SPOILERS: nothing big. Becoming.
SUMMARY: Buffy tells Angel

Willow came round yesterday. It's been about a week since I saw them last. Not even that. I know she gave Melissa a letter from Buffy yesterday. I don't know what it was about. I thought it was strange, considering, there was no letters for Kieran and Maighan at the same age. I haven't opened it yet. I treasure the words she's written to me in other letters. The only occasion she missed was the first Christmas after she died, and thats because she thought she'd be there. She thought she'd still be alive.

I turn the envelope round in my eyes. My name's written on the front in her writing. I open the letter.

"Dear Angel,

I'm getting used to writing these letters now. This is one of the hardest though. You've gone out to pick Missy up from Xander's. Only Willow knows about what I'm writing now.

Angel. Melissa's a slayer. Or she will be, when she's about 17. I told Willow to give you this letter when she's about 16 and a half. It's killing me to realise this, but she's strong. She'll survive. You have to let her slay. If you stop her, she'll have to do what I did, sneaking out of windows. If you support her, she can have that normal life. There's always the second slayer. I hope its still Faith. Faith can handle herself.

Don't blame yourself for not knowing. I didn't want to tell you. I know how happy you were when we knew Maighan wouldn't be a slayer, because I felt it too. I cried when I found out about Missy. My daughter.

Help her. Train her. Make sure she's strong enough. You were probably wondering about the letter I gave her yesterday. It explained all to her. She's probably shocked, but not as shocked as I was, when I found out about my destiny.

Angel. I love you. Please don't cry too much. Move on, and don't close up. I want you to be happy. I need you to survive. Look after Melissa. Don't let anyone give her the slayer handbook, it'll kill her. Let her use her emotions. And help her have a normal life. I understand, if Giles is still alive, he'll be her Watcher, but he's going to be too old to train her. That responsibilty will fall to you, and Xander. I wish I could be there, maybe if I was, she'd never be called. But no more what ifs.

I won't let anything happen to my baby. You have to tell Maighan and Kieran about this. You have to be strong. Don't let life get you down too much. It's not how long you spend on this earth, its the moments, and the memories which count. I love you, eternally, and I want you to be happy. I know I am. I will be missing you. I'll see you again someday.

Always yours
Buffy"

How can I let my daughter go through everything Buffy did? There's nothing I can do about it. Nothing at all. Kendra died. Faith died. Buffy died. All the 8 slayers which have been alive since are dead.

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