Disclaimer:I own none of it.I`m just borrowing the show and any people that sound familiar i`m borrowing them too.The song is also Phil collins and remastered by Mariah Carey.
Spoilers: The end of Graduation part2
Summary:This is Buffy's POV of what she went through at the end of Grad. P2 set to the music of Mariah carey's "Look at me now".I was feeling very angsty last nite and this song did it.Its as if Buffy herself wrote it.I usually don't write angst fics so send me feedback telling me how it was pleeeaassee! on to the story!

How can I just let you walk away just leave without a trace,When I stand her taking ever breath with you.You're the only on who really new me at all.//

The battle is over and so is my well being.As tonite unfolded I watched my fellow peers open their eyes just a little wider to the weird occurrences of the Hellmouth,and together we destroyed the mayor.As I stared at the broken down mess once our High school,memories flash before my mind laid to rest with the building.The school wasn't the only thing I had to say goodbye to.

How can you just walk away from me when all I can do is watch you leave. 'Cause we've shared the laughter and the pain and even shared the tears.You're the only one who really knew me at all.//

Angel.My guardian Angel.He meant everything to me and will always.He decided it was best to part ways so I can have the normal life.I just let him walk away,away with my heart and soul.To in shock that my worst dreaded moment in my life was playing out,I stood there as he disappeared into the mist.

So take a look at me now.Oh there`s just an empty space and theres nothing here to remind me just the memory of your face.Take a look at me now.Cause theres just an empty space and you coming back to me is against all odds and Its what I've got to face.//

So much has happened to me tonite and it hasn't even sunk in yet.I graduated school today and In away I don't care.Angels departure hasn't even really sunk in yet.I`m in denial that the love of my life didn't walk away from me and my life taking everything that is me with him leaving just an empty shell.

// I wish I could just make you turn around and see me cry.There`s so much I need to say to you so many reasons why.You're the only one who really knew me at all.//

From this moment on I`ll never be the same.I've experienced what few ever will,and I regret none of it.There will never be another Angel.I hope he knows just what he means to me.

So take a look at me now theres just an empty space and theres nothing left here to remind me just the memory of your face.Take a look at me now theres just an empty space,But to wait for you is all I can do.//

For now I`ll go on.I`ll build the walls around me and the only thing that will keep me going are the memories and that little bit of hope I have left.Even if I find another They will never compare not even close to you,I`ll never get over you,The truth is up to the day I die you'll still be the only thing on my mind, and its what I've got to face.

So take a look at me now.Oh theres just an empty space and you coming back to me is against all odds and its a chance I've got to take.So take a look at me now.//

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