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DISCLAIMER: I do not own any of the "Buffy the Vampire Slayer" characters or Situations. I am borrowing them, without permission, and I mean no harm to them. They all belong to Joss Whedon, Mutant Enemy, Fox, and Warner Brothers. The song lyrics belong to Plumb from their song "DAMAGED".

Angel,

When you left me I did not know what to do. You were the love of my life, you're the only man that I have ever loved and then you left. I might have been young but I knew what I wanted and I wanted you. You had no right to tell me what was right for me how could you know. By leaving you did nothing but cause me unbearable pain. I loved you with all my heart and soul. I would have given up any thing to be with you and you gave up me because my mother told you to. How could you? All I did was love you, we had some hard times but everything was going so good. It would have worked out you just need to believe in us and not listen to what other people said. I would have followed you anywhere but you decided that I was not good enough for you.

You might not be here with me but you take up my every thought even when I try not to think about you. Every where I look I am reminded of you. I sense at times that you are watching me but everybody thinks I am delusional because you are gone. There is no one to talk to Angel, no one understands what I am feeling or going through. I wish you were here with me right now but I know we can't go back to the way it was. We both must move forward and if we are meant to be together then we will. Remember that I love you and you will always have my heart and soul.

You ruined me for any other man no matter how much they love me I will never be able to love them fully because I will always belong to you no matter how far apart we are. I will do what you want me to do and I will move on in time but if you ever change your mind I will drop everything for you.

Dreaming comes so easily cause it's all that I have known,
True love is a fairy tale I am damaged so how would I know,
I am scared and I am alone,
I am ashamed and I need for you to know,
I did not say all the things that I wanted to say and you can't take back what you have taken away because I feel you,
I feel you near me,
I did not say all the things that I wanted too say and you can't take back what you have taken away cause I feel you,
I feel you near me,
Healing comes so painfully, and it chills to the bone, and any one gets to close to me I am damaged as I am sure you know I am scared and I am alone,
I am ashamed and I need for you to know,
I did not say all the things that I wanted to say and you can't take back what you have taken away
because I feel you,
I feel you near me,
I did not say all the things that I wanted too say and you can't take back what you have taken away cause I feel you,
I feel you near me,
There is nothing before my soul and end to this year forgiveness for a man who is stronger I was just a little girl but I can't go back,
I did not say all the things that I wanted to say and you can't take back what you have taken away because I feel you,
I feel you near me,
I did not say all the things that I wanted too say and you can't take back what you have taken away cause I feel you,
I feel you near me,
Can't go back, can't go back,
Can't go back, can't go back,
I must go on, I must go on,
I must go on I must go on,
Must go on, must go on.

When I first heard this song it remind me of us. They love we share and what we have been through these past years. It also made me realize that we must move forward. I love you.

Love Always,
Buffy

Buffy,

I know I hurt you baby, but look into you heart and realize that I will always be with you no matter how far apart we are. Just remember what we shared and how much I love you. Never doubt that I don't love because I do it's just that there is some much I want for you to experience. I will come back to you in time and if you still feel the same way then we will be together. It does not matter what fate has planned you are my heart and soul you're the only women that I have ever completely loved. You mother was half way right I had to leave so you could experience other things in life but know that you will never leave my thoughts. I will dream of you and I will remember the feelings that you made me feel.

It will kill me to know that another man is touching what is mine but that is what I told you to do. When we reunite what is in the past will stay in the past it will not effect the way I feel about you in any way shape or form. I love you with all my heart never doubt that just because we are not together does not mean that I stopped loving you because that will never happen. Not even if I die.

Remember that I love you and that nothing will ever change that. You are my life and I will come back to you soon.

Eternally Yours,
Angel

It has been two long years since I have seen him and now he walks back into my life after all this time. I have tried so hard to move on like he wanted me to but they never worked out. All those other guys were never him. Now he is standing before me asking for my forgiveness. Only if he knew that I forgave him long ago and that everything that happened is in the past.

Angel "Buffy please take me back, please take me back. I am sorry for what I did. I was stupid. You once told me that love makes a person do the wacky, well you can say I was possessed." God please let her forgive me; I know I was stupid for leaving her but if she gives me a second chance I will never leave her again. Buffy "You need not to apologize Angel I understand what you did, I don't agree with it but do understand. I forgave you along time and I am happy you have come home to where you belong. Now get over here and give me a kiss that I so right fully deserve."

Angel did not even hesitate to do what his love said all he knew is that she forgave him and that she wanted him in her life. He felt that the whole world had just stopped and that nothing could go wrong at this very moment. He was finally where he was supposed to be in the arms of the women he loved.

He was finally home in my arms where he should have been this whole time but that is in the past and that is behind us now the only thing we have to think about is the future that lies ahead.

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