RATING: I would go just below R, I guess
FEEDBACK: Please.
AUTHOR'S NOTE: This is a companion piece to A Dangerous Love, which can be fount at http://www.angelfire.com/ca5/bafluff4/fic/dangerouslove.html . There will be one more story after this one. By reading this, you can guess what it will be about.
DISTRIBUTION: Ask and ye shall receive

She drives me crazy. The stupid bitch is all I can think about and I hate it. When did I become so whipped over a girl? No, not a girl, but a woman. She's everything that a woman can be. She's strong, beautiful and independent. And she's my enemy. She's everything that I'm against. She's pure, I'm poisoned. She's light, I'm dark. She's good, I'm evil. But I love her.

A long time ago, she told my other self that he and I am the same person, that she loved all of him/me. But that's not true. We are separate. She doesn't love me; she loves that pussy whipped soul boy. And that enrages me. Because I want her to love me, not him.

Every night, we meet to fight, and all I want to do is take her in my arms and protect her from evil. I want to protect her from me. Maybe that's why I can't be with her. Because I know I'm the one thing that can destroy her. Why can't I just kill her? How did I become so entrapped by her? When we fight, it's not like when I fought other Slayers. When we fight, it's like we're dancing this violent dance that I never want to end.

But it can never start. We can never be together. It's against all that I stand for and every reason why she fights. So I have to push back any attraction that I have for her and just fight. Next time I see her, I know it will not be a fight that ends with walking away, but rather a fight to the death. Because then we will know who is stronger. With us, it's not about if we love each other, but which of us deserves to keep on going. I don't know if I'll be the one to die or her, but I do know that it will end. This torment of wanting someone I don't have will be over.

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