DISCLAIMER: I'm not Joss whedon, they don't belong to me. The lyrics belong to Matchbox 20
SPOILERS: S.1 for Angel and S.4 for Buffy
SYNOPSIS: Angel writes to Buffy
DISTRIBUTION: Please let me know if you want it
FEEDBACK: Please, please, I crave it,
RATING: PG
AUTHOR'S NOTES: I wrote this a while back, so I'm sorry if it's bad

This will all fall down like everything else that was
This too shall pass and all of the words we said
We can't take back

Dear Buffy,

When I came to tell you and the gang that I was human, I didn't expect that you would want to take me back. It came as a huge surprise to me, and I wasn't ready to accept that. Plus I don't think that Riley appreciated that much either. I'm sorry I ran out on all of you like that, but I couldn't handle that.

Now every fool in town would've left by now.
I can't replace all the wasted days.
The memory of your face - can't help thinkin'

I can't take back all of those days I left you in tears, or running to Willow with more sorrow. I'm can't tell you how sorry I am, but you have a good life with Riley now, and I would think you would want that to continue. You will always be in my mind, but I can't come back, it's been to long.

Maybe if we ever coulda kept it all together.
Where would we be.
A thousand lost forevers.
And the promises you never were giving me
Here's what I'm thinking.

I kept thinking what it would have been like if we had stayed together and if I had never left. Then I tell myself to snap back to reality, what's past is past. We can't go back anymore.

It won't be the first - heart that you break.
It won't be the last - beautiful girl.
The one that you wrecked - won't take you back.
If you were the last beautiful girl in the world.

You can't honestly sit there and tell me that mine is the only heart that you've broken, or maybe I'm wrong. You aren't that last beautiful girl, and I can't take you back, because we don't know each other anymore.

Tell me one more time.
How you're sorry about the way.
This all went down - you needed to find your space.
You needed to still be friends.

You said you needed your space. I came to apologize to you earlier in the year, even when you were the one who should have apologized to me. And you said nothing. It's a little late for apologies, don't you think?

Needed me to…
Call you if I ever couldn't keep it all together.
You'd comfort me.
Tell me bout forever.
And the promises I never should have believed in
Here's what I'm thinkin'

We were supposed to stay away from each other, and that was your plan, and I wasn't the one to break it, I don't mean to throw it in your face, but I don't know if we should be together. Part of me wants it, but the other, logical part, knows that it would never work.

It's over now - I've gone without.
Cause you're everyone else's girl.
It seems to me - you'll always be
Everyone else's girl.

You were never mine to begin with, I don't know that I was thinking doing with you, when in our hearts we both knew it was wrong, and it shouldn't happen, but it did. And I don't regret a day of it, but it can't happen again, even if I am human.

This will all fall down.
Like eyerything in the world.
This too must end.
And all of the words we said.
We can't take back.

I hope you aren't mad at me. I just wanted to tell you and everyone else in Sunnydale, that I guess this is goodbye

Love ALWAYS,
Angel

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