DISCLAIMER: I'm not Joss Whedon, and therefore own none of the characters, the lyrics belong to The Cardigans
SPOILERS: S.1 for Angel S.4 for Buffy
DISTRIBUTION: Please let me know if you want to take it
FEEDBACK: Please, I've had a really bad night and want feedback!
RATING: PG
AUTHOR'S NOTES: I had an awful night at dance team and therefore am in an angst-y, angry mood, sorry for those who wanted fluff.

Do you really think
That love is gonna save the world
Well, I don't think so
I just don't think so

I feel sorry for all those stupid idiot people who believe that love always conquers all. True love wins against everything. It's all false, made up to comfort a little child, but none of it's true. Love won't save you, if anything, it will bring you down even further than you are. You can try, you can fight, you can beg, you can pray, do what you will, but don't believe for a second that any of it amounts to anything, because it doesn't.

Do you really think
That love is gonna save your soul
Well I sure hope so
I really, really hope so
But I don't think so

But, if you are one of these people than I give you this. My hope. You will need it very much in the days that will come. You can tell me I'm wrong, a liar, a cheat, a hypocrite, call me what you will, but in the end let's see whose happy. Well it sure won't be me. And I hope that it's you, but I doubt it, very much.

I can say all this because, unlike most that die of broken hearts, I for one, got out alive. Yes, I was one of you. Me, a whimpering, whiny little child that thought my love, would go above all the rules and would be the exception. I don't think so. I wasn't granted the gift of that. You'd think with all I put in, and give to the Powers that be, I'd be given a little in return. But no, I get nothing, squat. I try to help, be considerate, fight the evil that somehow always find it's way to me. But to expect them to lift one finger to help me, what was I thinking?

I'm sorry if I sound cynical, angry, hostile, antagonistic, and whatever other words the English language can come up with to describe me. But… I can't help it. I got the short end of the straw. It's not that I'm upset or anything, oh who am I kidding of course I'm upset. I would do something drastic, if it weren't for the tiny voice in the back of my mind that says let them have their happiness, even if you don't.

But most of all, I'm angry because I had that happiness, and just let him walk away.

Do you really think
That love is gonna save your soul
Well I sure hope so
I really, really hope so
But I don't think so

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