RATING: You watch it? You can read it.
DISCLAIMER: Not mine, don't sue.
DISTRIBUTION: Ask and ye shall recieve, though I don't know why you'd want it.
FEEDBACK: I crave it! It's like cigarettes, ya know? Just when I think I've quit...
SPOILERS: Minor. Nothing past the end of S2
SUMMARY: Poem (my first - be gentle with me). Buffy's suicide note, set after B2.

No more pain,
It ends tonight,
Every life I know,
Is worse for touching mine.

The strangers that I've helped,
Cannot tip the balance,
Against those I couldn't save,
And the destruction of those I love.

My Friends,
Eyes opened,
Innocence lost,
Hearts and bodies wounded,
They know true evil now.

My Mother,
Illusions shattered,
Rage released,
And love withdrawn,
She finds solace in an alcoholic haze,

Kendra,
My sister Slayer,
Barriers lowered,
Trust extended,
Life drained away because I wasn't there.

My Watcher,
Body tortured,
Dreams destroyed,
Love torn away,
His future's hope ripped asunder.

My Angel,
Tormented by the past,
I made that past the present,
In ignorance I stripped away your soul,
And released the monster you most feared.

I couldn't kill you,
Though I knew it's what you'd want,
I was too selfish to give you up,
Until all other choice was gone.

As we faced the final battle,
My miracle occurred,
You had returned to me,
And for one brief moment, my heart sang.

If only I hadn't looked,
If only I'd taken your hand,
Could hell together,
Be worse than life without you?

Now you suffer for my sins,
My love destroyed us all,
And yet, I love you still,
Without you, I have nothing left to live for.

She'll do better,
My replacement,
She'll do things the right way.
I understand now why Slayers are alone,

The pain of loss is too great,
It weakens the strongest soul.
Until nothing remains save an empty shell,
A mockery of the life that once dwelt within.

No more,
I can endure no more,
Goodbye.

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