DISCLAIMER: None of the characters are mine.
TIMELINE: I guess all 4 seasons of Buffy and Season 1 of Angel
SPOILERS: I can't really think of one at the moment, lol
DISTRIBUTION: Anywhere you guys want it, just e-mail me telling me where it is.,br> AUTHOR'S NOTES: Takes place in Angel's POV, and it's a little angsty
FEEDBACK: Good or bad tell me please. It's greatly appreciated. *G*
RATING: MA

I hadn't seen her since she graduated. The college ceremony was held at night. Buffy held her head up high, and I was so proud of her. Over the past four years she had become such a woman.

Her first year of college was hard on her since I had left. She had found out that men can be such assholes. I was enraged when I found out what Parker had done to my love.

She started to date Riley, and well, I didn't like him. But Buffy did. We left one day as friends, and that's what we were for the next three years, friends.

I didn't see her much, but we talked on the phone constantly. At 10:00 every night we would do everything that we could to be by our phones, and we'd talk about our day. I feel in love with her a little more every night. And my heart broke the beginning of her senior year.

Buffy had ran into this guy on her campus literally. He flirted with her and asked her out. She accepted. I heard all about her date the next night, and as each night came I heard more and more about this man.

My heart felt pierced, but I was happy for my girl. She'd be mine for always, or so I thought. I figured that this man would soon break her heart, and then things would be as they were.

I was wrong. Weeks turned into months, and all I heard was about Patrick. The name alone wanted to make me vomit. Three weeks before graduation and it was 10:25. Buffy still hadn't called which seemed to happen a lot since she started to date him. I was a little worried, but not much. I sat by the phone waiting for it to ring.

At 11:30 my phone finally rung, and I heard Buffy's voice. She was crying. I figured something happened to Patrick or someone in the gang and I asked her, "What's wrong?"

I then heard the words I dreaded for so long, "Nothing, Angel. I'm happy. I'm getting married."

I dropped the phone, and my body trembled. I felt my heart shatter as if someone threw a glass at a wall. I took in the information, and tried to calm down. After counting to five I picked up the phone and lied, "I'm so happy for you."

She told me about their plans and how it'd be at night for Spike and me. She also said she's fill me in after graduation.

When graduation night came I saw her grab her diploma and smile at us all. She stood with her class and threw her cap up high.

I stood far away from her and the others after the ceremony. I saw her hug and kiss Patrick, and then I saw her search for me when she didn't see me with everyone else.

When she finally spotted me I had tears running down my face, and she walked over to me alone.

She asked me, "What's wrong?" As she wiped the tears away, and I couldn't tell her. I handed her an envelope.

"What is this?" she asked.

"Just read it." I replied. I tilted her chin up to me and kissed her softly. I then whispered in her ear, "good-bye," and walked off, only turning to see her confused and crying.

I went to a tree at a distance and watched her read the letter:

Dearly Beloved, I'm so sorry that I'm doing this and you can call me a coward, but I can't talk to you anymore. I love you too much to see you with another man. I'm leaving California; I shut down Angel Investigations. I hope that you have a wonderful life with Patrick. The life that we could never have. Fulfill it. I love you, and I will for as long as I live. Yours Always and Forever, Angel.

I saw her body collapse to the floor as she sobbed. Patrick ran over and hugged her and she cried in his arms. That was how it was supposed to be.

I haven't seen anyone from the gang since that day, I was scared that if I did they tell me how happy she was.

I'm human now. I fulfilled my duty, and my life is lonely. For it's without I've. No one will replace Buffy. I will die alone, and well, that's okay. At least I experienced her love. I will never forget it, and at least I think she's happy.

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