Pairings:B/A and A/?
Disclaimer: not mine, I don’t own them (if I did angel wouldn’t have left Sunnydale) and I’m not making any money on this
Distribution: if you want it go ahead and take it
Summary: Angels thoughts ten years after Buffy’s death, angsty
Feedback: yes please,pleeaassee
AN: this fic has not been beta read and just so you know it, spelling and grammar aint my thing

Time has passed and things have changed but not the way I feel about you

The first time I saw you, you took my heart. I struggled to stay away from you, to stay in the shadow. I told myself that nothing good could ever come from it, but eventually I gave in and let myself love you, and I did, with all my being, heart, mind and soul. and I still do after all these years.

No one has ever been able to take your place and nobody ever will. You’re my one true love. They say that time heals all wounds but I’m not so sure, I doubt this one ever will.

The day you died you took a big part of me with you.

What I wouldn’t give to see you again, to touch you, to hear your voice. to tell you one last time how much I love you.

It’s been ten years since I lost you but you’re still with me. Some days you’re just in the back off my mind, and other days I can feel your presence so clearly that it feels like you just left the room

When everything gets hard and complicated, and I feel like giving up, you’re the one that that gives me the strength to carry on “Strong is fighting, it’s hard and its painful but it’s what we have to do.”

Some one else is sleeping in my bed. I love her, I really do, but she isn’t you. You still have my heart and soul, and you always will.

When I sleep its you I’m reaching for, its your name I cry out, and when I dream its you I’m holding, your face I see.

When we are making love and she is wriggling beneath me in passion its not her name I cry out, its not her face I see, and it’s not her voice ringing inside my head with words spoken long ago.

“Are you still my girl?”

“Always.”

That’s how I will always remember you, standing in the doorway telling me that you would always be mine.

Just like I am forever yours. Forever that’s the whole point.

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