek. '"It'll be okay," Willow whispered, handing her a tissue.

"It'll never be okay," she whispered in reply.

\\ Wipe the spots of the mirror
Don't leave the keys in the door
I never put wet towels on the floor anymore
'Cause dreams last for so longEven after you're gone
I know that you love me And soon you will see
You were meant for me,
and I was meant for you \\

Angel shook himself alert. He realised he'd been staring out the window aimlessly for half an hour. Well, not aimlessly. He'd been thinking about Buffy; how much he missed her. He hoped for her sake she was enjoying her life: college parties, friends, school..but everytime he thought of her with another guy, that 'Riley Finn', his heart shattered into a million pieces. His Buffy, kissing another man. It didn't make sense to him, but he kept telling himself over and over again it was for the best.

Cordelia marched over to her bosses desk. "Call her." she said simply. Angel looked away. She was persistent. "Angel, you're wasting your life and you're wasting hers." He looked back at her sharply. He was wasting hers? How? Cordelia rolled her eyes.

"Duh! Everyone knows that Slayers don't live long. The only reason Buffy's lasted this long is because you were always there to save her ass if things got bad. By forcing her to 'move on', you're breaking her heart and making her short life all the less bearable."

\\ I called my momma she was out for a walk
Consoled a cup of coffee but it didn't wanna talk
So I Picked up the paper it was more bad news
More hearts being broken, or people been used
Put on my coat in the pouring rain
I saw a movie it just wasn't the same 'cause
It was happy oh, I was sad and
It made me miss you, oh so bad, 'cause
Dreams last so long even after your gone
I know that you love me and soon you will see
You were meant for me, and I was meant for you \\

Buffy rolled over in bed, her pillow was wet from tears, and Willow had left a long time ago to go to class. Her words were true to her though, it would never be okay for her without Angel. He said she was his sunshine, well he was her heart, and without him, her life was too hard alone.

She knew Xander and Anya didn't really understand. Giles had some idea, but he didn't love Jenny the way Buffy loved Angel. Willow, she thought Willow understood, but then she'd push Riley at her and she'd change her mind.

Angel, she knew he was doing what he thought was best, but he was thinking long-term. The reality was, sadly, long-term for Buffy could be as much as just a year. She took a deep breath and looked around her room. "I can cope..I can get though this. He'll come back," she murmured to herself, not believing her own words.

\\ I go about my business I'm doing fine
Besides what would I say if I had you on the line?
Same old story, not much to say
hearts are broken every day \\

Cordelia watched as Angel wallowed in his misery, and she knew Buffy was coping just as badly. Worse, maybe. She wanted her friends to be happy, and to be happy they needed to be together. But just as much as she wanted to step in and play Cupid, she knew she couldn't. The saying 'things will sort themselves out', painful as it was for her to watch, had to be true in this case. Knowing Buffy and Angel, one of them would crack and come running. She just hoped they were weaker then she thought.

\\ I brush my teeth I put the cap back on
I know you hate it when I leave the light on
pick a book up and turn the sheets down
and then I take a deep breath and a good look around
put on my pjs and hop into bed
I'm half alive but I feel mostly dead
I try and tell myself it'll all be alright
I just shouldn't think anymore tonight \\

Angel stared at the picture he held in his hands. It had gotten him through Doyle's death, knowing that if Buffy could cope with everything that had happened to her, he could deal with this too. And besides, Doyle being half-demon, it was possible he could come back somehow, after all, Buffy had thought Angels returning from Hell was impossible, and that had happened. But in his life that had spanned a little over two centuries, he'd learnt that you couldn't sit back and wait for Fate to push you in the right direction, you had to take it by the hand and begs its help; show it what you wanted, what you needed. And he was determined to do just that. Tactless as Cordelia could be, she also saw things as they were and let you know when you needed to hear it. Moments later, he was out of the office.

\\ Dreams last, so long, even after you're gone,
and I know that you love me and soon you will see,
you were meant for me, and I was meant for you.
..You were meant for me and I was meant for you \\

Buffy dried the last of her tears and checked her makeup. Very slowly, dreading the meeting, she walked to the door. At the last minute, she had a wave of intuition which told her to stay home. She kicked off her shoes and grabbed the cordless from Willows side. "Hi Riley its Buffy. I can't come out tonight, I've got a lot of work, um, its 6:45, and we were meeting a quarter past so this is enough time. Maybe some other time. Bye" she drawled out her standard perky machine message and disconnected.

She looked slowly around the room. Her eyes settled on Willows computer. She sat down to turn it on. Willow always boasted about the 'net, maybe, Buffy thought, there was some amazing remedy for a broken heart that didn't involve other guys.

\\ I know, you love me and soon you will see
You were meant for me, and I was meant for you \\

Angel stood his hand poised to knock at the door. He wasn't sure how she'd react. And he was scared. She'd said it was never over, but he had a horrible feeling that she really liked this Riley guy.

Buffy's skin prickled. A vampire. Close. Groaning a little and wiping her eyes she stood up to grab her jacket and opened the door just as a knock fell on it.

"Angel!"

"Buffy." He replied, shaken that she'd answered so quickly. She stood aside to let him in.

"Come in, Angel. You know you're welcome." she shook her head a little, as if apologising for not verbally inviting him. He just nodded.

He stood in the middle of the room, looking around, surveying his surroundings. "Uh, its nice?" it was more a question. Buffy nodded.

"I like it. I share with Will....this is....awkward." she said woodenley. "Angel...I know you know...about Parker and Riley, but...you do know that I never loved them...I mean..with Parker its just-" she felt that familiar cheap feeling and guilt. "I was weak, and he used me...and Riley, its nice. But there's nothing there. There's no spark, its just like I've been out with him a few times for Willow." she didn't know why she was justifying herself to him; he'd broken up with her.

He turned around quickly and cupped her face in his hands. "Buffy...I was wrong," he whispered, pain evident in his voice. She looked up at him with wide, trusting eyes. "I thought....I thought it would be better for you. But it isn't- I can feel you hurting, Buffy, and I that's not what I wanted." he looked into Buffy's eyes, into her soul, a hazel doorway. "I love you," he whispered, leaning his forehead to hers.

\\ Dreams last, so long, even after you're gone,
and I know that you love me and sooon you will see,
you were meant for me, and I was meant for you.
..You were meant for me and I was meant for you \\

Buffy finally found her voice. "I..I love you Angel," she whispered amongst sobs. "I love you too." She pulled back and sunk all her emotion and love into their first kiss for so long, and it was like rain after a drought. Everything was okay again in her world.

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