Might As Well Be On Mars

by Shirlz

Disclaimer Characters and concept belong to JW et al, title and lyrics belong to Alice Cooper and are from his 1991 album Hey Stoopid
Spoilers Pretty much everything is fair game
Rating PG
Feedback Is of the good! (Like a naked Spike & Angel)
Summary Future fic Angels POV post Shanshu Lyrics in italics
Dedication Everyone who holds a special place in my heart

I might as well be on Mars
You can't see me
I might as well be the Man on the Moon
You can't hear me
Oh, can you feel me so close
And yet so far
Baby, I might as well be on Mars

Baby, I can't fly
If I could I'd come down to ya
Maybe I should try

Although I can sense you I still cant believe that you're here. Its been how long, five years? Maybe more. But time means nothing to us, does it?

I came to you when it happened; I thought you would be pleased. Somewhere deep inside of me I had nurtured the belief that you would rush into my arms and never let me go. How could I have been so wrong?

You told me you were better off alone
I never knew that tears could stain

What changed? You are not the person you were. Has time and slaying hardened you, caused you to grow a shell over your heart?

I'd cross the universe to be right where you are

You're alone now; I've kept track of you although our paths haven't physically crossed until now. I thought that, given time, you would turn to me, seek me out, but all you seek is solitude.

You've turned my world into a dark and lonely place
Like a planet lost in space, my light is fadin'

Do I approach you? Do I seize the moment? Do I risk rejection? Can my poor battered heart stand any more pain?

I still love you; there's never been a time when I haven't. Every second of every minute of every hour of every day my heart and soul are filled with you. The bright and effervescent girl I fell in love with all those years ago. The girl who touched my darkened world and filled it with glorious sunshine. The girl who tore up the Slayer handbook, who had friends she was willing to die for. Where is that girl now?

I can see you
In the window of your favorite corner bar
But to reach you is just too far
And I might as well be on Mars

I watch you as you sit, silently nursing your glass. People notice you, but they do not approach, your whole aura screams 'go away'. Am I too late to save you? Do you want saving?

Do you want me Buffy? Do you want us?

The End

Go to the companion, She Cries

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