It's bloody nauseating, watching you two paw and
fawn all over each other. I mean, don't you need to
breathe or something sometimes? Whenever I see you
you are super glued by the lips. It's enough to
make a bloke heave.
Oh, don't worry about me. I mean, I don't have
feelings do I? Me? I'm a bloody animal. Evil to
the core. Why the hell would I want to be like Soul
Boy?
Maybe because I'm lonely.
It sticks in my damn gut to say this, but since
Dru
upped and left me for that fungus faced Mucus demon
my unlife just hasn't been the same. She told me a
few home truths that day, things that I didn't want
to hear, things that I didn't want to be true. I
mean, no self respecting vampire wants to be told
he's in love with the bloody Slayer!
And yet it *is* true.
I look at you and Peaches, all happy and loved up,
and I want it. Not the poxy soul thing, I want you.
I want it to be me that you look at with devotion;
I want it to be me that holds your hand.
Oh sod it I'm turning soft! Just stake me now.
That spell that Red did, the one for her will to
be
done that went ass-up, that was a good day. Oh I
know I created, complained about having Buffy taste
in my mouth, well I could hardly say 'Wow that was
good, bring on the main course Baby' could I? The
poof would have snapped my neck and you'd have
dusted me just to make sure.
What you two share, and doesn't this just add to
the nauseam, I want.
I want your hot little hands over my body, I want
to be buried deep inside you, and I
want to hear you say you love me with that look in
your eye, the one that says that I am the only
person who exists at that moment. I want to have
someone who I would die for and who would die for
me.
But I'm evil, you're the Slayer, and you're with
Angel.
Oh bloody hell!
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Rating: PG13-ish.nothing too explicit.odd swear
word.some language of a mild sexual nature.no worse
than Anya on a normal day!
Spoilers: AU FIC ~ B/A cannon (but they are together
- CWC fic), Something Blue and most of S5 Spike
arc
Distribution: Please feel free
Feedback: Well, I need*something* to give me a
happy!
Summary: It's hard when you have a secret; it's
worse when you can't escape it
AN's: Sisters on Havoc & Fear.please don't hate
me.this was just begging to be written!
Dedication: Si and Angie.for listening.for
encouraging.for laughing.for believing.Congrats on
the new job Ange!
*My* secret!