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Spoilers: Grad. part 2
Author's Note: First to my beta, Jess (she is soo cool and a great writer/ betaer/ idea giver!) She gave me the idea..aww shucks...so kind :) And then to Caela for giving me those little "exercises" I think they helped he he.......... :o)
Rating: can you watch the show? Then you can read this.

The red lights flashing and swirling lighting up the dark afternoon sky, smoke lingering in the air slowly vanishing. Noise of excited high school students all about them mindlessly talking about diplomas and giant snakes; all this commotion going on as they both stood ground neither one turning just standing, staring, memorizing. Memorizing every detail on his angelic face, his jaw line, his spiky brown hair, his soulful eyes always filled with guilt and agony, his strong muscular body, and broad shoulders. Her blond locks falling just below her shoulders, her big innocent hazel eyes, her pouty lips, her petite framed body everything.

She was so beautiful, an angel even. Full of love, life and vibrancy, he was no good for her; he brought darkness into her world when he should be bringing light. He had to leave for her sake; if he stayed what would happen when she woke up a couple of years later and decided that she didn't love him anymore what would he do? What would happen when she wanted kids, he surely couldn't give that to her, and sunlight, no picnics for them. He had to go for the best of everyone he couldn't bare to hurt her one more time, no matter how much it hurt him in the process.

He said he had to leave, he couldn't give her all these things that she was supposed to want in life but truthfully all she wanted was him. All she needed was him. How would she go on without him, he was her security blanket, he was her true love, her soul mate, and he was now turning to leave; to vanish just as the smoke was; never to return. Her world became dizzy spinning off edge this was it he truly was leaving her. Tears falling she made a mad dash towards the retreating figure; this was not how it was supposed to happen. Pulling him into her arms clinging with all her might she held him letting all those tears that had been trapped go free. Instinctively bringing her closer whispering words of comfort into her ear trying to soothe her pain. Pain, that was all he seemed to bring her.

Looking up she asked one simple question, "Stay with me?"

"Buffy you know, you know I can't stay." Angel stammered he couldn't keep this up for long since he too wished with all his might that he could stay. "I can't give you children, or take you into the sunlight, you don't need me."

Anger flashing across her face, "How dare you tell me what I do and do not need. You don't know me anymore." She spat out.

Angel looked down shamefully and Buffy immediately regretted her previous remark. Lifting his head gently to meet her eyes, "I need you, I need my life to be with you." She said as the tears began to fall once again.

Angel led her over to an empty bench and sat her on his lap softly stroking her back. Softly speaking up, "Buffy, please don't do this."

Her face flushed and her eyes red and puffy, she looked so helpless. By looking at her you would never know that she was destined to fight evil and darkness, "Don't what, love you? I didn't know I had a say in that Angel."

"You are just making this harder, so please stop." He trailed off staring out in space.

"Why does this have to be hard, why does there have to be no us? Answer me that please." She begged.

"I told you what happens when you want children or a man who can take you into the sunlight, make love to you?" Angel said sadly, "I can't give you those things."

Placing her palms on his chest, "No what you give me is better, you give me love; you give me you, Angel. That's all I want or need. Kids we can adopt, sunlight I spend most of my time in the dark anyway, and sex I don't want unless it's with you, you spoiled me for other men Angel." She said a sad smile gracing her face. "I love you Angel, stay?"

Kissing her softly on the head, "Forever, that's the whole point."

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