Disclaimer: I own nothing but the ending…
Dedication: To Zetta, a good friend and because she asked for a poem for Sanctuary. To Kendra…always a support…and a friend. And to all Buffy/Angel lovers and our hope of seeing them together.
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Buffy’s point of view…
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So very, very long ago
I stopped listening to my heart.
It was the day he walked away
That I let the silence start.
I went, I saw – we fought.
He told me to go so to my home I returned.
Home to the life he left me for.
But some sad truths along the way I have learned.
Do I blame my sister slayer
For the damage she did cause.
Or do I think about what I have become
And for the moment take a long, long pause.
He held her in his arms.
His chest bare and plain to see.
When I walked slowly down those stairs
She was sitting in the place meant just for me.
The memories came crashing down.
Of a time long gone by.
When once before she tried to take
My lover from me with a lie.
So the hurtful words spewed from my mouth
And I didn’t even try.
To reign in the anger spilling forth
Nor give them time to make a reply.
It seemed to me he didn’t care
That I was hurt and lashing out.
And to see him giving comfort and warmth
To the one who had brought it about.
So he let her go and she walked away
And he held me back from giving chase.
Then the anger I had stored, because of him.
Travelled into my arm and I hit him in the face.
In the blink of an eye he hit me back
And scarcely could I breathe.
Though he said he was sorry and looked it
I sorely wanted to take my hurt pride and leave.
More unkind words I said to him.
I knew where the dart to aim.
Then to the rooftop she was gone
And full of hate, I did the same.
The time was here – we stood face to face
And I thought I had the right.
But the words that she did speak
Were like a bright, bright light.
She told me I didn’t understand
And at that moment I knew she spoke true.
But even so I couldn’t let her go
I truly didn’t know what to do.
The decision was taken from me
And we were quickly under attack.
Again we were sister slayers
Watching each other’s back.
Then just as quickly it was over
And he had saved the day.
But she had gone and left again
And someone was going to pay.
I couldn’t really believe it
Though I saw it with my own eyes.
She had turned herself in and was stepping up
To take the consequences of her lies.
Now we are alone once more
And it hurts that he has pushed me away.
So that is why I give voice to the lie
And say what I say.
I push the dagger in real deep
With words of love for another man.
And he responds by telling me to go
And his voice is so harsh that I ran.
I am home again – I am tired
And I have been in a fight.
He comes in – he is battered and bruised
We both are a sight.
Then two become three in my little room
When in comes another battered man.
He walks in the room holding a gun
And at last I understand.
I had to see them side by side
For my heart to make a stand.
And now it is screaming loud and clear
That a final choice was at hand.
So very, very long ago
I stopped listening to my heart.
But here and now with my true love so close
It was time to make a start.
I asked my Angel to wait outside
But not to disappear.
I had something I had to take care of
But I needed him near.
It didn’t take very long
To tell my lover we were through.
It wasn’t anything that he had done
It was just something I had to do.
Now here I am with my one true love
And he holds me close in his embrace.
I whisper I am sorry I let you go
And rain kisses all over his face.
Always together we will stay – never to be apart.
Though we still have things we need to work out.
But as our love flows over and through us
Soulmates, Eternal Lovers, Forever. There is no doubt