SUMMARY: Oh, God, a B/X fic, but also B/A
SPOILER: minor but not really anything
DISTRIBUTION: Sandee, of course - My site - http://planetslaythis.homestead.com - Crystal and Butterfly if they want it - A Soul's Redemption - Buffy & Angel Star Crossed Lovers - Anyone else - sure, just email me & lmk where it's going - I like seeing my name in print =)
RATING: TV-PG
DISCLAIMER: Joss da poopyhead owns Buffy, Angel, Xander, Willow and anyone else I might mention. Corri and Michael are *MINE*!!!

Dear Angel,

I know you know why I'm writing you this letter. I'm sure that by now, you've heard about Xander and I. If you haven't, there are tons of photographs from the tabloids circulating in the Internet. That probably isn't the best way to find out, but hey. I always said you kept your nose in a book too much of the time.

I hope you know I'm not writing this to hurt you. I'm writing it because I'm in the hospital and in a few hours, I'll be a mother. Times two.

I'm having twins, Angel. A boy and a girl, and I cannot wait. I'm a month early, which is lucky for me for a number of reasons. 1) Giles is having a cow because I can't patrol and even though I love that frustrated look in his eye, I'm worried about him handling the vamps himself. 2) I'm *huge* and I waddle as opposed to walking like everybody else. 3) I've been bedridden for the last few weeks. I caught a virus or something and it was just miserable. 4) I wanna be able to wear cool clothes again dammit!!! Oh, that was supposed to be

5. 5) I can swear again. Xander and I are trying to keep the language clean around the babies, but only until they're born.

He's asleep in this orange plastic chair beside me right now. He's completely exhausted. We've already been here a day, waiting for the babies to make their appearance. My mom is on her way, and she's bringing me blankets she appliqued with the baby's names on them. In case you were wondering, we've decided on Corrinne Victoria - we're calling her Corri - and Michael Alexander.

I know what you're going to say, but it was Xander's idea. I swear, it was. He's so sweet, Angel. Really.

He's good to me. He treats me like a lady, like I'm his princess (which I know kills Cordelia). He has this beautiful nursery all set up for the twins, and he's taking off from work for six months!! I'll bet the fans'll be going nuts waiting for him. The comics usually come out every three weeks, and this is going to be the first real break they've had since they came out. I think he wrote a cliffhanger to keep them interested though. I'll have to remember to ask him.

Okay, now I'm just making small talk to avoid the real reason I wrote to you.

Please, please don't think I've forgotten you or given up on you. I haven't, and I never will. I love you forever and nothing can ever change that.

I married Xander because he wanted me to have the same things you claimed that you wanted for me. Happiness and love--a normal life. A house on the beach and kids and all that stuff. And now I have it.

I love Xander, I always have. It's not the kind of love we had, but it's better than being alone, and it's sort of nice to know that he has a secret in his heart, too. As much as I love you, that's the way he loves Willow.

Oh God, I'm having a contraction. I guess I should go.

I'll write again with pictures of the kids when I can. I just want you to know one thing.

In my twenty-eight years on this Earth, I've truly loved only one man. In my heart, you'll always be the man I married, the father of my children, the person I'll grow old with.

Love Forever,
Buffy

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