Disclaimer – Property of Joss Whedon and Co. Title and lyrics belong to Mr. K…and if you want to hear the track go to http://mail.online.ie/kershaw/samples.cfm
Rating – PG-ish
Spoilers – set around the time of the 'mating' dance!
Distribution – My sites, LOD, The BAFFA…anyone else please ask
Feedback – I think I speak for everyone here when I say Huh?
Author's Notes – Angel's POV on things (for things read Xander!). Lyrics in Italics
Dedication – First and foremost…Mr. K, my beloved inspiration…who managed to get a recording contract *and* a publishing deal…'To Be Frank' we shall be having words!
Mr. T, my other inspiration…hope to see you and yours on Thursday.
Jules, my forever bullying Beta…she brings a whole new definition to the word subtle!
Mr. M M, for feeding my addiction…and not telling me to go away!
Mr. M, for not giving up…now if only you could learn to tell the time and use a phone!
All my friends online and off…too many to mention…but not to remember!
My BtVS/A:tS mad colleagues...especially K, W and the other 'People in Black'
And last but not least…to everyone who has ever sent me feedback…you guys rock!

I've seen the way you look at me, like you envy me. You hate the fact that all she seems to see is me; even when she was 'dancing' with you, it was because of me. And that kills you doesn't it, it eats you up inside until your jealousy is all you can see?

The funny thing is, I'm jealous of you.

You have everything that I want; you can give her what I want her to have. You can walk with her in the daylight, have picnics with her, give her children. Do you know how much I want that? Do you know how lucky you are?

*Wouldn't it be good to be on your side

The grass is always greener over there
Wouldn't it be good if we could live without a care*

From the moment I saw her I knew I loved her. That sounds corny doesn't it, like a Savage Garden lyric, but it is true. I knew I didn't deserve her, I still don't, but I can't help feeling the way I do. She courses through my veins, filling my senses. She is the ocean and I am drowning in her.

But it can never really be.

I never thought that I, a two hundred and something vampire, would be envious of a High School student, but I am. When she mentions in passing something that happened in class or at lunch I hate you because you were there to experience it first hand.

Part of me wants to walk away, to just forget about her, to leave her to the daylight and her friends. To find some secluded hillside and watch the sun rise. But I can't do that, I was sent to help her, to warn her, and that is what I will do. Whatever the cost to me.

*I got it bad
You don't know how bad I got it
You got it easy
You don't know when you got it good
It's getting harder
Just keeping life and soul together
I'm sick of fighting
Even though I know I should*

I don't think we'll ever be friends, both of us want what the other has, but for her sake we should try and get on.

*Wouldn't it be good to be in your shoes
Even if it was for just one day
Wouldn't it be good if we could wish ourselves away*

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