Rating: PG
Summary: Willow's reflection of Angelus
Disclaimer: Joss is the master I am simply a minion following his evil ways.
Author's Note: *Important* Buffy and Angel were never together it's just wrong in so many ways. He was with Willow where he should be. Everything is the same as far as the show. Also this is based upon Save Ferris' Lies <Great Song>
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Lies, to deceive
Tellin' lies, tellin' lies
I cant believe
Willow sat at her desk writing in her journal. The one place she could be herself. Tell her true feelings. The only place...now. Now that she found out the truth.
Lies, to deceive
So many lies, so many lies
Why do we believe
I found out the reason why Angel has been acting weird
The past week. God this is so hard. He has no soul
anymore and there is no one to blame but myself. The
happiest night of my life was when the devil was freed
from his cage.
I've done wrong
Listened to the wrong advice
I saw something in you once
Now I see it ain't nice
If anyone gets hurt it's my fault. I feel so stupid. Buffy
told me to be careful, that Angel wasn't just some guy
you meet in a coffee shop. But I was blinded by my heart.
He is my heart. It's hard to see him for what he really is
when I love him so much. I was so blind that I couldn't
even see that he was playing with me and my friends.
Trouble is, I believed in you
I was the one who was being fooled
But I won't let it be the same
I won't fall back into your little games of
Lies, that deceive
Xander was right about Angel. It makes me sick to think
about it. The hurtful things he told me about what he felt...
felt about me. What he felt about the love we once shared.
But I have to let him go. He died that night when I gave him
every part of myself.
Your little lies, your little lies
I can't believe
Lies, won't retrieve
The love you lost, the love you lost
When you lost me
I have to let him go. But how do you say goodbye to
someone that means your whole world. He was
the first I ever gave my heart to and now this monster has
taken it and used it to hurt me.
You filled my head with untruth
Made me believe that you were you
Fed me lines of make-believe
But this time it's you who'll see
Your lies, won't retrieve
I'm just going to do what I need to do. I have to think
of the safety of my friends. I have to except that Angel is
dead and this monster with his face needs to be stopped.
No matter what he tries to do or say. I can't believe
anything he says no matter how much I want to trust him.
The love you lost, the love you lost
When you lost me
When the situation occurred
You quickly hid behind your words
So I'm going to say goodbye to him. I may not get to
tell Angel to his face but I know he will hear me...his
soul will hear me. I have to do this for our love, for
Angel...for me.
I open up my eyes
And soon I realized
That it's to late, my love had turned to hate
And there's nothing left for you
Angel~
I hate that I have to write this letter and that I'm no being held
in your strong arms. I need you. Why did you have to leave.
I miss you so much. I've been crying sense I've been home after Angelus
tried to kill Xander. He used your memories to hurt me. I'm trying
to deal but I know now that it isn't you and that you are gone. But
I wont forget every moment that we shared. How much you loved me
I will always hold that in my heart. So I'll say my last words to
you in this letter and it could be a step to letting you go. I love
you and I'm sure that love won't every go way fully and I wish you were
here. I'm going to be strong for you . Goodbye my Angel.
Love,
Willow
Angelus closed the redhead's journal and walked over to the bed where Willow was fast asleep. Her eyes were swollen from crying. He pushed the red strands out of her face and bent down to kiss her on the lips.
"Don't worry Willow you can't forget me." Angelus smirked and walked out of her room through her french doors, out into the night.
Willow woke up from the night are. She walked over to her double doors and shut them. She went back into bed turned to see what time it was and saw a cream colored envelop. She sat up and opened it. It was a drawing of herself sleeping and under it were the mocking words of Angel's love.
I love you and that love will never change
Willow noticed a piece of paper that fell from the drawing. She looked down at it.
I guess he was wrong
~Angelus
She was scared but she put the drawing down with the note. But as she put the paper down she didn't cry. She wouldn't let Angelus' lies bother her. Not anymore.
And your lies, to deceive
So many lies, so many lies
Why do we believe
The End