New Beginnings

By: Ally

E-Mail: allykitty@hotmail.com

Rating: G

Summary: Willow and Angel think about each other. Songfic: Lyrics from Foolish Games by Jewel.

Disclaimer: Willow and Angel belong to Joss, not me. And the lyrics belong to Jewel, who just rocks!

Notes: I went to see Jewel perform, and this idea popped into my head while she was singing this. Which only goes to prove that I’m way too obsessed.

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You took your coat off and stood in the rain

You were always crazy like that

I watched from my window

I always felt I was outside looking in on you

Willow leaned her head against the cool glass of her balcony doors. The small water droplets left by the light rain were slowly making tracks down the glass, and she watched as they joined, and split. She opened the doors and let the warm rush of moist air invade her room. The lace curtains lightly ruffled around her body, and she breathed in the fresh smell of earth.

You were always the mysterious one

With dark eyes and careless hair

You were fashionably sensible, but too cool to care

Angel was slowly making his way through the moist streets of Sunnydale. He was on his way to visit Buffy, but decided to take the long way so he could enjoy the smell of the fresh air. He loved how everything always looked new after it rained.

Then you stood in my doorway, with nothing to say

Besides some comment on the weather

Willow stepped out onto her balcony. Her white nightgown, and red hair blowing slightly in the breeze. The dampness of the concrete felt good under her bare feet. She leaned lightly on the railing and gazed at the lightening sky, watching the dark clouds blow away. Leaving a crystal blue sky in their wake.
 
 

Well in case you failed to notice

In case you failed to see

This is my heart bleeding before you

This is me down on my knees

As he rounded the corner he saw a flash of brilliant red out of the corner of his eye. Turning he saw Willow emerge from her room and step onto her balcony, her hair blowing freely in the breeze. Not wanting to be seen, he silently slipped into the shadows to see what she was doing. He was amazed with her beauty, she appeared as a goddess shrouded in a white light.
 
 

And these foolish games are tearing me apart

Your thoughtless words are breaking my heart

You’re breaking my heart.

Willow saw movement on the street below her as she had stepped out. But, they had disappeared into the shadows. Slightly embarrassed at first to be seen only in her nightgown she was about to go back inside. But then, as if emboldened by the sun which had warmed her as she stood outside, she decided to stay. Let him watch she thought.

You were always brilliant in the morning

Smoking your cigarettes, talking over coffee

Your philosophies on art, Baroque moved you

You loved Mozart and you’d speak of your loved ones.

As I clumsily strummed my guitar

Angel thought back to when he had first met Willow. How small and shy she had seemed. A child, with a woman’s heart and brain. Over time he had watched her grow up. He had seen her love, and hurt, and throughout it all she had been the strong one. Always putting others ahead of her own needs. She was the one who had brought him back from hell. Even after everything the he had done, she still cared for him. He had never met anyone with such strength before he met her. Even Buffy’s outer strength paled in comparison with her inner strength.

You’d teach me of honest things

Things that were daring, things that are clean

Things that knew what an honest dollar did mean

I hid my soiled hands behind my back

Somewhere along the line I must have gone off track with you

Willow watched him watching her. Unsure of why he was there. She thought of how different things between them had become since she had brought him back. Before they would talk about things for hours, mostly about Buffy, but also about art and music. What his life was like before and after he was turned. She had enjoyed those conversations, but since he’d come back she hardly saw him. Except when he came to help Buffy with her duties. She missed the talks. But most of all she missed just being around him. And she not only missed him, she…

Excuse me, think I’ve mistaken you for somebody else

Somebody who gave a damn

Somebody more like myself

He missed her. He missed seeing her, talking to her, hearing her laugh. He missed the trust he used to see in her eyes. But most of all he missed having her friendship and love… he missed her love. He loved her. Not the way he loved Buffy, but he loved her all the same.

And these foolish games are tearing me apart

Your thoughtless words are breaking my heart

You’re breaking my heart.

The phone rang in, breaking into her train of thought. With a last glance in his direction she turned to go in. Her red hair blowing out behind her as she went back into her room. Shutting the doors behind her.

He heard the phone ring, and watched silently as she went back into her room. Shutting the doors, and him out. A low rumble spread across the sky as a new patch of gray clouds took up residence above the small town. Then, as if knowing the moment was over, the skies reopened and a hard rain came down. Angel looked up at the sky and the droplets streaked his face. Clutching his duster around himself he stepped out of the shadows and started towards Buffy’s again, knowing that things would never be the same again. And so the heavens wept, and washed away the sins of the past, preparing the world for new beginnings.

You took you’re coat off and stood in the rain

You were always crazy like that.

The End

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