It Gets Easier

It Gets Easier

Distribution~ want, take, have just please let me know where it goes and please give me credit.
Disclaimer~:: Sigh:: No I don't own them, I wish I did but I don't so please don't sue. Joss Whedon owns BTVS and Angel. Oh and Kandi and Faith Evans own the song Easier. (It is a duet between the two.)
Summary~ This is just my way of making sure everyone knows that Angel and Buffy love each other still. This is a few years after graduation. Angel and Buffy have seen each other a few times but they have never gotten into fights. Except the whole sewer talk on the forgotten day but that is it. No Riley, No Parker, no initiative.
Author's note~ Please send feedback and tell me if you actually want me to make this story into a series or if you just want me to leave it like this. Oh and this is written in Buffy's POV. Oh and the rainbow is just a stupid name I made up for a club in LA. It is not real but I don't care, this is my story and I can put what I want in it.

"So, Buff, are you going to see somebody I know at the Rainbow?" My father asked, with a wink. I rolled my eyes at him. "I might see Pike there later or maybe Hilly, but that's about it." He nods and says goodbye. I tell him not to wait up and walk out the door to my Eclipse Spider Convertible. I drive myself to the Rainbow and walk in. I walk over to the bar and order a Pepsi. The man in front of me turns around and looks at me with side eyes. I look back at him, it was my ex lover. "Hi." I say meekly. The bar tender hands me my soda and my change. I thank him and start to walk away when Angel grabs my arm. "What are you doing here?" He asked. I expected him to be angry, but he wasn't, all that was in his voice is confusion. "I am visiting my father." I say when I feel someone put their hands over my eyes. I turn around and there is my friend Bill, who is the DJ for the rainbow. "Hey Summers, wanna sing? Come on, look at the guys up there." I look over to the stage and there are five geeks trying to perform NSYNC's Bye Bye Bye. I then look over at Angel. Then I look back at Bill and nod. He grabs my arm and leads me up there. I select my song and wait for him to announce me. "Now, we have someone who used to sing all the time when she lived in LA, so everyone give a round of applause for Buffy Anne Summers." I walked on stage and smiled. I took the microphone. And waited for the music to start up.

I was in misery
Without you
Couldn't imagine my life
Without you
It was such a painful thing to go through
To have you taken away.

I almost start crying as I sing the song. I look into his eyes and tell that he is fighting back tears as well. It goes without saying that this song is about him and me. And I think that when everyone saw who I was looking at they knew that too.

But I… I dried my tears
Even though it took a couple of years
And I guess I just had to let go of my fears
Of being alone.. but it gets.

As I look at all the people I see that they are almost driven to tears by the song also.

It gets… It gets easier
Without you
I won't feel right… I can't feel right
Without you
But it gets it gets easier

It gets… It gets easier
Without you
I won't feel right… I can't feel right
Without you
But it gets easier.

I thought my life was over
Thought I would be so sad darling
Cuz you left me here, to face all my fears
All by myself
With nobody else
Now that you're gone I just gotta move on
But my lovin's never changed
It'll always stay the same
I felt you were wrong
The lonely nights alone
I get weak then I'm strong.
It gets easier.

I finally let my tears spill out, I see that I have held them the longest. Everyone else including Angel is in tears.

It gets… It gets easier
Without you
I won't feel right… I can't feel right
Without you
But it gets… it gets easier

I realize as I am singing this song, that it is easier without him. I mean It would be much easier with him, but ever since he left it is always hard not going to the mansion to get him before patrol and to not see him at the Bronze, but it does get easier.

Sometimes it's really hard to just let go
Don't feel like moving oh yeah I know
Just breathing air is hard to bear
When the one you love is not there
Thoughts of you sit heavy on my mid
I'll always reminisce on our good times
I just take it day by day
I know that it'll never be easy
But it gets… it gets easier.

It gets… It gets easier
Without you
I won't feel right… I can't feel right
Without you
But it gets… it gets easier

When the song ends I look into my love's eyes one more time before I walk off the stage. I walk out and into my car where I sit and sob. I know that Angel knew everything I wanted to say. I don't blame him for leaving, now I now why he did, but it is always hard, but it gets easier.

The End

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