Hey all...Yes i'm back. Unfortuantely, not with a story. Haven't hadmuch time for that lately...but only 2 weeks of classes and finals andless than a month till Ireland. Yay! Anyway, I wrote this for myCourtly Love class and after I finished, I realized that I had somehowchanneled Angel. This is probably the first and only poem you'll everget from me, so enjoy!
Disclaimer: Poem is mine.
Author's Notes: Something I wrote that I realized afterward could befrom Angel's point of view.

I did it for you, all of it.
The words, the actions
Don't you see that?
Don't you understand?
Loving me is something I can't let you do.

My life, my heart, its not for you
I give you pain now,
Knowing it could have been greater
Don't you see? I did it for you.

Believe me, I understand.
I know you think I don't
Your feeling are plain
The kind where you wear your heart on your sleeve
It's not that I don't feel the same
Don't you see? I did it for you.

The heartbreak will pass
It always does
I've seen it before
This is for your protection
It would only be worse
Hearts can lie, and they have
Don't you see? I did it for you.

I've felt love before, no matter what you think
My heart isn't stone
I do have feelings
But something broken once
Is weaker than before.
Don't you see? I did it for you.

I'm unloveable, untouchable, an unwanted thing
That's what I've gathered
You say you love me now
Now. Such a definite word
But what of tomorrow? Next month? Next year?
Don't you see? I did it for you.

You say take a chance
It won't happen this time
You wouldn't do that to me
You don't understand,
I'm too fragile, not strong
Though strong enough to let you go
It's all I can do
Don't you see? I did it for you.

My life is too dark
Pain and grief are all I have known
You'd regret your choice later
Someone like you
All smiles and light
Deserves something normal
Don't you see? I did it for you.

A home you deserve
Full of laughter and light
With those 2.8 kids and a dog at your feet
Not someone like me
Don't you see? I did it for you.

Go on with your life
Leave me behind,
A simple shadow in your past
Go on, leave me alone
Search out your future
You're free to do as you wish

Love those who come
With no thought to me
And that's how it should be
I couldn't take being cast aside
Not again, not by you.
Don't you see? I did it for you.

Know that you're loved though.
By this unloveable thing.
None other before you - none after you leave
Have had the whole of my heart
But you loving me?
It's wrong, I can't let you

Do you see now?
All my words, all my actions
My turning away
No thought to myself
I did it for you.

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