Disclaimer: I own them…No really I do :p not mine never will be.
Pairings: B/A
Summery: Angel's human. Need I say more!!
Rating: PG
Distribution: Anywhere that already archives my work can have it, everyone else just ask and you shall receive.
Author Note: I'm Bored Depressed and in a really weird mood so I'm writing this.
AN2: Lyrics are Breathing by Lifehouse. I own these too all mine *g* (yeah I wish)
Feedback: Would certainly make me feel better.

// I'm finding my way back to sanity, again
Though I don't really know what
I am gonna do when I get there
Take a breath and hold on tight
Spin around one more time
And gracefully fall back in the arms of grace//

Buffy sat perched at the window of her room the starlit sky sending delicate flashes of light over the snow covered ground. It had never snowed in Sunnydale before. It had barely even rained there. Buffy's mood was so much different to the harsh conditions outside, the rasping wind and icy glaciers that formed out side meant nothing he was here and he was human. Angel was Human.

She looked back into her room he was still there sleeping peacefully on her bed the past night alive in his resting mind. A tear escaped her eye as she scooted down to be next to him his heartbeat steadily playing it's tune beneath his ribs.

Buffy nestled her self into his chest, content to just here the sound of his re-beating heart fill the silent room. The room she had spent so much time crying in when he had left her a room which had once felt cold after he left now was alive with warmth and vibrancy

// I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's all right, all right with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside Heaven's door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be//

Angel purred as he felt Buffy satin soft skin rub against his chest even with his human warmth restored he still felt cold in comparison to her she was so warm heat radiated off of her and sent sparks of fire through his very being. Slowly his eyes fluttered open and he let his deep brown eyes gaze into her sparkling orbs a slow yawn escaping his lips.

"You’re awake." Buffy smiled snuggling further into Angels chest a smile playing across her glorious lips and the moonlight threw fantastic shades of light and dark across her magnificent golden hair.

If not for his heart beating to remind him he had to breathe Angel would have died right there, she was beautiful in his dreams but the real life version of her took his breath away.

"I love." Angel smiled kissing her golden mane delicately his breath sending the strands fluttering across her head.

"I love you too."

Buffy turned her head back up to look at Angels face. His Angelic features glorified in the dim lighting of the room. His eyes still holding all of the emotion they had the day she had met him. Her eyes swept back over his exposed chest, the fine alabaster of his muscular frame falling with everyone of his necessary breaths.

// I am looking past the shadows
Of my mind into the truth and
I'm trying to identify
The voices in my head
God, which one's you?
Let me feel one more time
What it feels like to feel
And break these calluses off me
One more time //

"What did I do to deserve you?" Angel shook his head in disbelief at his current situation. Angelus the scourge of Europe human again laying in the arms of his human lover. It was something he had only dreamt possible after the restoration of his soul. People often called it his curse, a gypsy curse to make him feel for all eternity what he had done in his time as a demon. Angel had always seen it as his gift the tiniest bit of his humanity restored to him allowing him to feel again. Lost emotions sweeping through him like a flood in the desert.

"You came into my life." Buffy replied unconsciously playing with the claddagh ring that encircled her finger.

Angel sighed and closed his eyes again. Everything in his life was finally fine, no more darkness and hurt. No more guilt at being in love. It was as close to perfect as he could imagine it to be. A small tear escaped his eye and fell down his cheek leaving a crystallised line down his face.

"What is it?" Buffy asked as she heard Angel quietly sob his chest rumbling with his new emotion.

"It's nothing I just remembered how amazing you looked yesterday standing underneath the sun you were a picture of beauty. I'll never forget that." Angel smiled as yet more tears fell from his joyful eyes. Buffy could not help but follow suit. Their tears of joy filling the room with another comfortable silence.

// 'Cause I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's all right, all right with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside your door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be//

"Angel?"

"Yes baby?"

"What does I feel like to be alive again?" Buffy asked the question in a hushed tone afraid Angel may not want to speak about it afraid she was delving too deep too soon.

"Amazing." Angel replied. Buffy's apprehension dissolving with is answer.

Angel let his arm snake casually across Buffy's waist pulling her closer to him. Letting the soft heat of her perfect body join the warmth of his own. There was so much warmth in the room that Angel felt the snow outside melt beneath it.

Buffy pulled herself up so she was in line with Angel's head. She could feel his soft breath on her lips as she went in for a kiss. Passion surged through her body to her lips met with equal passion from Angel, Her lips parted as his tongue delved deeper into her mouth. His tongue dueling playfully with hers. Eventually the love struck couple broke off for air gasping in the equally needed oxygen.

"What do you want to do then?" Buffy asked slipping her fingers through his.

"I want to stay like this so this day will never end." Angel replied softly.

"There's always tomorrow." Buffy laughed.

"I know but what if.." Angel found himself cut off as Buffy placed her delicate lips back on to Angel's.

//I don't want a thing from you
Bet you're tired of me waiting
For the scraps to fall
Off your table to the ground
I just want o be here now//

The pair gazed into each others eyes each others telling their own story yet both entwined with the same one. They say a picture says a thousand word then the eyes most hold a million pictures. Buffy saw her whole life in Angel's beautiful eyes a life that sent sunshine into darkened places for the better part of his existence. In his eyes she swore she could see her life as he had.

"Buffy there is one thing I want to do." Angel smiled seductively

"And what might that be?" Buffy returned his smile with equal vigour.

"I want to feed you ice-cream."

"OK, but only if you let me feed you some too." Buffy chuckled.

Angel smiled contentedly at his love. She sent shivers down his spine with every move of her petite body.

"One problem though.."

"What?" Angel asked

"I don't want to move." Buffy answered.

"I feel the same way."

Angel sank back into his pillow lost for words to describe the image in front of him. The complete embodiment of beauty lay comfortably on his chest.

Buffy tilted her head upwards again and asked "Will you always love me?"

"Forever. Whatever happens to me during and after this life I will always love you."

Buffy snuggled back into his chest and began to drift into sleep the light thumping of his heart music to her ears.

//'Cause I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's all right, all right with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside heavens door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be//

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