Spoliers: None yet
Timeline: Sometime between season 5 of Buffy and season 2 of Angel
Ratings: Pg
Authors Notes: This is a sad one. Buffy is dead and Angel is writting her a letter to get his feelings out.
Feeback: Please?????

Part 1

How am I suppose to live with out you
now that I have been loving you so long....

" Dear Buffy, I know that you can't read what I am writting, but I hope you can read what is written in my heart. These last few days with you have been a living torment. I had so much planed for you and me, and our life together. Unfortantly that wont be happening anytime soon, now will it. What am I to do when the woman you lived for is gone? How do I keep myself from dying Buffy? Tell me. What else is there really to look forward to living for? Am I suppose to move on my life with someone new, when I have waited 248 years for you? I can't, I wont. The tears have been pretty big lately. I wake up thinking that you are going to be right on the other side of me. What do I see? Nothing. You were and still are my whole world. You are the light that looked beyond my darkness. You are everything. I feel so reasponisble that I couldnt save you. I hate myself for it.. The gang says its not my fault, that I am not ot blame. Even Xander said so himself. Can you believe t! hat one? He said there was no way of me knowing what was going to happen. Deep down though I know they blame me a little. I thank you Buffy. You gave me a purpose in life when I thought my life ended a long time ago. I thank you loving me, giving me hope. Without you my soul would have been lost to darkness forever, my being would be incomplete and my heart would be unloved, if it wasnt for all those things you did for me, and to me. Always know, that I will always love you. And I know that you are alive inside my heart. If god wills it maybe one day I will be standing by your side for eternity. I rejoice it. I look forward to it. Till then my love, I must let you go. I love so much. Goodbye

Angel

I know a little sad I know. Let me know what you thought of it please. Also I have a website opening soon called Until heaven calls you home. I let you know when its up. Lyrics were by Micheal Bolton

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