Fanfiction

The Truth Behind The Eyes

Author: Ashley

Parts: 1-6

E-Mail: Miaka@worldnet.att.net

Rating: NC-17

Disclaimer: All characters belong to Joss Whedon and the WB. Please don't sue! I'm poor anyway.

Summary: When Angel comes back from hell, it's up to Willow to help him out.

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~Part 1~

Willow sat in her desk, looking blankly at the computer screen. It had been 1 year since Buffy left Sunnydale and things were getting weirder, if possible in Hellmouth. No one knew where Buffy was and Willow was starting to get worried. She missed her best friend so much <And seeing Xander and Cordelia making out in the closet doesn't help much.> She thought glumly.

Angel -- no, Angelus was getting closer. Of course being the careful person that she always is carries a stake with her everywhere she goes. She's been sensing Angelus following her when she walks home at night, and sees him in the Bronze looking at her.

She cannot understand the reason though. <Could he be out to kill me? Just like he did to Ms. Calendar?> She doubts that. Oddly she can see that he is not watching her just to kill her. She would have noticed it. Perhaps he wants something from her? Maybe he's just playing with her. Angelus is pretty popular for playing games with people after all.

But maybe not. Did the spell work? Is he Angel or is he still Angelus? Why didn't Buffy kill him? Why did she leave? Why is he looking at her that way? All these thoughts kept going through her mind, as she tried to figure them out. He didn't notice her staring right back of course. She was shy but still admired his well-made physic.

Her parents were out as usual and she was alone in the house. She tried to call Xander but his mom said he was out with Cordelia.

<Cordelia. The girl we've all hated since we were kids. The girl we made a club just to hate her even more. Why did he have to date her? Can't he see that I'm the one that truly loves him? No, that's not it. He`s just dense. And why would any guy like me anyway? I'm just plain, old, boring Willow.>

She sighed in disappointment and kept checking for E-Mail. Suddenly an odd E-mail caught her attention. It read:

To: Willow4@hotmail.com From: LoverMan@juno.com Subject: <no subject> Message: Meet me at the park before dawn. -Guess Who.

In a word she was... surprised. <Is this Angel? Or is it just Angelus trying to get me alone so he can kill me? It could be either. I do trust Angel, after all I did the spell for him and everything, but I don't trust Angelus! Oh well. Only one way to find out...> Willow got her clothes and made sure she had her stake, holy water and cross before she left the house. She thought as she left the house and went to the meeting place.

~Part 2~

She arrived safely at the park thank goodness. She started to look for Angel or Angelus, whichever it was and was suddenly attacked from behind. She tried to get her stake out but her fingers slipped and it fell to the ground. The vampire growled at her and was just about to bite her when he suddenly turned into dust. She looked up frightenly waiting for her Death but what she saw next was certainly suprising... it was Angel! She just stared at him in shock not wanting to believe that this was Angel and not Angelus. He just looked at her with calm eyes and said:

"Willow"

The name so simple yet so calm that it sent shivers down Willow`s spine. She stared right back and tried to act as boldly as she could. Deep inside she was afraid this was Angelus and he was going to snap her neck like a twig but she mustered all her courage and answered back.

"Angel?" In a voice so full of hope that it hurt.

He just nodded his head and looked at her with those sad and painful eyes. She hated it when he looked at her like that. It was like she could see all his pain through his eyes. No one deserved that kind of pain. Especially not Angel.

"Willow, I- ..." Suddenly his arms started shaking and she realized that he was weak. She tried to talk to him but he just hushed her and kept talking.

"Can we go somewhere else? I'm still weak at the moment and I need to lie down. We have a lot to discuss Willow. I just got back form Hell and I can tell you that this is not one of my best days.."

He trailed off as a vampire came up from behind him and with its claws attacked him. It left 3 gashes on his back and he screamed in pain. Willow seeing him in pain got angry and took out her holy water. Careful not to throw it at Angel she threw it at the vampire just in time for it to go running away and for Angel to fall unconscious.

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Angel woke up with a huge headache and a pained back. He tried to open his eyes but found it to be too hard and tried to welcome unconsciousness once again until he heard a small voice full of concern.

"Angel? Are you all right?" Willow asked worriedly. It had been 2 hours since he fell unconscious and she was starting to get more nervous for her friend? Love? She was not sure anymore but was correct on being worried.

"Ugh... Willow? Is that-..." When he tried to get up from her bed he felt a strong pain at his back and realized that Willow bandaged his wounds. He grunted his thanks as she put a cold cloth over his forehead. He looked at her and saw just what he was admiring at for so long these couple of days. What he saw was a mature woman. Ever since he got back from Hell he could feel that it was Willow that saved him. Somehow he felt a connection between them. He could not explain it but it was like she was the other half of his soul. I was odd in a way. He always though he loved Buffy, but after seeing Willow he started to loose his love for the Slayer.

What was this feeling he was getting? He was overprotective and never let anything harm her. Damn, he even told all the people at Hell that Willow was his and that if any of them even touched Willow they would have to deal with him first. He can`t explain it well yet, but it seems Angelus and Angel were both in love with her. Love...

He saw Angelus thoughts when he was imprisoned. All those thoughts of him, making her a vampire and her living with him for all eternity. Luckily he beat that urge and was able to protect Willow from Angelus. If anyone was going to have Willow it was going to be him. Not as her as a vampire but as the girl he loves. Sweet, loving Willow.

Although he would love her in any way...

He sorted out all these feelings while he was in Hell. He finally realized that there could be nothing between him and the Slayer, so somehow he saw Willow in a different light. The light was always there, shining brightly but he covered the light, afraid that a monster like him would destroy such innocence and beauty. But not anymore...

He was willing to love in a new light with his companion, love, dearest friend and hopefully a future mate.

"Angel? Are you ok?" Willow asked worriedly. It had been a year since she finally restored Angel`s soul. At the time she thought it was for her friend Buffy, but as time passed she realized she was doing it for herself. She had been in love with Angel since the first time she saw him.

It was scary but a nice feeling to care so deeply for someone. She was feeling happy but confused because ever since she did the spell she suddenly felt a connection with Angel. It was odd but she felt happy for once. When she found out about these feelings she tried to ignore them but everyday they got stronger.

There would not came a day that she did not think of him. And she was afraid that she would loose Buffy`s trust by going to Angel. Anyway, why would he want her? When he could have beautiful Buffy, she could not compare to such talent and beauty.

In Angels eyes she was probably just Buffy`s mousy-friend. A computer nerd. How could she compare? She wasn't Buffy or Cordelia. Not pretty or popular. Just plain, old Willow. She sighed in disappointment knowing that soon Angel would go searching for his beloved and leaving her alone. He would never be hers...

"Yeah, I'm ok. Just a little tired I guess. It`s been a long trip you know?" They both laughed a little at his attempt to make things a little easier.

Time passed and Angel finally told Willow everything. She listened and did not interrupt. He felt comfortable with her and told her things he never told anyone. She told him her secrets also, and they spent all night talking a catching up.

Little did they know that this was a beginning (?) of a friendship evolving into something much deeper. They started to see they`re feelings more clearly and were able to see the light that was always there but they prevented. Not any more would they hide they`re feelings. No more...

~Part 3~

Angel opened his eyes and was suddenly in a dark place, though he couldn't recognize it. He was walking toward someone with open arms. It was a girl and she had the most precious hair he had ever seen. She had eyes that could look through you and stare right through your soul.

Normally Angel would fear that kind of power. He had so many things to hide that he didn't want anyone seeing all the evil he had done, but this girl was different. She accepted him as he was and with no regrets loved him with all her soul. The happiness he had always searched for and thought he didn't deserve was right there. Just a few inches away from his reach... He smiled in pure bliss knowing he would be with his love...

Suddenly before he could see the face of his true beloved something came and pulled her away. She tried to fight it but to no addue. Her lips breathed his name and she was suddenly engulfed into darkness. "NO!!!!!!!" He screamed with all the pain and suffering for losing his one true love and with his game face on he looked at the person that took away his only chance at happiness.

But it was too late. The killer left him alone laughing all the way. Laughing at his suffering. Angel could tell it was a vampire, a strong one, even more strong than the Master if possible. He raged and cursed in Greek. He ran after the vampire but no matter how fast he ran he could not catch up to him. He fell to the ground and realized something fell on his hand.

He looked down and realized that for the first time in his whole immortal-life he was crying. He cried his heart out at all the pain and suffering. He cried for Buffy, for failing her. He cried for all the innocent people he killed, but most of all he cried for his love... the face he would never see... The person he could never touch... The person that was his future....

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"Angel! Angel!" Willow started to shake him uncontrollably. They talked all night about everything. Angel apologized for not coming to her sooner but he was afraid she would reject him like all the others... <Stupid!> She screamed to him in her mind. <How could you think I would reject you? I love you for heaven sake! I saved you from Hell, and you thought I would reject you??!!>

After their little reunion, she started crying. After hiding her feelings for so long they finally came back to haunt her and she cried all night in his strong arms. She felt protected and safe there in his arms. It just felt so right. And when she cried all her tears out, before falling asleep she whispered in his arms: "Stay with me..." She felt him nod in response and she fell into a deep slumber in the arms of her love.

But while she was sleeping he suddenly cried out. She woke up immediately and faced him, seeing that he was having a nightmare. She was scared. His cry was so filled with anguish and fear that it felt like a dagger had been struck in her heart.

"ANGEL!" She cried out with more intensity and finally she saw his eyelids open. He looked around the room for a few seconds and relaxed seeing that he was in Willows room. He looked up and saw Willow crying over him. He looked confused and put a tuck of her hair behind her ear. "Willow? What's wrong?" He asked worriedly.

Instead of answering she threw herself into his arms and cried uncontrollably. "Angel, I thought something had happened to you. I thought-..." She trailed off and just kept on clinging to him, crying on his chest.

Angel understood now. She was worried for him. He could never understand how such an honest and beautiful person can care for a monster like him but he brushed the thought aside, thinking only of the girl in his arms. He held her and rocked her like a baby, saying soothing words too her to make sure she knew he was all right.

But that was the least he was. He was surely not fine. He kept repeating his dream in his mind and tried to figure out who the girl was. That hair and those eyes were so special and caring. And he didn't even know who she was. He cursed at himself for such a weakness.

Willow finally stopped crying and looked at him with embarrassed eyes. "I'm sorry for ruining your shirt Ange..." She stopped short as she realized he didn't even have a shirt on. <Oh my.> Was all that could go through Willows mind. She just stared at his well-defined body and how his ripples moved. She felt a desire of pure ecstasy, but pushed it behind her mind quickly. She thought sadly.

Angel seeing Willow`s sad face he immediately tried to make her feel better. He cracked a smile for her. "Willow, go to sleep. I`m ok, just had a nightmare that's all."

At her skeptical glance he added, "No really, I`m all right. Come on now. You need you're rest." His worry was clearly written on his face.

She smiled one of those cherry smiles. "You know Angel, that you're eyes show everything that you feel? I really do love you're eyes. You need rest also. Come on. We don't want black circles under our eyes right?" She said with a laugh.

He nodded and put her in his arms once again. They lay there in the bed and Willow finally went to sleep with dreams of Angel. He just stayed awake watching her sleep with a smile on her face. Finally he started to fall asleep. One thought ran through his head as he went to a deep slumber,

~Part 4~

Angel awoke with a smile on his face. Suddenly he remembered his nightmare before and his face turned right back to that of a man in serious pain and turmoil. He jumped when he felt something moving beside him, and as he looked down he couldn't help but smile again.

There was Willow with a huge grin plastered on her face. She whispered something and hugged him tighter. He strained his vampiric senses and tried to listen what she said. "What?" he whispered.

She whispered it again but her mouth on his chest blocked it out. "What?" he asked again. What she said next made him happy.

"Thank you for staying." She repeated.

He put a lock of her hair behind her ear and smiled at her once again. "Come on Princess, Ill always be here if you need me. Of course to tell you the truth I think I'm the one that needs you." He chuckled a bit.

"No way. I'm just plain, old Willow. No one needs me. I mean look at Buffy. She left and hasn't even written to me yet. No one wants me or cares for me. Thought I would admit it would be nice but still, you can never have what you want here in Sunnydale huh?" She kept on babbling.

"Wilow! Come on! Don`t ever think that! My God, you save me from Hell! You were the one that always kept the group together! *I* need you! *I* want you! *I* care for you! Don`t ever think that again!" Then before he knew what he was doing, he kissed her. It was slow and sweet and Willow was all too happy to oblige.

"Angel." She gasped as he left her mouth and started to kiss his way to her ear and neck. He pulled her down on the bed with him and started to suck a bit on her neck. Willow was a little scared. If Angel suddenly lost his control she would become a vampire. <But would that be so bad?> her mind told her. <After all you do love him. Why would it be bad to be with the one you love for eternity?>

She thought of all this so she didn't notice Angel going lower to her collarbone. She gasped knowing what Angel was planning on doing to her, and frantically got off him and went to the other side of the room. Though she would be happy to be with him in that way she just couldn't do it. His heart didn't belong to her. It belonged to Buffy... She started to cry, knowing he would never be hers.

"Willow?" He asked confused. Why did she back away like that? Didn't she know that he loved her with all of his heart? His love for the Slayer was gone forever, and now that he finally found his future she was backing away?

"I'm sorry. Did I offend you?" He asked, scared that he might of have ruined their relationship.

"No. It's not that. Its just you're confused that's all. No one can ever love me in that way. No man has ever touched me that way either. It's just so new, but I know it was just a fluke so it's ok." She whispered.

"It wasn't a fluke Willow. I really do care for you."

"In a friend way right? Cuz I know that you love Buffy. Just go with Buffy, Angel. Go to the one that you truly love." She started crying even more as she said this. She was just giving up the love of her life for her best friend.

"But Willow, I am with my one true love right now." He said in a husky voice.

"Huh? What are you talking about Angel? Buffy`s not here." She looked around the room anyway.

"That's because it's not Buffy..."

"What?" This could not be happening. But sure enough. She looked up from her lap and was suddenly facing those chocolate brown eyes she always lost herself into. Green met Brown as the looked at each other immensely with love in their eyes.

"I love you..." Angel whispered as he leaned forward to meet her into a kiss.

"I love you too..." She whispered back and tilted her head so she could meet his kiss.

Their lips touched lightly as Angel put his arm around her waist, while she put her hands in his silky hair. They kept on kissing like that until Willow grew impatient and let the kiss deepen. He was all too happy to grant her wishes as he followed her lead. She whimpered against him and he pulled her even nearer to him.

She put her head back gasping for air. "You're lucky you don't need any air." She said.

He just chuckled and looked at her lovingly. "I do love you Princess."

"What about Buffy?" She asked with a pang of sadness.

"She out of my life forever. What about Oz?" He asked with jealousy. "Oz is dead." She whispered.

"What??" He asked in disbelief.

"Vampires got him. I couldn't stop them. I got there too late." She started to cry again and Angel gathered her in his arms and tried to comfort her.

"I'm so sorry. And I wasn't here to help you through it. Damn, come here Princess" He kissed her on the forehead and kept rocking her, like a mother soothing its child. In a while her sobbing turned into sniffles and she looked at him again.

"You know this is another time that I'm in your arms comforting me? And you're the one that got back from Hell." She said jokingly, trying to liven the atmosphere.

"Yes, and I hope its not the last time I hold you like this." He kissed her neck and tightened his hold on her. She groaned and put her hands on his face so he was looking at her. "Are you sure that you're over Buffy? This is not a dream of mine is it?"

He kissed her again and whispered in her mouth "She`s out of my life."

They stayed like that all day just kissing and saying soothing words to each other for comfort. Willow for once was actually happy.

~Part 5~

They awoke it each other's arms. Willow was the first one to get up; she opened her eyes and smiled realizing that her love was holding her. She snuggled against him and absorbed his warmth. She opened her eyes as a ray of daylight hit her face.

She suddenly remembered that there was a vampire right beside her and started to push herself frantically away from him, before he turned into dust. He just mumbled something and pushed her against him tighter. She moaned, enjoying the feel of him against her. She remembered what was happening and tried to disentangle herself from his wonderful body.

He didn't move and she started to panic. What would happen if her love would turn into dust right in front of her? She wouldn't allow it! Mumbling a few words in Italian, her body surrounded by light, she opened her eyes, which at the moment were yellow and all the windows got drapes over them.

She sighed in relief and was suddenly confronted with a wide-awake Angel. She tried to smile but it only came out as a grimace.

"Princess! What was that?! Are you all right? Why did you glow? Don`t look at me that way! Tell me! Willow! Willow?" He rambled on and on.

"I`m all right Angel. I just did a spell to make sure that you don`t turn into dust. See?" She said pointing to the windows. "No more day. I covered them up." She smiled a sweet smile at this.

"Princess, since when do you do spells? This doesn't make any sense! You're a mortal! Are you sure you're ok?" He stopped talking, as a very tired and worn out Willow fainted into his arms.

He was worried about her and checked her over, making sure she was really all right. After a quick check-up he sighed in relief and kissed the top of her forehead. <What would I have done if anything happened to her because of me?> He thought angrily. But he was grateful at what she did. <She saved my life... again.>

Angel, rocking Willow, started to think once again at his nightmare. What did it mean? Was someone going to kill Willow? Was Willow the one in his dream? Could be... If it were true, then he would have to back away from her. There would be no way he would let anyone harm her, not even himself.

He pushed those thoughts aside as he looked at the woman in his arms. Most people thought she was a nerdy teenager but Angel saw her true beauty. He watched her over the years and he knew that she would turn, from a flower to a beautiful rose. He smiled remembering that innocence she always had and still does.

He frowned, remembering his actions. He stopped thinking of `what ifs` as he felt Willow moving against him.

He couldn't help the moan that escaped his lips. She was so soft. He tightened his hold on her, trying to ignore these feelings. She would never give him her innocence. He didn't deserve it. Closing his eyes he kissed her hair and breathed her name.

"Angel?" She mumbled. Looking up she was surprised at what she saw. There was Angel looking at her deeply with an expression she didn't recognize. Looking deeper she gasped at what she saw reflected in his eyes. What she saw there was utter and unconditional love and something else... lust.

She was amazed at what she could see by just looking at his eyes. She tried to control herself, but hormones got the better of her, as she tossed herself against him and started to kiss him gently.

His eyes widened but he didn't protest. Kissing her back he started to run his hands all over her body. He felt her shudder against him and he deepened the kiss.

Enjoying the feel of him against her she started to unbutton his shirt. After literally ripping it off him she started to plant butterfly kisses all over his chest. He growled against his breath and started to rock his hips against hers.

He stopped short and looked at her with eyes full of lust, desire and hope. "Willow, are you sure about this? I don`t think I deserve you. And I might hurt you. And..." He was cut short as Willow kissed him urgently on the lips.

"Angel, I want this. I want you. That is, if you don`t want me that's all right and I`ll stop." She bowed her head in defeat.

Taking her chin in his hands he kissed her and with eyes filled with desire and love, he whispered "I love you, Princess, and I want you more than anything I`ve ever wanted in my whole life."

She smiled and said, "I love you too. Your eyes tell me everything I need to know. It`s like a gate to your soul. Now love me for all you've got." She said sexily.

He was all too happy to oblige...

"Now love me for all you`ve got." Willow said sexily.

Angel smiled and started to kiss her. Moving his hands all over her body she groaned in response and pulled her hips forward, trying to get him as close to her as she possibly could.

He pulled out of the kiss and looked at her with eyes that held mischief. She smiled to herself. <What would I have done if he hadn`t responded?>

"Willow?" He asked in a sultry voice.

She sucked her breath and answered. "Yes?"

"Could you get the cat out of here?" He asked sweetly.

Willow was confused. Cat? What was he talking about? Quickly looking around the room she saw what he was talking about. There was Butter nuzzling Angel`s foot. Butter wasn`t hers though. Amy gave the cat to her to baby-sit, while she was off for the holidays. Willow made a noise and picked up the cat.

"Butter, if you don`t know it yet, that's my man your rubbing your cheek against." Angel started to laugh but stopped immediately seeing the look Willow gave him. Taking the cat she tossed it across the room, a good 3 yards and walked towards Angel with a wicked smile of her own.

He just smiled back, with his arms behind his head, not moving an inch. He was curious at what she was going to do. After all she was a virgin. And that's a major turn on.

Grinning from ear to ear, she turned away from him and walked towards the bathroom. Angel almost topled over from shock. She was leaving? Just like that, and no night? "Willow? Princess, where are you going?" He asked nervously.

Turning around, Willow cast him with another sultry gaze. "Entertaining you..." She whispered.

Slowly unbuttoning her shirt with easiness and grace she took off her shirt. Letting it flutter to the floor she kept with her actions. Taking off her skirt she turned away from him and let it pool to the floor along with her shirt. Finally getting to her bra she unhooked it and threw it at Angel`s face.

If Angel would have any breath he would be panting. Seeing Willow like this was odd but certainly arousing. He felt himself getting harder by the second. Whimpering he stood up and walked towards her like a predator surrounding its prey.

Willow looked at the corner of her eye that Angel stood up and was surrounding her, as if he was going to jump her any second. The thought exited her and thrilled her at the same time. Putting her chin up in the air stubbornly, she tried not to look at him. After all he was only teasing her and sooner or later she would give up, and throw herself at him.

Angel was enjoying this too much. There was Willow, acting defenseless and innocent and he was getting more aroused. Finally giving up on this game and going to another, he jumped her and threw her roughly on the bed. Tearing off his pants and underwear he rubbed himself against her.

Willow moaned loudly and started to rock her hips against his in a erotic fashion. "Angel... please..." she begged.

He smiled and put his hands on her sex. In one fluid movement he ripped her underwear to shreds and put his finger inside her hot core. Slowly torturing her he kept with his slow movements and put another finger, and another. Soon there were three of his fingers in her canal.

Whimpering and wriggling, she tried to put more pressure where she needed it most. But he just kept with his wonderful and torturing ministrations. She screamed when he took one of her nipples in his mouth and sucked greedily. Pinching the other with his thumbs, he put all his attention to the nipple in his mouth, and the fingers in her cunt.

Willow growing impatient with his slow, deliberate moves she snaked her hands from him and started to rub his shaft. Growling, Angel rocked his hips at the tempo of her hands. Rubbing him harder, trying to get him over the edge before she lost control, Willow tried over and over again. She cried when she felt him bite her nipple with one of his fangs.

"Angel... I need... you..." She cried in frustration. But he wanted to give her complete pleasure and whispered in her ear:

"Are you coming for me Willow? Come little one, come..." And Willow lost it. Screaming in pleasure, she saw all kinds of colors in her eyes as she orgasmed, screaming his name. Angel led her through her orgasm as much as he could, and finally taking pity on her he let her go. Panting heavily, she kissed the top of his head.

"Thank you." "Were not done yet Willow."

Waiting for a few moments for her to recharge he absent-mindedly rubbed her right breast. Finally Willow regained her strength and took his manhood in her hands. Starting from the tip, she slid her hand back and forth his cock and little by little putting more pressure as she went.

Growling, Angel rocked his hips at her movements. This was torture! Her hands were like the wind touching his skin. Her mouth on his chest was like feather kisses that almost tickled. Whispering her name he urged her to keep going.

Willow got an idea and bent her head downwards. Taking him in her mouth she sucked him for all he was worth. Screaming he took her head in his hands and pulled her closer to him. Looking at the ceiling, he thought of how warm her mouth was.

She licked the sides, kissed the top, sucked the length and played with his balls in her hands. Taking him completely in her mouth, she tried not to gag. He was a mouthful! Stopping her actions, she pulled away from him and asked: "Who do you want?"

He looked at her as if she grew two heads but responded anyway. "Willow!!!"

"That's the right answer." She said with a smile. Covering him once again with her mouth he lost it and saw stars as he screamed her name.

Lying on the bed happily he lay down on the pillow and pulled Willow to him. "That was wonderful Princess. And you`re a virgin?" He said with a chuckle.

"Silly. So are we done?" She asked already knowing the answer. He looked at her and kissed her with longing and love. "What do you think?" He replied huskily.

Taking her hips in his hands he positioned himself to enter her. "Put your legs on my hips." he ordered. She did as she was told and cried out as he pushed himself a little into her hot opening. Little by little he moved inside her, careful not to hurt her in any way. All of Willow`s virginal fears came flooding back to her and all thoughts left her head as she felt Angel kiss her gently.

"Ready Willow?" He asked. She nodded her head and he sucked his breath. Pulling back one more time he pushed himself inside her and she cried out as her hymen broke. Tears streaming down her face she held her pain and pushed herself suggestively saying she was all right, at his frantic questions.

He let her grow used to him inside her and she pushed up, signaling she was ready. Rocking his hips he pulled back and forth into her. Moaning loudly, Willow took her hands and ran it through his hair. He increased their tempo and soon the were going at a quick speed. Moaning and growling they both felt themselves losing control.

Angel put his thumb on her clit, and started to rub in circular movements, trying to make her come. Suddenly she came with a cry of high pleasure and screamed his name: "ANGEL!!!"

He lost it and got into his game face. Burying himself deeper than he could, he bit her neck. Sucking and shooting his sperm inside her he felt he would die in pleasure right there. He was fucking and feeding and it was a very intense moment. He didn`t do this with anyone before and now he was sharing this experience with his love... Willow.

Totally worn out he fell beside her and kissed her. She tried to smile a cherry smile, and giggled seeing as she didn`t have a cherry anymore... He had his game face still on and she didn`t mind. It was part of who he was and she accepted that. Kissing his knit-up brow she went to a sleep with her love.

"I love you..." She whispered.

"I love you too Princess. Now sleep, you deserve it." Angel answered back.

She nodded and he licked at the two marks he left on her neck. He was still part-demon after all so it was natural to bite while making love. He decided to say sorry to Willow when they woke up. Closing his eyes and wrapping her closer to him, he fell to a sleep with his lover and future...

~Part 6~

"Hey, watch where you`re going you punk!" The man screamed, as the young blond stumbled on him.

"I`m… sorry…" Buffy whispered. The man just growled and kept walking.

Sighing, she walked towards the museum. Her… home? Was that what it was? After all, after she left Sunnydale there was no more home for her. So she started to work at a dinner, sleeping around. Little things like those were what kept her alive in the real world.

Getting an old newspaper out of her pocket, she laid down on a bench and tried to sleep. Sleep did not come easily to the Slayer though. Different kinds of things went through her mind. Did her mom miss her? Did she even care? Were her friends all right? Were they even alive? And then came what she always dreamt, and thought about…

Angel…

Who was Angel? Her love? Her enemy? Her friend? She laughed bitterly at the thought. Angel was no more, now it was Angelus.

Angelus…

The one that haunted her dreams and threatened to take what little sanity she had left. She hoped he was rotting in Hell right now.

Xander…

Her best guy bud. The one that always put a smile on her face. He was a good friend, always happy and cheerful. She hoped he was well and healthy.

Cordelia…

How was Queen C. these days? She was sure that Cordelia was worrying about clothes and makeup, instead of even thinking of the dangers in Hellmouth. That`s Cordelia for you.

Willow…

Her best friend. The one that understands her and never backs down from anything. The Slayer laughed, remembering the hackers `resolve face`. If someone kept the group together it was Willow. Even Angel liked her. She frowned at that thought. Now that she thought about it, Angel was acting pretty weird before he lost his soul. Always willing on helping Willow with research, and smiling when she came up in a conversation.

Did Angel…. Like Willow?

That can`t possibly happen. Willow may be her friend, but even Buffy had to admit that Willow wasn't perfect in the looks department.

Mom…

Why did she always have to give her a hard time about everything? Couldn`t she see that she didn`t choose to have this Slayer buisness? If she could be a normal teenager, all would be fine. But things were *not* fine. Far from it actually.

Everyone needed her. The vampire population is getting bigger and they need her help. She may not be research girl, but she knew when a bad demon was coming. And oddly, it seemed like whatever it was that was coming is much stronger than the Master…

The Slayer shuddered, remembering when she died. She was *not* ready for that experience to come back to haunt her. Whoever was out there, she would stake and kill. And Angel would not be there. <In fact, screw Angel.> she thought. <I`m going to fight this without his help. And I will not cry over something that had nothing to do with me.>

But deep inside, Buffy knew that it *was* her fault, that her love lost his soul and went totally wacko. After that night, she knew what she did and tried to deny it. But she knew… She was responsible for all those deaths.

Ms. Calendar…

The best teacher she could ever have, was now dead by the hand of her ex. How could she be so un-guarded when Angelus was out? All her fault that the teachers boyfriend was greiving right now.

Giles…

Her Watcher, friend, and maybe even more that that? She had hurt him inmensly, by letting Angelus kill his one true love. Replaying everything in her mind, she sobbed, as she realized how many times she had the chance on killing the demon. If she could have only killed him when she had the chance, then Giles could have Jenny right now and everything would be fine.

No time to grieve. It was time to take action and fight along with her friends. It was her job, she was the Chosen and it was time she took responsibility for it.

Looking determined, Buffy finally decided what she was going to do…

She was going home…

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