Pairing: Willow/Angel
Genres: Drabbles and Ficlets, Angst
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: none
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Ever since that night at the Bronze, Angel had barely been able to look at Willow. Even though the heat wave had passed and Willow was once again dressed in her customary fuzzy and baggy clothing, she still had a hold on him. Still starred in his most erotic and dangerous dreams.
He couldn’t stop thinking about her. About what it would be like to take that sweet, innocent girl and make her his whore. To teach her about pleasure. About pain. And the joys of mixing the two until one became the other. To teach her to serve him. To take her in dangerous and perverse ways and make her beg for more. To use her for his own amusement and make her enjoy the humiliation. He dreamed about it every night.
The guilt was starting to overwhelm him. How could he do this to Buffy? Leave her every night and go home to dream about debauching her best friend? He loved Buffy, deeply and truly. So why was Willow the one who starred in his depraved sexual fantasies? Why was it Willow’s name he called out as he brought himself release in the shower each day?
Maybe it was transference. Because Buffy kept stopping short of fully giving herself to him. Teasing him with kisses and caresses and leaving before he was satisfied. And maybe sublimated frustration with her caused him to fantasize about her best friend. Maybe he was taking out his anger at Buffy on a substitute in his dreams. That must be it. It couldn’t be that he was actually lusting after the shy little hacker. It couldn’t be that he wanted to use and abuse Willow in such terrible ways.
Angel felt much better about things now. Tonight he was sure he wouldn’t dream about Willow. And even if he did, there would soon be an end to it. After all, he and Buffy had been talking about taking the next step in their relationship. And Buffy had assured him that she would be ready to give herself to him soon. That would surely stop the dreams and fantasies. Angel was sure that once he and Buffy consummated their love, everything would be alright.
The End