Disclaimer – Not Joss (thank God…how does that man sleep at night!?!) and not Olivia Newton John so not mine!
Rating – PG
Spoilers – S1 BtVS (anyone tell I've been watching the DVD today? Nope, didn't think so!)
Distribution – Oh take it but LMK
Feedback – Hell yeah!
Summary – What if Buffy had told Angel soon that she loved him? AU fic. Lyrics in *
Dedication – NDK, Erin (sob), Lynsey (not a bad feedbacking friend!), Tisienne Blue (I believe you :oP); Evil Willow (sob II the return!) and anyone I may have omitted due to my rampaging toothache and wooziness (I love Ibuprofen!!!)

We're here, together, alone but surrounded by a sea of people. Both of us know we shouldn't be here, everything screams that it is wrong, and yet I just can't stay away from you. I've tried, believe me I've tried, but you're like a magnet, you draw me to you like a moth to a flame. I am an addict and you are my addiction.

*Maybe I hang around here
A little more than I should
We both know I got somewhere else to go
But I got something to tell you
That I never thought I would
But I believe you really ought to know*

I had to say it, it's been bubbling up inside me now for so long, but now I have I wish that I hadn't. You looked stunned and I am still waiting for you to say something, anything. Instead you just look at me.

*You don't have to answer
I see it in your eyes
Maybe it was better left unsaid
This is pure and simple
And you must realize
That it's coming from my heart and not my head*

I feel stupid, why would you ever be interested in me? We come from different worlds, different times. I am so immature compared to you, compared to anybody. Why didn't I just keep my mouth shut?

*I'm not trying to make you feel uncomfortable
I'm not trying to make you anything at all
But this feeling doesn't come along everyday
And you shouldn't blow the chance
When you've got the chance to say*

You look as if you want to be anywhere but here. Right now I am expecting to glance away for a second only to find you gone when I look back. Damn damn damn! Why did I say anything? Stupid Buffy. Why do I never learn?

*If we both were born
In another place and time
This moment might be ending in a kiss
But there you are with yours
And here I am with mine
So I guess we'll just be leaving it at this*

It could never work anyway, never be anything. We are complete opposites, enemies. A Michael Bolton song that my Mom plays comes to mind, 'How can we be lovers if we can't be friends', you and I can never be friends, can we?

And then you do something completely unexpected. You reach out and gently cup my face with your hand. I lean into your caress and nuzzle your palm. I see something in your eyes and all my doubts and regrets flee.

*I love you
I honestly love you*

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