Disclaimer: BtVS belongs to Psycho Joss the Red Sheets Obsessive 'Killin' Time' belongs to Tina Cousins
Rating: PG (I think!)
Spoilers: BtVS Season 2 onwards
Thanx: DB & SMG – that you guys are still fighting for B&A behind the scenes gives us all hope
Author's Notes: I'm sorry, I know there is a desperate need for fluff right now but this is what came to mind. I was printing out the lyrics to another of her songs and this one inspired me. Fluff will come later – I PROMISE! Lyrics in Italics

'If I could get over you then I could get away from here, it's such a lonely place
I only have myself to blame and if I make it through the wasteland of my mind
Maybe then I'll find a way to find a brighter day…'

You've been gone three months. Three months without seeing your smile, hearing your voice or kissing your lips.

I think about my 17th birthday. Not what came after it because that's too painful. No, I think about the night we spent together. Your cool strong hands working their magic on my yielding flesh. I couldn't believe that I was with you, joined with you. For so long it had been my dream.

'Thought that I could change your mind but some things can never be
And so our story ends, if only we could be friends
And though you're far away from home I feel every breath you take
You're living deep inside of me and I just can't be freed…'

I can't believe how you changed. The things you said to me in the sewer, you shattered my heart. Something happened between you leaving that morning and the sewer. I don't believe that someone didn't influence you; why did you listen? It wasn't just the Mayor, was it?

I know I was a bitch to you but you were killing me. How dare you make decisions for me! You were my life. I once told you that you were the one freaky thing that made sense in my freaky world. I meant that. Didn't any of what we went through mean anything?

'I'm just killin' time since you went away
All I have are memories and every day they fade
I'm the love you didn't want, the love that couldn't reach
I reminisce on every kiss and I'm just killin' time'

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