SUMMARY: I assure you, this *is* a B/A fic, but it's in the eyes of someone
else, as you'll see. Set S3 after Earshot. Somewhere between that and
Choices I guess. More S3 fluff. I've been thinking of starting another
series set in that time period, but whether or not I will remains to be seen.
"Why do I put myself through this torture?"
I turn to my date for the night, the Amy Rat, and I realize that I'm not
going to get much more than a sympathetic squeak out of her. I put her on
Willow's vacated chair and stared at my friends sprawled around the club.
Cordelia is in a corner with her flock of Cordettes, all dressed in tank
tops and skirts, each a different color. They all have their hair up except
for Cordy, who's wearing hers in a soft bun. Willow's sitting on the side of the stage, swinging her legs as Oz plays
with his band, Dingoes Ate My Baby. It's Cover Night, and they're now going
from a Paula Abdul 1980s hit into the theme song from Party of Five.
Buffy and Angel are making me sick, dancing so close you'd need a crowbar
to pry them apart. Their eyes are linked and they're each wearing little
smiles that seem innocent but are actually signs of all the fiery lust
between the two of them. I just don't get it. I know Angel's good looking
and tall and mysterious but really. What's he got going for him in the long
run? Oh, right. Eternal youth. The song changes and I cringe. I've heard this on the radio a few times
recently, and it makes me wanna scream. It's the kind of song that feels
like my life set to music. And God help me, Buffy's singing along.
Somewhere there's speaking Buffy smiles at me when she notices me, but she's so into Angel she can't
see anything else, not really. Makes me wanna hurl, but also I completely
envy the guy. He's got her. He's got everything. He's everything you want What I wouldn't give to be the one up there in her arms. She's laughing,
tossing her hair back and holding his hands on her hips, shaking her bon bon
in time to the music. She's loosening Angel up and she knows it, and she's
having the time of her life. Her miserable best friend is the last thing on
her mind right now. You're waiting for someone What I wouldn't give to cut in on them. To take Buffy into my arms and
recreate the dance of nearly two years ago, the one that made me feel worse
than anything else ever could. The one that tricked me into thinking she
felt something, and made me fall in love with her all over again.
He's everything you want The image makes me want to cry for so many reasons. Buffy singing the
lyrics, Angel holding her so close, the look of lust and desire in his eyes.
The way her body responds to his tells me what's on their minds, what they're
really thinking about. She can't even have sex with him!! She can sleep
with me! Why wouldn't she go where the sex is? I'll never understand women. But you'll just sit tight
Oh God, shoot me now, she's kissing him.
And you'll be just fine Just walk out of the club, guys. Take her hand Angel. Be the man and
take her back to your place. Or, just keep on dancing with that look in your eyes that makes me want
to stake myself just so I won't have to keep watching. Out of the island They're kissing again, this time with arms and even Buffy's leg resting
on Angel's hip. I'm going to the men's room to throw up now. Hope no one
rat-naps Amy while I'm gone. I'd take her with me, but she's a girl. I pass Buffy, and she smiles between the kisses. She doesn't know how
much she hurts me, and I'll never let her find out. I am everything you want Send feedback to Isa
Back to the Fanfiction
Archive
SPOILER: Earshot
DISTRIBUTION: Sandee, of course - My site -
- Crystal and Butterfly if they
want it - A Soul's Redemption - Buffy & Angel Star Crossed Lovers - Anyone
else - sure, just email me & lmk where it's going - I like seeing my name in
print =)
RATING: TV-PG
DISCLAIMER: Stupidhead Joss owns da characters. The song belongs to
Vertical Horizon. GOD I love them. All you wanted was a, all you needed was
a miracle....
DEDICATION: Thanks to Callie for sending the lyrics to BA_Songs, because
even though I've got the CD, this way, I wouldn't have to type them up.
It's already coming in
Oh and it's rising at the back of your mind
You never could get it
Unless you were fed it
Now you're here and you don't know why
But under skinned knees
And the skid marks
Past the places where you used to learn
You howl and listen
Listen and wait for the
Echoes of angels who won't return\\
He's everything you need
He's everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you
And you don't know why\\
To put you together
You're waiting for someone to push you away
There's always another wound to discover
There's always something more you wish he'd say\\
He's everything you need
He's everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you
And you don't know why\\
And watch it unwind
It's only what you're asking for\\
With all of your time
It's only what you're waiting for\\
Into the highway
Past the places
Where you might have turned
You never did notice
But you still hide away
The anger of angels who won't return\\
I am everything you need
I am everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
I say all the right things
At exactly the right time
But I mean nothing to you and I don't know why
And I don't know why
Why
I don't know
Why\\