Disclaimer: I'm not Joss.
Summary: Read to find out. I'm not giving it away.
Author's Note: Buffy POV

I hurt.

I'm frustrated.

I'm angry.

I'm confused.

I need someone to protect me.

I need someone to help me.

I need someone to comfort me.

My mother is dead.

She's gone.

She's never coming back.

I miss her.

I miss her already.

She's only been gone for a day.

But I already miss her.

How I am supposed to take care of Dawn?

I don't know the first thing about being a mother.

I can't even cook.

I killed my goldfish.

I once said that to Angel.

Angel, I need him.

I need him to comfort me, help me, protect me.

I need him to take me in his embrace and tell me everything will be all right.

Tomorrow is the funeral.

Willow called him, told him what happened.

He said he would be here, tonight.

He isn't here yet, where is he?

Please, Angel, I need you.

Here with me, now.

'Angel, Angel, Angel' my brain screams.

I'm tired.

My eyes are closing and I yawn.

Hopefully, he will be here when I wake up.

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I stretch my arms as sunlight pours in through my window.

He's here, I feel him.

Thank God, he is here.

Everything will be all right now.

My angel is here.

I'm crying...

It's the first time since she died.

He's the only one I will let in, only him.

"Buffy," he whispers, walking to the bed.

He scoops me into his arms and rocks me back and forth.

He whispers in my ear, telling me things will be all right.

He protects me.

He loves me.

"She's gone," I breath.

For the first time I admit it.

My mommy is gone and never coming back.

"Angel," I plead. "Bring her back. Please. Bring her back."

"I wish I could, but I can't."

My tears subside and I look up at him, my eyes watery.

He brushes my hair from my forehead and kisses my crown. He moves to my eye lids, then my nose, and finally my lips.

Our lips touch and I'm safe.

He's my shelter, my protector, my savior.

My mother is gone, but my angel is here.

He will help me.

He will protect me. He will advise me as to how to raise Dawn.

Unspoken words tell me he is here to stay.

I love him.

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