Spoliers: None
Timeline: between season 5 of Buffy and seasn2 of angel
Ratings: pg
Authors Note: This is a short one I know. Sorry

The winter here is cold
and biiter, its chilled us
to the bone
I havent seen the sun for weeks
To long to far from home..

" There is not a single day that I dont think about him. Wonder whats he doing, how he is doing. And most importantly who is he loving. Is she better than me? Does she make his heart beat when actually it doesnt? I know I shouldnt think about it. He has his own life. I have my own. And its with Riley. Riley. What kind of name is Riley anyway? I know I shouldnt be putting him down when all he has done was try to give me a normal life. The normal life I wanted with Angel.

Its been 2 years since I last saw him. When he actually came here and told me that he didnt like Riley. That kind of cheered me up some.

It feels like I am sinking
and I crawl for solid ground
I'm pulled down by the under towe
I never thought I could feel so love.
If all of my strength and all of my courage
come and lift me from this place
I know I could love you much better
then this, its better this way....

"Its better this way? I dont think so. I am tired of finding someone who truley cares about me and have them push me away because they want to give me a normal life? No matter what I won't have a normal life. Angel did give me a normal life. He gave em so much more to. And I am not going to let him stay gone forever. I won't. So diary I am closing our talk for the night and heading towards the City of Angels.

Buffy:)

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