Rating: PG
Distribution: Please ask first
Disclaimer: Buffy and Angel (God help them) belong to Joss and other people who are not me
Summary: A short fic, set during the Forever scene.
Spoilers: I'll say everything, but I really don't think there is anything
POVs: Buffy is normal text, Angel is in italics
Author's notes: This is an odd style, I apologize, but I couldn't think of another way to do it

I told you I was feeling needy

I think we both were feeling it

But it was a different needy

A need to feel something again, some sense of being whole

Of being sane and safe in my own skin

Of being home

I asked you to come, but I know you needed it too

Because we both needed to feel something other than the emptiness

Something familiar

Something warm

Something cold

Something safe

And something so dangerous

I have these memories of you, I'd thought I'd chased them away

I remember a time when I was happy

I remember a time that you never will

Your arms were around me

Your tears on my fingers

I wish we could go back

I wonder if it would have been better that way

But I can't think about that now

It hurts too much

We have to think about the future, to hope for the future

When the darkness is finally over

When the monsters stop coming, and the fight comes to an end

We'll be free of it all

And we can stay, just like this

And I won't have to leave you when the light comes

And there won't be anymore pain

And we won't have to hold anything back

And my heart will be safe

And my soul will be still

And we can just be

Just stay

Someday

But now is not the time.

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