Series: Diary Series
Chapter: One
Disclaimer: Joss Whedon owns the Buffyverse. Not me.
Distribution Statement: Ask and you shall recieve.
Spoiler Warning: "Welcome to the Hellmouth" and "The Harvest"
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Contains the diaries of Buffy, Xander, Willow, Giles, Joyce, Cordelia and Angel.
Dedication: Shelly and Dani.

Buffy's Diary:

I woke up by the most horrifying nightmare.I think I actually saw the Master Vampire who's trapped here on the hellmouth. Nice place to be living on, huh? The hellmouth. Giles told me everything about it today. He's really into that stuff. You should have seen him going on and on about my Slayer duty! Oh, gosh, I haven't told you who Giles is! Well, imagine my surprise when I walked into the school's library and the very British librarian threw an ancient book in my face with the word "vampyr" written all over it! Okay, so I wasn't that surprised since those guys never leave me alone. It's like their job to bother me. And this guy's outfit was pretty much screaming Watcher. Yep, he's my new Watcher. Mister Giles. How kinky!

Anyhow the nightmares I have had lately showed to be well, one of those dreams that can come true if little ol' me doesn't do anything about it. So I did. Slayed this old guy whom was a vessel or something. So the master guy is still mister stuck guy.

Mom is being a bit of a problem. She grounded me, can you believe it? I had to sneak out through the window as usual. Heroines with mothers don't have it easy.

School, well, school always sucks! But I met this girl Willow who is really nice. Extremely shy and her self-esteem isn't exactly high but I might be able to change that. She's bright so she might be able to help me with my classes. Her friend Xander is okay too. Although he almost got himself killed a couple of times today. Brave but foolish. He's cute, though. Unfortunately I didn't managed to save their friend Jesse.One more life I failed to save. Xander was so upset. I'm afraid that he's going to pretend to be Rambo and start fighting vampires on his own. And that will only get him killed. Guess I have to let him and Willow help me. I know I shouldn't but it's been so lonely since my Watcher died. I hate having this big secret, risking my life every night without no one knowing about it.

By the way, a dark stranger apparently knows who I am.Angel. God! You should have seen him. He's gorgeous in a very annoying kind of way. He gave me a necklace with a cross. It probably saved my life. I'm going to wear it always. Not because Angel gave it to me, no, because it's.um, handy? Okay, so this mystery guy made my knees weak. I can admit that. I wouldn't mind dreaming about him tonight now when the nightmares is over.

Oh well, tomorrow is another day on the hellmouth.

Buffy

******

Xander's Diary:

Jesse died today. No, worse. He was turned into a vampire. I don't like them. I'm going to take a stand and say they're not good. Cause they're not. They suck!

No, I'm not on drugs although I wish I were. Anything to make everything that has happened today not true. Well, except this new girl coming to our little town. She's a vampire slayer. I like that in a girl! Especially now when vampires suck! Okay, calming down.

I had to kill him. I didn't mean to. He was all over Cordelia, yeah the bitch I have hated all my life. Well, as long as I have known her at least. Anyway, I had to do something so we had a confrontation and I guess someone shoved him and my stake pierced his heart. I didn't exactly feel like a hero. He was my best male friend. We were buds. Buddies don't kill each other. They definitely don't try to bite each other either 'cause that's just plain wrong. Fuck, I miss him! He said I was only a shadow to him. But it wasn't him! I need to see that. But it's hard 'cause it was still him somewhere deep inside. I never knew he could hate so much.

From now on I'm going to keep an eye on Willow and two on Buffy.Okay, so math isn't my best side.

I hate vampires.

I'm going to go and lay down on my bed and listen to some country music. The music of pain.

Xander

*****

Willow's Diary:

Today was bad.and good. Jesse died, vampires and monsters are real and I'm living on the hellmouth. I think we all can agree that those are very bad things.

We saved the world today though or at least Buffy did. But I still couldn't help but crying when I got home. I didn't know Jesse as well as I know Xander but I still cared for him. He was nice. At least he talked to me.

Buffy is the new girl at school. She's cool and beautiful and she hanged out with me! At several times! She even preferred me in front of Cordelia and her gang! They say she's a freak but I think she's real nice. She notices me unlike the others and when we talk she really listens!

Xander is really sad. We talked for hours on the phone before he fell asleep. I wish I could help him. I don't want him to be sad. He cried. I haven't heard him cry in years. I wish he knew how much I care for him.

Willow

*******

Giles' Diary

Sometimes I find it hard to believe that this world is real. I met the girl today who I'm going to be Watcher for. She's so young. God, the look in her eyes when she yelled at me. She wondered how she could possibly have been prepared for losing her friends and her old life. And how can I possibly prepare her for dying?

She's strong though. She managed to destroy the threat for the world's destruction tonight. Very strong indeed. Stubborn as well. What have I gotten myself into?

Rupert

*****

Joyce's Diary

Buffy is in trouble again. I knew it! I just knew it! I got a call from the principle today, he told me she had cut class and even left the school area! I don't know what I'm going to do with her. I grounded her tonight and she was so upset. It's hard to say no to your child but I know I'm going to have to start doing it. Her father was right. I should have been harder on her. Set more rules. But it's hard. I love her so; I don't want to hurt her. She's my little girl.

But I'm going to make it work. This time it's going to work and we'll be happy.

Joyce

*****

Cordelia's Diary:

Well the new girl arrived. Buffy. She seemed to be all right, I mean she is from LA after all, but then at the Bronze she attacked me! With a stick!! Can you believe it? And she wants to hang out with the losers! She's really freaky. There were these gangs at the Bronze tonight and they were an ugly way of looking and Buffy like knew them! She probably belonged to one of them. Can we say loony?

All I can say is that I'm glad I saw through her little charade. To have her in my gang! Jeez! I rather would date one of those ugly looking men that went GRR all the time. What a bunch of losers!

Anyway, got to have my beauty sleep.

Cordelia

*****

Angel's Diary:

I spoke to her today.

She's a tough cookie. Sharp tongue. But she's so scared. Can't say I blame her. I know exactly what she's fighting and I doubt she really has a clue.

She's so beautiful. I wish I hadn't spoken to her. Heard her say my name. It makes it so much harder to stay away from her.

Angel

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