Author: Calie15

Parts: 1

E-Mail: calie15@aol.com

Disclaimer: I don't own them and I just need them for a minute cause I am in a bad mood right now.

Rating: PG

Summary: Will's depressed. You know what that means.. Comfortfic!!
 
 

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~Part: 1~

Willow laid in her bed and cried. She really didnt know why. Everything that was happening to her was taking a deep impact on her. She couldn't stand it anymore. No one knew how she felt and they couldn't understand. They couldn't even understand her or who she was. She just felt terrible. She just wanted to come in there and hold her and tell her everything was going to be okay. But no one was coming and no one was going to come. She tried so hard to make people like her but it never seemed to be enough. She wasn't the prettiest person in the world that was for sure. But did that mean that she couldnt have anything good in the world and her friends got everything? What made them so much more special then her? She sat up and went over to the phone. Her first choice was to call Buffy. But how do you tell someone that you feel bad cause they get everything and you don't. Then there was Xander. Her best friend in the whole world. But at the moment she just didnt feel like she could talk to him about this. She felt truly alone. She finally got up climbed down the balcony to take a walk. Not even thinking about any of the dangers in Sunnydale.

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Angel walked slowly down the streets of Sunnydale. Everyone was inside. Which was good. It is about time people started noticing something was weird around here. He just walked around not knowing in which way to go. And since he was a night person it wasn't like he could just go to bed. He look at the dreary picture before him. It had just stopped raining about 30 minutes ago and it was cloudy and cool outside. The streets and sidewalk had puddles all around. The grass was muddy and the ground slippery. It looked like he felt. Depressed. But it wasn't anything knew. WIth the cold air out right now he probably would have shivered. But that wasn't possible. He kept walking not knowing in which direction. He all of a sudden heard a scrapping noise. He looked as far as he could and he thought he could spot someone out waking. He sped up to see if it was a person or a vampire. As he got closer he could since it was a human. They where walking slowly kicking up the rocks on the street without a care in the world. This was a stupid person being out this late at night. He thought he better watch them so no vampires would catch them. He walked over to the side of the street doing his best not to be seen. He waited for the person to walk past him then he took up following the person.

For the next few minutes he just followed the girl (which he just noticed was a girl). She didnt seem to be doing anything. He was starting to let his curiosity get the best of him and he walked aster to try to get a glimpse of the girl that was that foolish to be out this late at night. He noticed she was rather tiny and head about shoulder length red hair. He couldnt get a good look at her face. He walked a little faster. When he got as close as he dared he heard a sob escape her lips. It was one of the most dreadful things he had ever heard. He noticed that she was only wearing a pair of pajama pants and a T-shirt. So she must be shivering. It was about 50 outside. She started to slow down as her sobs got louder. She finally walked up to a get and stood up against it and sank to the ground. She put her head in her hand and cried.

What could possibly wrong with her he thought. Here she was walking out late at night by herself. And she was pretty young. In hardly any clothes and sitting on the wet ground crying. He sat and watched just hoping to get a glimpse of her face. Her crying finally subsided and she took a couple of deep breathes. She finally started to lift her head up giving Angel a perfect picture of who it was. Even with her tear stained face and her hair sticking to her face and her red eyes he could still recognize who it was. Willow.

He walked slowly over to her. She looked up when she heard his foot steps. At the least she was surprised. At the moment she had forgotten about what was bothering her. He bent down and lifted her up off the ground and held her up stead on the ground till she could finally support herself. He took off his leather jacket and wrapped it tightly around her body.

"Wi-" He stopped when she shook her head telling him that she didnt want to talk about it. "All right. Lets get you home." She nodded and allowed him to put his arm around her back and guide her home.

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When Willow had climbed back onto her balcony she opened her door and looked at Angel who had followed her up.

"Willow what's wrong?" He asked and demanding an answer.

She sighed and walked into her room. "You can come in." she said.

He followed her in to her room. It looked the same as the time when he had gutted her fish. Wish right away made him realize that she just invited him nto her house. It surprised him but made him feel good at the sam time to know that she trusted him.

Willow walked over and sat on her bed. She look up at Angel who was still standing up near the door.

"Sit." she commanded. He walked over to where she was sitting and sat next to her. She sighed again.

"Your probably wondering why I was out there in the freezing cold weather in my pajamas right?"

He shook his head.

She couldn't believe she was actually going to tell him this. she couldnt. It was to embarrassing. Her problems where nothing in comparison with his. If he wasn't such a nice person he would probably laugh in her face.

"Oh God I cant tell you this." She stood up and paced around her room picking up things and looking at them. "Its to stupid."

"Well it must have been a good enough reason if you where walking out there in the freezing cold weather." he said.

"But I hardly know you. I probably haven't even had a total of 5 conversations with you. Which isn't surprising considering no one wants to talk to me. " Willow said not even realizing she was telling Angel what was wrong. "I mean no one seems to notice me. Xander, Buffy, Cordelia, you." By now she was pacing her room much faster and making dramatic gestures with her hands. "I've liked Xander for so long. Did he ever notice???? Nooooooo. But he DID notice Cordelia now didnt he. Maybe I should go out and dress all skimpy to get people to notice me. It worked for Buffy. Not to say I don't like Buffy. She is my best friend. But it obviously worked on you. She had you following her around like a dog."

Angel was rather taken aback by that. He had never thought about it that way before. He hadn't seen to much of Buffy lately since he got back from hell. It ws to much for him and her. But he guessed she was referring to before he lost his soul. But his attention was drawn back to Willow when she continued.

"So lets see Xander never noticed but he noticed the skimpy girl in school. Cordy well never paid the least bit of attention to me unless it was to make fun of me or to copy my work. Buffy doesn't even notice how left out I feel. But why should it matter she has enough of her own problems right now. And there there is you Angel. Who like I said has been obsessed with Buffy. Even without your soul. When is someone going to notice me! The only things that notice me or the things that want my blood. But i guess I should be thankful for that much right. You know your the same as the rest of them. Even Cordelia. Just coming to people when you need help. Yea I know you have helped us form time to time defeat monsters and demons. But when have you actually talked to me.?" She stopped and turned and glared at him. He had never seen her this upset. He had never thought her to be like this. He didnt even know she felt like this.

"Lets see well there was that time you saved me from when we had that crazy invisible girl. I have to give you points for that one. And then oh yea went Buffy went to that frat party. You treated Buffy bad back then. You know Angel for someone who wants to do good you sure know how to make people feel like shit. You got upset cause Buffy wanted to go have some fun and because you didnt want to do anything with her. There's a laugh for ya. Hmmmm and lets see oh yea we cant forget this one. When Buffys friend cam to town. You wanted my help to find out about him. Remember that. You actually came strait to me for that one. There's another great example of people just coming to me for help." She smirked at him but continued.

" Hmmmm. I cant remember much more. Wait! Wait! I got one! I cant believe I forgot! You tried to kill me!!! Of course this was after you lost your soul. Lets see what was it you said?" She stared up at the ceiling thinking for a moment. He remember perfectly well what he said. He just didnt want to remind her. But she remembered perfectly on her own.

"I remember! 'But she's so cute and innocent. A real turn on' I hate being the innocent one!!!" She picked the remote to her tv and threw it. It broke into a few pieces when it hit the wall. She looked back at him. She didnt feel the least bit of guilt for her actions. In fact she was feeling better. So why stop.

"Oh and then there was when I was gracious enough to Try to give you back your soul. But for that I wound up in the hospital! And then I even tried again. This time I got it right. But you where sent to hell." For a moment her thoughts took a turn remembering him getting sent to hell. It must have been terrible for him. But she wasn't finished.

"Then you came back. Did I ever get thank you???? Noooooo I got two broken legs for giving you your soul back. Kendra got killed!" She hit a soft spot there. She noticed him flinch. Obviously bringing up all these bad things that happened was making him feel a little bad to say the least. bUt she was to far gone to stop. If she would have thought about this later she probably would have concluded she wasn't sane.

"You neve apologized to anyone. I know you felt bad and you probably went through hell after. Literally actually. But we had a tough time to. We had to watch our back every night! Scared that one night we wouldnt make it home."

Angel was starting to get a little upset by all of her yelling and accusations. Actually it was getting the demon upset. Which he didnt like. But he couldnt avoid it.

"Then there was the thing that broke us all. The death of Ms. Calendar when she tried to restore your soul." She stopped then though when he stood up. She heard a growl come from deep down in the pit of his stomach. She didnt know if she should be scared or not. His eyes gave a hint of getting ready to change. She told herself to back off. But she couldnt. She wasn't thinking rationally at the moment. In the time of her ranting she started crying. She hadn't even realized it. she lifted a hand to her face an wiped the tears away.

"What are you trying to do scare me??? she asked knowing that would just make him more mad. And it was true because he growled again. This time his teeth where showing. The only thing that hadn't changed yet was his face.

"You don't scare me anymore. I don't care. I have been stalked, broken, threatened, knocked out, almost burned on the stake, and kidnapped. A vampire with a soul and a bad attitude isn't going to do much to me at the moment." That did it he had totally changed.

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Angel didnt even realize he had changed. He knew he was getting really mad a Willow. He had never expect someone to say that to him. He always thought about it himself. But no one had ever just came out and blamed him to his face. So he took the easy way out of the situation he got mad and tried to scare her.

When Willow saw him change she right away feared she had pushed him over the edge. "Little old Willow making depressed old Angel mad?" she said taunting him.

That was all he had to hear. He growled and grabbed her by her arms and slammed her into the wall. She was scared now. Fresh tears where falling down her face now. But nothing cam out her mouth she didnt even cower down. She just stared at him hoping he would gain control of himself. But she refused to apologize. She couldnt think of anything to say everything had been said. But now it was Angels turn to talk.

"Don't ever EVER talk to me like that again!" he yelled at her. "Or I swear I will-"

"What kill me?" she said interrupting him.

He backed up realizing what he was about to say. His features changed back to human and he backed up towards the bed and sat down and put his heads in his hands. She sank down to the ground leaned against the wall. How could she take back all the terrible things she said about him. He didnt deserve it he had been put through enough pain for a lot of people. She slowly got up without making an noise. He didn't seem to notice. She walked over to where he was sitting and sat down and put her hand on his arm. He turned sharply around growled causing her to jump back and crawl the back board of her bed stopping when she couldn't go back any further.

When Willow had put her hand on his arms it had startled him and making him turn around growl at her. When he saw her back up he realized what he did.

"Willow Im sorry." He reached out to touch her but she flinched away. He withdrew his hand and turned away from her. She realized that she mad him feel worse by pulling away from him so she crawled over to where he was on the opposite side of the bed and sat next to him.

"A-Angel Im sorry. I should never have said any of that to you." she said slowly.

"Yea but you where thinking it right?" he said a little more hatefully then he planned.

She was surprised by his words but quickly answered him. "No I was just so upset with being ignored and being the plain one and being left out just made me want to take my anger out on you. I never thought any of those things. I know it wasn't you that did all of that Angel. I just wanted to hurt you and make you feel like I felt. Angel, when you came back from hell I never had any anger against you." She looked over at him but he didnt say anything. He finally stood up.

"I think I should leave." he said and headed towards her door.

She started crying again. She stood up. "Angel, please don't leave." He stopped when he got half way ot the door. He turned around and walked to where she was standing. Willow was aware of how close they where standing. If Angel had breath she could probably feel it on her face.

"Why?" he asked.

"What do you mean why?" She looked up into his face finally.

"Why do you want me to stay?" he asked quietly.

"Because I don't want to be alone."

"Why do you think your alone?" He put his hand up to her ace and wiped away the tears. The gesture itself made her start to cry all over again.

"Because everyone has someone. And I don't have no one." she said softly but still looking up into his face.

"I don't have anyone." he pointed out.

"Yes you do. You have Buffy." she said.

"Not anymore. Me and Buffy are through. You where right I hurt to many people." he said.

"But Angel I didnt mean-" she began to argue but he put his finger up to her lips.

"Shhhhhh." he said shushing her.

She blinked back her tears and noticed that he was standing much closer then he was before. They where practically touching. She could feel the coolness of his skin. It made her nervous. But a good nervous. She also noticed that Angel face seemed to be closer to her own. She took in a deep breath and let it out not knowing what to except. She lifted head up a little farther so that she was now only a couple of inches away from his on face. She knew what was happening. But wasn't sure if it was right.

"What do you want now?" She whispered.

"Just you." he said and he lowered his head till there lips met and kissed her. A nice looooong kiss.

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