SPOILERS: Angel
SUMMARY: Letter to Kieran

Dear Kieran,

My baby boy. It's funny to be writing letters to you, instead of just talking. I feel like I should be passing on some mature, responsible adult advice, since you've now become an adult. Happy 21st Birthday, by the way! Yeah, I don't know that I can give you adult advice, since I don't feel like an adult. At 26, you'd think I could be a little more eloquent. I've been the Slayer, for what 10 years. That's gotta be a record, and you'd think, wouldn't you that some of Giles' serious and proper use of English would have rubbed off on me! I'm only 5 years older than you are now though.

Look at me, I'm babbling. It's always been a habit of mine, when I'm nervous. Ask your dad. About the first time he was in my room, and I thought he'd read my diary.

Okay. I'm thinking of Xander at 18, to try and visualise you. I imagine his sense of humour has rubbed off on you too! Bad jokes and all.

I've written "girly"letters to your sisters, but Kieran, I hope you know I love you just as much. I feel that you may not realise, because, Missy has my Slayer journals, and Maighan can remember more of me than any of you three. It hurts a lot that you guys might not even really know me. It hurts me more, that I don't know you all yet. I want to see you grown up. Like I guess you are now.

I do, however, have a little present for you. It's nothing much, but I want you to have it. I imagine your dad has gotten you a big present from the two of us, even though I'm gone. My scrapbook. It's got all my favourite memories and pictures in it. Completely unedited. Ask Xander. He's got it. Said he would finish it for me, with pictures of all of you guys on special occasions.

Love you always.
Mom.

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