SUMMARY: A letter. God, i do TOO many of these!
My Beloved Buffy "This Romeo is bleedin' Feelings. Violence can kill your body, but the only thing that can hurt
your soul is emotion. You can kick me, and you can punch me, and stab me,
and hurt me physically as much as you like and I'll manage, it doesn't
affect my soul, but leave me, and love me, and kiss me, and hold me, and you
have control over my very existence.
"It's been raining since you left me
I miss you so much. I mean, you're right here, in my heart, but now, oh
god, after our one special day together, I just want to give up. I used to
deal with my pain, my hurt, and even my guilt by fighting. Annihilating
whatever vampire, or demon got in my way. And I know I left you. I did it
because I couldn't stand to be near you, and hold you back from the things
you deserve to have. Not because I stopped loving you. Because I loved you
too much.
Now I can't sing a love song
I mean, not that I ever sang before. But, it's like, even when we weren't
together before, I was always sure of one thing. I loved you, and you
returned that love with as much emotion and passion as I gave it. Now, I'm
not so sure. I know I said, I want you to move on, and I know that it would
be the proper thing to have you do. But it hurts. And it'll never stop.
but its over.
"And I will love you baby, Always
I'll love you with my dying breath. I'll love you when I'm dust.
"Now the pictures that you left behind
Oh...for just one more kiss. One more time. One more minute with you.
Every memory I have, I remember with perfect clarity. I run through, over
and over.
"I made mistakes, I'm just a man
And I know you have him. Riley Finn. He's everything I'm not. Everything
I want to be. He can be with you in the daylight. But those words are
mine. I'll always mean them.
And I will love you baby, Always
You have to know, I'd do anything for you. I'd rather have you alive, and
with someone else, than settle for a few days, months, years with you, and
have you die. I love you that much.
Well there ain't no luck in these loaded dice
Ain't that the truth, my Beloved. Not this lifetime. Not so far.
"And I'll be there forever and a day, Always
But there's a loophole. There's a chance for us. There's a way for us to
be together. And I'm never going to send this letter. I'm never going to tell you it all
like this, lay it all out for you to know. Because if I did, and you've
moved on...I don't think I can take it. So I'll be subtle, Beloved, and
I'll drop you hints, and I'll see if you realise. Because if you do, then
its time. It's right. And if you don't. Well, I'll leave you to be happy,
and I'll be content in my blissful ignorance that you don't love me anymore.
I'll never have to live with your rejection...
"And I'll love you, Always
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SPOILERS: ickle IWRY one, erm, not much else.
DISCLAIMERS: Ha! I remembered. They don't belong to me. They're all
Poophead Joss's
AUTHOR's Notes: Erm, I've been listening to old music. jon bon jovi's
always, and bryan adam's Everything I do, so expect some song fics. Anyway,
Angel listens to some classical stuff when he's in the shower
DEDICATIONS: Cat, Stephen, Omega. Also dedicated to Rodelyn (FlipSmiley),
JenBird, and Jessi (Je8484) cos you guys give me so much feedback and keep
me going!! Sorry it took so long to start the prequel!!
But you can't see his blood
It's nothin' but some feelings
That this old dog kicked up"
Now I'm drowning in the flood
You see I've always been a fighter
But without you I give up"
Like the way it's meant to be
Well I guess I'm not that good anymore
But baby that's just me
And I'll be there forever and a day, Always
I'll be there 'til the stars don't shine
'Til the heavens burst and the words don't rhyme
I know when I die you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you, Always"
Are just memories of a different life
Some that made us laugh, Some that made us cry
One that made you have to say goodbye
What I'd give to run my fingers through you hair
To touch your lips, to hold you near
When you say your prayers try to understand"
When he holds you close when he pulls you near
When he says the words you've been needing to hear
4I wish I was him 'cause those words are mine
To say to you 'til the end of time"
And I'll be there forever and a day, Always
If you told to cry for you I could
If you told me to die for you I would
Take a look at my face, there's no price I won't pay
To say these words to you"
But baby if you'd give me just one more try
We could pack up on old dreams and our old lives
And find a place where the sun still shines
And I will love you baby, Always"
I'll be there 'til the stars don't shine
'Til the heavens burst and the words don't rhyme
I know when I die you'll be on my mind"
Angel.